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3MeghanthePagan
goodness me *wipes at eyes* That was a VERY moving chapter, how did I miss this update? I am currently downloading rise againsts album becuase of this chapter. *sob* great job!
3MeghanthePagangoodness me *wipes at eyes* That was a VERY moving chapter, how did I miss this update? I am currently downloading rise againsts album becuase of this chapter. *sob* great job!
6/16/2007 c17 7strawberrydevil
i think i've taken this story too personal now, seriously. not that i'm a sadist or like to exaggerate stuff but i have already decided that i 'died' when i was 18 too. yeah, many stuff happened during those teen years and most of them weren't nice. your story remind me about them but hell yeah, i'm still living! hurry and update more~!
7strawberrydevili think i've taken this story too personal now, seriously. not that i'm a sadist or like to exaggerate stuff but i have already decided that i 'died' when i was 18 too. yeah, many stuff happened during those teen years and most of them weren't nice. your story remind me about them but hell yeah, i'm still living! hurry and update more~!
6/12/2007 c17 hasleftthesite
Ha, finally. Sorry it took a while but there were some computer problems and then I didn't have time myself but enough about that. On to the chapter!
"Watari's leaving?" Gillie cries out, echoing Tsuzuki's cry.
I hope it's because Tatsumi has asked him to return so the genki scientist can help him to find a loophole so that Tsuzuki and Hisoka won't get torn apart in a few days.
And if I'm correct with my suspicion then it definitely won't be the last time Watari and Hisoka will see each other. Cause if Hisoka also becomes an angel then they'll be working partners.
Ah I totally agree about the music thing. For me it is also the lyrics that count. A song may have the most beautiful music but if the lyrics suck, than it sucks totally. I have a very wide range of music I like, going from classic to heavy metal, which most people find very strange but well that's what happens when you mostly look at lyrics. In every genre there are good lyrics.
Hm ... I wonder if Tsuzuki really did something to hurt other people or that he just thinks he hurt other people by being alive cause no one liked him.
I just love the colour of Tsuzuki's eyes. If I would ever meet someone with that kind of eye colour I wouldn't be afraid of that person or see it as a demonic sign. I would just want to become friends with that person and get to know more about him.
And damn there are the fireflies again. I really wish we had them also here in our country cause they are so beautiful but I really want to see them for real cause I'm sure television just doesn't do them justice. I think fireflies give the surroundings an ethereal glow.
I found it very cute how Hisoka changed the radio station when he noticed that the song was dragging up an unpleasant memory for Tsuzuki. In that single action you just saw how much Hisoka cares for Tsuzuki and how he doesn't want Tsuzuki to feel sad or bad or wants Tsuzuki to go through a bad memory.
"Last resort" was well very confronting seeing as I myself have also tried to commit suicide and the lyrics held so much truth. So much that is recognisable for me. In a way it described very good how I was feeling back then and how I had lost myself in the darker side of life. I think this was my favourite one of them all cause I could relate to it so much.
That case with Misaki was very sad. I felt so bad for Tsuzuki when I read it. Damn ... why did you have to come up with something that sad? Poor Tsuzuki (hugs Tsuzuki).
And yes it wasn't Tsuzuki's fault. The only thing any one can blame him for is that he tried to save Misaki. Just as with all the rest of what has happened in his past. The only thing that you can hold him accounted for is that he tries to save everyone even when he can't. And in those kids their cases who hated him and threw rocks at him and called him names Tsuzuki is only responsible for having been there at that time but that isn't even a crime cause he also had every right to be alive and exist. There really isn't anything Tsuzuki should blame himself for.
Had to smile at how Hisoka said that there wasn't much difference between an angel and a human. And maybe yes, maybe humans and angels aren't all that different. Definetely something to think about.
Ruka and Hisoka are really much alike aren't they? They both love(d) Tsuzuki, are (were) there for him, want(ed) him to be happy and they both have told him that his eyes aren't demonic but beautiful. I just couldn't get past the similarities here, sorry. But I'm glad that Tsuzuki has found once again someone like Ruka cause he needs someone like that in his life.
And so cute to have Hisoka being the one who did the comforting this time. It was a nice change and shows how much Tsuzuki also trusts Hisoka cause if Tsuzuki wouldn't trust Hisoka than he wouldn't have been so open about his feelings in front of the boy and he wouldn't have cried in front of Hisoka.
Nice chapter as always (I stats once again that I loved the previous chapter) and great songs. I had them playing while I was reading this to set the mood and to be able to really get into the chapter.
Till next time! Kisses and hugs
Gillie
Ha, finally. Sorry it took a while but there were some computer problems and then I didn't have time myself but enough about that. On to the chapter!
"Watari's leaving?" Gillie cries out, echoing Tsuzuki's cry.
I hope it's because Tatsumi has asked him to return so the genki scientist can help him to find a loophole so that Tsuzuki and Hisoka won't get torn apart in a few days.
And if I'm correct with my suspicion then it definitely won't be the last time Watari and Hisoka will see each other. Cause if Hisoka also becomes an angel then they'll be working partners.
Ah I totally agree about the music thing. For me it is also the lyrics that count. A song may have the most beautiful music but if the lyrics suck, than it sucks totally. I have a very wide range of music I like, going from classic to heavy metal, which most people find very strange but well that's what happens when you mostly look at lyrics. In every genre there are good lyrics.
Hm ... I wonder if Tsuzuki really did something to hurt other people or that he just thinks he hurt other people by being alive cause no one liked him.
I just love the colour of Tsuzuki's eyes. If I would ever meet someone with that kind of eye colour I wouldn't be afraid of that person or see it as a demonic sign. I would just want to become friends with that person and get to know more about him.
And damn there are the fireflies again. I really wish we had them also here in our country cause they are so beautiful but I really want to see them for real cause I'm sure television just doesn't do them justice. I think fireflies give the surroundings an ethereal glow.
I found it very cute how Hisoka changed the radio station when he noticed that the song was dragging up an unpleasant memory for Tsuzuki. In that single action you just saw how much Hisoka cares for Tsuzuki and how he doesn't want Tsuzuki to feel sad or bad or wants Tsuzuki to go through a bad memory.
"Last resort" was well very confronting seeing as I myself have also tried to commit suicide and the lyrics held so much truth. So much that is recognisable for me. In a way it described very good how I was feeling back then and how I had lost myself in the darker side of life. I think this was my favourite one of them all cause I could relate to it so much.
That case with Misaki was very sad. I felt so bad for Tsuzuki when I read it. Damn ... why did you have to come up with something that sad? Poor Tsuzuki (hugs Tsuzuki).
And yes it wasn't Tsuzuki's fault. The only thing any one can blame him for is that he tried to save Misaki. Just as with all the rest of what has happened in his past. The only thing that you can hold him accounted for is that he tries to save everyone even when he can't. And in those kids their cases who hated him and threw rocks at him and called him names Tsuzuki is only responsible for having been there at that time but that isn't even a crime cause he also had every right to be alive and exist. There really isn't anything Tsuzuki should blame himself for.
Had to smile at how Hisoka said that there wasn't much difference between an angel and a human. And maybe yes, maybe humans and angels aren't all that different. Definetely something to think about.
Ruka and Hisoka are really much alike aren't they? They both love(d) Tsuzuki, are (were) there for him, want(ed) him to be happy and they both have told him that his eyes aren't demonic but beautiful. I just couldn't get past the similarities here, sorry. But I'm glad that Tsuzuki has found once again someone like Ruka cause he needs someone like that in his life.
And so cute to have Hisoka being the one who did the comforting this time. It was a nice change and shows how much Tsuzuki also trusts Hisoka cause if Tsuzuki wouldn't trust Hisoka than he wouldn't have been so open about his feelings in front of the boy and he wouldn't have cried in front of Hisoka.
Nice chapter as always (I stats once again that I loved the previous chapter) and great songs. I had them playing while I was reading this to set the mood and to be able to really get into the chapter.
Till next time! Kisses and hugs
Gillie
6/10/2007 c17 7laustic
I love it when Hisoka comforts Tsuzuki. Honestly, I think he's the only one can truly do it although the others try. This is a really sweet and sad chapter. Good work.
7lausticI love it when Hisoka comforts Tsuzuki. Honestly, I think he's the only one can truly do it although the others try. This is a really sweet and sad chapter. Good work.
6/10/2007 c17 7catgrl106
Aw... that's sweet! How did Watari even get a radio if he was with Hisoka and Tsuzuki all the time? Eh, in any case, another wonderful chapter! Keep up the good work!
7catgrl106Aw... that's sweet! How did Watari even get a radio if he was with Hisoka and Tsuzuki all the time? Eh, in any case, another wonderful chapter! Keep up the good work!
6/10/2007 c17 11Lady of Revenge
That was such a pretty scene where Hisoka hugged Tsuzuki, I love this pairing. Very nice chapter, liked it. :) Oh..and when is our dear asshole Muraki gonna show up again to destroy Hisoka's life? ;(
11Lady of RevengeThat was such a pretty scene where Hisoka hugged Tsuzuki, I love this pairing. Very nice chapter, liked it. :) Oh..and when is our dear asshole Muraki gonna show up again to destroy Hisoka's life? ;(
6/2/2007 c16 hasleftthesite
I totally agree with Watari. I don't think the main reason Tatsumi sent Watari to Tsuzuki and Hisoka was so that he wouldn't blow things up anymore (although it's a nice bonus) but that he did it so that Watari can be there as a support for Tsuzuki and also so that they can follow up how close Tsuzuki is to the boy and thus make a decision whether or not they are going to help Tsuzuki or not when the time is there and Tsuzuki has to leave Hisoka when he doesn't want to. And yes, I am certain that those two will try to help our two to stay together, even if they have to go against the HIgher UPs.
As to why the Higher Ups send Tsuzuki when they know how attatched he always becomes to his charges, well ... I think they did it on purpose so that when they propose to Hisoka (after he died becuase of the curse) to come and work for them he will accept cause it will allow him to see Tsuzuki again and be with the man again. But also so that Tsuzuki will finally have some love and happiness in his life. So that Tsuzuki will have something to live for. My opinion anyway.
So are we going to get more info on that previous case where Tsuzuki got attached to his charge and went all out for his charge? It sounds interesting and I wouldn't mind to get some more background on the Tsuzuki in your story. So I hope Hisoka is going to dig into Tsuzuki's past those last days he has with Tsuzuki.
Tsuzuki is really lucky to have such good friends as Watari and Tatsumi who will do everything they can to help him. It's really sweet.
I believe that we are indeed in charge of our own fate yet there are some things that need to happen in our life so that we can learn from it and evolve and those things are already set in stone even before we are born. However the path we walk to come to these events is something we can choose ourselves just as what we learn from the preset events. So in a way I guess you could say that our freedom of will is absolute.
As for Tsuzuki wanting to be strong for Hisoka and not wanting to show his tears to Hisoka, know that sometimes you get more support out of someone who cries together with you than out of someone who pretends he can deal with it all.
And I can understand that Hisoka is once again back more inward cause as long as you don't get confronted with things or persons who will be a part of your destiny you can still pretend it won't happen but when for instance the one who is going to rape and curse you shows up in your life it gets a whole lot harder to pretend nothing is going to happen to you.
And Tsuzuki shouldn't worry cause something good, very good, will come forth out of all of this. Besides at this point something good has already come forth out of it all. Both have learned to love and what it is to be loved unconditionally, something many people never ever get to experience in their life. What was it that got said in Pocahontas? "I'd rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you."
Yes! Tsuzuki has managed to get past Hisoka's walls! That was the most beautiful thing to read in this entire chapter. I'm so happy now!
As for the most sad part, the way they all pretend like everything is fine and put that fake smile on their face when it would be so much better if all three of them were honest with each other cause then they could start working through it together. They can help heal each other.
You know this story kind of makes me think of the opening song for the tv show "Beauty and the Beast". The lines that get said there are just beautiful and in a way could belong in this story. Here they are:
"[Opening credits narration]
Vincent: This is where the wealthy and the powerful rule. It is her world...a world apart from mine. Her name...is Catherine. From the moment I saw her, she captured my heart with her beauty, her warmth, and her courage. I knew then, as I know now, she would change my life...forever.
Catherine Chandler: He comes from a secret place, far below the city streets, hiding his face from strangers, safe from hate and harm. He brought me there to save my life...and now, wherever I go, he is with me, in spirit. For we have a bond stronger than friendship or love. And although we cannot be together, we will never, ever be apart."
Loved the chapter. I just love introspectives cause they show us so much more about feelings and thoughts of the characters. So no, you absolutely didn't go wrong with this chapter as far as I'm concerned. Besides I think it fitted very well in with the rest of the chapters. Hope we'll get a new one when the rape and curse has happened and they get split up.
Kisses and hugs
Gillie
I totally agree with Watari. I don't think the main reason Tatsumi sent Watari to Tsuzuki and Hisoka was so that he wouldn't blow things up anymore (although it's a nice bonus) but that he did it so that Watari can be there as a support for Tsuzuki and also so that they can follow up how close Tsuzuki is to the boy and thus make a decision whether or not they are going to help Tsuzuki or not when the time is there and Tsuzuki has to leave Hisoka when he doesn't want to. And yes, I am certain that those two will try to help our two to stay together, even if they have to go against the HIgher UPs.
As to why the Higher Ups send Tsuzuki when they know how attatched he always becomes to his charges, well ... I think they did it on purpose so that when they propose to Hisoka (after he died becuase of the curse) to come and work for them he will accept cause it will allow him to see Tsuzuki again and be with the man again. But also so that Tsuzuki will finally have some love and happiness in his life. So that Tsuzuki will have something to live for. My opinion anyway.
So are we going to get more info on that previous case where Tsuzuki got attached to his charge and went all out for his charge? It sounds interesting and I wouldn't mind to get some more background on the Tsuzuki in your story. So I hope Hisoka is going to dig into Tsuzuki's past those last days he has with Tsuzuki.
Tsuzuki is really lucky to have such good friends as Watari and Tatsumi who will do everything they can to help him. It's really sweet.
I believe that we are indeed in charge of our own fate yet there are some things that need to happen in our life so that we can learn from it and evolve and those things are already set in stone even before we are born. However the path we walk to come to these events is something we can choose ourselves just as what we learn from the preset events. So in a way I guess you could say that our freedom of will is absolute.
As for Tsuzuki wanting to be strong for Hisoka and not wanting to show his tears to Hisoka, know that sometimes you get more support out of someone who cries together with you than out of someone who pretends he can deal with it all.
And I can understand that Hisoka is once again back more inward cause as long as you don't get confronted with things or persons who will be a part of your destiny you can still pretend it won't happen but when for instance the one who is going to rape and curse you shows up in your life it gets a whole lot harder to pretend nothing is going to happen to you.
And Tsuzuki shouldn't worry cause something good, very good, will come forth out of all of this. Besides at this point something good has already come forth out of it all. Both have learned to love and what it is to be loved unconditionally, something many people never ever get to experience in their life. What was it that got said in Pocahontas? "I'd rather die tomorrow than live a hundred years without knowing you."
Yes! Tsuzuki has managed to get past Hisoka's walls! That was the most beautiful thing to read in this entire chapter. I'm so happy now!
As for the most sad part, the way they all pretend like everything is fine and put that fake smile on their face when it would be so much better if all three of them were honest with each other cause then they could start working through it together. They can help heal each other.
You know this story kind of makes me think of the opening song for the tv show "Beauty and the Beast". The lines that get said there are just beautiful and in a way could belong in this story. Here they are:
"[Opening credits narration]
Vincent: This is where the wealthy and the powerful rule. It is her world...a world apart from mine. Her name...is Catherine. From the moment I saw her, she captured my heart with her beauty, her warmth, and her courage. I knew then, as I know now, she would change my life...forever.
Catherine Chandler: He comes from a secret place, far below the city streets, hiding his face from strangers, safe from hate and harm. He brought me there to save my life...and now, wherever I go, he is with me, in spirit. For we have a bond stronger than friendship or love. And although we cannot be together, we will never, ever be apart."
Loved the chapter. I just love introspectives cause they show us so much more about feelings and thoughts of the characters. So no, you absolutely didn't go wrong with this chapter as far as I'm concerned. Besides I think it fitted very well in with the rest of the chapters. Hope we'll get a new one when the rape and curse has happened and they get split up.
Kisses and hugs
Gillie
5/30/2007 c16 7catgrl106
Aww... that's sad... everyone just puts up a mask, and relies on hope... I think, in the end, Hisoka should become an angel and work as Tsuzuki's partner, and have that be the reason the people above them had Tsuzuki interact with him... but that's just my idea, you should do whatever you think of, 'cause this is really good so far!
7catgrl106Aww... that's sad... everyone just puts up a mask, and relies on hope... I think, in the end, Hisoka should become an angel and work as Tsuzuki's partner, and have that be the reason the people above them had Tsuzuki interact with him... but that's just my idea, you should do whatever you think of, 'cause this is really good so far!
5/30/2007 c16 7laustic
This was rather sad and a good chapter. I feel so bad for Tsuzuki and Hisoka. They've been through so much and I hope everything will work out for them.
7lausticThis was rather sad and a good chapter. I feel so bad for Tsuzuki and Hisoka. They've been through so much and I hope everything will work out for them.
5/26/2007 c15 3MeghanthePagan
*screams*
nononono poor Hisoka! I really want to kick Muraki! And Tsuzuki for not doing anything! *Pulls out hair* You didn't make the depression go away! Wah. *runs off to cry again*
3MeghanthePagan*screams*
nononono poor Hisoka! I really want to kick Muraki! And Tsuzuki for not doing anything! *Pulls out hair* You didn't make the depression go away! Wah. *runs off to cry again*
5/25/2007 c15 7laustic
That scary, the way Hisoka met Muraki. You wrote that scene so well. I do hope Hisoka will be okay. Great job with the chapter and keep up with the great work.
7lausticThat scary, the way Hisoka met Muraki. You wrote that scene so well. I do hope Hisoka will be okay. Great job with the chapter and keep up with the great work.
5/25/2007 c15 hasleftthesite
Well, Hisoka doesn't need to worry about being turned into a woman cause as far as I know Watari still hasn't managed to get this potion to work correctly. Of course he should worry about whatever else could happen to him should he be tricked into drinking one of Watari's potions.
But I can understand totally that those two are driving Hisoka up the wall cause alone they are already bad enough but when together they just amplify each other's bounciness and happiness. They're just two kids in elementary school, LOL. And yes they are fun to have around (they spice up your life) and yes there is no doubt about the fact that they do care about Hisoka.
And look what the cat dragged in, our favourite psycho doctor.
But why didn't Hisoka recognize Muraki from the start? He had already seen him when he delved into Tsuzuki's mind and discovered what was set aside for him in the future.
And eeweeh Muraki made his intentions already very clear. I wonder whether or not he has payed Hisoka's father or is going to pay Hisoka's father so he can have his way with Hisoka. It would just be something for Muraki to do and also for Hisoka's father to agree with.
"I need it because if Tsuzuki were to leave I doubt I would ever be warm again." such a sad line seeing as we already know that Tsuzuki will be forced to leave Hisoka after the rape and won't be allowed to see the boy again afterwards. I really hope they'll be able to find a loophole.
It seems like all the major players have finally made an appearance and that we are heading towards the dreadful event that will happen in a few days to Hisoka.
Kisses and hugs
Gillie
PS: You're welcome concerning the reviews. I'm just glad I'm able to keep up with you for the moment, LOL.
Well, Hisoka doesn't need to worry about being turned into a woman cause as far as I know Watari still hasn't managed to get this potion to work correctly. Of course he should worry about whatever else could happen to him should he be tricked into drinking one of Watari's potions.
But I can understand totally that those two are driving Hisoka up the wall cause alone they are already bad enough but when together they just amplify each other's bounciness and happiness. They're just two kids in elementary school, LOL. And yes they are fun to have around (they spice up your life) and yes there is no doubt about the fact that they do care about Hisoka.
And look what the cat dragged in, our favourite psycho doctor.
But why didn't Hisoka recognize Muraki from the start? He had already seen him when he delved into Tsuzuki's mind and discovered what was set aside for him in the future.
And eeweeh Muraki made his intentions already very clear. I wonder whether or not he has payed Hisoka's father or is going to pay Hisoka's father so he can have his way with Hisoka. It would just be something for Muraki to do and also for Hisoka's father to agree with.
"I need it because if Tsuzuki were to leave I doubt I would ever be warm again." such a sad line seeing as we already know that Tsuzuki will be forced to leave Hisoka after the rape and won't be allowed to see the boy again afterwards. I really hope they'll be able to find a loophole.
It seems like all the major players have finally made an appearance and that we are heading towards the dreadful event that will happen in a few days to Hisoka.
Kisses and hugs
Gillie
PS: You're welcome concerning the reviews. I'm just glad I'm able to keep up with you for the moment, LOL.
5/24/2007 c15 7catgrl106
Aww... that was sad... and short... but otherwise it's still really good. btw, you put "quite" instead of "quiet" which is what I am guessing you meant. Keep going at it!
7catgrl106Aww... that was sad... and short... but otherwise it's still really good. btw, you put "quite" instead of "quiet" which is what I am guessing you meant. Keep going at it!
5/20/2007 c14 barnacle-mermaid
hi,i'm a newbie. i've read your Photograph since the 1st chap. and i've been wondering when you're gonna update. i want to say that i kinda like your priest char. he's so funny (and i think he's kinda idiot too) and can make a cheerfull chapter for i believe it's going to be angst, right? (my half say yes, my other half say noo..) i'm sad cause Tsuzuki can't see Hisoka anymore. please don't make them feeling more pains. |.| but overal i like your story. keep your spirit up. thanks.
hi,i'm a newbie. i've read your Photograph since the 1st chap. and i've been wondering when you're gonna update. i want to say that i kinda like your priest char. he's so funny (and i think he's kinda idiot too) and can make a cheerfull chapter for i believe it's going to be angst, right? (my half say yes, my other half say noo..) i'm sad cause Tsuzuki can't see Hisoka anymore. please don't make them feeling more pains. |.| but overal i like your story. keep your spirit up. thanks.