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Chapter 8: Who Are You Now
Who are you now? Did you say what you want, don't go back to the start. I'm asking who are you now? Did they break you apart? Won't you fight back for what you want?—Sleeping With Sirens, Who Are You Now.
Sakura waved to the annoying reception lady, and went up to her room. A minute later, a soft knock came at her door. 'Coming!' She called, and opened the door for Sasuke.
'What happened?' He asked, hands shoved in his pockets.
'Well, I waved to the creepy lady and headed up here. And now you came.'
'Not that. What happened after I left?'
'Wow. You can talk?' Sakura asked, incredulous.
'Hn.' He grunted, refuting her question. 'Just answer.'
'Well, um, okay. After you left, I came to realize that I was nothing without you. I don't know why, but it seemed to me that you were the only thing in my life that was solid. I knew you would never leave. Yes, I had Team 7, but I knew that we were going to split up later on in life, or one of us was going to get killed. I tried to forget about you, but everywhere I turned, there you were. In the picture of us after our first training day; on our usual training ground. You were even in my dreams. It killed me, mentally and physically. I'd wake up every day and wonder to myself 'where is Sasuke now?' and then I'd cry. I missed you so much it hurt to be around other people. Somewhere along the road, I started imitating you. And then, one day, the two-month anniversary after you left, I just couldn't take it anymore. I needed to do something about my depression. I was staring at our Team 7 picture, and I knew what I had to do. Killing myself seemed like the only way out. I took my kunai out of my holster, and just began cutting. Thank Kami Kiba found me, or else I would be dead. I wrote you a letter, if you want to read it.' Tears threatened to fall down her face, but Sakura held them back, not wanting Sasuke to see weakness.
'Okay,' Sasuke said, still stunned from her outpour of emotions.
'Here.' She handed him some pages, front and back, covered in ink.
Sakura sat on her bed, facing the window, waiting silently for Sasuke to finish reading the letter.
Dear Sasuke-kun,
I just realized the most horrible thing in the world. I can't live without you. I don't know how Momo copes, living without the boy she loved when she was six. I don't know how I'm going to live without you for Kami knows how long.
I miss you. Every day that you're gone. My heart aches for you, and sometimes, I feel like I can't live without you. I wish you were here. Life was never this boring without you around.
Please come save me. Save me from this hellhole that is becoming my life. Everyone stares at me like I'm a freak. People are starting to worry about my health, they say I'm too skinny. They look at me and ask me how I am since you left. Sometimes, I just break down and cry. Other times, I imitate you and tell them to fuck off. I think I've lost all of my friends. Ino doesn't talk to me, Kiba wants me to talk about my feelings all the time, and Naruto thinks that I should just get more sleep.
I don't think anything is going to work. Yes, you always ignored me, but I was okay with that. I was fine with being the girl that you didn't care about. I just want to have you near me, where I can talk to you and have you grunt back. I know you didn't listen to my problems, no one does, but you should be back here.
I know you had a promise to fulfill or whatever, but you don't know how hard you leaving has been on me. I cry every day. I can't even train without thinking about you.
Life is so hard. I'm not even sure I can go on any longer. The day I tried to persuade you not to leave Konoha was the day I had officially given up any hope that you could ever love me.
So, here's to you, Sasuke-kun. In a few seconds, I'm going to die, and for once in my life, I have nothing to look forward to, and nothing to look back on.
Don't save me. I don't need you anymore.
Sakura.
The more Sasuke read, the more the lump in his throat grew. He hadn't cried since the clan had been murdered. 'Sasuke?' Came Sakura's voice, so soft it was barely there.
'I had no idea,' he muttered quietly, Sakura had to strain to hear it.
'It's okay,' she responded. 'No one else knew either.' She smiled a sad smile. 'But I'm better now. No need to worry about me.'
'Come here.' He ordered softly. Sasuke heard Sakura's quiet footsteps on the carpeting.
'Yes?' She asked, wary of what was going to happen.
He turned around, and held her in his arms. 'Don't ever do that again,' he growled menacingly. 'I don't know what I'd do without you.'
It was then that she broke into tears. Tears she had held in for so long. 'Just so long as you promise never to go away again,' she sobbed into his shirt.
'I promise,' he whispered.
Sorry, this chapter was kind of short. More later, I promise! As soon as June hits, there should be a new chapter every few days, not every few months! Hope you enjoyed! 3, TeamSethGroupie. :)