I always knew my brother would wind up with her. He's always been the type to react emotionally to certain things. I knew this but I was still shocked when he asked her out. Nervous as he was Hikaru was still able to ask her out. He had walked over to her and began to scratch the back of his head while looking anywhere but at her.
I knew as soon as I saw him doing this that it was over. There is no way that we could ever be the same now. I knew he loved her. I've known it long before he did, but for some reason he didn't tell me. I watched him open his mouth and mutter a quick 'do you want to go out?'
Haruhi looked up at him with slightly parted lips and wide eyes. Instantly her face softened and she nodded with a kind smile. "Alright. Sounds good." She said and turned around to walk away. I watched them. Hikaru was staring after her with an amazed and happy expression but I just frowned and began to walk away.
I don't know what I'm going to do. It's obvious that they'd be best together. Mori and Honey would be too busy thinking of the other's feelings. While Kyoya would do well with her, he's too busy worrying about Tamaki and the clients to think of something as small as his love with Haruhi. I doubt he'd care all that much.
I watched Hikaru smile at me as he rushed over. "She said yes!" He shouted happily. I smiled and held his hands pulling him closer faking my happiness. If he finds out that I like her too then our world could end. Would our quarrelling brothers act go farther than it ever has? Will he retreat back into our world and have us shut her our out… This is scary… I don't want it to end too fast.
I love my brother more than anything so when it comes to this little romance of his… I have to back off. I'll let him get the girl and slowly drift away from me. It'll be better this way… only… what am I going to do? He deserves her much more than I do.
All our lives he's been helping me, being with me, and protecting me. He knows nothing else and now… I'm gone. I have to find something… that will give me a reason to live. I need someone to do this for me. If not then I don't know… I don't know anymore…
Without Hikaru… I just don't know.