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Life was never easy for me. Well, at least I had things somewhat under control. I had a decent job, a few close friends and my relationship with my family was progressing. I even began attending a church and truly felt that God was what I was missing all along. My life changed drastically when I dedicated my life to Him and I was happy.
Things were great for a while. I was living my life how I always wanted to live. My friends were amazing and I had a blast every time I was with them. I was comforted and loved unconditionally by not only my friends and family, but by God as well. I was protected and taken care of, always. I had it all, but with time, loneliness crept in. I began feeling a longing from deep within that no one was able to fill. No one was able to make me feel whole until I met him; the man that turned my whole world upside down.
I was content with life until I realized what was missing from it: passion; thefeelings that only he brought out of me. He was absolutely perfect in my eyes: romantic, sweet, funny, and always knew what to say or do to make me smile. Anything and everything I wanted, he gave me freely. He had to be the sweetest man I had ever met, but there was one problem - we were too different from each other. Our opinions and the way we looked at the world were too diverse. We couldn't come across a middle ground so I found myself bending to his will.
My common sense abandoned me. The indifference I had with others was nonexistent with him. I usually kept people at a distance to be able to judge their character; and I was unconcerned with whether they stayed or left. But with him everything was different. My whole world revolved around him.
He made me feel beautiful and at peace. Our times together were intimate and quiet at first; but eventually I began to see everything in a different light. It wasn't all just laughter and love anymore. It was soon love mixed with confusion and pain.
He was my light and my darkness; my freedom and my imprisonment. I laughed as much as I cried. I was either with him or feeling alone. My mind was either full of unforgettable memories that I longed for or meaningless thoughts. Nothing was enough anymore. It was either all him or emptiness. There were no more lovely days. Only shadows surrounded me.
He didn't try to change me. His intention was never to ruin or make me think differently, but with time that's what his love did to me. That's what I did to myself. I felt myself going down under. I knew I was going nowhere quickly, but his love was like a drug to me. I couldn't live without him. I wouldn't even think of it as an option. He was mine, and I was his, regardless of the consequences.
He was it for me.
Unfortunately, our perfect relationship went plummeting down. It was the beginning of my end. I was in too deep and there was only one way out.
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