Tried to write a sequel to this and never got past chapter one. So instead it becomes an epilogue
Lucky You Have Me
"Don't you dare ever stop," she said, the words gasped out right before she moaned into his ear. The double meaning in them was not lost on him. She felt him smirk against her neck as he slowed down his strokes.
Her nails clawed his back as they made love against the marble tile of his shower.
She had jumped back into a romantic relationship with him without thinking twice. Carly didn't see that there was any other way to go. If she hesitated for just a second, asked too many questions, showed her concerns on her face for a minute too long then Jason might go and change his mind about them being together again.
She couldn't risk that. Wouldn't dare. She had to gather all her faith and place it in his hands, which was second nature anyway, and believe he knew what he was doing when he asked her to be his again. That he knew nothing but spending the rest of their lives together would be enough for her.
Anything less would make everything inside of her shatter. Slowly, over years and years, she had let herself believe he would never be hers in this way again...and now that he wanted to be...she couldn't imagine what it would feel like if he dared tried to walk away from them another time.
He won't do that to me, she told herself, as she clung to him desperately in the shower, him moving deep inside of her, condom forgotten.
Maybe that was all the proof she needed that Jason was in this with all his heart this time.
Tears streamed down her face, mixed with the water cascading over them, as they made love slowly but with fierce need. They way she held him was so tight he would complain if all his nerve endings weren't concentrated in a different place at that particular moment. Every time that he thrust into her it was like going home again, going right back to the best feeling he had ever known and finding out that place was even better now.
No longer did fear hold him prisoner. No longer was he a fraud who was hoping that she didn't notice he had no idea what he was doing when it came to almost everything. No longer was he making it up as he went along- trying to figure out how to take care of her right in and out of the bed room. Yeah, back in the day, they were fire between the sheets, and in those moments his brain shut off to anything but being buried between her thighs, but afterwards he would lay there and be confused about everything.
The confusion was gone. The boy he was had grown into a man and this man finally knew he could be all this woman needed.
It was just about proving that to her now. Jason knew Carly still had her fears. And he knew it was going to take more than a few hours of being together to stomp them out of her. It might take months. Maybe years.
But he wasn't running away just cause she couldn't promise to always be perfect and always do what he wanted. He had learned that she would do what she did but she would always stand up for him, their family, and be ready to fight to the death for them. Jason didn't need more than that.
He didn't need to know for sure there wouldn't be any pain coming in the future. He knew there would be. There always was. But having her with him in this way would make the pain worth it.
And make the pain disappear quicker when it did hit them. Cause making love with Carly healed so much that nothing else ever could.
When he came inside of her he knew just what he was doing. Though it was way too soon for giving her that last dream that she had sown into her heart- and though he'd use condoms again in the days to come- right here and right now he just wanted to feel this and have her feel him giving her all of himself...his heart, his trust, and his belief that their baby wouldn't bring more heartache.
Jason's body shook with the force of his release as he held Carly tight against him. The whimpering sounds she made were filled with lust but also pain. It was a pain that came from all the years of believing she'd never feel him inside of her again.
A pain he had caused and he would have to make go away day by day. If she would just keep believing in him he knew he could find a way to make that belief be one hundred percent instead of ninety nine point nine. She long ago gave him her blind trust but now he wanted even more. He wanted her left without even one shadow of a doubt that she was all he wanted for the rest of his life.
It was time to make the last of her insecurities dissolve. Jason believed only his love could do that. But that was okay cause she had all his love.
Carly had all of him now. It was just a matter of believing it.
He stepped out of the shower first and then reached out his hand to her. She took his hand and stepped out but instead of going for a towel Carly was all of the sudden all over Jason again, her hand caressing his manhood, as she murmured "I missed this."
The hot looks she gave his naked body just about scalded him. He hadn't seen that look in her eye since the boiler room. Back then he wasn't ready to take her against the door. Because he couldn't say for sure they wouldn't tear each other apart later when the pain got to be too much or the fears too big.
After living together for months now Jason knew he wouldn't let them go to pieces ever again. Cause he needed this forever. And he would have it forever.
Nothing would make him give up this woman, this family, their last chance to make it right.
Picking her up he placed her on the sink as his mouth slanted over hers. His hands tangled in her hair as he held the back of her head. One of her legs slipped around his waist drawing his body taunt to hers.
This weekend was not gonna be long enough to work out all the sexual tension between them, Jason knew that much for sure. The rest of their lives might not even be long enough but that was okay.
This kind of heat didn't need to be cooled.
"I already know how to make grilled cheese, Jase."
Carly stood at the stove, wearing Jason's black t-shirt, as he stood behind her trying to teach her how to cook.
Hearing her protest that she already knew how he raised and eyebrow, cocking his head to look down at her.
"What?" she asked "I do! Morgan loves grilled cheese and I will have you know I made him one before."
"Was that the day that the smoke alarm got destroyed because you beat it with a bat?"
She laughed, throwing her head back, and then answered "No that was the day I tried to make hamburgers, which I also do know how to cook, but I got distracted with the boys."
"You can't just walk away from food on the stove."
"Sure you can. I do it all the time."
"Yeah that's why you burn most of what you cook."
"I have a very busy life!"
He slapped her ass and she yelped. "Keep the flame on medium only. You don't got to rush through it."
"Are we talking about this sandwich still?" she flirted
He chuckled. When she looked at him the lust and love in her eyes drew him in for another kiss. The grilled cheese almost burned but Jason managed to get his mind back on it in time. Only because he didn't want her to rub it in that his cooking lessons were no help at all since they ended up with something just like she could have made on her own.
As soon as he put the sandwiches on a plate he picked up Carly, pressed her against the fridge and started to make love to her again. The food could wait. Right now all he needed was to be inside of her again...and again...and again.
It was a need he knew he'd never completely satisfy.