I stood by my locker and tapped a foot impatiently. In one hand I held a coffee, in the other was my Pearphone. I smiled fondly at the picture displayed and brushed my thumb over the face of the girl I was waiting for.
She liked me. The dark, sarcastic, beautiful, raven-haired girl actually liked me. Whether she would admit it or not, I didn't care. She liked me, and that was all I ever wanted.
I absentmindedly took a sip of the coffee in my hand and grimaced, completely forgetting that it was for her. Very bitter, with the slightest hint of sweetness. It mirrored her completely.
I heard the doors open and looked up. A grin spread across my face as I recognized the curled black locks. She glanced at me for a second before diverting her eyes the ground, a scowl on her face. Her body language told me she was walled off, hidden away and was not to be messed with.
I sighed. I'd thought this might happen. She could try to deny it, she could try push me away, but I wasn't going to give in. I wasn't going to let her shut herself off. And I wasn't going anywhere.
I started walking towards her, a warm smile still on my face.
What happened next made me stop dead in my tracks. It wasn't the sudden appearance of the boy that made me freeze; he was still our friend and couldn't be avoided forever. It had nothing to do with the fact that I had strong feelings for his ex-girlfriend that made me panic the instant he walked through the door. It was his actions.
Beck stopped behind Jade. He hadn't seen me standing a few feet away from her.
The second he put his arm around her shoulder, the smile fell from my face.
What? They had broken up months ago and were still on shaky ground. Neither spoke to the other much anymore. What was going on?
He smiled down at her and placed a kiss on the top of her head. Jade flinched, but otherwise ignored his presence. Her gaze was still at her feet, arms folded over her chest, as if she was trying to protect herself.
I felt my heart beat faster.
No. My breath was becoming shorter as I began to panic.
No! I shook my head and took an involuntary step backwards, realizing what was happening.
Beck placed his hand under Jades chin and turned her face to his.
No... Tears blurred my vision, but didn't prevent me from seeing the horror play out.
He leaned down and placed a kiss on Jades lips.
No! I couldn't tear my eyes away as I stepped back, shaking my head.
No no no no no no no NO!
"No..." I whispered, letting the contents in my hands slip from my fingers.
Jades eyes were closed as Beck kissed her. The frown never left her face, but she didn't push him away. The pain hit my chest and I took in a breath, only to let it out a second later in a loud sob. The bitter sweet coffee I had bought for the girl I worshipped, hit the ground, spilling its contents in an instant and, along with the sound of my phone clattering, covered my cry.
Both sets of eyes turned to me. My chest ached. I watched them as an empty feeling slithered into the place that previously held my heart. I felt like I had been punched.
I continued staggering backward, my eyes wide, as a look of confusion came over Beck's face. He obviously had no idea as to why I would be so upset. Jade wouldn't look at me, a blank expression hid her real feelings. She was always a good actress, while I was easier to read than a book.
I stared at her, unable to stop the hurt from showing. My back hit the wall and I pressed myself against it.
"Tori?" Beck stepped toward me, letting go of Jade. "What's wrong?"
I merely shook my head, ignoring him completely, unable to form words in my head, let alone speak the unbearable anguish I felt.
"Beck and I are back together." Jade said, her voice lacking emotion. She didn't look at me when she spoke. She just stood there.
This is not happening... The pain in my chest increased. Why was she doing this?
A heavy feeling slipped down my throat, through my chest, into my stomach and I collapsed to the ground, hugging my knees. I felt like someone had ripped me open and torn my insides out.
Beck looked from Jade, to me, and back again.
"Jade? What's going on? What did you do?" At this accusation, Jades eyes flicked to her ex- no, not ex, her boyfriend.
"Nothing!" She snapped harshly.
"Jade." He warned.
"Beck, shut up! It's none of your business! Nothing happened! It meant nothing!" She yelled, her voice raising an octave.
Nothing? It meant nothing? I meant nothing?! I ignored the tears still pouring down my face and stopped sobbing, having gained the needed confidence to face her.
I was hurt. I was heart-broken. I was not nothing!
I stood up, anger spurring me on and strode past Beck. He reached out for me but I simply brushed past him and right up to Jade. She looked at me in shock. I could see the fear in her face. Was she afraid of me? Did she think I would tell her boyfriend that she'd kissed me? Would I tell him? I didn't know at that point. I was running on pure jealousy and rage.
Without thinking, my hand swung out and struck the side of her face with a deafening snap. I didn't wait for either of them to react, I simply walked past her and out of the school, not looking back.