This is a Nalu fanfic about a stronger Lucy. I can't stand her being so weak.

What I Could Be

Chapter 1

Lucy's POV

Never use it unless you absolutely have to, absolutely. Got that, Lucy? That what my mother always told me. Never use my real power unless I needed to. Unless it was a completely life or death situation. I knew that, but still, it hurt sometimes, seeing the looks on Natsu, Wendy, and Gajeel's faces. Despite how crybaby I might seem, I'm actually very good at bottling up emotions, or rather, replacing them with others. It's strange, the irony of it all. Fairy Tail has 3 Dragon Slayers, well 4, if you include Laxus. They all search for one thing, their parents. I could answer all their questions, all their worries, everything that has to with dragons, and yet, I can't. It hurts. I signed for probably the hundredth time today.

"Is something the matter? You seem kind of down." I looked up at Mirajane behind the counter of Fairy Tail's bar, washing dishes. She gazing at me, worry in her eyes. "You've been sighing a lot."

As if to prove her point, I sighed again. "It's nothing really, I'm just feeling kinda useless."

"Useless?" said Mira, surprised. "Lucy, you're not useless. True, you're not as strong as the rest of you're team, but still, you are not just some pretty face."

I smiled at her words. "Maybe. It's just that on the last mission, I got captured. Natsu and the others had to save me. I felt so useless, since my keys were stolen, and I was so desperate that I almost did that."

"'That'?" asked Mira.

"Oh, you know, the-" I stopped mid-sentence, realizing what I had almost said. "Never mind."

Mira looked confused, but thankfully didn't press. I stood up. I needed to clear my head. "Mira, please tell my team that I've gone on a...vacation, if you will. Make sure that they don't follow me and I'll be back in two days."

She frowned. "Are you sure about this? If you need someone to talk to, I'll be glad to listen. Levy, too."

I nodded and turned to exit the guild. Natsu and Grey were arguing over something, but I didn't want to stop and bother with them. I trudged along the walkway, feeling miserable. I didn't really get why I was so into depression right now, perhaps it was just the whole enormity of my problem finally hitting me. Such odd timing.

"Hey, Luce? You okay?" Natsu's voice tore me from my sulking. Crap, I can't face him right now!

"I'm fine, really!" I said, trying and failing to make my voice sound happy and cheery.

Natsu narrowed his eyes. "You're not. I know you well enough to be able to tell that." I winced. I really didn't want to deal with him right now. I only deepened my unexplainable misery.

I got to the point. "Natsu, you can't help me right now. Go away." His eyes widened at my rudeness, giving me an opportunity to slip past him and through the door. I turned and walked down the street, trying to put as much distance between us as possible. I was pretty sure that a train would leave for the north in about 10 minutes. Perfect.

I wanted to go visit my father's old estate. There was something important there that I needed to see.

Natsu's POV

"Natsu, you can't help me right now. Go away." Lucy words echoed in my head and made my ears ring. She had just brushed me off. I had only been trying to help, why was she being mean to me? Then again, this is Lucy, and she's always weird. Perhaps she just had a problem. But if that was the case, then she should have come to see me or Happy. We were her best friends for Mavis' sake! Something didn't seem right about this.

I shook my head to get out top this daze. Turning I decided to go ask Mira. If anyone she would know what's going on, it would be her.

"Hi, Mira," I said, sitting at the counter. She was washing dishes and frowning, which was unusual. "Do you know what's wrong with Lucy?"

Mira's frown deepened and she looked sadly at me. "She did seem really miserable about something. But she told me to tell you that she was going on vacation for a few days and not to follow her."

"What?" That was even more unusual. "I'm going after her!"

"For once I won't stop you," sighed Mira. "She looked like she really needed a friend."

I nodded and raced from the guild. I had spent to much time there already. Lots of people milled around outside, but Lucy's scent was distinct and easy to follow. It led me straight to...the train station. Crap.

I followed her trail to edge of a platform, where it faded. She had probably gotten on the last train to be here.

I turned to a nearby police man and urgently asked, "What was the last train to be here?"

The police man looked at me disapprovingly but said, "The last train to leave this platform was an express train going north. It will stop at the old Heartfilia mansion and then continue to Breckenridge." The mansion.

"Do you know how I can get to the Heartfilia's place?"

The guy looked at me, then said, "You can take that train over there. But you'd better hurry, it'll leave any second now." He pointed to a platform behind me. I nodded a quick thanks that ran straight over the other tracks and onto the train.

"Young man! I'll arrest you for that!" He waved a stick at me. I stuck out my tongue as the train started moving. Unfortunately, I had forgotten about my motion sickness, so I doubled over in pain, fighting the urge to throw up.

"Are you okay?" asked a timid voice. I looked up to see a girl about Wendy's age with shoulder length brown hair looking at me quizzically. I groaned.

"M-motion s-sickne-ess sucks. Wake me at the Heartfilia stop." The girl seemed surprised, but nodded. I promptly passed out.

Lucy's POV

The mansion hadn't changed at all since I last saw it. The white bricks were a little grayer and the holes had been fixed, but other than that, it was about the same. However, there was only one thing I wanted to see here.

I looked around making sure no one was following me and then I scanned the lawn carefully. A grove of pine trees lay nested against the fence on the south side. They looked very out of place. I walked towards them.

This grove had once been called Little Lucy's Hideout. My mother and I had hung out there and played there when I was little. She taught me many secret things there, away from prying eyes and ears. Out of all the places in the Heartfilia land, this held the most memories for me.

I gently brushed away the overgrow needles and stepped inside. It was dim and smelled strongly of pines. The ceiling was high and dirt was fashioned to make chairs. The forest had been invading the last 14 years, so it was covered in twigs, but I could still recognize my old playhouse.

In the center of the room, there was a statue. It was about 3 feet tall, and made of solid gold. The statue was that of a dragon. Upon seeing it, all the emotion I couldn't express came flowing out. My knees felt weak and I dropped to the ground.

"Oh, Mom," I choked, tears falling from my eyes. "I did as you asked, I never told anyone, not even my father. I never said that you were a dragon, why all the dragons disappeared, or that I'm a Celestial Dragon Slayer. But I don't know if I can do it any longer, it hurts too much, seeing the look on Natsu's face..." I trailed off.

"You're a Dragon Slayer?" Natsu's voice tore me from my thoughts for the second time that day. He's here. Fear welled up inside me like a fountain. He heard what I said. Oh, I should have known he would follow me!

Slowly, I turned around. Natsu was watching me from the entrance of the pine grove. He held the needles to the side and the sinking sun was at his back, making it almost impossible for me to see his face. His pink hair blended into the background so perfectly, that I wondered if he had been made to stand there.

Mira was right, I did need someone to talk to. I rushed to my feet and threw my self at Natsu, wrapping my hands around him tightly.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I wailed over and over again. "I'm sorry...that I never told you." Natsu seemed surprised by my actions, but he wrapped his hands around me and stroked my hair.

"What are you sorry about? It great that you're a Dragon Slayer." He laughed softly. "Now you'll be as strong as me, huh?"

"So, you're not mad at me?" I asked.

"Why should I be? I don't get why you never told me, but I suppose you have your reasons. But, you said you know why the dragons disappeared, right? Does that mean you know where Igneel is?" His voice took on a familiar level of hope. I gulped.

"No, I don't know where he is, I'm sorry. I really wish I did. Then I could help you." I clung onto Natsu tighter and he pulled me deeper into his chest. I whimpered sadly, feeling like a lost kitten. Everything was so complicated and I was tired.

"Don't tell anybody, okay?" I whispered into his ear.

"Why?" he asked, but I was already asleep.

So, here's a new one. Nalu is the best! Oh, and Lucy is a half-dragon so she can use dragon magic which would be categorized as Dragon Slaying Magic. Also, should I continue, or make this a one-shot? Thanks!