8ANGELA was nervous,
She had just arrived at Tony's hospital Room
And Together they would find out how HIS CANCER was PROGRESSING.
PROGRESSING! OH LORD! HOW SHE HOPED it WASN'T!
VERY Quietly, but with a Modicum of Excitement, she wandered into his room.
It had been only 2 Days since she saw him,
tho it felt like 2 YEARS.
She missed him SO MUCH, that her heart literally ACHED for him.
She never thought that she would feel that way about a man again,
not since the failure of her marriage, but even then to Michael she never
felt the strong aching pangs of loneliness She felt
when she was apart from Tony.
Before Tony came along, she was a strong self sufficient woman
looking after her son, single handed, except for the help of her mother.
Her mother Mona, always spoiled Jonathon and let him have anything he wanted, which would have been alright if Not for the fact, he got away with too much.
But not Tony, the minute he came into their lives, he even had him
eating healthy eggs, instead of the "crunchy crawlers" he loved Too Much.
She and Tony had been through so much, first when they were single parents, he as a Widower, and She as a Divorcee.
Then THEY met, and suddenly there was that spark of electricity
That Has Never DIED.
Heaven Knows, they had Tried to deny it for 8 LONG YEARS.
Including the times they BOTH entertained Other Suitors.
Until they both Couldn't Deny it any longer, by that time
She nearly gave up on HIM, but like she Told her Therapist,
"Doctor Bellows",SHE Once again was the one to do the Running.
SHE told HIM FIRST "I love You", of course not out loud ,
but the Words were written on the back of a Watch
Which was an Anniversary Present for him, from her.
At least she was Spared that, She may have had to bring the conversation up first, but he spoke the Words first.
She Did however have to PROPOSE To him, but to be fair, he popped the question first. Not just once, but twice , the second a very elaborate plan
With a Blimp in the sky with the words " Marry Me Angela"
If she had been honest with herself, it was rather romantic and if not for knowing the family talked him into it, they may have been married not long after that proposal.
"Its just as well mother never witnessed My Proposal to Tony, Mother would have lived on those jokes for the rest of her life". Angela, chuckled to herself.
Of course it still took 2 years for them to make it down the altar,
Although at the time she was despairing of it ever happening,
One day tony, hijacked her from work, brought her home, and they along
With Mona and the Kids, enjoyed a spontaneous wedding service that Tony and Angela's friends had been planning for 2 weeks, without their knowledge
If it hadn't been for Tiny's big mouth, Tony would not have known either.
One night Tony was out with the boys, Tiny being Tiny, had one too many beers and let it slip to Tony. Tony then got angry at his friends, but after awhile thought as long as Angelas friends were in on it too, it at least would have abit of taste. And as they could never get it together, they thought it would be less stressful to let them do it. Eventually Angela agreed to it, and they were married at home. Angela wore a Beautiful Creme velvet dress, that showed off her long legs. In her hair she wore a white comb with pearls adorned on it. She carried a bouquet of roses( pink of course).
Tony looked so handsome and sexy, her friends were envious of Angela that day.
He wore a black tuxedo, had a carnation in his lapel
and he had his hair combed the way Angela loved, that made her want to put her hands through it. She loved doing that to Tony, and it made him crazy, just the mere touch of Angelas hand to any part of him, and he could feel himself lose control.
He'd often think to himself " that's because we've kept our feelings bottled up so long they had to leak out sometime"
They also had a wonderful Honeymoon, but could only go as far as a New York Hotel. A very lavish expensive hotel, mind you, but not a very long vacation.
They both had to return to work, so they promised each other when they got back they would make time for each other, " couple time", every night of their married life.
Now going through the toughest time of their lives, she would often remember that promise" Couple Time", they needed that more than they ever did. Time to help each other through, because for a Man like Tony who not only CANT stand being Helpless and someone else's mercy( namely Cancer), but his Libido was taking a severe jolt too.
Ever since their marriage, they couldn't get enough of a each other, Tony was always the one to start the fooling around, then it would get so passionate they would often lie their spent for half an hour. Then Tony would get his second wind and it would often be Angela who had to stop it.
She often said to Herself "where in heaven's name does he get the energy, it's like he's trying to prove something to himself". Then she would say to Tony
"You know Tony, I'm not going anywhere, we have all the time in the world to love each other, don't wear yourself, or me out honey".
As Angela remembered those words, she felt a tear sting her eye.
Once her thoughts were back on the task at hand, she stuck her head around The door and called,
"Hi Sweetheart, Ive missed you, how are you Feeling".
Tony glanced up from The Sports Mag he was reading and looked excitedly at Angela.
"Angela Beautiful, It's SO GOOD to see YOU, come here and give me a kiss".
Angela rushed over, but then remembered she told the Doctor, she would be very careful not to let Tony overdo things. He'd just finished Radiation Therapy, the day before and he would be sore and tired.
While she remembered that, she also didn't want Tony to feel like an invalid, he hated that more than anything she knew, so she sat on the bed wrapping her arms tightly around his neck, and leaned in for a soft touch of the lips.
When Tony deepened the kiss, and she could feel him becoming aroused, she suddenly stopped and pulled away.
"Now Tony, you know wer'e not allowed to do any of that, especially in a hospital bed. Wait till your feeling abit better, and you're back home"!
"AAAANNNGGGEEELA!"
WE BOTH know this may be as good as I'll ever feel again, I mean this may be it for me. Can't we at least cuddle and kiss?, I Miss You so much"
Knowing it was futile arguing with Tony, she tried reasoning with him
I miss you like hell too Tony, you know that, but I refuse to upset your recovery or cause you any pain. It's been no bed of roses for me either, I need you so much and too think of my life without you is too much to bear.
"I also miss our intimacy, having you hold me at night, making love into the early morning. Tony Micelli, I want and need to grow old with you, but how can I do that if your no longer around? I'm Begging you Tony, please don't fight me on this. I love you and to lose you would be like losing part of myself.
Please Help ME!"
With that she sobbed so uncontrollably,
Not only did Tony take her in his arms and rock her, the Nurses station was alerted by the noise coming out of Tony's room.
Nurse Jones, a 40 something no nonsense , nurse said.
"What's going on in here, Mr Micelli, you should be in bed. Who is this woman"?
She looked at Angela, Distastefully.
"Nurse, this is MY VERY BEAUTIFUL and VERY emotional wife, and HER name is ANGELA, NOT, THIS WOMAN" Don't ever call her that again!
And with that Nurse Jones "tut tutted, to herself and bowed out of the room.
"Thankyou, Tony for sticking up for me, I didn't mean to break down, I guess it's the strain. Do you know we haven't even talked about the rest of the family".
"I know Ange, but I haven't seen YOU for 2 days, and I guessed if anything major happened YOU would have Told me".
Tony then walked over and pulled some tissues from the box and handed them to Angela, she smiled in Appreciation.
They both skirted over the one issue that was left dangling in the air.
"Okay Tony, when is the Doctor going to come by with the results?"
"Way to change the subject about US. You know we're going to have to talk about when we can resume our love life, sooner or later. I can't wait Much Longer Ange. "Angela still couldn't believe that after his radiation, he still felt like making love.
" He really is Italian," She said to herself.
"Tony, it's only been a week "
"A week too long, I need you baby".
I need you Too Tony, but I happen to think that RIGHT NOW, YOUR health is way more important. Without your health, you wouldn't have the strength anyway!"
"Okay, Just promise me , the minute he gives us the A - okay we can go home and shut out the world for a week. Cause when I'm through with you, I'm gonna put that smile back on those lovely sweet lips of yours".
"When you talk like that, I can't refuse you anything, and you know it. Sweetie.
"Just know this, when the doctors give the go ahead, I'll be there for you every step of the way, and when they say we can start fooling around again, you'll have to race me to the bedroom"
"You know. Whatever the outcome, I love you so much, and I'm in this for the long death us do part, in sickness and in health. Forever and ever"
"I know and I'm grateful, for it Ange, but let's face it neither of us expected in Sickness to be so soon"
"Well let's not look on the dark side just yet, when is the doctor coming around"?
"His rounds start at 5pm, can you come back later"?
"Tony I think you forget sometimes I'm the boss, I took the day off today, maybe even the week, if you need me".
"My darling Angela, I will always need you, and yes I could do with the support, so Thankyou for always being my ROCK!"
"My pleasure tony, and know this too, I will NEVER EVER leave your side Ever. "
And with that they embraced and fell onto the bed. He kissed her long and hard, and then remembered what he promised her.
She for her part, suggested they get into the bed and cuddle, just cuddle
And so they did.
Both falling fast asleep, but both hoping and praying for the BEST