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12/18/2020 c5 takers dark lover
Just read this story love it made me cry.
1/5/2018 c5 deletethisaccountffs
This is the most painful, beautiful fic I've read. i could barely read the last paragraph from all the tears. Thank you for writing this you are an amazing writer.
7/12/2016 c5 Pcgotmoose
I love angsty heart-rending fics, but it's rare to find one that captures the boys so perfectly and succeeds in actually making the tears flow- very well done.
11/29/2014 c1 6needcoffeetofunction
Ow fuck. Ow fuck. Ow fuck. Rip my heart out and crush it in your hands why don't you? T.T Oh god honey. This is so beautiful. The memories. The interchanging timelines. The narrative. Dialogue. Everything. Your Sam and Dean voices are so spot it's like I'm watching an episode of the show. Your writing style is brilliant, so vivid, so fucking perfect. God, it's just the first chapter and I'm reduced to hiccupping sobs. Dean, oh god Dean. His pain, his misery, his ugh. Famine didn't know shit about Dean. Dead inside. Ha fucking ha. Reading this, I almost wish he is because this is just.. too fucking much. I can't read the second chapter. My face is wet aomessed up. Gotta calm the fuck down first and watch fluffy wincest videos. Gosh, I hate you love you for doing this to my feels. *squeezes tight*
2/28/2014 c5 17SoulfulSam
Oh dear God woman, I'll say it again, YOU BREAK MY HEART! Of course, the last chapter was just the most touching and heartbreaking of them all because...dammit, it ends! The story ends, their time together ends, and they're heading out to make that ultimate sacrifice. I like how you say that they are both making the ultimate sacrifice here. Yes, Sam of course is being brave and his unselfish act of jumping into the pit is part of the incredibleness that is Sam Winchester. But I remember what really broke my heart about the whole thing is that Sam and Dean wouldn't have their heaven together anymore - no palling round with Ash and going to different heavens to visit their friends, or Johnny Cash, or drink white Russians with Albert Einstein, or whatever have you. And of course you mention that a little throughout the story and here at the end, how the worst part of it is that they NEVER see each other again, not even in the afterlife. In a way, Dean knows that he's dying too, and I appreciate how you conveyed that here. We always know that when one Winchester brother is dead, the other one is too, even if medically alive.

Of course both sex scenes were amazing. I love how you make their love making so touching and sweet and meaningful, even while they're hot as Hell. This last scene, though, was extra special because not only do I love me a bottom!Dean, but I love the reasons they chose to do it that way as their last time being together. Of course Dean wants and needs to be vulnerable with Sam, the only person he would ever do this with, one last time before they're parted forever, and of course he needs to feel so intimately connected to him in a way that makes him really feel Sam and the special connection they share. And then, of course, you just HAD to have them both crying as they literally go through the motions and it just killed me dead. I always enjoy how you bring out their desperate co-dependence.

With how vulnerable and tender they can be in the privacy of their own motel room, however, that ability still evaporates for Dean when they're out and about. Dean's slipping on the sunglasses so Sam won't see him crying was such a great, little macho-Dean detail. It's showtime, so he's got to put his game face on and wear that mask that he puts on for the rest of the world and often for Sam, too.

Your writing is always so much fun to read because it's so obvious that you really love the characters and you take such great care getting into their heads. I'm sure I've said it before and I'll say it again how you're also so simple and succinct with the great little details that make the story come alive. I can tell you have fun not only writing the sex scenes but also with the scenes as Sam and Dean as kids. I think those scenes are actually the best in the entire story, which was altogether of course very good. Any time you want to write something involving little Weechesters, I'll happily read it. Their moments together as children are so sweet and a little sad, but also fun. Thanks for this story. I'm sorry I took so long to read it, but I'm so glad I did. The world needs more great Wincest like yours.
2/28/2014 c4 SoulfulSam
The argument between the two of them about Lisa kind of surprised me - not that they had the argument, but the points Dean brought up in it: Sam asking him to chaperone school dances, do a 9-5 job, live in a regular home. Looking at Sam's request like that, it sounds kind of, well...insane. And it makes me think of Rufus Turner and his words to Dean: "I'm what you have to look forward to if you survive." And it's true; although Dean cared about Lisa, a lot of that year was pretending. Although he did take up golf, which was...odd. I liked that you had the two of them sort of joking around about it as they argued about Dean going off with Lisa. I feel like you capture a lot of that so beautifully in this one line, "okay, so I care about Lisa more than I ever cared about another woman, and maybe in another lifetime that would've meant something." Now you've got me thinking about the happy life he could have had if he hadn't been raised a hunter with this deep soul connection to his brother and, oh my God! It conjures up so many images that are beautiful and sad at the same time, especially since, no matter what, Dean can never have that. not even when Sam is pushing him to it and we know that Lisa is going to answer the door for him and let him right into her life.

Back to 2008, your half-spoken conversation between Sam and Dean while they were sitting on the hood at the drive-in was friggin' priceless. I LOVE it when they have their unspoken conversations because neither of them can say all the words they're thinking out loud. But in the end, the whole gesture - the black licorice, the re-watch of Indiana Jones IV, the brief make-out session - was bittersweet because the boys weren't really communicating like they needed to. Everything about this chapter - the arguments, the memories the boys' conversations - is so bittersweet. Dean's thoughts about whether or not he was evil, whether or not he was a demon are so spot-on with the thoughts I'm sure Dean had after he got back from Hell and Sam's forced physical comfort, while sweet and touching, is even sad and tragic not only because Dean feels weak and pathetic for accepting it but because we know from canon that Sam would later throw Dean's pain back in his face in Sex and Violence: "You're too busy crying about all the souls you tortured in Hell. Boo-hoo."

God, woman, you break my heart!
2/28/2014 c3 SoulfulSam
Oh, I totally forgot to mention it before, but I'm digging the lyrics you're putting at the opening of the chapters - they really fit in describing Sam and Dean through the years, I think. The story with the tattoos is really interesting, too. The added bit about them "binding them together" has me super curious - that feels like it could be a separate story unto itself. And, ooh, while you broke my heart again with that description of Sam's death at the end of S2 (the SADDEST moment in SPN history, I charge,) I absolutely LOVE that detail about how Dean knew the exact moment when Sam died because he could no longer feel that connection between them that he didn't even know was there until it was lost. Wonderful and terrible at the same time.

Getting back to 2010, Dean's slow break-down as he realizes all the implications of Sam leaving him again are wonderfully descriptive and wrenching. It's made so much more real by his thoughts back to all the other times he'd thought he'd lost Sam forever and it had almost killed him. I know, of course, what happens next, but I'm starting to think that he won't survive losing Sam again and I'm totally surprised he did in the canon. You do a great job showing how strong Dean's connection to Sam is in every way and how dead and lost he is without him. His sudden black-out when he shatters the glass in the bathroom felt so real to me and I felt was really spot-on with Dean's character.

I remember when a bunch of us talked on Twitter about that burger Sam ordered for Dean during the Mystery Spot episode. Was it Andie who first posted that photo and mentioned it? Anyway, I'm glad you incorporated it into the fic; it's one of those awesome little gifts the creators of the show gave us and it completely deserves to be given some recognition on here. When I first saw that shot in the episode, my heart just shattered into a million little pieces. Putting it down on paper here is such a great way to pay homage to it.
2/28/2014 c2 SoulfulSam
That's a really interesting thought that "maybe Sam wouldn't have [gone] if Dad hadn't fucking double dog dared him to walk out that front door." I hadn't really thought of it like that before, but you're right; they're both so stubborn, that totally could have been the final push Sam needed. And I love that image in the next couple of sentences about Sam "stomping down the sidewalk like a petulant little brat." He could have been 17 or 7 in this image, and I think it's a great use of language describing how Dean still in many ways thinks of Sam like he's still a chubby twelve-year-old. There are so many great, rich details in your scenes and in your dialogue, like in your deleted scene where the boys are fighting after Dean let their dad go when the daevas attacked them. Dean's voice is especially spot-on: "Thanks for repeating yourself, because it wasn't painful enough hearing the first time around." So great. I also appreciated your take on their sex life in recent years, in that they hadn't done it much since before Dean went to Hell. That makes sense; their relationship go so strained at the end there right before Dean went to Hell and EVERYONE remembers the agony of S4. S5 was about them slowly re-building their relationship and so it breaks my heart a little bit, but it makes sense that they wouldn't have had sex on a regular basis after that. I suppose really you could say they were hardly even together for most of S4 and the beginning of S5. And then, of course, the sex scene here is so sweet and touching and hot all at the same time. Awesome chapter. I'm gonna stop gushing right now 'cause I can't wait to get to the next one!
2/28/2014 c1 SoulfulSam
Oh my God, this is so HEARTBREAKING! You're doing an excellent job, dear. I especially love the linear interspersion of moments in Sam and Dean's childhood mixed with this heartbreaking night. I love how you always manage to not only make it all feel so real, but how you can make these childhood brotherly moments and their teenage and adult not-so-brotherly moments feel like a logical progression. It's just SO GOOD. You are so artful at capturing the boys when they are boys at play: the details you pepper in there about the Legos and Sammy dancing on the couch in his terrible twos phase, Sam getting jelly all over himself trying to make himself and Dean sandwiches, just...all of it. It's so clear, uncluttered, and vivid. And you know the boys so well that the dialogue just flows so naturally between them and I can hear them saying every single word. The whole little bit when Sam is arguing with Dean about being taught how to drive at 12 and Dean's line about "nice arguments, Matlock," just made me burst out laughing. You capture their voices perfectly! And your last line here in the chapter, the "please...Sammy, don't leave me," just...wow. I'm at a loss for how Sam could even have the strength to leave that motel room and say 'yes' to the Devil after that plea. Anyone made of any lesser stuff than Sam woulda just marched his ass out of that room and told Bobby and Cas that they were calling it off. I totally can't wait to see what happens in the next chapter.
12/28/2013 c5 Nicolene B
Wow.. This was beautifully amazing! I loved it!
10/16/2013 c2 5Kazamigorical
Absolutely adore the flashbacks, especially when there is high tension and conflict. I love how your write their arguments. This is why I loved Cathryn Humphris too. Her conflict was spot on. And that is vital when it comes to these two. Has to be the right kind and stem from the right stuff. On both sides. You do that and I appreciate it greatly
So sad with the Sam leaving Dean stuff again but in flashback that is okay because we have been there and we know that. I think you dealt with that really well and loved how you showed Sam being stubborn and a ‘petulant little brat’ but still deep down wanting Dean to come with him.
Your use of the cold was awesome. Loved how it continued and even though Dean was raging he was still feeling it.
Awesome dialogue here "You're smart enough to score a full ride to a place like Stanford and you can't figure out that's not gonna happen?" I chuckled.
Again, really loved how Sam never wanted to leave Dean. I wish the show gave us that as well.
Adorable that Dean chose to drive Sam to the bus station and the giving him money? Awww. Beautiful.
You really give both sides of the story and make your reader feel for both boys. That’s vitally important.
.God. THIS. For some reason I simply LOVED this. How good was THIS?
"Sam, I'm gonna go to the bathroom now," Dean said slowly and calmly; sarcastic expression all over his face. "So, could you please hold that thought for a minute? 'Cause I sure as hell wouldn't wanna miss a fucking word of the same goddamn argument we've been having for the last two fucking hours!" Dean stomped to the bathroom, leaving the door open.
Hahahaha. Priceless. I want to print that out and carry it around with me for always and ever.
Fantastic how you threw some humor into your story too with the bathroom. I love that they do all they do but Dean is modest about that. Classically cute.
The talk about John rocks my work. Have you done a whole story with those three and Sam and him fighting? Just FYI, I need that.
Dean calling Sam’s face pretty? Indeed!
This line too:
"Okay. Thanks for repeating yourself then. You know, 'cause it wasn't quite painful enough the first time around. Can I get up now?"
You are simply magical. Arrghhh, love that. What angst fan wouldn’t?
And then Sam being upset and Dean being upset? Yes please!
You really enjoy writing their sex don’t you? I can tell. I can understand why they’d both want that and how they would be fighting words at that time. You made it so that what they were doing said it all. (And it was hot I admit).
Overall I feel really bad this has taken me so long to read. Your style of writing is absolutely my favourite style of writing. I did a writing course once and was taught by an author who said writing simply is a skill. I think we both do that and we don’t stop the writer’s flow by using words we’d have to stop and look up. I thank you for that because if a writer is obsessed with showing off their smarts instead of thinking about the characters – and the reader, it puts me off. You have never once put me off.
Anyway, LOVED your feisty flashbacks in this one. Really, really enjoyed reading every single word and just want more. I always get disappointed when one of your flashbacks end. They are right up my alley.
I try to disengage a little from the here and now. That’s depressing but that isn’t to say I didn’t fricken tear up again because I did but I forget where and I am not going to look back because I will just get depressed again. Let’s just accept I did and move on lol.
Another amazing, fantastical chapter! Loved it! Thank you for all that dialogue gold too! SImply amazing :)
10/13/2013 c1 Kazamigorical
I got through the chapter in one piece! I don't believe it. And what an amazing chapter it was! You really do have these boys down and I love, love, love them. As little ones, I just constantly melted. .ever! You did so well there. You can tell you are a mother and have all the experience. When you write, I can picture eveything so vividly. I absolutely love your writing.

So heartbreaking too. Too heartbreaking. You really know how to go there, don't you? And you have no pity on your audience either lol. No pity on poor little ME! Waaaaa!

I am so envious on how you describe what they are doing; their actions and the descriptions. Your dialogue is wonderful as well. Everything is! You know that. I just love reading your stories.

Stupid me though. Stupid, stupid me thought it was a gen fic and then when I realised I was all "Ohhhhhh, of course!" hahaha. You know how to really show (and not just tell) intimacy between these two as well.

Poor, poor Dean. How can he let his soulmate go? Same with Sam, and you know what! You are writing Sam caring and upset and worrying about Dean. That's novel (and it is exactly what I need at the moment.) None of this "I'm going Dean because that is what I want to do!" Yay frickin YAY! I love getting both sides even if it is narrated by Dean. That is a skill. Sam is not just going through motions, we are getting an insight with him through words, actions and even when sitting still. You are a champion.

I love this story, adore it. Your writing is easy to read yet captivating and just so damn good. It is impressive and so is your understanding of the boys. Bobby and Cas as well. I cannot believe you wrote it on your phone! What the...?

Fantastic first chapter. I am looking forward to the next to see all the bits we never got to see. Coming from you and your words makes it all the better. I am sadly depressed now but for you to invoke these feelings in me just goes to show the power you have with your writing. But in saying that, there was a lot to feel fuzzy about too. You managed both. I am still depressed but I think i am supposed to be. It is a depressing time - even though it brings out all those loving emotions...and acts of love...haha.

I am so glad I asked about this story and you showed me. Thank you. You are fantabulous!
8/24/2013 c5 2JamesParker
Fantastic and heart breaking, right up until the end. That can't have been easy to write, and I'm glad you didn't shy away from the description or the emotion of their last moment alone together. Wow.
Thanks for this story. I loved it.
JamesParker
8/24/2013 c4 JamesParker
Very nice! One more chapter to go, and although my robot heart has not allowed me to cry, I got a little choked up.

This: "I know, Dean, but we have to talk about it. Y'know, when you went to Hell, I totally lost it. I drank myself stupid every day. I tried to open the Devil's Gates again. I went to dozens of crossroads and tried to deal with any and every demon I could find. Hell, I was so fucked up, I ended up trusting a demon and drinking her friggin' blood." Is exactly what I was thinking about Sam's time apart from Dean. Exactly.

Beautiful writing and description. The dialog is spot on.
One chapter to go,
JamesParker
8/24/2013 c3 JamesParker
The Mystery Spot is one of my favorite (and least favorite) episodes. It wrecked Sam, and it actually helped me to like him more. I really like that Sam brought up his coping mechanism in this chapter, and I'm glad you addressed all the times they've lost each other...they always seem to find one another regardless of obstacles. It makes me curious as to what the actual end of the series might be. At least we have our fanfic to expand on it, right?

Another chapter with genuine feeling and heartache. Nothing flowery or girly, just realness...thank you.
JamesParker
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