My happiness has always been gone, even when I was just a baby.

I came to a new family, they took care of me.. Even so I was not happy, then my sister has been cruel to me until I was teenage.

I couldn't even talk until age 7 or 8, no one didn't know my feelings.

How sad or angry I was, even they saw my "happy" face they couldn't know it was just a fake one, just- a mask... For hiding my real self.

None understand how much it takes of my heart, only sadness and hatred and just little happiness or I call it my li'l light.

Only for the lovely animal I had taken care of, just the moment she was born, and the weird word loneliness..

None of the feeling decrease.. Just stopping little while, then increase again..

Continues later..