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Allen…..Allen….Shounen…wake up!

Allen gasped as his eyes were forced to open, consciousness pushed upon him. Allen quickly sat up, breath coming in short gasps as if he had just woken from a nightmare.

A hand pushed him down, "calm down, Allen you're straining yourself."

Lenalee's voice came as a relief and Allen instantly calmed. He observed their surroundings, the room or infirmary had grey brick walls, many beds lined in rows along with windows in between them and lastly at the stern looking nurse at the side of his bed.

"Lenalee?"

"Yes?"

Allen cautiously looked at the nurse, she reminded him too much of their own at the black order.

"Where are Lavi and Kanda?"

Lenalee glanced around, and leaned down to whisper, "They're talking to Albus Dumbledore."

Allen gave her a confused look, "who?"

"The old man. The one who we met after we got out of the forest. After you fainted he did something called, 'magic' and you floated to the castle and into this bed. Kanda freaked out at first and threatened to mince him but Lavi held him back saying we should be rational and calm."

Allen glanced out of the corner of his eyes, seeing that the nurse had gone away and murmured, "She reminds me of the scary nurse we had at the black order."

Lenalee gave a small laugh, nodding her head in agreement.

"You should first meet McGonagall head of Gryffindor house, she's a lot scarier."

Allen laughed, "Maybe. What happened?"

She shook her head, "I'm not sure, you just collapsed screaming and passed out."

No, the power was too much; they were putting too much into you.

Allen's hands clenched in the sheets, and Lenalee nervously questioned him, "Are you okay?"

Allen forced a smile, "fine, why don't you go check on Lavi and Kanda to make sure they haven't destroyed anything."

Lenalee didn't look convinced but left, just to give Allen the space he seemed to need.

A flash of an image appeared in her mind.

"What's wrong with Allen? Why is he acting like this?"

Haunting music and a painful memory, playing over and over.

Lenalee had an urge to go back, the tiny memory was confusing, where had it come from? And how did she lose it in the first place?

Instead she kept going onwards, she could talk about to Allen later, and right now she needed to make sure Kanda hadn't killed anyone.

Allen moved the sheets aside, standing up and looking around.

Where are you?

Why I am you, just look in the mirror.

Allen picked up the hand mirror on the bedside table, looking at it and then it fell out of his hands and onto the floor with a crash.

That's not me. That's not me. That's not me. I'll never be a NOAH.

You are wrong. You already are. And with the power of the forest you will be the most powerful of all of them. Even more powerful than the Earl.

The voice inside him sounded exceptionally pleased at that, and Allen shuddered in disgust.

I won't let it happen. Never. Why are you doing this?

To kill the Earl.

Allen staggered forward, hit by a strong wave of hate, the glass from the mirror cut his feet and he hissed in pain.

Why?

Because he took what was important to me and I will take everything that is or ever will be important to him and then feel his pulsing heart crushed in my hands or shall I say yours?

No, I'm not like that.

Oh, but are you really? Do you not feel a rush when you kill Akuma?

That's different; I'm setting their souls free.

But if they had no souls to free, you still would kill them. Because, you my dear Allen, deep inside, love the feeling of hot, fresh blood staining your hands.

"NO!"

"What's wron—my god! Is that glass? Here, my dear, get back on that bed."

Allen sat on the bed, huddled, and obeying the nurses every order.

When she left and his feet where all bandaged up, the thoughts of blood was still on his mind and somewhere in the corner of his mind, the voice laughed.

The next morning he met the headmaster, who was still too nice to believe, although Allen couldn't question him because he used the same façade. A smile to hide all the pain.

They were shown around the castle and given rooms. They took it in stride that the castle was a magic school and that the students would show in a week.

They were allowed to stay and observe if they wanted. Albus said that it was much safer and the ministry couldn't stick their noses in here very much.

Although a ministry worker was coming to teach one of the classes, some um-budge or something like that.

Allen said that he was fine to his worried friends, hoping once more that they wouldn't see through his façade. They did not.

"Allen?"

Allen marked the book he was reading, looking up at Lenalee, "yes?"

"Do….Do you remember anything that you don't remember happening?"

The memory of Black Order being attacked resurfaced, but instead Allen shook his head, "no, why?"

Lenalee pursed her lips, "it's strange. I'm remembering things that I don't remember happening."

"Maybe it's your dreams."

She shook her head, "that's not it, Lavi and Kanda are saying the same thing. But unless we were all knocked out and lost a portion of our memories and remembering them now. But the strange thing is, we remember different things and different dates."

Allen didn't answer.

So Lenalee went back to searching for books, curious about Allen's behavior.

"Don't you think Allen is acting strange?"

Kanda che'd "Moyashi? He always acts like that."

Lavi shook his head, "no, he's hiding something. Something he doesn't want us to know. Maybe it has something to do with what happened at the forest."

Kanda didn't answer.

"Do you remember how we got here?"

Kanda gave an irritated grunt as he took out Mugen and started some Katanga's.

"No."

"What about the mission or why we were handcuffed?"

"No."

Lavi sighed, "You're no help Yu-chan."

The blade whizzed through the air and Lavi ducked. The blade embedded into the stone wall behind him.

"Don't call me that, stupid Usagi."

Lavi smiled, "Aww, Yu-chan thinks I'm cute as a bunny?"

Kanda snarled and Lavi ran laughing, Kanda following with Mugen closely behind.

Allen watched with a sad smile.

Too bad that they will have to die to, right Shounen?

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