If there is one thing that I hate it is feeling weak. That's why I can't let Fang witness me crying again. I don't want to seem broken or worthless because when people see a weakness they use it to their own sick advantage. So it's as simple as that. I have to be strong no matter what. I don't want anyone's pity because it is my fault I got hurt so now it is up to me to move on no matter how hard that may be.
"Max?" A cautious voice says and I look up to see my little brother Gazzy gazing up at me with his big blue eyes.
"Yes Gas?" I ask making room on my bed for him to sit down.
"I don't know what it is Ella did, but I know she is very sorry," He whispers flinching obviously scared I would blow up on him. I guess you could say I haven't exactly been the greatest big sister ever.
I pat the spot on my bed next to me. "What makes you think that?"
"Well Ella seems a little bit sad lately," He grumbles pausing to think, "Oh! And she has been grumbling to herself about how big of a mouth she has and how she needs a filter to stop all of the shi-"
I quickly cover his mouth with my hand, "Alright Gas I get the picture!" I exclaim not exactly wanting my eight year old brother following in the footstep of Ella and I, who began swearing at a young age due to the things that were going on at home at the time.
"So are you going to forgive her?"
"I don't really know bub," I declare turning my attention away from him.
"Okay," he replied before heading out of my room.
I grab my iPod from my nightstand and drown out the rest of the world quickly getting lost in thought. Am I really mad at Ella? No. I mean all she did was tell the truth it's just I never thought I'd hear those words come out of my own sister's mouth. The same sister who told me the same night that he left me that it wasn't my fault and that I was too good for him anyways. Eve when when she told me that that night I still didn't believe her but it made me feel better none of the less. After that night all of my friends left me. They all seemed to slowly pull away from me and before I knew it I had nobody but Ella. It was then that I decided that I would never again fall in love because love never benefited anyone. You see the sweet little Disney movies and they give little girls false hope. Little girls grow up thinking that even though their life is a piece of shit now, a prince will come and save them and they will live happily ever after. That isn't going to happen. But yet people still let their little 'angels' believe that it is going to happen. In truth parents are just setting their kids up for heart break. For what seemed like forever I was one of those girls who believed in this fantasy, but now I know. There are no such things as a happily ever after.
So how do you like it? I'm trying to find the flow of this story again so sorry if it seems a little weird and out there. Review and tell me what you think! I'll start off small so how about 3 reviews for the next update?