AN: This has been in my head since the episode first aired and I finally decided to give it a go. My first story. One-Shot. Thanks for reading :)

I wish I could…I wish I could kiss you.

I wish…

I had given you an honest answer the other night about where we're going. I want us to go forever

For the chance to get down on one knee and ask you to marry me with the ring in the back of the safe

I could see the tears in your eyes and white of your dress on our wedding day

We could spend more lazy nights at the loft by the fire with glasses of wine, just you and me

For more mornings when all we do is listen to each other breathe

To hear you laugh at my jokes that I know aren't funny

I could hold you close and never let you go

You knew how much I love you; I would tell you every day if I thought you were ready to hear it

I could show you the stories and poems I have written just for you

I told you the real reason I chose you to be my inspiration for Nikki Heat; because you're courageous, selfless, you tirelessly fight for justice, you never give up, and because you're tall.

For a blue-eyed brunette with your smile and my humor to light up our lives

We could grow old together, spoiling our grandchildren and teasing each other about our gray hair

you weren't standing on this bomb

…So many things