Disclaimer, Disclaimer. Same old, same old. I definitely do not own The Breakfast Club. But I do own my imagination. ;)
And the /adfeaerhth/ kinda deepest thoughts or thought kinda running through Allison's head over all the others.
Oh! Oh! Before I forget!
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OH! I ALMOST FORGOT! *slaps forehead*
There may be some AndyxAllison later on but I don't know. Or maybe BenderxAllison. I've always liked that pairing for some reason. We'll see.
They'd ignored me. They had ignored me.
Wait, no. That's not right. My state of existence isn't even worth being ignored. With ignoring you knew they knew you were there - they just chose not to admit it. But this was worse. It was like they hadn't even known.
/I am no one./
My parents had never known I was there, never even realized someone other than themselves lived in the world. The were so self absorbed, so absorbed they couldn't notice me. They're child.
But I still loved them. I loved them so much.
Just how many times had I given them a chance for them to show they noticed, that the loved me? How many school art shows or music festivals had I invited them to on colorfully decorated cards, just to have them not show up?
I had come to accept it - in my own way, of course. I had thought so many, many times:
Don't talk to anyone. At least, not those you don't trust. Be what they want you to be - invisible.
Of course I didn't think I would actually trust anyone.
But then Saturday had happened and I had begun to trust again. To think of having friends. To feel loved and welcomed. Totally upsetting my carefully placed rules.
I had thought - known - that anything so right would not go unnoticed - that our bond would not be hidden away to a library.
Right, though, was all in perspective. Why would the princess risk her popularity, her fame, to go hang out with the misfits. To become a misfit. The right wasn't worth it. (It being subjected to the life of the underlings.) Why would the jock give up his father's dream, why would he disappoint? And the criminal, well, he would only fall if the others fell too.
I had at least expected Brian to say, 'hi', if nothing else, to hold true to his speech about how he 'wouldn't do that', 'wouldn't treat someone' like he had. Like they all had.
And they had said that they would do exactly what they did. So why had I trusted them? Why had I believed for just a second that I had found a home? I should have known what would happen.
FLASHBACK (before school, in the halls)(Italics below equal thoughts.)
Deep breath. Deep breath. Walk down the hall. Ignore the stares. Ignore the stares.
"Hey, Claire." Small smile. Shaky breath.
Claire walked past, not even glancing in my direction.
Deep breath. Don't cry, there are the others. Don't cry. Walk down the hall. Find Andy.
"Hey, Andy." No smile. Shaky breath.
All I got were strange stares from the sporto clan and the "you don't exist" treatment from Andy.
Do. Not. Cry. You will not cry.
I turned around and saw Bender leaning against a locker, having watched both scenes unfold.
I took a step towards him, just opening my mouth, when he looked right through me and walked away.
Don't cry. You'll drown if you cry.
I wandered the halls for a couple minutes looking for Brian. Of all of them, he would be my friend.
I found him surrounded by a small group, all talking deep physics in front of a classroom waiting for class to start.
I pushed my way through the boys. They all shied away.
"Brian, how ar-"
"Let's go to the library at lunch. I saw they had some good books on it." Brian walked into the classroom just as the bell rang and the rest filled in, none looking over their shoulders.
You can cry now. There's no one left. It's alright to cry. No one will see.
But I didn't cry. I couldn't. I had been so foolish. So silly.
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Oh, and the title of this chapter is "Cabinet Friendship" because of when Allison says, "our bond would not be hidden away to a library". The Breakfast Club's friendship is something Andy, John, Claire, and Brian hide away.