Them: Ummm excuse me who are you?
Me: Oh, I'm the author of this story.
Them: Are you sure? Because you've been gone a long time and these poor people have had to wait for a long time to have an update and you decide to pop out of the blue with a so called "chapter"!
Me: I know and I feel bad! I honestly have no excuse and I am sorry if that counts for anything.
Them: That depends...is it a good chapter?
Me: I guess ya'll will have to be the judge of that. If it helps I have a couple of chapters already done...its just a matter of editing and posting. Does that help make up for it?
Them:...Well, I guess we will see. But if we don't like it we have the right to throw tomatos at you.
Me: Fair enough!
I have been gone a long time! I feel bad but I just had no desire to write, which is a horrrible thing for me to say because I love it...my heart just wasn't in it and if I don't put my all into it then I am not doing it justice. Please forgive me all and I hope those who have been such a support will continue to do so and give me good feedback. I missed you all!
I'm not sure how long Jazz and I sat there on my bed with him holding me and me soaking up every ounce of comfort that I could get. He was patient though, as he always is, and just sat with me for as long as I needed him to. "Feel better sweetspark?" He asks when he sees I've stopped crying.
"For now. Thanks Jazz." I reply.
"Your more than welcome darlin'."
"I mean it. Your always so patient and comforting." I add.
Jazz chuckles. "I know ya mean it, but ya don't have to thank me. I wouldn't be a decent mech if I didn't comfort ya."
"Well, your more than a decent mech. Your perfect." I say.
"As much as I'd love to agree with ya on that tha only perfect one around here is you." Jazz replies sweetly.
"Aww." I look up into Jazz's eyes and just stare, content to know that this guy loves me and is willing to do what he can for me.
"What's ya thinkin 'bout darlin?" He asks returning my loving stare.
"Just thinking about how much I love you." I reply.
"I love ya too darlin."
I continue to stare at Jazz and feeling slightly bold I cup his face in my hands and lean in and place a kiss on his lips. I can tell Jazz is surprised by my initiative but he quickly melts into the kiss. He wraps his arms around me more firmly and kisses me back. Jazz's kisses are always wonderful. Their sweet, gentle, and not at all forceful. After the emotional day I've given myself I was more than willing to soak up a little extra love from Jazz.
I move my hands from his face to wrap my arms around his neck, and continue to plant kisses on his lips. I can hear a rumble sound coming from Jazz that sounds like it's coming from his chest. He alternates between kissing my lips to planting small ones across my face. I can feel him smile as he kisses me.
I pull back every once in a while, before going back to kissing Jazz. After continuing to kiss for a few minutes I pull back to stare at Jazz, whose giving me as loving a look as possible. "I'm definitely not complaining, but what brought that on?"
"I just wanted to love on you. That okay?" I ask quietly.
"More than okay. That was wonderful." He replies.
"It always is."
Jazz and I decide to spend more time together by watching movies on the big tv that was provided for me, and sitting on the comfy couch in front of it. We must have accidentally fallen asleep because I wake up to find myself laying on my side with Jazz laying behind me with his arm draped over my waist. I shouldn't have fell asleep, but I have to admit it helped me not feel lonely. I sneak a peek over my shoulder and see Jazz is still asleep. He looks so peaceful too.
I carefully lean up and peck his lips, while thinking to myself when did I get so bold.
Jazz must have felt it because he slowly opens his eyes and blinks some of the recharge out of his eyes. He then looks down at me and smiles. "Mornin."
Jazz realizes where's he's at. "Sorry I feel asleep darlin, but I gotta admit it feels nice waking up next ta ya."
I smile bashfully. "It does. I'm honestly shy about having you stay over but it did feel really nice."
"There's no reason ta be shy wit me sweetspark, and Definetly not once we get ta the mate stage." He replies playfully.
That stuns me. "Mate? You mean marriage?"
"Well we won't have to worry about that for a whole right? I mean-that's a scary thought." I reply.
"The thought of being married ta me scares ya?" He asks playfully.
"No dummy. The idea of marriage does. It's a big step." I reply.
"Dat is it, and when Cybrtronians bond it's for life." Jazz replies.
"I remember you telling me that once. That makes it more intense, but in a good way. I like the idea of going in knowing you won't ever be separated by choice. I love the certainty and security in that." I say.
"Certainty and security are two things a mech better make sure is provided." Jazz replies.
"Sounds nice...Can I be honest with you?" I ask shyly.
"I'd hope so." He replies with a playful tone.
"I like the idea of being married to you." I comment.
Jazz looks surprised at my deceleration before his face lights up in the biggest grin I've ever seen. "Oh darlin, ya don't know how happy it makes me ta hear ya say that! Having ya as a spark mate would be a dream come true. I can't think of anyone else I'd rather spend tha rest of my life with."
"I feel the same way. I just hope your willing to be patient. I'm not ready for married life." I say.
"Darlin I'd wait a thousand lifetimes." He says.
"I might be ready by then." I say playfully.
"That gives me time ta plan then." He then turns a little more serious. "I will bond ta ya one day. I swear on my spark."
"I love you." I say.
"I love you too." Jazz replies before leaning in and kissing me. This kiss is different than the rest- it's more feverish and deeper I suppose. He's still gentle but he places kisses more quickly on my lips. He wraps one arm around me waist and his other hand goes to the back of my head to deepen the kiss. He pulls me to him till there's practically no space between us. He scoots back to the arm of the couch while pulling me with him. He leans up against it and stretches his legs out. He gently pulls me down to lay down on top of him.
I place my hands on his chest and rub small circles into it, causing him to let out a rumbling purr. He tightens his hold on me before we pull back-my cooling fans having kicked on. "Wow...that was..."
"Remarkable." Jazz finishes.
"Yeah...I don't think you've ever kissed me like that before." I say bashfully.
"Sorry if it was too forward, but you sayin ya'd like ta be bonded ta me...I guess I just couldn' help myself." He replies.
"Don't be sorry. It was...wonderful. It just took me by surprise. I've never had a boyfriend before, so this is all new to me." I say.
"Well, ya may not be the first femme I've been with but ya are my first love, and that's new ta me." He replies.
"I guess we'll have ta figure it out together huh?" I ask.
"Ya bet darlin." He leans in to kiss me again but just let's out an aggravated groan instead.
"What's wrong?" I ask.
"Com from Prowl. I'm needed in Primes office. Oh, and Sentinel is asking for ya." He replies.
"Guess we better get to it then. See ya later."
"Looking forward to it." Jazz gives me a quick peck before he heads off to Optimus' office and I go look for Sentinel. After asking around I find out he's in one of the more vacant hangers. It doesn't get much activity at night. I see Sentinel standing at the scenery from the open door. "You wanted to see me sir?"
Sentinel turns at the sound of my voice. "I did. Come join me won't you."
I walk up to him and join him in looking at the scenery, taking in the peacefulness of the night.
"I can almost see Cybertron in this world." Sentinel states.
"You think they're similar?" I ask.
"In some ways, but it can never replace the home we had on Cybertron." He replies.
"No one would expect it to. I know everyone misses it."
"It was truly a painful loss, but now thanks to you our world has a chance to survive." He replies.
"I wish I had the same confidence level you have."
"You do not believe you can revive our planet?" He asks.
"It's not that. It's just-frightening. I don't want to disappoint anyone and I'm afraid I will if I can't. I want everyone to have their home back. I just worry I may not can give it to them." I explain.
"We will never understand the weight of responsibility that comes with being a Guardian, but I'm sure I can speak for everyone when I say we all have faith in you. The only problem I see is that you do not have enough confidence in yourself." He says.
"Your right. I'm way out of my element and comfort zone, so this has me feeling apprehensive."
"Understandable. The unknown makes even the most seasoned warriors anxious. Just remember that hope is what guides us through." He says.
"Thank you. " I smile in appreciation.
"You are very welcome. Do you have duties you must attend to?" He asks.
"Then perhaps you wouldn't mind keeping this old mech company?" He suggests.
"Not at all." I reply with a smile.
Again, please don't hurt me. I know its been a very long time but we will see about doing better. I already have a few chapters done. It's just a matter of editing and posting them. Thanks again for being so patient!