Hi guys. This is a story I've been working on for a while. I hope you enjoy it!
I knew exactly what Godric was planning to do, when he'd told me to meet him up on the hotel roof. It was close to dawn and there was only one explanation for it. He actually was about to meet the sun … on his own free will. Finally everything he'd said before at the meeting, his whole behavior … the melancholy he had been in since we had come back from the Fellowship of the Sun church made total sense to me …
I strongly hoped I was wrong with my conclusion … and if I wasn't, I was damn sure I would be able to talk him out of this madness. I quickly claimed the last flight of stairs, finally reaching the roof. Godric stood with his back to me, looking to the east. I could already feel the impending rise of the sun.
"Why are you doing this, Godric?" I asked, incredulously. I still couldn't get my head around this. It made no sense to me at all.
"Two thousand years is enough." Godric gave me as an answer, probably thinking that explanation would make it easier for me to comprehend his decision. Like that was a good enough reason for what he was about to do. Maybe it was for him, but not for me …
"I can't accept this. It's insanity!" I exclaimed, shaking with anger … and fear, because I could feel the gravity behind his words.
"Our existence is insanity. We don't belong here." Godric replied in a calm, but resolved voice.
"But we are here!" I barked back, not just to state the obvious, but because I didn't know what else to say. I was confused, and too scared to think clearly.
"It's not right. We're not right." he responded, still calm.
"You taught me there is no right or wrong. Only survival … or death." I reminded him stubbornly.
"I told a lie, as it turns out." His voice was grave, layered with ancient grief and regret. This wasn't the Godric I knew. What had happened to the strong vampire he had been when we'd first met? The vampire before me now was weak … he cared about humans … I couldn't understand this change in him. What made him act this way all of a sudden?
"I will keep you alive by force." I threatened, desperately grasping at straws. I knew perfectly well that I didn't have the strength to overpower him as he was twice my age … but I would try despite that. He was my maker, and I couldn't let him do this. I would stop him, whatever the cost.
"Even if you could, why would you be so cruel?" His words cut me deep, and I finally grasped that there was nothing I could say or do to change his mind.
"Godric, don't do this." I pleaded with him, my voice breaking.
"There are centuries of faith and love between us." He reminded me softly of what we had shared, which made it that much worse for me.
"Please, please …" I begged him under tears, sinking on my knees. "Please, Godric."
"Father … brother … son." Godric said. I recognized the words at once; they were the same ones he had spoken right before he had changed me. "Let me go."
The calmness in his request made me stop crying, it was somehow sobering. In this moment I made a strange decision … one I knew I would never consider under normal circumstances.
"I won't let you die alone." I stated with total conviction.
"Yes, you will." Godric disagreed, and his rejection of my offer to die with him brought new tears to my eyes. Why won't he let me do it? Godric laid his hand in a very humanly way on my head, trying to soothe my pain. I lifted my head up, looking him in his eyes. There was no indecision, no fear in them, only resolution and sympathy for my pain.
"As your maker … I command you." He said, slightly smiling.
Godric knew that I needed this order from him, to keep me from joining him in his final death. The full meaning of his words finally sank in … he was actually releasing me.
As much as it pained me, this was his final wish and I would follow it … to honor him, and our long relationship. I stood up, and without a last word of goodbye I turned my back on him, ready to leave him.
Then I saw Sookie standing at the end of the stairway. Her presence wasn't a complete surprise for me, because I had - only unconsciously though - noticed that someone else had been up here with us the whole time, but hadn't cared to check who it was. I'd only sensed that it had been someone who wasn't a vampire, and that whoever it was hadn't meant us any harm. On the contrary, the person had felt almost the same way as I did.
Now, seeing Sookie, it all made sense. She had some of my blood in her, and I was able to sense her emotions. After what I'd done to her earlier, I was a little surprised, that she actually felt compassion for me. But there was no time to ponder over this, the sun was about to rise.
I glanced back at Godric one last time, seeing him facing the east. He looked so peaceful. Sookie grabbed my hand, drawing my attention back to her.
"I'll stay with him," she promised me, her tone of voice soft and caring. "As long as it takes."
I didn't know what to say in response, so I just nodded. I was grateful that my maker didn't have to be alone in the end, but I'd never pictured Sookie to be the one to do it. Sookie and I shared one last look, then I made my way downstairs, and she joined Godric on the centre of the rooftop.
All I wanted now was going back to my suite and mourn. But I didn't make it that far. And the end of the staircase the force of my pain of losing my maker and a friend made my knees buckle, and I sank to the floor. I was still in earshot, so I was able hear the conversation between Sookie and Godric.
A/N Good or bad? Tell me what you think. Next Chapter will be up tomorrow.