9Chapter 4 Song: 'Let's Get Lost' - Beck & Bat for Lashes
A/N: Hey guys! I'm alive! So, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things as a writing exercise. So, I'm going to start writing again. I am going to be working on this story, Bring Him Home, and Forbidden. Please work with me though as I'm now dealing with college (Yeah, that's a thing now. How'd that happen? I started this story at like 14).
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight.
Chapter 4: Let's Get Lost
BPOV
I looked at Edward in awe, emotion rushing through me. Sadness, hope, joy, confusion, and most of all – love. The fact that Edward was here, alive, and holding our children. I didn't know how to respond, but I could feel the tears in my eyes as I gazed at him. Wiping the liquid from my eyes, I lifted the now sleeping Riley and gently set her into the waiting pack 'n play. I gently took my fingers and stroked her forehead.
Moving over to where Edward sat I gently sat next to him. He was playing with our son's fingers, making him giggle. Mindlessly, I started fidgeting with my engagement ring. Edward noticed, and stopped his game with Anthony and grasped my left hand.
"You still wear it" he whispered, emotion filling his voice. I nodded, remembering when he had placed it on my finger, over a year ago.
"I couldn't bear to remove it. It was a connection to you." I said quietly. Edward placed Anthony onto the blanket laid out on the floor in front of us and wrapped his arms around me. Questions flew through my mind; would he still want to marry me? What if he no longer wanted me? What if this was too much for him? I didn't know how I would survive if he left me.
"I still want to marry you", he stated simply after a few quiet minutes. He looked up into my eyes, "I love you, and I know it's not plausible until we graduate, but I want to marry you." I looked back at him, unsure how to respond. Of course, I still wanted to marry him, and I had only dreamed of getting the chance to after his accident, but a part of me was wary. I wasn't sure why. I loved this man.
"I love you too, and I want to marry you; but I agree, I think that we should wait." I looked at the clock, it was getting pretty late and I didn't want Charlie to see Edward, it would be too difficult to explain.
I was so overwhelmed with joy. Edward was here, alive, and holding our children. It was amazing, I hadn't thought that they would have a chance to meet, but he was here. He was here. I didn't even realize that I was crying tears of happiness until Edward reached out and wiped the tears from my cheeks and kissed under my eye. I stood up and brought Riley over to her pack 'n play. She looked up at me with her big green eyes and smiled. I ran my fingers through her soft brown hair and sat on the couch, enjoying the view of Edward playing with our son's fingers and making him giggle. I twiddled my engagement ringer on my finger, which I've never taken off and looked at Edward.
"Can we still get married?" I asked him. I still wanted to be his wife, and to be by his side, but I didn't know if that was what he would want. He looked at me with such tenderness and said,
"I would love nothing more than to make you my wife. I want to be your husband." He continued, "It's not an ideal time now, but definitely in the near future. We can make this work." I looked up at him with happiness shining through a smile on my face. Nodding I replied,
"I want to be your wife." I paused, glancing at the clock again. He really needed to leave, "but right now it would be easier for you to leave. If Charlie sees you he'll definitely have questions." He had explained to me a little about the Volturi and I wanted to make sure that we would keep our relationship a secret.
"I'll be back, leave your window unlocked. I'll see you tonight." He said, not wanting to depart. I smiled as he kissed both of our children on the forehead and walked out the door. It was then that I noticed that his car was missing and he had disappeared. Probably the "vampire speed" he had talked to me about earlier. I saw Charlie's cruiser down the road and decided to wait on the porch for him. My dad parked and got out of the car.
"Hey Bells, you doing alright now?" he came up and looked at me, concerned. We walked into the house and sat down in the living room. Him in the new recliner and me on the couch we had brought from Chicago. The littles were still quiet, each having fallen asleep. I gently moved Anthony into the pack 'n play with his sister.
"Yeah, I think I just had a difficult day. It was hard going back to school. I found myself missing the twins and…" I trailed off.
"Edward." My dad finished for me, "I know it's hard now, but it will get easier, dealing with the pain. I'm not saying that it'll go away, but it will become more manageable." He blushed, my dad was a man of few words and it wasn't often that he would open up like this and talk about his feelings. I knew that he was thinking of my mother. I nodded, thinking about how it had already become easier, and mentally smiling that I'd get to see him again tonight.
"Thanks dad." I changed the subject, "You know, we still haven't gone grocery shopping. Do you want to order pizza?" Just like that the mood shifted and Charlie rose to get the delivery menus.
"Pepperoni sound good?" he asked.
" Sure" I responded, but my mind was elsewhere, thinking about the man I loved and the fact that he was alive.