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Gwen's crap day had just gotten crappier and that was saying something since it seemed now that every day was a rubbish one. Wow Gwen what positive outlook of life you really know how to show what a depressed fool you are. Was it just a coincidence or did someone up there have a really sick sense of humour. Your all probably all very confused so I'll start from the beginning and explain to you why today was so well, how could she put it sucky. Eve had thought it would be funny to have her fight hand to hand combat with EVE in a DRESS seriously who does that. It was her favourite dress as well, are well she had plenty more where that came from. To add on to that she had banged into the Prince, literally in a very sweaty very dirty dress, her face reddened at the thought of the infuriating arrogant Prince and the look of disgust he had given her.
"Please you need to listen to me" A ghost begged her again, was his name Tom, Thomas.
"You can't keep on ignoring me this is your job, you're supposed to help us" The ghost shouted at me bitterly. She felt an odd mix of disdain and guilt twist in her stomach but she continued to ignore him even though a large voice inside her was telling her to listen.
"Unless you don't stop I'll will myself into life" he desperately cried out I froze and stiffened and whipped around so fast that I was only a blur of colours.
"Well if you did that then I would have to kill you" I told him almost cheerfully he didn't turn into a pathetic puddle quite the opposite actually he straightened his back and looked directly at me.
"You need to understand that you aren't the only person suffering and until you have learnt that people are going to die" he said it calmly as if didn't bother him.
"What?" I asked looking at him in shock and horror I could hear Merlin and his annoying Girlfriend Freya giggling.
"I'll talk to you later" I didn't even wait for his answer before walking purposely towards Merlin and the irritatingly nice Freya.
"Hey guys" I said and forced on a fake smile Merlin gave me a concerned look but Freya seemed completely oblivious to my stormy emotions, to tell you the truth Freya was oblivious to everything but herself and Merlin.
"Freya, me and Gwen need to talk I'll see you later" and before Freya could even protest Merlin had dragged me away. We walked in silence not the usual comfortable silence but a tense one.
"So what's wrong?" Merlin asked causally I sighed and the need to tell Merlin everything became overwhelming.
"I can't tell you but one day I think I'll explain" I said quietly Merlin nodded. The great thing about Merlin was if he could see that you really couldn't say anything he would leave it and wait until you were ready tell him.
"Morgana was looking for you" Merlin said I looked at him in surprise Morgana rarely asked for my presence anymore unless it was to dress her.
"She did?" I asked excitement was bubbling in my stomach. Mine and Morgana's friendship had never been the same not after what I had said three years ago, sure she didn't hate me, she was civil (but she had every reason to) but her sentences were clipped and short and she never asked how I was doing anymore. Sisters in everything but blood might as well have been strangers. Merlin had kept oddly quiet which was strange for him since he talked a hell of a lot.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked looking at him curiously he shrugged.
"Freya... and Morgana, and you" he quickly added when he saw my raised eyebrows his face turned the colour of a tomato.
"Morgana huh" I said slyly if it was even possible his face turned even brighter.
"and you, I don't even like Morgana like that, anyway she's not exactly in my good books right now" I looked at him curiously Morgana and him never fought sure they'll tease each other mercilessly but argue no way.
"What happened?" I asked he sighed and ran his hands through his already messy hair.
"Well Morgana has been acting difficult when Freya serves her" Merlin said sounding so annoyed and tired.
"Here we are" I said as much I wanted to stay I had to go Morgana wasn't patient and she still needed to talk to that ghost.
"Hey Morgana" I say she grunts in response and abruptly stops and spin around towards me.
"Gwen why do you still call me Morgana when we are no longer close anymore or dare I say it friends" I flinched and opened and closed my mouth in shock she had never asked me that hell she hadn't spoken directly to me since we were sixteen.
"I don't know, maybe it's because if I did start calling you my Lady then it would really mean that we are strangers it would be giving up on ever being friends again" I said quietly Morgana was gaping and looking at me as if I were some rare strange specimen that she had never seen before.
"Thank you" she said quietly and at that moment I don't think I have ever felt closer to someone then I did to her and felt the most overwhelming love for Morgana then she did right now because Morgana had just said sorry in her own messed up way and had thanked mefor not giving up on her.
"It's all right" I grinned into Morgana's cupboard of dresses
"So what should I wear?" Morgana asked and Gwen hid her smile because she had so much stuff to do and she couldn't afford to waste her time reminiscing about the good old times.
"The maroon dress Morgana" I said holding up the dress for Morgana's inspection. I glanced up at the door and saw the ghost I had been conversing with this morning.
"Morgana I'll be back soon I just need to do something" I said to Morgana and ran out before she could protest.
"What are you doing here?" I asked but I was no longer angry more curious then anything else.
"I need to tell you what will happen you need to stop this" he said desperately I nodded in response.
"My name is Thomas my Mother she is going to kill Prince Arthur to get revenge on Uther she is impersonating the entertainment Lady Helen. You need to stop her from killing Arthur without harming her" Thomas said bluntly, okay I didn't expect that.
"Where is she?" I asked cautiously "and does she have magic?" I asked him he only nodded in response and beckoned me to follow him. We stopped at the large oak door I pushed it open before I go cold feet and left.
"Hello" I said and there was a woman crying and Thomas walked over to her as if in hypnotic state.
"Mother" he whispered sadly placing his hand gently over Lady Helen's arm and not for the first time ever I felt hatred and anger to the cruel King Uther.
"Hello" I said again stronger louder she jumped out of her seat in surprise and spun around to face me.
"Who are you" she sounded so bitter and angry and I felt guilty once more for forgetting that other people felt pain and went through hard situations.
"I've got a message for you" I glanced conspicuously towards Thomas who still had not left his Mothers side and gave me a nod "from you Son" the reaction I got from her was well shocking. A whole storm of emotions passed on her face anger, pain, bitterness, hope and a gut wrenching grief that I hoped to never feel or encounter.
"Is this some sick joke because my son is dead" she spat sounding bitter and old.
"Yes he is dead but I can talk to the dead and he doesn't want you to do this" I pointed to Thomas who was right beside her.
"Prove it" Lady Helen (if that was real name) said I turned towards to Thomas who was watching his Mother with sad pained eyes.
"Tell her that when I was ten I used magic to make her a bouquet of her favourite flowers Tulips tell her how scared she was at first but how she in the end she had told me that I was special but I needed to be careful" Thomas said his eyes never leaving his Mothers face.
"He says when he was ten that he used Magic to create a bouquet of Tulips he said that you were scared but so proud as well" I said I could feel tears streaming down my face.
"Thomas" Helen said she looked frantically for her dead son.
"He's right next to you" I said swallowing hard the sob that was about to explode out of me "All he does is stare at you" I finished off Helen was crying so hard that I was sure that she would fall off her chair.
"Mother please don't do this don't be a murderer especially because of me, you are better then that" Thomas said.
"He says he doesn't want you to be a Murderer he says you are better then them" Helen sobbed even harder and for a moment I thought we had gotten to her but then she shook me off.
"You don't understand revenge is the only thing I have now" Helen said quietly almost sadly.
"You don't have to do this" I said she shook her head at me.
"Uther has no idea the pain I feel I will make him feel my pain even if it's only a small percent of what I feel now" Helen said with so much determination.
"Murder isn't the way" I tried to get through her Thomas was silent now jus staring blankly at the wall.
"It is the only option I have right now" Helen said sadly she then got an excited look "join me" she said excitedly I gave her a horrified look and she shrugged.
"Ok child go" she sounded mildly disappoint and I shivered at the though of killing somebody.
"You do know I'm going to have to fight you" I said weakly she nodded.
"I know" she replied I walked quickly out of the room and sent one more look at the bitter Helen and Thomas who had just recently woken up from his cationic state.
"Hi Morgana" I said trying to sound cheerful and happy but she only sounded depressed and pathetic, and Morgana was glaring at her. Why was Morgana glaring at me?
"Morgana are you ok?" I asked hesitantly but her glare just hardened.
"I thought you were to busy being all secretive to bother with me" Morgana snapped sounding biter and hurt.
"What are you talking about? Of course I'm not to busy for you. You're my best friend" I sad sounding confused. What had I done wrong now?
Morgana laughed meanly and gave me a look of utter disgust "Did you actually believe that we could ever be friends. You're my Maid and I am a Lady" she said cruelly and before I could say anything she had pushed roughly by me.
"But you said thank you and that mean's you still want to be friends with me" I wanted to say something witty and uncaring or say something equally cutting as Morgana but I only sounded pathetic and weak. Morgana sneered at me before adopting a cold expression and walking out the door.
My bottom lip quivered and I felt my eyes begin to sting with tears that hadn't yet fallen. I was so tired of having to do this of having to save everyone's ass because of destiny where had destiny ever got me.
"You need to stop her" Thomas said I shook my head.
"No I don't" I snapped "I am sick and tired of having to sort out the messes you made while living" I snapped Thomas recoiled back in shock.
"You have to it's your destiny" Thomas replied weakly "people will die" but I shook my head.
"I don't have to do anything, I'm still a kid" I snapped sounding a lot like a petulant child.
"Yes you do, It's your responsibility" he raged "you can't give up because of an broken friendship"
"Watch me" I said with new determination.
"Then the next time you will see me will be in Hell" Thomas said sending a chill down my spine but I walked away anyway.
I lay in my bed silently crying feeling well just plain pathetic. I was so caught up in my self pitying that I didn't notice a certain big eared blue eyed boy enter my room.
"Gwen" he murmured looking so uncertain and worried that I was instantly pulled out of my mild depression. He took a deep breathe and engulfed me in a tight hug. Maybe it was the way he held me so tight or maybe it was the lack of the words but at that moment I had never felt so secure in the last 19 years of my life I had never felt so safe and Icried, and cried, and cried. Still don't know why maybe because of Morgana's cruel cutting words, maybe because of the stifling responsibility that had been placed on me but for whatever reason I was sobbing uncontrollably on Merlin.
"Merlin do you promise to love me no matter what and to not judge me?" I asked him sudden childish fear gripped me I couldn't lose him as well; Merlin just kissed my forehead and brushed a curl out of my face.
"I promise" he said with so much sincerity that I almost cried again.
"I better get to the celebration" Merlin sat "or the Pratt is going to make me clean his stables again" he bounced off the bed with faked enthusiasm and if this had been in any other situation I would have giggle at Merlin's and his silliness but all I could thing of was Helen and her vengeful crusade.
"You can't go" I said desperately I yanked him back to my bed he yelped and fell face down, I quickly knelt by him.
"Are you ok?" I asked, He gave me a look giving me full view to see the bruise that had formed on under his jaw.
"What's up with you your acting strange?"Merlin asked looking at me suspiciously I giggled nervously.
"I'm not acting weird I just don't want to go" I said while shrugging trying to sound indifferent but probably sounding constipated. Merlin sighed tiredly and I realized that he would go no matter what I said and that Helen would kill every single one of them. So many innocent people would be slaughtered because of Uther's hatred for magic. I couldn't let hundreds of people die to curb someone's grief.
"Let's go then" I said cutting Merlin off from his mini speech he looked surprised but shot me a grateful look. I ran towards the celebration and Merlin followed after me confused. We burst into the room and got strange looks from the nobles and servants. I walked straight to Anne one of the Servants and asked her.
"Where is lady Helena isn't she supposed to be here now?" I asked trying to quell the burning itch that warned me of upcoming danger. Anne opened her mouth but she was cut off when Uther's booming voice announced.
"We welcome the extraordinary Lady Helena who will be singing for us" Uther sat back in his chair and smoothed his Tunic down. A hauntingly beautiful voice floated towards us it was indescribable and before my eyes everyone began to fall asleep. One by one. I watched in horror as cobwebs began to blanket the people of Camelot it was like they had been forced into a deep slumber for a hundred of years. I don't know when but I started running and violently pushed her into the next room the spell didn't break to my disappointment.
"You need to stop this "I said calmly.
"And what will you do if I don't?" Helena asked with sneer that reminded me faintly of earlier on with Morgana. I viciously shoved her out of my mind and focused. I took out the knife that I had been hiding in the folds of my skirt and twirled it.
"I'll kill you!" and then I pounced.
Merlin doesn't understand what's happening nor does he care because he is so tired. He knew there was something terribly wrong (you tend to get that idea when everyone is asleep and covered in cobwebs and dust) but he's been so busy with chores and saving the Pratt's ass that he hasn't been able to just sit down and sleep, this is just a long over due nap he thinks to himself before almost drifting off to sleep.
That's when two things are processed in his painfully slow, groggy mind.
One, Gwen and Lady Helena aren't here.
Two, Everyone's fast asleep. That definitely snaps him into the realm of awareness.
He hears a loud bang and immediately goes to investigate already terrified of what he may find. What he does find isn't' what he expect, he doesn't expect to see clobbering the guy he swears got executed this morning and Lady Helena looking terrified as hell. He knows he should probably go and help her but he is too shocked at Gwen's beating someone up to even move and it doesn't look like she needs his help anyway. She's finished him off before he can shake himself out of his confused daze.
He watches as the Lady Helena runs into the hall where everyone is, watches as Helena pulls out a rather dangerous looking knife and he mutters a spell to make the chandelier fall. He knows Gwen saw the smooth transformation from Blue eyes to the powerful tawny Gold eyes that were a sign of magic and he knows she knows that he saw her fighting that thing because that's the only way he can describe it.
It doesn't matter now though what matters now is that people are starting to wake up and that Lady Helena was now an ugly Hag that swore vengeance on Uther. Uther is shouting something and waving his hands wildly but his attention is on the knife that Helena is about to throw and suddenly he's running. Gwen is to.
She's running and everything feels like it has slowed down but it can't have because that's impossible. Then Merlin is pushing Arthur out of his seat and the knife is about to hit her so she takes the pretty Golden plate and holds it in front of her as a shield. The knife is embedded into the plate and she lets out a breathe that she didn't realize she was holding. Uther is suddenly upon them thanking them profusely but she blocks out his voice and studies Arthur instead he looks so vulnerable and pale and she swears he's going to buckle soon but that's the least of her problems because Merlin is giving her look and silently telling her that they need to talk and she's dreading there conversation.
She comes to tend to Morgana just because Uther was grateful it doesn't mean that she will get a break but before she can even step into the room Morgana has thrown herself into her arms and is sobbing uncontrollably clutching onto her reminding her of a small scared child.
"Oh God Gwen I am so sorry. I almost lost you and we all almost died and I was so cruel to you before" Morgana sobbed and I gently but firmly disentangled but she wrapped her arms around me even tighter refusing to let go.
"I almost lost you. I almost lost my sister" she wailed and Gwen did a little start because she hadn't been called that in years now.
"I thought I was nothing only your maid" I said bitterly Morgana looked down.
"I'm so sorry" she whispered sounding tired "I let our friendship get destroyed because of something so stupid. You're everything to me, you're one of the few things that make sense, that keeps me sane. You're my sister in everything but blood and I am so sorry. I hope you will forgive me" I opened my mouth to respond but she held up her hand "I don't expect you to forgive me right now I was cruel and treated you unbearably all I ask is for another chance" Morgana said I didn't say anything all I did was gather her in my arms and hugged her tightly.
"I've missed you so much" I murmured into her hair and stroked it out of her face.
"I've missed you to" Morgana said quietly. We stayed like that for quite a while.
I walked towards home feeling more cheerful and lighter than before suddenly a hand shot out of the dark alcove and yanked me into it.
"Gwen it' me" Merlin said "we need-"but I cut him off.
"What the hell possessed you do that you scared me" I chastised him placing my hand on my heart for emphasis. He rolled his eyes but apologized.
"So why do you want me here?" I asked him trying to get as far away as the upcoming conversation as possible.
"I think you know why I want to talk to you" Merlin said all traces of humour were gone I sighed.
"I'll tell you everything if you tell me why you learnt magic and who taught you?" I asked half challenging him half curious why Merlin would learn magic when it was banned was impossible to answer.
"I didn't learn magic, I was born with it" he stated my eyes bulge.
"But that isn't possible how could you" I asked shocked Merlin sighed.
"Well it all started when I was an infant I could move things with my mind" he started and I listened. Intently.
Hi I hope you enjoyed this chapter, remember to REVIEW, if you do REVIEW I will give you a cosmic hug and cookie yay. Anyway so I hope I didn't ruin that Episode for you. I'm so sorry that I haven't been updating quickly I've just been so busy and I'll try and Update weekly.