m U f F M u N c H e R*

I Don't Know Where I'm Going. But I'm Going. Are You Coming With Me?

*shortest version*

HEY THERE!

*short version*

I've just got a fucked up life, drink far too much, party until the wee hours of the morning, and don't sleep nearly as much as I should.

*long version*

Hiya! My name is Lexi. I'm a girl, duh. I'm 17 years old. Originally from London. Oh and I'm gay...As you probably already gathered from my username. I have two adorable but loudmouth dogs, both Beagles. I have a younger sister who annoys the fuck out of me. My entire family finds gay people disgusting, therefore, I am their 'special' child, which means I'm NOT their favourite and don't even come close. I've been told that I'm fit, then again that 'compliment' was made by horny teenage boys pratically dry humping the air next to me (fucking nasty), who think that their cock...get this... is the cure to my lesbianism. To which they receive a blow to the gut and an irritated 'go fuck yourself' as my response. These experiences are not very reassuring, mind you, to my said hotness. Anyway... I love to chat with random people on online, so I would love to have anyone PM me!! :)

I'm not so great with writing, but I stumbled upon this website and I've been reading some amazing work and I'm getting better. I think me reading other people's work helps me with mine. I love writing, despite my developing or more so, lack of, skills. No stories from me yet, as you can see. But I've been mulling over several ideas. It's weird 'cause something will just randomly pop into my head and I'll write it down. But I've never actually gotten past more than a few paragraphs *sigh*

I'd like to travel when I get older and first stop, Bristol, England!(Yes, I used to live like 2 hours away and I've never been. Sad, I know) I'm quite obsessed with Naomily. Possibly a bit unhealthy but I have to get my daily fix. It's a wonder how I still manage to have a decent social life. Or a life at all as much as I'm on here, but this place is my home. These writers gave me a world to live in when mine turned to shit and for that, I thank you.

I have been through a lot of shit these past few years. No family support, no proper friends to stick by my side through the hardship, but I have learned to live even with the complications in my life as best I can. Within each of us is the choice to be generous or selfish, loving or unloving. I believe it is up to each of us as individuals to choose what aspects of our character we want to uphold and develop regardless of our past or present experiences and difficulties. You have to make wise choices about the kind of person you will allow yourself to become. YES, it will take time for old wounds to heal and maybe they won't be gone completely and YES, it may be difficult to truly break free from the restraints of an unhealthy environment, but the opportunity for love and kindness can still exist..if you let them. And finally, after 4 years of guarding myself, I have found a girl that not only makes me happy, but makes me me. Thank you, Heaven. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and you truly are my heaven.

Just some quotes that I like and that remind me of Naomi's and Emily's complicated relationship...

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.

You never really stop loving someone. You just try to live without them.

I love you. There is nothing else to do, run and I will run with you.

If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders.

To truly love and trust someone is to give them your heart knowing that they can break it.

Some quotes that I love from series 3 and 4 of Skins that I love...

"The people who make us happy are never the people you expect. So when you find someone, you’ve got to cherish it." -Gina

"I know you Naomi. I know you’re lonely. I think you need someone to want you. Well, I do want you. So be brave, and want me back." -Emily

"Watch out, Katie. I might get confused and fuck you with my great big strap-on by mistake." -Naomi (one of my personal favourites haha!)

"You have to understand Katie. I love you and I'll never really leave you, but I can't fix this. I like girls. No, I like a girl. No, I love her. I love...her." -Emily

"And, when I'm with you, I feel like I'm a better person. I feel happier, less ... alone. Less lonely. But it's not that simple, is it? Being with someone." -Naomi

Cook: "Why you fightin' it Naomi? You want it, I want it. Let's get together an' feel alright."
Naomi: "You couldn't make me feel alright if you stapled your tongue to my clit, and stood on a cement mixer."

"I'm Katie Fucking Fitch! Who the fuck are you?!" -you should know this one

Possible Songs For Naomily-Related Fics

1. Hard to Say I'm Sorry/Get Away- Chicago

Breathe.

Whatever you’re doing right now.

Take a deep breath, then another.

You are so beautiful.

Has anyone told you that lately?

And there’s something more important.

You’re strong.

Sometimes it feels like you’re not.

Maybe even most of the time.

But please don’t ever forget,

You’re stronger than you know.

Everyday, you wake up. No matter what. No matter what you’ve gone through, you wake up in the morning.

Take a second and appreciate that. After all these

Years, you still have hope.

Maybe it’s buried inside you.

Maybe that sounds ridiculous.

But you keep going every goddamn day.

And that makes you incredible.

But breathe today, breathe right now.

Sometimes things are too much.

And I want you to know that’s okay.

There will be times when you want to break down and cry, times when you want

To fall asleep and never wake up again.

That doesn’t make you weak.

It makes you human.

And that’s beautiful, too.

After all that you’ve been through, you can still feel.

Never underestimate that.

Because you know what that means?

There’s hope.

It means that you’ll feel love and happiness. It means you’ll feel pride and joy.

It means you’re still alive, but more than that, it means you’re still living.

Stay strong.

Stay beautiful.

Never stop feeling.

But sometimes, just breathe.

-I've yet to find the author of this :(