Hello all, I am trying something different, I am not sure if it is good as I am just getting back into writing again. I am looking for a beta that would be willing help me with ideas, my grammar and much more! Sorry about any grammatical errors or spelling mistakes! I have no beta! Hope you all enjoy

This is very AU as I started writing it before Emily left.

I do not own anything besides Daniel.

"Death occurs in unexpected times."

Lailah Gifty Akita

Today was suppose to be another ordinary day but when has anything ever been ordinary my life. Today could be considered one of the worst days of my life. The police came to my door, just as I do when I tell someone that their loved one has been killed.

I open the door and hope to god that what they are going to tell me will not come out of their mouth. That my beloved husband was shot and killed in the line of duty. As a police officer, everyone knows that there are risks that you may never come home again because somebody else was having a horrible day.

I look into their eyes and they start the exact same way that I would to notify someone that their loved one has died.

"Hello, Ms Jareau, may we come in, we have something important to tell you."

"sure, you can come in."

"Miss, this would be better if you sat down." The female officer says politely

"Please, don't make me do that, I have told many families about their loved ones, just tell me the news."

"We are sorry but your husband was shot in the line of duty, he died a hero protecting the others around him." The female officer says sadly

"Did he go quickly?" I whisper

"Yes, he did, we are very sorry for your loss. Is there anyone that we can call." The male officer says

"No, that's alright I think… think that I should be fine." I try to think what I could say but nobody comes to mind.

The two officers leave and I look at the wall and think what am I suppose to tell my two kids.

Why Will, why did you leave me. I love you our kids love you. You promised Henry and Daniel that you would take them camping this weekend. What am I suppose to tell the boys?

Oh, my poor boys why do they have to grow up without a father around them. They will only have memories of what you used to be. I will always tell them that you were a hero.

I walk upstairs and I see Henry and Daniel both playing with their toys on the ground.

"Mommy, when is daddy coming home?" Daniel asks as any child would.

Henry looks up at me with his hopeful eyes and waits for the response that they both want to hear.

I know I do not have the response that they are both looking for. I sit down on the ground with them, I put Daniel on my lap, and I pull Henry over closer to me so I can wrap an arm around him.

I look at them both and take a deep breath and say, "Boys, daddy was in an accident at his work. Daddy isn't coming home; he went up to see the angels just like Jack's mommy."

Daniel looks at me and says "But that means we can never see him again."

"I know baby, I really do, but you got to remember that daddy loves you and he will always be looking down at you." I hug them tighter so that they know that they are loved.

I let the boys go back to playing though they really want to follow me and make sure that nothing more will change.

I grab out my phone and I dial Emily's number.

"Hey, Emily, I just really need to talk to you right now."

"Ya, sure thing Jayje, I will be over really soon."

As I waited for Emily, I contemplated on how I was going to get through my life.

Finally, Emily came and I answered the door and looked ather and she knew instantly that something was wrong.

"Jayje, what is wrong what happened, where is Will?

I look at her and say those three dreaded words "He is dead"

"Oh my god, how did he die? Where are the boys?" Emily looks completely devastated

"They are upstairs playingin their room; they both know that Will is gone." I completly ignored telling her how Will died, I could not comprehend it myself

"I am going to go call some people okay, I will be right back."

Emily gets up and goes to phone the team.

As she dials the numbers quickly, I wonder what my life is going to bring me. I have two beautiful boys without a father.

How am I supposed to go on?

"An insincere friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind."
-Buddha

This is just the background information of where the story is going to go... It changes and gets darker pretty fast! JJ losing Will is going to change her. Thanks again!