I'm done with Naruto so I'm ending all my fics. Sorry about this but I can't do it anymore.
The world isn't perfect or pretty. It is just a place for people to pity others and work on destroying lives. He told me this and offered to save me from all the carnage of the world but in the end I got nothing. He took away everything from me and destroyed my image of the world. It was heartless of him and I won't pretend to understand his way of thinking. Sitting in class I watched Sasuke and Naruto out of the corner of my eye.
Sasuke looked bored but he was at least taking notes, while Naruto balanced a pencil on the bridge of his nose. I didn't bother looking over at Gaara, if I did something like that then he'd find out somehow and interrogate me later for it. Taking in a deep breath I just settled for watching a moth fly around the classroom looking lazy and bored. Finally it landed on my shoulder making my eyes widen in shock but it was just walking along, looking content with its beady eyes and grotesque features. I think I could learn to like moths if they're all as interesting as this one is. "You have a bug on your shirt." Gaara informed me softly to avoid the teacher yelling at us.
Our math teacher seemed to be in a bad mood today which is just ridiculous. He tends to take it out on everyone he can and so no one is giving him a reason to even glance in their direction let alone scream and shout like he wants to. "I know." I answered and began to stroke its soft wing. The moth didn't leave; it just stayed there as though this is its new home. I felt oddly satisfied, even though I had to make sure not to lean on my back at all today. Maybe if I allow my back to heal it will turn out like this moth has. That would be good.
I froze then causing the moth to fly away as though disturbed by the fact I stopped moving. Freaky little bastard. But what if I do it? I could just take care of my wound for a couple weeks and then the wound will finally heal. I could even get surgery to get rid of the scars. I could even be normal if I tried to. I'm sure my friends would help and I doubt the boys would care too much if I suddenly left them.
"Did the world just end?" Gaara asked making me nod slightly before burying my head in my arms while staring at the teacher. I could do it. I could move on with my life and forget about Hidan and all that he's done to me. I'm sure I could do it. Maybe it would be good for me if I did. It'll be a nice change to an otherwise painful life, because that's all I can do. I can either move on making sure he no longer has a hold over me, or I could hang on like a lovesick child and lose myself to my past. Either way will decide a new path for me to take.
"Yes it did, but don't worry, a new one will begin shortly." I informed him with a smirk making Gaara nod in response. We understand each other sometimes… I don't know how to explain it exactly but we do. Standing up I left the class leaving my friends and a yelling teacher behind me. I'm going to spend the next week or so in the nurse's office to make sure my wounds heal. I have to remove temptation and keep myself in line. If I can do that much then I may just be able to move on with my life. It's worth a shot.
"Hello Sakura, do you need some pain medication or for me to look over your burn?" Tsunade asked looking tired and worn. I just shook my head and smiled softly at her.
"I'm here to make sure it heals this time. I won't be leaving here until my wound has healed." I said in a strong clear voice making her eyes widen as she took in my serious expression and the bag by my side. Nodding slowly she beamed at me and motioned me over to a bed nearby. Making sure I laid on my stomach, I allowed her to begin treating my burn. My shirt was long since stripped off my body to give her clear access but I was able to keep my bra on, even though it was undone so she could make sure to get the top of the burn as well.
"I'm proud of you." She said in such a light tone that I almost didn't hear her, but I did and she knew it. There was no need to exchange any more words. Closing my eyes I drifted off to sleep, the last thing I saw being a flash of white and red, dancing in circles, trying to claim my soul.
When I woke up I was alone and the lights were off, but that means nothing. Whenever a patient needs to sleep, Tsunade turns off the main light and retreats into her office to do the rest of her work. Her office is close enough to the entrance to the Nurse's Station that she is able to hear whenever someone walks in. I blinked roughly then, noticing Gaara watching me with calculating eyes. It was as though he's been waiting for this moment, but I just smiled drowsily and made sure I'm decent before flipping onto my back gently. He didn't make a sound for a while and that was okay because I'm not in the mood to speak either. The sheets are soft and the blanket warm, there's nothing more I could have asked for given the situation. Finally it seemed as though the silence was too much for him, or perhaps he came here to say something. "You had visitors."
That's when I noticed a couple 'get well' cards and one from someone I know very well who said, 'Good luck.' That was probably the only person who actually knows why I'm here. Taking in a deep breath I found myself trembling as I closed my eyes tightly trying to block out the tears that threatened to fall. "He's wishing me luck… he's actually wishing me luck." I whispered and then took in several deep breaths.
"You have issues." Gaara pointed out making me sigh and open my eyes before smiling weakly at him. He just blinked in response and gave me a suspicious look. I laughed at him openly and even pointed before finally grabbing hold of my maturity for one brief instant.
"I've got loads of issues, and very few of them are my back. Get over it." I informed him but couldn't resist a smirk. He just rolled his eyes then took my hand in his. Gaara's hand is rough, calloused with the work he does and how hard he trains to be stronger, mine are probably soft in his hands. I don't work much and I don't pretend to. I'd rather have my hands show that I'm a reader and a studier than something I could never be or do for very long.
"Do you want to say them aloud?" He asked looking bored. Glancing outside the door I noticed that the sun was shining letting me know that it is yet another day.
"My parents were killed the murderer took me in. But this isn't a teenage drama, things didn't turn out perfect. He's still alive and is in love with me, while I love him too in a way. I hate it, life sucks, but that's fine. I got over it to some extent and these next two weeks in this office will give me all that I need in the way of healing and forgetting the past." I said dryly making him frown.
"You can't forget the past that easily."
"What are you going to do with your life once you're healed?" He asked making me grin widely. This is something I've been thinking about only recently and frankly it's the best way to keep away from Hidan for a length at a time without him being able to find me.
"I'm going to be an army medic. I'll go out onto the field and heal the injured and help the weak. I might even encourage the strong. I want to do something with my life because I haven't done that very often." I explained and watched his eyes darken slightly before he turned away.
"I knew you were just going to leave us." He said softly but then looked at me with an actual smile. "Good luck out there in the real world."
"And good luck to you as well. Stay friends till we get out of school?" I asked curiously making him smirk.
"Of course, they would die if they thought you were ignoring them after all."
"But not me."
"No… never you."