Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
Warning! Not beta'd
Graduation; the end of my high school career. It should have been a bittersweet moment for me since there was a good chance I would not see a lot of these kids again after the summer, but I couldn't be sad. I had too much to look forward to. I had Seattle and Bella. I had the future on at door step and the girl I wanted at my side. It didn't get better than that in my mind.
Once the ceremony was over I caught Bella and pulled her to me. She had plans with her family, but we were to meet up later. I had plans of my own. I had plans to convince her that we could bypass the dorms and just live together since I could not see the point of paying for a dorm when I would be wherever she was at night.
The afternoon passed and I began to get anxious to see my girl. I had decided that after the previous night I could not let another moment pass without tell her that I loved her. I couldn't do it. Seeing her at graduation I had to stop myself from screaming it at her as she walked past me with her shy smile. I could barely keep the words inside as they called her name to receive her diploma. I could barely stop myself form saying them in the middle of the crowd of our classmates as we searched for our families. I couldn't stop myself anymore and there was no reason to stop. I loved Bella Swan and she needed to know this.
When I could take it no more I left my family behind and drove into town. I had barely parked the car and pulled out my phone to text Bella to ask if I could see her when Angela Webber appeared at my window. She was still smiling smugly while Ben stood behind her looking completely uncomfortable.
"Hey Angela," I said and then waved at Ben who looked away nervously.
"Hey Asshole," she said with a smile that was bright like the sun.
"Asshole?" I questioned as I felt the stirrings of anger inside of me. It didn't matter that this girl was Bella's friend she was a total bitch and I didn't like her at all.
"Yeah, that's what I called you. A cheating motherfucking asshole" she said in a rush as I watched her eyes go dark with anger.
"I never cheated on Bella," I said firmly as she laughed at me.
"We saw you. She saw you with Jane by the diner, in your arms when you were supposed to be at work. She called you and you lied about it!" she practically screamed at me in anger.
My mind raced as Angela bellowed at me in anger, calling me names while I tried to think about what they saw. Bella had seen me that day with Jane. She saw me and that was why she questioned me. She saw me and that was why she was distant. She thought I had cheated. She thought…
"What the fuck…" I muttered as I turned the key to start my car up again. I had to find her. I had to find Bella and explain what happened.
"Wait! This is for you. Bella asked me to give this to you before she left town with her aunt," Angela said as she tossed a folded piece of paper in my face.
"She left town?" I asked her in a panic as I thought about Bella not being here.
"Yeah, she didn't want to deal with you anymore and neither do I," she said and then turned to leave me alone with the letter that Bella had written me, but I couldn't read it. I was too lost to the idea that she had left me. She hadn't waited for an explanation. She left me and hadn't given a fuck about leaving me behind. She didn't even have the decency to tell me that she was going, she just fucking left.
I held the now crumbled piece of paper in my hands as I sat there watching the small crowd of people walk by and into the diner. She was gone and I could not get over that fact. She had left me without another word or even a fucking chance to say good bye.
I slowly opened the paper as I felt my stomach turn over the fact that she was gone. My Bella was gone.
You lied. I saw you with her. I saw you and you lied. I watched you as you held her hand and shushed her. I watch you as you smiled at her and lied to me while doing it.
It hurt Edward. It hurt like hell to watch you like that. You had told me that she was nothing. You had told me that it was only me. Was that a lie too?
I can't go back to how it was. I can't go back to being second best in your life or waiting for your attention. I can't go back to hanging on your every word while knowing that I was nothing to you as well. I can't, not when you were everything to me. I can't live that way and it's unfair of you to think that I would so I'm leaving. I'm leaving because it hurts too much knowing that you are with her. I'm leaving to preserve my own sanity and you can go on and do as you like since that's what you'll do anyway. I loved you. I did, but this is too much so I'm done.
I read her words over and over again, but they didn't change no matter how much I wanted them to. She thought I was with Jane. She thought….I couldn't even deal with what she thought.
I drove home and avoided my parents who knew something was wrong, but I couldn't tell them that Bella was gone because I couldn't believe it. She wouldn't do that to me. She would give the chance to explain. She would never just shut me out after promising me not ever to do that again.
I was lost in my own self denial as I continued to text her throughout the day.
Where are you?
I need to talk to you.
You're wrong, it's only you.
I would never cheat with Jane.
What you saw was wrong, let me explain.
I didn't want you mad at me so I never mentioned Jane, but I never cheated. Not ever. NOT EVER
I love you.
I know you love me too, give me a chance.
My text messages all went unanswered and every phone call I made to her went immediately to voice mail where I left her message after message, begging her to call me, to listen to me, intermingled with me telling her that I love her, but at the end of the day there was no response. She had left me and wasn't coming back, not matter how I pleaded with her.
That night I was lost without her. I left my room and walked to Bella's house. It was odd to see her room so dark. I could not help it, I needed to see her room since there was an underlying belief in my heart that maybe, just maybe, she was there. It was unreasonable, but I had to see.
I climbed the tree and then balanced on the trellis before opening her window. It was a good sign that it wasn't locked. I rolled on to the floor and immediately stood up to reach the bed. I expected to find her curled in a ball in the middle of the bed like I had other times when she was mad at me, but her bed was empty. Her book shelf was empty. Bella was gone and it left me feeling sick as I looked around the empty space where her most favorite things had been. I sat down on her bed and grabbed her pillow and brought it to my face. It still smelled like her and the scent made my chest ache. I sat there alone, wondering where my girl was and if she was thinking of me.
Thanks for reading! Book Two will start very soon…..I'm thinking of doing an EPOV to go long with it just so it matches(Thanks Anne for the wonderful idea). What do you think?