13Just so you know this will be starting after Natsu's parents and sister died, its mostly for me to remember all the crap I need to include in my story...I hope its interesting enough.
Its been six days. Six days since my village was destroyed, six days since mom, dad, and nee-san died. Its still hurts to think about it, I'm crying again. I feel so weak. I couldn't help them and now I can't help myself. I found this book in a hut I had to steal food from, I feel guilty. Mother wouldn't be proud but father always said: ''Do anything to survive''. I'm now stuck in a cave, its cold and smelly but its the only shelter I could find.
I wanna go home. I miss everyone.
Year X717
September 3rd
I need water and food. I'm having bad dreams. I keep seeing them die, over again and again and again. I feel tired but something is telling me not to sleep, the cut on my neck is bleeding again. For some reason part of the blood is yellow, its gross and smells bad. Its beginning to sting and feels puffy, the same thing happened ounce when Haku-nee got a wire stuck in her leg. She had to go to the doctors, I kept telling her that if she ate her apples she wouldn't have to go. An apple a day keeps the doctors away after all.
I really want to see her again, she doesn't seem so annoying now that she's gone.
Same year
October 23rd
I lost the calender, its hard to keep track of the days on the wall. The rocks are hurting my hands, mom could fix them. If her head was okay, that was scary, I keep dreaming about it. I don't like the dark.
I think its November 15th
It's snowing and I'm cold, I can't feel my toes. I left the cave and I'm trying not to wake up these bears that are sleeping. I think I can see smoke from her-
My pencil broke. They smoke was coming from a building in a village. They helped me, gave me food,water, fresh clothes. The cut on my neck was bandaged, they said I had a infection. It sounds as gross at it feels. I have to stay at the doctor's but I made a friend. His name Hejoru, he's 8 only a year older than me. I want to stay here forever and start my life again. I feel happy.
Year X727
January 2nd
I think that there is a girl who likes Hejoru. She thinks I'm a girl and calls me a love rival. I'm not a girl and my hair is not pink! Its salmon! I'm trying to get them together but Hejoru says she's annoying and won't talk to her. She is kinda loud, but pretty as well. Her hair is purple and she has big green eyes. Hejoru's hair is brown and he has brown eyes, not as spectacular. But everyone is pretty and handsome in my eyes.
Same year
January 10th
I had to tell the adults what happened at home. I didn't like the look in their eyes, it felt degrading. As if they were feeling sorry for me. I'm trying to forget about it and keep reminding me with their stares. Just leave me alone, don't talk to me.
Same year
January 20th
Hejoru knows about what happened. One of the adults told him and then said not to mention my parents or sibling. I heard them talking while in the doctor bed. They thought I was sleeping. Now Hejoru has the same look in his eyes, that look of: I'm sorry for what happened, you must be sad. The bad dreams have come back, it's all their fault. I don't like the adults here. I don't like them at all.
February 1st
I lost the book, but now I found it. The girl that likes Hejoru must have taken it, I can tell by the way she looks at me. She avoids me as well, I hate her. I shouldn't say that. Its wrong to hate, but...I do.
March 5th
Hejoru's mom has gotten sick. She shares a room with me but I have to wear a mask. She looks weird. She hasn't woken up yet, she kinda looks like one of the dead people from my village. Just laying there. Motionless.
March 7th
She died. It took the doctors a while to realize that she wasn't sleeping. I stared as they covered her with a blanket. I'm in a new room now, Hejoru yelled at me and blamed me for his mom's death. He said that I brought bad luck from my home and killed her. He said I killed my parents and sister. Did I really? Is it all my fault?
March 20th
The adults are talking about what Hejoru said. They give me mean looks. One of them stole my book just like the girl. He read it because he asked why I didn't like the adults.
April 13th
My birthday is coming up, Hejoru apologized and promised to celebrate with me. His dad doesn't want him to. None of the adults do.
April 29th
Hejoru is dead. We were playing hide and seek in the woods. I found him like that, his throat torn up and bloody. His eyes were open but blank. Wide with fear. He just stared at the sky. I tried to fix him. Got my hands all bloody, his dad found me and accused me. I didn't hurt Hejoru. I didn't hurt Hejoru's mom. I didn't hurt my family. Stop hurting me. Why did he try to kill me.
I didn't do any thing.
May 1st
Happy birthday to me. My at hurts so its hard to write. Hejoru's dad hit me and I had to run away. My eyes is puffy. I'm 8 now. I'm a big boy.
May 3rd
Its hard to breath. I got lost in the forest and couldn't find the ditch I left my book in. I had a colander from Hejoru's room so I know the date. I'm hungry. There's a stream nearby but I'm to tired to catch he fish. Maybe if I rest I'll have the energy to move tomorrow.
July 8th
Yeh so that's just one page of Natsu's thoughts. I hope you found this interesting. Its fun to write...I'm going to continue