30Dancer: Hey y'all It's the last day of school and my summer starts right now! Yay!^_^ Though I'm going to be busy this summer because I have to get a job. I'm not really happy about that but on well.
Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh. I am only borrowing the characters for my story.
It's like a bad movie
She is lookin' through me
If you were me,
then you'd be Screamin' "Someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She's the girl all the bad guys want!
Girl All The Bad Guys want by Bowling For Soup
Chapter 4
Tea Pov
I sighed, there was still no text from Yami yet. I knew he was awake or he just decided to sleep in late this morning. Maybe he had sent me an email instead? So I went a turned my computer on and started to get ready for my dance class. We had a show in a couple of weeks, I wasn't sure when in a couple of weeks though. I put my black leotard on with my pink pantyhose and a black skirt. I put my ballet shoes in my bag with the rest of my stuff that I needed for that class and went back to my computer.
Yami didn't send me an email either. I felt sort of sad... maybe this is what he felt when I never sent him a message back at all. I felt really horrible, a very very very horrible friend. I couldn't believe I had done this to my best friend who I thought I would never hurt. I was starting to think about skipping class and just go over to his house to see if he was alright but I knew I couldn't do that because if I did then my teacher would give me some type of punishment the next time I would come to class. Specially it would probably be something really hard since our performance wasn't that far away from now.
The clock said that it was only seven in the morning and I knew I had time to spare before I went over to the class. I turned my TV on to a cartoon show. I was lucky that it was Tom and Jerry. I loved that cartoon show so much it was ridicules...at least I wasn't obsessed with it to the point where I had stuff animals and stuff like kids do. Besides Tom and Jerry and Loony Tunes where the best cartoons ever made. I couldn't explain how they were the best but they just were.
I looked at my phone to see if there was any text message sent, just in case if I didn't hear it ring, and saw nothing. I sighed again. I just wished he would text me back then again I deserved this. As I thought about it, as well, Jeff hasn't texted me either... then again he was now and hour behind me now since he was in New Orleans. I put my phone on silent and put it in my bag with the rest of my stuff.
I took out a granola bar out of my bag and took a bite out of it since I hadn't had breakfast yet. I would get something to drink when I leave the dorm but I had just realized that the breakfast place wouldn't be open till nine and I would be practicing then. Ugh I wished they would have had practice tonight and not in the morning. This was why I hated morning practices was getting up early and not getting to eat breakfast at the right time. I threw the wrapper in the trash and went back to Tom and Jerry. Tom was chasing Jerry again since Jerry was trying to get a piece of cheese.
Then a thought occurred to me from last night when Jeff said he thought Yami liked me. I have no idea why that popped in my head but it did. Yami was my best friend and like a brother right? I mean I didn't like him like that, maybe when I first met him yeah (I never admit that to anyone but yes I did like him a lot when I first met him but him and Ashley were going out and it sort of went back into the back of my head after awhile) but not now...right? I was in love with Jeff not Yami. I couldn't believe I was thinking this and Jeff would say something about that to me...Maybe he thought I liked him too since Yami is my best friend and I hate going a day without talking to him (well before these last three weeks). I know I should probably have a very long and serious talk with Jeff if he was going to test our relationship on this...which I'm sure this is what it is about. I couldn't wait for him to come back so we can talk about this. I just wish Jeff wasn't so controlling sometimes, which he sort of controlled me these last three weeks on not seeing Yami but then again I could have told Jeff off and went and see Yami. So I couldn't blame anything else but myself...right or could I blame Jeff?
I looked at the clock to see that it was almost time for me to go. I grabbed the remote and turned the television off. I grabbed my bag and locked the door behind me as I left my dorm room. It was really quiet in the hall ways of the girls dorm but it was nice since usually, during the day, it was really noisy and it used to get on my nerves most of the time. Of course I never really paid much attention to it after I got used to it.
The first day we, Yami, Tristan, and I, it was crazy. It felt like a very busy crowed train station and we kept on bumping into people, but they were also moving in as well that day so it was more busier than usual too. Also one of the people that was in the boys' dorm rooms tried to steal Yami's iPod that day and let's just say that the guy never bothered Yami again. Joey laughed about that when we had told him on what had happened. I missed the days when we were all a lot more closer then we were now...besides Yami and I's friendship was the strongest out of us four but with the way things were going between us I didn't know how we stood between each other.
I just hoped when I get back from class he will text me or call me or something to make sure he's okay.
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Dance was okay. I didn't have time to think about Yami much. If I wasn't dancing or moving around my mind drifted back to Yami and what Jeff had said about him. I knew at first the two had liked each other and the next thing I know they hate each other. I wonder why men were like this? I wish they were on the same page that I was on but then again people have said before that men and women think differently. Sometimes I wished we (as people in general) was on the same page but then the whole world would be dull. So I guess that's why we all think differently...right?
The dance performance, which I found out, was going to be postpone due to stage stuff that wasn't in yet or needed to be fixed. Let's just say that our director was really mad about that but it did gave us more time to work on what we needed to work on. That also meant though that we were going to have even longer and more practices starting next week. So that meant that I wasn't going to see my friends or Jeff a lot again.. Especially my friends. I was so mad about that but I wasn't going to say anything to them till I knew what times or what days. Someone would think that the director would have already known about the days and times but nooo he did not. So now I was stuck on not planning on making things up for Yami all the next couple of weeks and spending time with Jeff. I knew Jeff was going to be mad but at least I knew Yami was going to be more understanding since he knew how much dance was important to me.
Another thought had popped into my head. It was about Jeff asking me about moving in with him. I wonder why he ask that when he knew I was going to say no. I mean I didn't know if he did but I knew that he knew that I wanted to finish college first before I did anything like that. I also still wonder why Yami's thoughts on Jeff about him hurting me crossed my mind too. I knew Jeff wouldn't hurt me...well I didn't think he would. I know he was over controlling but that didn't mean that he would hurt someone unless they got on his bad side. I never seen that side of him and I'm the one that is by him most of the time, well besides his friends and the funny thing was I never met his friends either. I never told Yami, Joey, or Tristan that. Maybe it had something to do with Yami about him liking me. Maybe he just wanted me to move in with him so that he could watch over me and make sure that I wouldn't do anything with Yami...though that is stupid because I'm not one of those girls that cheats on their partners. That made me mad. I mean why would he do that if he knew I wouldn't cheat on him? Or he was really in love with me like I was him and really wanted me to move in because of that. I shook my head. I really needed to stop thinking about this though with my luck right now I knew that was not going to happen.
I opened my door to my bedroom. I put my things down and checked my phone to see if there was any text message or call that I missed. There was none...not from Yami or Jeff. I hoped Jeff wasn't mad at me for last night. I sighed. Oh well if he was...I was just going to keep my attention to Yami today and after that I will go back to him but for now all Yami.
I sat down on my bed with my phone still in my hand when it started to ring. I looked at the ID and saw that it was Yami. I smiled and quickly answered it after my shock that he called me.
"Hello!" I said quickly before he could hang up.
"Hey Tea. Long time it feels like that since the last time I saw or talked to you." He told me. I could tell that he was really glad that I had answered the phone.
"Yeah about that Yami, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to let this happen. Can I make it up to you?" I asked him. Hoping he would say yes.
"Of course you can make it up to me though you don't have to." He was giving me a choice. I rolled my eyes. It was typical of him to do this. He knew my answer already...I hope he did. I just hope I hadn't lost his trust in me.
"I want to. So since I just got out of practice would you like to go out for lunch with me?" I really wanted him to come with me and talk about stuff that we haven't talked about. Like family, friends, and what he had been up to. Though he didn't answer for a bit and I was beginning to worry. I was about to say something but he beat me to it.
"Jeff isn't going to be there is he?" He asked worriedly. When he asked that I knew he did not want Jeff anywhere near him today.
"No, he's in New Orleans. And why would I let him come with us if I have to make things right with you?" He didn't answer for a bit again and I wonder if he was thinking and forgetting about answering me. I hope he didn't get into much into his thoughts that he would forget I was there. That never happened before but there was always chance for first things to come...if you know what I mean.
"Okay I'll go then. Though I have to be back at the house by two...unless you want to come to work with me since I work at three." He said teasingly.
"Hmmm I don't know Yami...Me sitting at the bar while you work seems pretty boring and I could distract you from working so...um No. I don't want to go because I really don't want to sit there at a bar and be tempted to drink. Though I will take that offer up one of these days though Yami." I said teasingly and smiled. It was nice talking to him like this.
"Are you sure? Because the drinks I can get off with my discount for working there." I laughed and rolled my eyes.
"I'm sure. So I'll see you when you get here. So that means leave right now Mister." I said getting up so I could get dressed.
"Yes ma'am" He said in the most southern accent I ever heard him say.
"Bye Yami!" I said to him before I could laugh aloud at his silliness. I also didn't hear him say goodbye since I hung up when I started to laugh.
After my laughing fit, I hurried to get dressed, I grabbed the first things that touched my hands which were denim shorts and a blue thank top. I hurried and started to brush my hair, I noticed that it was a bit longer now but no one would notice it since it wasn't much of a difference. I put my wallet and my phone and other things into my purse that I had put into my dance bag.
By the time I was done I hurried outside to see Yami, in his black mustang, sitting there. It must have not been that long thought of him sitting there. I went and got into his car. We didn't say anything to each other till I broke the silence.
"I'm sorry Yami."
"Sorry for what?" He ask. When I had got into the car he seemed tense but now he seemed to relax a bit. I hope the tension wasn't because of me.
"For being a jerk to you and not answering anything that you sent me." I looked down so my hair could shield my eyes from him. I didn't want him to see me trying not to cry. I didn't know why my eyes started to water.
"Hey, it's okay….just don't do it again okay? I was worried and I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore…which is a stupid excuse but-" I didn't let him finish the sentence and hug him as tight as I could. I hoped it didn't affect his driving but I didn't care at that moment. I felt one of his arms snake around me and hugged me. I smiled and I was glad that my tears didn't come at that moment since they were now gone... which I was glad they were gone.
"I am so sorry Yami. I promise on my life I won't do this again to you, okay? I promise you that." I told him as I sat back down in my seat. I was looking at him and he smiled a smile I never seen before...No.. I have seen it but it seemed different. It was like the one he used to give Ashley but different than that. I couldn't explain it. Was Jeff right about Yami liking me? When he looked back at the road I shook my head. He couldn't be right.
"It's okay Tea, I promise. Just stop saying that you're sorry okay?"
"Okay." We went back into silence and the car noises was all I could hear. We didn't even have the radio one which would have been nice...then again this silence wasn't an awkward silence though. It was a nice silence.
"So where are we going?" Yami said breaking the silence.
"How about the mall? So we can play around and eat there?" He nodded. I loved the mall. Not because of the shopping but because you could hang out with your friends and do almost anything you wanted. Though we did get kicked out once just because of Joey's and Tristan's stupidity.
"So Yami," I said, I wanted to see the reaction on his face on how he did during the weeks that I didn't talk to him. I felt bad about it and I probably wouldn't like on what I heard. Just I wanted to see if Jeff was right about him liking me. "What did you feel toward me while I didn't talk to you and what have you done the last three weeks?" He sighed. I didn't think he was happy that I asked but I had to know.
"Well, listening to Joey and work. That's about all I did. I mean I'm still waiting on a call from the photography place so I've been low on money because of that but at the bar at the restaurant I'm still getting money and that's place has been good, and the listening to Joey part sucks. Without Tristan there Joey is like a different and smarter person and I'm about to kill him because of it. I'm just so glad Tristan came back last night so now I won't have to kill one of my best friends." I laughed at him about killing Joey part.
"That's got to be funny living with Joey when he's like that. So how is Tristan doing?" I watched him shrug his shoulders as if he didn't know what was going on with Tristan.
"He's doing okay. Just family problems on his mom's side of the family right now but besides that he's good. He also gave us some money last night, which I don't like of him to do but since me and Joey are in a situation with money I guess it's okay for now. Ya know?" I nodded but I knew he didn't see me.
"Well you know what else I know?" This time he did look at me and I put a teasing smile on my face.
"And what's that?"
"You didn't tell me how you felt the whole time I didn't talk to you." I folded my arms so that he knew I wasn't happy about him avoiding that part of the question.
His hands gripped the stirring wheel. It looked a bit pain full. "Well," He paused. "I was depressed since this was the first time I didn't get to see or talk to you for three weeks. I became mad as well since it could be simple to text me or email me telling me that you were going to be busy and not be able to do see me or talk to me. I would have been fine with that but you left me there hanging on a cliff because I thought you didn't want to talk to me either." It looked like he was trying to hide something from me and I felt a bit offended. Then again I did deserve it but still, it hurt. It also looked like he was having a battle with in himself.
"I really am sorry Yami, and I know you told me to stop saying sorry but I really am. I am going to make it up to you don't worry, and I won't ever make you feel like that again." He nodded but he seemed like he didn't trust me and then again he did.
When we reached the mall we got out of his car and headed to the doors to the mall. Yami opened the door for me so I could walk in first. "Why thank you, you nice gentlemen."
"You're welcome my lady." We both started to laugh as we walked in.
I tried on a lot of clothes while we were there and Yami decided to be funny and mess around and I decided to join him. It was the best fun I had in a long time with him. It reminded me all the fun stuff we did years ago. Not that we didn't do anything fun now but it was refreshing. We talked about family and original stuff like that. He never did ask me about Jeff and I never said word about him either. Couple of times he tried to tell me something and I wasn't even for sure what it was but he either got distracted or said something else to avoid the topic. After we got food at the food court in the mall we went to his car so that he could take me back to the dorms.
"So how are you and Jeff doing?" He asked me when he started the car. I thought of last night between me and Jeff.
"We've been doing okay but we got into a fight last night." I told him honestly.
"What happened?"
"Well we were at the restaurant that you worked at and I saw you and he got mad and we got into a fight on who I could or shouldn't hang out with and I told him that it wasn't far that I couldn't see y'all and he could see his friends and it just hurt fighting with him but I'm glad that I could say that to his face so he knows that he can't control me. He told me he was sorry but he hasn't called me all day."
"I'm sorry Tea that happened to you." I looked at him when he said that and he seemed to look different. That same look he would give Ashley. I had almost forgot about what Jeff said about Yami last night since I was having a lot of fun.
"It's okay Yami."
"Just watch your back okay? I just don't want you to get hurt." I glared at him. He was way over protective sometimes.
"Not this again Yami? He's not going to hurt me." He rolled his eyes at me.
"He might or might not hurt you but for me, please be safe?" He told me as we pulled into the Harvard parking lot. I sighed.
"Okay, I will. You'll be the first to know if something bad happens. Okay?" He nodded.
"Hey Tea before you go I-" There it was again. Him trying to say something to me and couldn't. " I hope everything will go okay from here." He smiled at me but it was a fake one. I didn't want to ask why he gave me a fake smile so I just nodded and closed the car door. As I walked I decided that Yami did not like me like Jeff liked me. He only liked me as a best friend or sister.
Yami Pov
I really hate it when people leave messes in your house and they don't pick it up. I mean how hard is it to fucking pick up something and throw it away? Not very hard at all. I know Joey lives here and Tristan is one of my best friends but they could at least pick stuff up. I was going to have a very long talk with them…..a LONG one. I might start out being nice then yell at them to pick all of their shit up because I was tired of picking all of their stuff up when they got this lazy. Ugh! I knew I probably shouldn't be mad at them like this but my OCD was acting up big time and I still haven't heard from Tea…well I haven't checked my phone or email yet, but I didn't want to have my hopes up.
I really needed to tell Tea how I feel for her or if I didn't I was going to fucking die…Well not really die but with my OCD like it is yeah I felt like I was dying. I had tone of chances over the years to tell her how I feel but it's really hard to tell your best friend that you are in love with them because; One: If they don't feel the same for you they will ignore you for the rest of your life Two: Things get really awkward between you and the other person. Three: If they feel the same for you but they don't want to go out with you at the moment then over time they will forget about you and you end up getting hurt. Four: They don't feel the same for you but feel bad about hurting you and go ahead and go out with you then you're just going to get hurt that way. I don't know if these are stupid damn excuses on asking her out or telling her how I feel. Then again Ashley made me feel like this though. If she had never hurt me I don't think I would be so cautious about telling Tea. I mean I trust Tea so much but from pass experiences even the nicest person can hurt you even without meaning to.
Sometimes I wonder if I did tell Tea about my feelings back in high school if things would be different now. If our relationship would last, she probably wouldn't be going out with that bastard Jeff, if we would be happy or not, if she would be living with me and not the dorms, if we would already be married or not, and other things that I cannot think of at the moment. Things like this usually cross my mind every day even if I don't realize it they do. I also wonder if I think about Tea way too much. I don't mind thinking about her but is it normal for a person to think about another person a lot like I have. All I have to say to myself is that things happen for a reason right? Though I don't even know what half of these reasons are specially the ones that evolves Tea.
Then there is the situation that I believe that Jeff is going to hurt Tea. Joey thinks I'm over reacting and Tea says Jeff won't hurt her. I mean I thought you are supposed to believe your best friend on stuff like this or at least be cautious about it. Then again what happens if I really am over reacting? Though I got Jeff to admit, when he was drunk, that all he wanted from Tea is sex. Maybe he was just too drunk? No…he wasn't that drunk since if he was that drunk to say something stupid then he wouldn't have driven home that night. Tell ya the truth I really don't know what to think anymore. Maybe I should ask Tristan on what he fucking thinks about this.
I threw the last pop can away and looked around the nice looking living room and the kitchen from where I stood. From the way it looked earlier it looked like a tornado had just gone through the house, now it just looked almost bran new besides the cracks in the ceiling. I haven't really paid much attention to those cracks but I knew we needed to get that fixed soon. The cracks could be a really bad thing, like the floor coming down bad, or it could be nothing at all but I didn't want to take my chances. If the floor did come down then that would have a lot more money go into it then it would now. So I would have Joey call someone to have it fixed when he got home….then again how would we get the money? Ugh! I wish that the photography company I worked for would call because that would get me a lot of money that I don't fucking have.
I started to walk toward the stairs till I looked at Joey's closed bedroom door. I don't know why but I always looked at his room every time I walk up the stairs. Probably because it was always fucking messy. Since my OCD has been acting up so much that I was smart this morning on closing his door without looking at it. Sometimes I wonder how he hasn't found rats, or snakes, or something dead in his room yet since it smelled so bad. I shivered. I just didn't know how he lived like that. If I didn't live with him I wonder what would happen to the house? I didn't even want to know. Maybe if I yelled at him even more, after the whole picking your own stuff up after you make messes, he would know how to pick up his room right and not have it like that. When it came to me and my OCD I felt more like a parent scolding a child when it came to cleaning up. I hated it but it was just the way I am.
When I got to my room I turned my computer on and decided to check my phone. When I picked up my phone I had gotten this feeling. Like a feeling where you text someone something important and they text you back and that feeling eating you up before you click on the message on what they said. Well I felt like that but usually every time I text her recently I was disappoint each time that she didn't text me. This time though when I clicked on my phone it was one new message from Tea. I felt really happy that she texted me back and curios on what she sent me.
Hey Yami, I'm really sorry for not texting you or emailing you back or calling you. I am very very very very very very sorry. I did not mean for this to happen. I will try and make this up to you as much as I can. I have not been a very good Best Friend to you either. I hope you forgive me.
I stared at what she text me for a very long time. Well it felt like a long time. I thought I would be really happy that she texted me back but I felt depressed and angered. I mean yeah I was happy that she text me back but depressed and angered that she could have at least told me why she couldn't text me or at least she could have warned me that she wouldn't be able to text me. I put my phone down not wanting to text Tea back at that moment. I went into my bathroom and turned the water on in the shower. After the water got to the right temperature I took my clothes off and stepped into the shower.
Maybe she was just really busy and couldn't even touch the phone but I bet if Jeff had text her she would have texted him. I shook my head. I didn't want to feel jealous toward Jeff but I was. He took the girl that I liked away from me on asking her, he gets to kiss her and I don't, he gets to do almost everything with her and I don't. So yeah I was jealous. I just didn't know how long this jealousy will last. Probably till they break up…which I was hoping they would. I know I was being selfish but at that very moment I just wanted Tea to myself. I wanted to kiss her, hold her hand, be a very romantic guy toward her. I also wanted to protect her from all the bad people out there like Jeff even if she doesn't believe me I knew he would hurt her. I just hope if he does hurt her that she will be strong unlike me when it came to Ashley. I wasn't strong toward that break up I was weak but she helped me. And I hoped that she will let me help her if this does happen which I'm sure it will.
I wanted to punch the wall of the shower because I was so fucking jealous of him. Did I have a right to be jealous like this toward him since he made his move before I did? I didn't know if I had the right but I still was. I also wanted to sit there and cry too because Tea couldn't even text me at all not even one text just because she was busy. I would understand if her phone died or something but just one simple little text saying she was going to be busy, something like that, so I wouldn't be feeling like this now. Then again for the longest time we used to see each other every day till the week before her birthday I didn't get to see her and now where it's been three weeks. It was starting to take a toll on me. Was this one of those things that they say everything happens for a reason? Then what in the world is that reason? I would love to know. For some reason I felt like I was being cheated.
I stepped out of the shower and dried myself with a towel and then I wrapped the towel around my lower body. I had to quit thinking about that situation so I put my mind and my body on auto pilot. It's where I don't think at all, I just do things. So I did my normal stuff in the mornings without thinking. I brushed my teeth, my hair, put on deodorant, got dressed, and put cologne on. I didn't even see what I had put on but I really didn't care but when I did look to see what I had put on it was black jeans, a muscle shirt, a jacket, a belt like chocker, a belt that had a skull on it, and shoes. Yes these things were all black. I guess people could guess my mood by what I was wearing.
The computer, I noticed, was on. I had forgotten that I had turned it on so I went over to it and sat down. I logged on to my email on yahoo and saw that I had several emails. One from my Dad saying how stupid his brother was and that he was sorry ranting to me but he needed to get it off of his chest. Another from my brother about his wonderful night with his girlfriend. Also one from my Mom asking what type of food we wanted for thanksgiving (I thought it was funny that our family always had to plan thanksgiving way ahead of schedule). Then the last one was from Tea. It took me about five minutes to open it, it had said the same thing in the text she had sent me. I didn't reply back. I logged out; grabbing my phone I went down stairs.
I sat down on the couch with the phone in my hands. I clicked on contacts and was about to call Tea but a wave of nervousness, for some reason, washed over me. Well not really nervousness that I couldn't talk to her, it was a nervousness of what we were going to talk about. I hoped it didn't turn out in an argument because I never been in an argument with her before...It scared me on what one word or a conversation could do to people. I pushed the back/end button on the phone and put it on the table next to the couch. I grabbed the remote and turned the television on.
It wasn't that I didn't want to talk to Tea, I just hoped I didn't say I liked her over the phone. I mean yeah I want to tell her but when she already has a stupid ass boyfriend, which makes me mad once again, it's sort of hard to tell her. Though maybe I just should and see what she says? I decided I would do that over the phone...no I would rather do it in person. Now the only thing to do, if I do this, is get over being a chicken. I grabbed the phone again and was about to dial her number when nerves got to me again. What happens if she goes and does something with the reason I thought of earlier on why I didn't say anything to her yet? I so wished this was much more simpler then what it was or what I was making it of. I put the phone back down and went into the kitchen to get a drink.
Orange juice was one of my favorite drinks. If I could I would drink it all the time. The funny thing was, was that I hated oranges but the juice of oranges was the bomb. I drink every last drop of the orange juice that was in the glass and then I got some pop-tarts and ate them. They were blue berry flavor, which is my favorite flavor. After I ate I realized that was my first meal of the day. I felt like I could think better with food down my system. I washed the glass out and put it in the dish washer. This was one of the things that I needed to teach Joey and Tristan (when he is over) to put things in the dish washer so I wouldn't have to do it myself.
I went back and sat down on the couch, I looked at the clock to see it say ten in the morning. I sighed. I knew Tea's school schedule, which I just forgot in till now, and she only had one class today and that was her Dance class. They either have dance in the morning or in the afternoon to practice for their routines. So I was going to have to take my chance and hopefully she will answer...if not I'll just text her after I hang up when she doesn't answer.
I dialed the number to Tea's number and the phone rang in my ears. I was about to hang up when I heard a hello in the phone. I smiled forgetting I was mad at her.
"Hey Tea. Long time it feels like that since the last time I saw or talked to you." I told her.
"Yeah about that Yami, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to let this happen. Can I make it up to you?" She asked me.
"Of course you can make it up to me though you don't have to." I said giving her a choice. I didn't know why I was giving her a choice but I was.
"I want to. So since I just got out of practice would you like to go out for lunch with me?" I could tell she really wanted me to go out with her but I let it set in the air for a moment pretending I was thinking. Of course my answer was going to be a yes but a thought had accrued to me. What about Jeff?
"Jeff isn't going to be there is he?" I asked worriedly. I so did not want him there.
"No, he's in New Orleans. And why would I let him come with us if I have to make things right with you?" I felt relived. I was so glad he wasn't going to be there. Was it right for me to feel relieved that he wasn't going to be there? Well I didn't care at that moment. I was glad that I was going to get her by herself. Then the nerves got to me again. Was I ready to tell her how I felt? No...I don't think I was but I was going to have to try, hopefully she will see that maybe she liked me too.
"Okay I'll go then. Thought I have to be back at the house by two...unless you want to come to work with me since I work at three." I said teasingly. Though I wasn't lying about work, just teasing her on coming with me.
"Hmmm I don't know Yami...Me sitting at the Bar while you work seems pretty boring and I could distract you from working so...um No. I don't want to go because I really don't' want to sit there at a Bar and be tempted to drink. Though I will take that offer up one of these days though Yami." I could see her smile through the words she had said.
"Are you sure? Because the drinks I can get off with my discount for working there." She laughed
"I'm sure. So I'll see you when you get here. So that means leave right now Mister."
"Yes ma'am" I said in the most southern accent I could get out.
"Bye Yami."
"Bye!" I said but she had already hung up.
I hoped I got more answers when I picked her up. So with that in mind I went and got my keys, I didn't bother turning my computer off when I got my keys in my room, and my wallet and went out the door to my black mustang outside. How much I loved that car, it's…well I don't know how to explain it…it was amazing and that's all I have to say.
The traffic wasn't as bad as it was yesterday but then again it was earlier then two, when I left yesterday. I pulled into Harvard's parking lot and parked in front of Tea's dorm. I waited for a couple of minutes, she really didn't give me any time to think at all, before she came out. I saw her in denim shorts and a blue tank top that matched her eyes. Though her eyes were a lot more beautiful than her tank top. She opened the car door and got into the seat gracefully and shut the door. I put the car in reverse and took off back into the traffic.
We didn't say anything for a few minutes till she said she was sorry.
"Sorry for what?" I ask completely forgetting about me being mad at her and the whole situation itself. The reason why well it was because she was now in the car with me.
"For being a jerk to you and not answering anything that you sent me." Her brown hair covered her face where I couldn't see her eyes. I sighed as all the anger I had come through me. I shook my head and sighed.
"Hey, it's okay….just don't do it again okay? I was worried and I thought you didn't want to talk to me anymore…which is a stupid excuse but-" I never got to finish my sentence. I felt her hug me…a crushing one. Try to hug and drive at the same time, it's hard but it was nice to since Tea was hugging me and not what's his face( I so do not want to think about him right now). Also it felt nice because I hadn't got to see her or talk to her in three weeks and it made me happy that she hugged me….I just hope we didn't crash. So I hugged her back with one arm and the other on the wheel.
"I am so sorry Yami. I promise on my life I won't do this again to you okay? I promise you that." She told me as she got back into her seat. I smiled at her and then put my eyes back on the road.
"It's okay Tea, I promise. Just stop saying that you're sorry okay?" I told her.
"Okay." We were quiet for a bit before I realized I didn't know what we were doing yet.
"So where are we going?" I asked her.
"How about the mall? So we can play around and eat there?" I nodded, it sounded like a fun idea. When we were bored back in high school we would used to go to the mall and fool around…we got kicked out once…let's just go with that.
"So Yami," I looked over at her as she looked at me, she seemed to be thinking and looking more confused than I have ever seen her before. I wonder what was up with her but I would ask her later once we get to the mall that is. " What did you feel toward me while I didn't talk to you and what have you done the last three weeks?" I sighed…why the hell did she ask me that?
"Well, listening to Joey and work. That's about all I did. I mean I'm still waiting on a call from the photography place so I've been low on money because of that but at the bar at the restaurant I'm still getting money and that's place has been good, and the listening to Joey part sucks. Without Tristan there Joey is like a different and smarter person and I'm about to kill him because of it. I'm just so glad Tristan came back last night so now I won't have to kill one of my best friends." She laughed at me.
"That's got to be funny living with Joey when he's like that. So how is Tristan doing?" I shrugged my shoulders.
"He's doing okay. Just family problems on his mom's side of the family right now but besides that he's good. He also gave us some money last night, which I don't like of him to do but since me and Joey are in a situation with money I guess it's okay for now. Ya know?"
"Well you know what else I know?" I looked at her again and she had this teasing smile on her face.
"And what's that?" I asked her.
"You didn't tell me how you felt the whole time I didn't talk to you." She folded her arms.
My hands on the stirring wheel tightened. "Well," I said trying to think the best way to put it. "I was depressed since this was the first time I didn't get to see or talk to you for three weeks. I became mad as well since it could be simple to text me or email me telling me that you were going to be busy and not be able to see me or talk to me. I would have been fine with that but you left me there hanging on a cliff because I thought you didn't want to talk to me either." I didn't tell her about my OCD acting up though…I didn't want her to know about that. Don't ask me why because I didn't know myself. I also didn't tell her the jealousy I felt toward her retarded boyfriend. The reason why I didn't say anything like that was well because that could cause some problems. Though it would have helped in explaining my feelings toward her but I didn't want to chance that.
"I really am sorry Yami, and I know you told me to stop saying sorry but I really am. I am going to make it up to you don't worry, and I won't ever make you feel like that again." Somehow I knew she would keep that promise but then half of me said she wouldn't…as long as Jeff was around, and if he was making her do things, then how can I trust her. I shook my head mentally. Why am I thinking like that? I have always trusted Tea with my life…why was I thinking as if she was going to hurt me herself? Well, probably because she had already hurt you. I thought. Yeah she hurt me but she promised me that she wasn't going to do it again. I think it was weird having a conversation to myself in my head. Very weird.
We got out my car and headed to the doors to the mall. I opened the door so she could walk in first. "Why thank you, you nice gentlemen." Tea put on her best smile she could.
"You're welcome my lady." We both started to laugh as we walked in.
The first thing we did was her trying on clothes and messing around. It was fun. Then we went around the mall looking at things and talking. We really didn't talk about Jeff at all which was weird because she would at least say something about him but I didn't ask her about it. I was just too happy at that moment to ruin it. I even tried several times to tell her about my feelings but either I got distracted or I was too much of a chicken to say it and I would say something else. When we got back in the car with food from the food court, which we weren't supposed to bring food out of the food court but we did anyways. After I ate and drove at the same time I decided I would ask her about Jeff.
"So how are you and Jeff doing?" I asked her. I saw the hurt look in her eyes and I regretted it.
"We've been doing okay but we got into a fight last night."
"What happened?"
"Well we were at the restaurant that you worked at and I saw you and he got mad and we got into a fight on who I could or shouldn't hang out with and I told him that it wasn't far that I couldn't see y'all and he could see his friends and it just hurt fighting with him but I'm glad that I could say that to his face so he knows that he can't control me. He told me he was sorry but he hasn't called me all day."
"I'm sorry Tea that happened to you." I told her…I did feel sorry but I didn't feel sorry for that jackass.
"It's okay Yami."
"Just watch your back okay? I just don't want you to get hurt." I felt her glare on me.
"Not this again Yami? He's not going to hurt me." I rolled my eyes.
"He might or might not hurt you but for me please be safe?" I said to her as we pulled up into the Harvard parking lot. She sighed.
"Okay, I will. You'll be the first to know if something bad happens. Okay?" I nodded.
"Hey Tea before you go I-" She looked at me curiously. I couldn't get out the words of my confession to her…I didn't know why but I couldn't. " I hope everything will go okay from here." I said smiling though it wasn't a true smile. She nodded and shut the car door behind her. Once I couldn't see her anymore I hit my head on the steering wheel so hard that it hurt.
"I'm so fucking stupid! Why can't I just fucking tell her!"
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Dancer: Tea fails to recognize his huge crush on her and Yami still can't tell her his feelings. I am very mean to them as you may notice. Also only one more chapter before the thanksgiving chapter( which might be in two parts I'm not sure yet depends on how long I want it).
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