for Réparer10/17/2017 c25 malleys8
Your writing to this point has been nothing but exemplary. Furthermore, I don't think I've been as emotionally involved in a story as this one. One particular point hit me hardest. "Maybe he is better off without me." I got married when I was 24 (1971) and everything was wonderful until 1983. Still very happily married, I had a heart attack AND a stroke 4 days later. While the heart attack was certainly a problem emotionally for a 36-year-old, The stroke was the biggest threat to our happiness.
The stroke took out most of the right side of my brain. This affected my left arm/leg/hand/and foot. Worst was my complete loss of emotional control. My perceptions were fouled up. Often I would be positive I'd done or said something when actually, I had only considered doing the act or making the statement. Since my brain was close to eidetic before, I completely relied on my memory to be completely accurate. If I recollected something, it happened that way. When my wife told me I hadn't done/said something I was furious. To me, it was just like falling off a cliff - once over the edge, there was NO further control. The stroke had affected part of the frontal lobes which controlled emotions and actions. I was feeling quite guilty for my rages against my wife's corrections, especially when I finally realized I could no longer trust my memory at all. I knew she was right. Because of my lack of emotional control, I was causing her unwarranted pain and grief. She was most certainly better off without me. Since I CANNOT control, I begged her to divorce me. She declined and stuck it out. I got better at both memory and emotion control. We're still happily married.
Your writing to this point has been nothing but exemplary. Furthermore, I don't think I've been as emotionally involved in a story as this one. One particular point hit me hardest. "Maybe he is better off without me." I got married when I was 24 (1971) and everything was wonderful until 1983. Still very happily married, I had a heart attack AND a stroke 4 days later. While the heart attack was certainly a problem emotionally for a 36-year-old, The stroke was the biggest threat to our happiness.
The stroke took out most of the right side of my brain. This affected my left arm/leg/hand/and foot. Worst was my complete loss of emotional control. My perceptions were fouled up. Often I would be positive I'd done or said something when actually, I had only considered doing the act or making the statement. Since my brain was close to eidetic before, I completely relied on my memory to be completely accurate. If I recollected something, it happened that way. When my wife told me I hadn't done/said something I was furious. To me, it was just like falling off a cliff - once over the edge, there was NO further control. The stroke had affected part of the frontal lobes which controlled emotions and actions. I was feeling quite guilty for my rages against my wife's corrections, especially when I finally realized I could no longer trust my memory at all. I knew she was right. Because of my lack of emotional control, I was causing her unwarranted pain and grief. She was most certainly better off without me. Since I CANNOT control, I begged her to divorce me. She declined and stuck it out. I got better at both memory and emotion control. We're still happily married.
10/16/2017 c10 malleys8
The OCD aspect is certainly a main driver in this personality conflict between Castle and Beckett, but another major hurdle is Beckett's sociopathological personality she was given (by the writers/directors) during the last 18 months of the series. It's MY life Castle and not YOUR personal jungle gym. I MUST follow My ideals - it's My world. Her behavior (and thoughts; as written in these stories - based on those shown in the TV series) indicate the attitude: you should be happy I'm doing this for you. I'm suffering over this and it's for your benefit. If it's so hard for you, you should be glad I'm staying away from you. While her OCD may be a burden to the relationship, her complete lack of empathy and attitude that the actions are not for her benefit but obviously for others which are the main killer of relationships. After all, if you are convinced this is the right action, and you know this is for the benefit of the one complaining; how in good conscience can the actor be faulted for their action? If OCD is involved you get a very destructive loop - I MUST act this way, it's all for YOUR benefit. This last chapter has broken this chain. She is now cognizant of other peoples' feelings and understands these feelings must be part of her behavior equation. Now, although not a certainty, there IS some chance this relationship can be saved.
The OCD aspect is certainly a main driver in this personality conflict between Castle and Beckett, but another major hurdle is Beckett's sociopathological personality she was given (by the writers/directors) during the last 18 months of the series. It's MY life Castle and not YOUR personal jungle gym. I MUST follow My ideals - it's My world. Her behavior (and thoughts; as written in these stories - based on those shown in the TV series) indicate the attitude: you should be happy I'm doing this for you. I'm suffering over this and it's for your benefit. If it's so hard for you, you should be glad I'm staying away from you. While her OCD may be a burden to the relationship, her complete lack of empathy and attitude that the actions are not for her benefit but obviously for others which are the main killer of relationships. After all, if you are convinced this is the right action, and you know this is for the benefit of the one complaining; how in good conscience can the actor be faulted for their action? If OCD is involved you get a very destructive loop - I MUST act this way, it's all for YOUR benefit. This last chapter has broken this chain. She is now cognizant of other peoples' feelings and understands these feelings must be part of her behavior equation. Now, although not a certainty, there IS some chance this relationship can be saved.
1/25/2017 c41 bitterman
Superb. As a UK newcomer to Castle I have to say so sorry only eight series. Your fanfiction however has expanded my enjoyment immensely. Thank you.
Superb. As a UK newcomer to Castle I have to say so sorry only eight series. Your fanfiction however has expanded my enjoyment immensely. Thank you.
10/31/2016 c41 SeannysMom
Amazing story ! Very interesting and well written ! I really loved it. Thank you
Amazing story ! Very interesting and well written ! I really loved it. Thank you
9/18/2016 c41 castle1958
Your story was indeed a great ride. I look forward to reading more from you in the future.
Your story was indeed a great ride. I look forward to reading more from you in the future.
9/12/2016 c41 
14Perspex13
And so the great ride finally comes to an end. I had to take some extra time to let this one settle and the read it again. I enjoyed that it wasn't a 'happily ever after,' and instead continued the theme of growth and investment that was laced throughout the whole tale. It's easy to imagine PND being an issue, and you worked that timing into the chapter very well. But we did get lots of happiness, too, for which I'm grateful!
Thank you so much for sharing this story with us. I'm really looking forward to seeing what's next from you!
14Perspex13And so the great ride finally comes to an end. I had to take some extra time to let this one settle and the read it again. I enjoyed that it wasn't a 'happily ever after,' and instead continued the theme of growth and investment that was laced throughout the whole tale. It's easy to imagine PND being an issue, and you worked that timing into the chapter very well. But we did get lots of happiness, too, for which I'm grateful!
Thank you so much for sharing this story with us. I'm really looking forward to seeing what's next from you!
9/9/2016 c41 3rdfah
I'm sure we're all looking forward to your next effort. Sometimes it's hard to believe that there's no season 9 just around the corner, so stories like yours help ease that disappointment.
I'm sure we're all looking forward to your next effort. Sometimes it's hard to believe that there's no season 9 just around the corner, so stories like yours help ease that disappointment.
9/8/2016 c41 ANN
LOVED THIS story
LOVED THIS story
9/7/2016 c41 Guest
I truly enjoyed reading this story. I kept me looking for new chapters. Thank you for writing it and even more for sharing it.
I truly enjoyed reading this story. I kept me looking for new chapters. Thank you for writing it and even more for sharing it.
9/7/2016 c41 Guest
This was good, the only that stuck out was, you talk about Kate deciding weather or not to travel and Castle's solution is to take the kids with because they aren't in school yet. The problem with that is that Lily is at least 6 so she most definitely should be in school, she would be in kindergarten or even 1st grade depending on when her birthday is.
This was good, the only that stuck out was, you talk about Kate deciding weather or not to travel and Castle's solution is to take the kids with because they aren't in school yet. The problem with that is that Lily is at least 6 so she most definitely should be in school, she would be in kindergarten or even 1st grade depending on when her birthday is.
9/7/2016 c41 Manxkid
A reviting story that I have so characters developed through the story and I enjoyed the ending as it tightly weaved through canon. I will look forward to your new stories.
A reviting story that I have so characters developed through the story and I enjoyed the ending as it tightly weaved through canon. I will look forward to your new stories.
9/7/2016 c41 dkfan
Oh, I too hate to see this epic story come to an end. Your writing took this fans on a ride that covered an emmense range of emotions. Highs, lows and all point in between. This story had quickly become a favorite and I looked forward to each and every chapter. Thank you so much for your dedication to these characters and their story. I miss the TV show so much, but through great stories such as yours, the dream lives on. Thank you again for your fantastic storytelling.
Oh, I too hate to see this epic story come to an end. Your writing took this fans on a ride that covered an emmense range of emotions. Highs, lows and all point in between. This story had quickly become a favorite and I looked forward to each and every chapter. Thank you so much for your dedication to these characters and their story. I miss the TV show so much, but through great stories such as yours, the dream lives on. Thank you again for your fantastic storytelling.
9/7/2016 c41 49Ilovetoread09
I've been awful at revieweing this story, but it's been lovely. Can't wait to see what else you write!
49Ilovetoread09I've been awful at revieweing this story, but it's been lovely. Can't wait to see what else you write!