I think this may turn into the last chapter guys... or maybe the second to last depending on what you guys think.
I ran after him like a demon was chasing me. I knew that if I let him go now that things would end badly between us. Haruhi was just a front. She wasn't something that really made me upset; we both let her into our world and she made us reach out a bit and explore the places around us with a smile and soon we began to trust people. It was only natural she would take on of us a step farther and completely open our worlds.
I didn't want things to move as fast as it was. I just wanted things to stay the same but it was already too late and things were already moving too quickly. There was nothing I could do. Soon it just filled me whole and I was stuck hating the people who made me who I am. Haruhi helped us so much... it's as though the woman opened up a door we refused to go anyway near. For some reason this caused so much to happen... but I understand it completely. Pulling us toward the light of day and forcing us to interact with others just by what she does on her own. It was always 'hang out with Haruhi' or be alone.
During this time of course we though of ourselves as practically the same being. Our differences were still hard to see but only because we refused to look for them. There was no point because in the end we are together. That's all that mattered to us. It's still hard to believe that some girl. A poor girl who was never supposed to enter our lives... made such a difference and wound up changing everything. Haruhi is our hero and that makes her special. I'm so happy now that my brother fell for her because if he hadn't then whoever else he could possibly fall for wouldn't be worth it.
The sun beat down on my skin making it warm up from the chill of my own heart. I don't mind being alone. I really don't. As long as he's happy then it's fine. I'm happy for them and I hope they live a great life together even if I'm not a part of it. Her creamy brown knowing eyes don't need to fall on my tainted flesh any longer because I'm just not worth it. At this point I'm the villian who's finally giving up while the hero and his girl ride off into the sunset. I smiled softly and then wiped my eyes to hide the tears that had fallen earlier.
When I got to the fountain with the pissing boy I was shocked to see him there sitting down by the edge with his arms on his knees as he hunched over and looked at the ground. I walked over to him and sat down by his side listening to the birds and watching black ones fly across the sky. Clouds slowly rolled past in an attempt to hide the blue that can never be completely erased from our minds. "You two can go out. If she loves you then it's fine." He whispered softly while standing up. His hair covered Hikaru's face. It was as though he was holding the world on those weak frail shoulders of his.
I always saw him as much stronger than this. I was the understanding one while he was the guy who did all the actions and had all the plans. There was nothing Hikaru couldn't do and yet here he is admitting defeat while trying to hide his misery from me. I frowned and placed my hand on his shoulder trying to show him that I care and that I'm still here even if he doesn't want me. "I'm not going to go out with Haruhi. I don't love her at all. I can't love her. She was meant for you... not me." I informed him softly and forced a smile. My brother glanced over at me letting me see the tears in his eyes.
Instantly I was enveloped in a tight hug that took all the breath out of me. My brother looked so scared but so happy all at the same time. "Thank God... I was so scared I was going to lose you both." He whispered causing my eyes to widen as tears filled them. Why couldn't this have been reversed so long ago when I found out? Why couldn't he be the one to say he doesn't love her and can't love her while I told him how happy I am? I hugged him back and soon we were on our knees on the ground while trying to calm the other down.
I pulled away slowly. "You two need to take care, alright? And if you hurt her I'll beat the shit out of you." I laughed making him laugh as well. It was full and kind along with a bit of annoyance to it. This is the way things should be. He needs to be happy and carefree and I need to be there when he needs me and gone when he needs to forget and not feel guilty.
"I'm your brother!" He cried and punched my lightly on the shoulder. I nodded with a smirk.
"Exactly but she's a girl and can't protect herself from assholes like you." I informed him with a grin and a nod. He tackled me then just as Haruhi began to walk up to us both. She smiled and shook her head at our banter and then held out her hands to us both.
"Come on Hikaru, Kaoru. Let's go home." She smiled making my eyes widen as I nodded.
Maybe... maybe they won't leave me.