Chapter 3 ~ For every 99 times, you looked me in the eye and swore you weren't lying
With Haley on my side, I knew that I could do anything, and that everything will some how be okay. She was my rock, and I too was hers. After sitting on the porch for a long time, and I honestly don't know why it took so long; either it was because I was just so sick and tired from crying and everything else that happened last night or because I was putting off talking to Peyton and trying to work up the courage to eventually do so. I knew it wasn't going to be a pretty conversation and that there was eventually going to be some yelling, possibly even some tears too. I couldn't avoid the situation any longer, so I got up, and while working to my car I planned my form of attack and how I was going to handle the whole thing. But what I did know was that I had to do this all by myself. Pulling out my phone and turning it on, I took a long deep breath.
"Hey Peyton…It's me…we got to talk."
"Ok, what's up?"
"Ummm…this whole thing with Julian really has me thinking and evaluating everything."
"Thinking and evaluating? What's going on? I thought you were ok with this…" That's were I lost it and knew that the anger was slowly going to coming out of me.
"God, Peyt! How could you be so stupid, thinking I was okay with this. Do you even hear yourself right now? I liked him first, do you even remember that? Or how about when you tried to say that my feelings of love weren't true, when he broke my heart. Was that some selfish play to get him all to yourself? Hinting that I wasn't good enough for him, but you were? Do you even remember that you were afraid to tell me you liked him every single time? And how many times was that, three times? Do my feelings even matter? But no Brooke's feelings don't matter, but the all mighty Peyton's does. All of those times I stayed up on the phone with you trying to console you when Jake left, and this is what I get in return? Hell, you even told me that him and I would make a cute couple, that was probably the biggest load of BS I've ever heard. Was that all part of a master plan to bamboozle me, because guess what you two did more than bamboozle me." I asked getting angrier remembering all the lies I was told. I wasn't crying hysterically, but I did have silent tears coming down my face. "I have no problem with you guys going out; yes, it's going to take some time to get used to. What hurts the most is that neither of you even thought about me and how I would feel about this whole thing; my feelings were ignored and I guess they didn't even matter to you. You promised me you weren't going to do this, you weren't going to hurt me. You were supposed to be my best friend. But guess what you did, and you lost that title…I don't think we can be friends anymore. Looking back now, how many other lies have you told me over the year and I was so stupid to believe them? There's two right there and I'm sure I can think of more. I thought you were different, I thought you were special, a friend I could truly rely on, but I guess I was wrong. How can you even sleep knowing that you just broke someone's heart to the point of no return?"
"Geez, Brooke, I don't know what to say."
"Don't worry about it, you've said enough with that sentence right there." And with that I hung up on my former best friend, appalled at her response to everything I just said. There was no explanations or I'm sorry, it didn't mean to happen that way, we planned on talking about you, nothing.
I couldn't stop pacing across the front lawn in anger; I have never been this angry in my entire life. How could she just say nothing? It just goes to show that she truly didn't care about me as much as I cared about her. I knew that if I called Julian that it wouldn't be like this conversation at all; it would be more crying and hysterics. I don't want to go through that, like Haley said, it wasn't worth my time. I am sure that Peyton is on the phone with him now explaining everything that just happened, and you know what, that's all he deserves. He does not deserve an explanation, my time, my tears; she probably didn't deserve one either but it was something I just had to do. As if on cue, the tears started streaming down my face harder. My body went limp and I collapsed right there on Haley's front lawn, crying the hardest I've ever done in my entire life. I just curled up into a ball and just sat there, crying like a baby. I didn't want to go through all this hurt and pain anymore. My mind was gone; the next twenty minutes were just a blur. I don't even remember when Haley came or how I ended up inside on her couch. All I knew was that I never wanted to feel this way again, it hurts too much.
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