"I'm sorry Edward, I can't"
"Can' what?" I asked
"Edward, I can't marry you." This made my head spin, didn't Bella love me? Weren't we destined to be together? What happened to change this? My answer came soon enough.
"I fell in love with Jacob Black while you where away" Was I imagining things or was there another faint, fast heartbeat in the distance? I listened harder and then suddenly it dawned on me. Bella was pregnant. How did this happen? Who was the father? Would she even keep the baby?
"You're….you're….you're" I was at a loss for words.
"Pregnant?" Bella finished for me.
"I'm guessing that I'm not the Father, am I." how stupid could I get, Bella would've accepted my proposal. Oh. My. God. It was Jacobs's baby and that's why she didn't tell me or say "yes". I pinched the bridge of my nose and yet again wondered if it was possible for vampires to get migraines. "It's Jacob's isn't it?" my voice shook as I asked the question I hoped that she would say it wasn't but I knew that it was more than likely that she would say that it was. That STUPID DOG, why did he have to ruin everything? He had already made me think I had lost her. This time when I went to Italy, the Voultori would be merciless and kill me straight away.
"No Edward, the baby's yours." I inwardly smiled but was more confused than happy. If the baby was mine, why won't she marry me?
"Bella, I don't understand, if the baby is mine then why won't you marry me?" I asked utterly bewildered.
"Because I still haven't told anybody, you're the first to know. I also don't know how he will take me being pregnant without the added shock that I will be marrying you as well. That might be just a little too much for him don't you think?" Was her simple reply, not because she didn't love me she just was unsure of her self at the present moment in time.
"EDWARD, EDWARD, EDWARD!" came Alice's voice. She isn't supposed to be here though I broke out of my trance and gave her a 'what did you do that for?' look.
"Edward, Bella's downstairs ….." Bella is here and she still wants to speak to me, Bella still loves me. "… she say that if you ever pull a stunt like that she will hire Emmet to rip you limb from limb."
At this statement I chuckled silently to my self.
"Yes, yes Alice now can you please move, you're blocking the door frame?"
On my way downstairs my mind had only one thought in it. Bella still loved me after I had sol coldly rejected her. I hope that she understands that I just couldn't seal her virtue, I just couldn't. She must think that I don't want her because she is human. She is wrong. I want her, Oh how I want her, but now is not the time. I could kill her.
"Don't worry Edward" came Alice's voice from the stairs. "She isn't here to hurt you, she just wants to…"
I couldn't hear the last bit because Jasper caught me in the hall and sighed.
"Whew you are an emotional wreck right now. If I where you I would calm down before talking to her. But on the other hand your emotions are in better control than Bella's"
"Why what's wrong with her?" I asked Jasper the anxiety that he must be feeling now is probably unbearable.
"Oh nothing at all except for the fact that her hearts just been torn in two just when it was starting to stitch itself back together. Edward listen to me she is really confused. My advice to you is just to lay it all out on the table for her to see. Try to make her see things from your point of view". Jasper is always so nice to me, even when I don't deserve it.
"Thank you Jasper, really from the bottom of my heart thank you"
And then I sped off to see my angel. Although Alice or Jasper didn't tell me where Bella was it was pretty easy to find her even without resorting to using her scent. Her heart was pounding so loudly that if I didn't know her I would've thought that she was about to have a full scale heart attack right on the floor of the living room. When she looked up and saw me one word escaped her lips but so much more was conveyed through her eyes.
she sighed that sigh had so many levels of emotion in it; Love, joy, sadness, rejection and a note that I wasn't familiar to hearing in Bella's voice, Fear. Who knew that one word could convey so much emotion? The world may never know. "Bella, my sweet, sweet Bella"I whispered as I crossed the room and gently cupped her face in my hands. A tear streamed down her face.
"Bella, what's wrong?" I asked I could tell that my voice sounded extremely worried.
"Last night you almost ripped my soul in half just as it was starting to heal. Don't you see that not being with you causes me to become physically sick?" I realized more than she knew. But why couldn't she see that it was so unsafe, if we did anything she could die? It killed me to see her like this.
"I'm sorry Bella but…" I started only to be cut off by her.
"Edward can we go back to my house to talk this over?" she asked.
"Of course we can."