When I'm With You
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A/N: Last Chapter. Then a short epilogue. Thanks to my readers/reviewers/fav&followers.
Rachel had been in labor for several hours now. What was that saying? 1 centimeter dilation per hour. Well, she had been in labor 5 or 6 hours so she should be about 6 centimeters now. She turned and looked at her husband sitting by the window, looking up at some show on the TV. Rachel's labor had been very painful, with her contractions now coming every 1-2 minutes and lasting about 2 minutes.
"Finn, baby please come here." Rachel said, smiling a small fake smile toward her husband. Finn immediately shook his head.
"Nope, not gonna happen, Rach. I know that look. You are up to something."
"Dammit, Finn! Honey, I'm hurting so bad!" She then closes her eyes tightly, grimacing through the next painful contraction. Finn couldn't stand it any longer. He stood up, grabbing his wife's hand, rubbing her cheek with the other.
Rachel breathed in and out slowly until the pain eased. "Finn, please?" she pleaded. "I'm so thirsty, Honey. Give me just a sip, a small sip of water. I wouldn't treat you like this."
"But Rachel, you know you can't have anything but these ice chips." He reaches over and offers her the cup of ice chips just as another contraction starts. Rachel reaches up and grabs the cup, throwing it across the room just as a nurse is opening the door.
"I want some water,Finn! Get away from me if you can't do what I ask!" Rachel screamed at her husband.
"Rach, come on Babe. Calm down," he says, trying to stroke her cheek. She grabs his hand, crying out during the contraction.
"Please Finn. Help me, please," she begs. "I can't do this any longer. Please, Honey. I wanna go home," she says looking up at him with tears in her eyes. It tore Finn's heart out to see her in so much pain for so long. He felt so helpless.
"Rach," Finn answered, looking up at the nurse as he stroked his wife's face. "The nurse is here. Let her give you something for the pain, baby. I can't stand seeing you hurting like this."
"Yes, Mrs. Hudson," says the nurse, standing near the foot of her bed. "Let me check you and see how far along you are. If you are still within the perimeters, we can still give you that epidu..."
"I said I don't want a damn epidural!" screamed Rachel. "Stop saying it!"
The nurse flinched but did not back away. "Okay, Rachel. That's fine. We'll just see how much longer you have, okay?" the nurse said in a calming voice. She then turned and grabbed a pair of gloves, applying a small amount of gel on them. She then folded back the covers, waiting for Rachel's pain to subside.
Finn continued to stroke and kiss Rachel's forehead as he watched the nurse check his wife. His back was killing him and he needed to get something to drink. He had spent the last 6 hours mostly standing at his wife's bedside trying to calm her through the contractions. He didn't feel like it was fair to eat or drink in front of her when she couldn't have anything. If she still had a while to go before she needed to start pushing, he would get her Mom to come sit with her while he took a quick break.
Their parents had arrived about an hour ago. Clarice had just texted that she was now in the waiting area also. Brenda and Travis were on their way. He kept his sister Andrea updated via text.
The nurse stood up and removed her gloves just as Rachel started having another contraction. "Well, Mrs. Hudson. You are 7 centimeters, almost 8. Things are progressing well." She then turned towards the door. "I'll call and update your doctor and let him know that in about an hour, we will probably be ready to start delivering your twins. You two let me know if you need anything." She smiled at a frowning Rachel, nodded towards Finn and left the room.
Finn turned to his wife. "See Rach. You are doing so good. It won't be long now and you can start pushing." He kissed her lightly on the lips just as she was loosening her death grip to his now numb hand.
Rachel turned and gave him a slight smile. Knowing that they would soon get to see their babies made her feel somewhat better. She knew that the pain and anxiousness of going through labor and the pending delivery was making her act out. Finn had been nothing but patient with her and she felt so bad for him.
"Finn, honey," she said, pulling him down for a quick kiss. "I'm so, so sorry. I know I've been awful, just awful." Tears formed in her eyes.
"That's alright, Rach. I understand. I know it must hurt bad and if I could take some of your pain, you know I would in a heartbeat. But, you don't need to apologize." He then kissed her again.
"I know but I've been so mean to you and the nurses. Tell them I'm sorry," she said, remorsefully.
"They are quite used to this, Rach, I'm sure." He feels her grabbing onto his shirt sleeve as he helps her through another contraction.
As the contraction eases, Rachel looks up at him. "Finn, why don't you go take a break. Walk around, get some fresh air." He looks down at her, making sure that she is being sincere.
"Are you sure, Rach? I can stretch in that..."
"Go. Please? For me?" she says. "I'll be fine. I need you refreshed to help me push these two out of here." She smiles up at him, pointing to her stomach. "Just one thing?"
"Anything, Rach," he answers, grabbing her hand.
"Can you ask the nurses to bring me another cup of ice and can you send my Mom in, please?"
He laughs. "Sure, babe. I'll have my phone and I'm not going far. I'll just be gone about 5-10 minutes and I'll be right back. Okay, baby?"
"Yes, yes. I'll be fine just tell my Mom to hurry. Okay?"
He then kissed her lightly on the forehead and left the room. He walked out into the maternity waiting area after telling the nurses about Rachel's request for ice chips. He gave everyone a progress report. He then told Rachel's Mom to go sit with her while he took a break.
Stopping by the vending machine to grab a Dr. Pepper, he headed outside of the lobby doors, taking in the cold, fresh air. Shivering, he walked around the area, thinking about the next couple of hours. He felt what he only could describe as 'anxious anticipation'. Soon, his little family would go from just 2 people to a family of 4, just like that.
He never would have believed it. Not more than a little over a year ago, he had been a career-minded loner, adjusting to a pending divorce. He didn't think he would ever find someone that he could truly, deeply and completely love. Someone that he could see himself with for the rest of his life. And then there she was. Someone that started his heart to pounding in his chest. Someone that brightened his whole world just with her smile. Someone that healed his soul. His soulmate, his best friend, his everything.
And soon, he would add two little people to their life. Finn was overwhelmed by a feeling of completeness. As tears filled his eyes, he turned around to the sound of someone coming up behind him. "Puck? What are you doing here?" Finn asked, surprised to see his wife's cousin. "When did you get here?"
"Hey, man," Puck answered. He gave Finn a man hug. "I've been here. I drove Rachel's parents down. I must have been in the bathroom when you came out." He then looked up at Finn, noticing the tears he was trying to wipe away. "You okay, man?"
"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine," replied Finn. "Just thinking about my little family and you know...everything," trying to hide the fact that he was caught crying like a girl.
"I know, Hudson. I understand," said Puck, trying not to embarrass Finn any further. "I know I've given Rachel a hard time but she's a pretty good girl. And she really loves you, man. You two have been great for each other." He then places his hand on Finn's shoulder.
"I've never really told you about me and Berry," Puck continued. "Through all these years, Rachel and I have always been very close. She was there for me throughout high school. Football injuries, bad grades, bad women, when my Dad died. Always, man."
Finn chuckles, "Oh, yeah? Even with the shit she says to you?"
"Yeah," Puck laughed. "She's always given me hell. I know she loves me and has always only wanted me to do what's right. To make something of myself." Puck paused, as if he was trying to control his emotions. He then cleared his throat and continued. "But, I just want to tell you thanks for making my cousin so happy. She loves you and those babies so much. And I'm here for you and her and those twins. And if you need anything, anything, just let me know. Okay?"
"Thanks, man.I know." They give each other another man hug. Finn then finishes off his soda, throwing the empty can in the trash. "Well, I better get back in there before Rachel clears out the entire maternity wing."
Puck laughs again. "Oh yeah. 'Cuz is a tiny thing but she can raise some hell."
Dr. Simpson stood at the foot of Rachel's bed. She was now completely dilated and they had broken her bed down into a delivery bed. She was positioned and had started pushing with her contractions, Finn sitting behind her, supporting and talking her through the delivery.
"Okay Rachel. Here comes another contraction and I want you to really push this time," says Dr. Simpson. "I can see the head of the first baby."
Rachel was completely exhausted. She had been pushing for over an hour. She laid her head back on Finn, crying. Shaking her head back and forth, she said, "Finn, I can't. I can't do this anymore. I am so tired, Finn."
He kissed his wife's cheek. Wrapping his strong arms around her, enveloping her tiny body, he encouraged her. "I know baby. I know you are tired. But our babies need you. They need you to help them. They can't do it by themselves, Rach."
"Oh, god Finn! Here comes another one. Please! I can't, honey. I can't!" cried Rachel.
"Come on, Rach," he whispered in her ear, encouraging her. He then kissed her on her ear. "Don't you want to see our babies? Come on, you can do it." Finn placed his hand on her stomach and could feel the next contraction.
He then helped her to sit up. She grabbed the handles on each side of the bed and pushed with everything she had as Finn counted to 10 in her ear. When he got to 10, she fell back against him in exhaustion.
Finn showered her with kisses. "That was so good, Rachel. I love you, baby." He continued whispering words of encouragement in her ear as he wiped the sweat from her forehead with a cool washcloth.
"Oh Rachel," said Dr. Simpson. "That was a really good one. Now, I think with one more good push, we'll probably have us one baby with one to go. Okay?"
Rachel smiled a weak smile, too exhausted to do anything else. Finn continued stroking her forehead and neck with the cool washcloth the nurse handed him, never stop whispering words of encouragement into her ear. Feeling the next contraction starting, she tensed up briefly.
"Okay, Rachel," said Finn into her ear. "Sit up with me and give me one real good push. I wanna see my baby." Finn helped his wife to sit up, wrapped his arms around her from behind and began to count to 10 in her ear again. "4,5,6,7,8..."
"Ughhhh!" yelled Rachel as she pushed with everything she had left. She felt a sudden release of all of the built up pressure as she delivered the first baby. She then fell back, her body limp from her effort, onto Finn's chest and waiting arms.
"Oh, my," said Dr. Simpson. "Look what we have here. He then lifted up a screaming, pink, wet newborn. "It's your little boy." He then stood up and placed the baby on Rachel's stomach, covering him with a blue towel.
The nurse then guided Finn around, handing him a pair of scissors after the doctor clamped off the cord. "Finn," asked the nurse. "Do you want to cut the cord?"
Finn's eyes widened as he grabbed the scissors with trembling hands. He then cut the thick cord as he felt a rush of emotions all at once. He looked back at his wife who was lying back on the pillows, looking down at their son, smiling a weak smile. He loved her so, so much. He then looked down at his son as the nurses wiped his face and suctioned his throat. He was wiggling around as the nurse gathered him up and took him over to a warming table in the corner.
"Rachel," said the doctor. "I'm massaging your stomach to help you deliver the afterbirth of your son and then it will be time to push your daughter out. Okay?" Rachel just nodded as the nurses took their son away to clean him. Finn had briefly caught a glimpse of him as he took his position back behind Rachel to help her deliver their daughter. She briefly rested against him as the doctor helped her to expel the first afterbirth and set up a clean area for the delivery of the 2nd twin.
Finn wrapped his arms around his wife and whispered in her ear, "Rach, baby. Let's push again and see our little girl, okay?" Rachel nodded and then sat up another wave of contractions started. After helping her to push through 3 more strong contractions, she delivered their daughter, Finn cutting the cord for the 2nd twin.
Rachel fell back onto her bed as the doctor repaired her episiotomy. Finn went over to where the babies were, taking out his camera to take their first picture. He looked back at his wife as the nurses were bathing her and preparing to transfer to her post postpartum room. He then looked back at the twins as they were weighed and bundled up into pink and blue blankets, matching knit caps on their heads. They then put bracelets on the twins' ankles and then he and Rachel had matching bracelets for each of the twins.
"Mr. Hudson," said one of the nurses, bringing Finn out of his thoughts. "We're getting ready to take the twins to the nursery. We will give them their first bath, run a few tests, give them their first immunizations, then we'll bundle them up and bring them out to Mrs. Hudson's room. Since you chose rooming-in, they stay in the room with you. Okay?"
Finn was in a trace, trying to take in everything that had happened. "Okay," he answered, nodding. The nurse smiled, understanding the overwhelming feelings Finn was having. She patted him on the back and then left with the babies.
Finn then turned his attention back to his wife. He went over to her, bending over and kissing her on the forehead. She opened her eyes and smiled.
"Hey, baby," she said, tiredly. "We got our babies."
"Yeah, we do." He then kissed her lightly on the lips. "You need to rest, Rachel. You were fantastic. They are going to take you to your room and bring the babies around shortly. I'm going out and show the pictures to everyone and let them know you and the babies are okay."
"Okay," she said, fatigue in her answer. She then closed her eyes, again. What she had done was hard for a normal sized woman. Rachel was so small but delivered their twins safely.
"And Rach?" said Finn.
"Thank you. Thank you, baby and I love you so much." He then bent over and kissed her.
Walking away, he opened the door as he heard her say, "Love you more."
Smiling, (more like beaming), Finn walked out into the waiting area. He saw his parents, Mr. And Mrs. Berry, Puck, Clarice, Travis and Brenda in the lobby. Rachel's Mom and his Mom stood up and came toward him.
"So, Finn? How's it going?" asked his Mom.
"Well, everyone. Lucas Daniel Hudson was born February 6th at 8:22pm. He weighed 7 lbs, 3 oz. Olivia Grace Hudson came at 8:28pm. She weighed 6 lbs, 1oz. Babies and mother are doing great."
Everyone congratulated them. He then passed around the pictures he had taken in the delivery room. "Well, they are moving Rachel to her room and then they will bring the twins out soon. I want you to visit but Rachel is exhausted. Having to push out 2 big Hudson babies is a lot of work. So please, please. Look in on her very briefly and you can walk around to the nursery and see the twins. Then, I want her to sleep so please, please. Go home after that. Mr. And Mrs. Berry, Mom and Dad, Puck, you all are free to stay at our house. Here are the keys."
Finn handed the keys to his Dad and then led them towards the nursery. "After you see them, please go home and get a good night's sleep and come first thing in the morning and you can see Rach and the babies for a long visit. Okay?"
Everyone agreed, however slightly disappointed that they couldn't visit longer. But they all understood that Finn was looking out for his wife and babies. After everyone 'Ooo'd and 'aahhh'd over the babies, they then looked in on Rachel and then left.
Finn headed back to his wife's room. He was exhausted, too and looked forward to getting a quick nap before they brought the babies in. He kissed his sleeping wife on the cheek and then settled in on the lumpy and small pull-out bed in the corner for a brief nap.
"Knock, knock," said Mrs. Berry, opening the door to Rachel's hospital room. Rachel looked up to see the smiling faces of both their parents and Puck standing in the doorway.
"Raise and shine, Berry," said Puck, moving over to the middle of the room. "You and Hudson slept all night. I come to see my little cousins." He reached over and started shaking Finn awake. Finn opened his eyes to see a grinning Puck standing over him.
Yawning and rubbing his eyes, he threw the blankets off him and stood up stretching. "Puck. Great. Just who I wanted to see this early in the morning."
"Noah," said Rachel, "if you wake my babies up, you gonna babysit them."
"Oh, Rachel. Let me see the little Hudsons." He walked over to the double crib they were in. They were bundled up, sound asleep. The grandparents stood around the crib and stared at them.
"Oh, Finn," said his Mom. "They are gorgeous." Finn then reached down and picked up Lucas, handing him to his mother. He then picked up Olivia and handed her to Mrs. Berry. As they passed the babies around, they chatted among themselves. Finn went over and laid in the bed beside Rachel. Taking her into his arms, he beamed with pride.
"Finn," said his Mom. "Lucas looks just like you when you were a baby. He has your freckles and dimples."
"And," added Mrs. Berry, "Olivia looks like my Rachel. She has long dark brown eyelashes, Rachel's nose and that little mole on her cheek already. How precious."
"Well," said Rachel. "Livie does have my awful nose but they both have Finn's brown, unruly hair. The nurses were laughing about sneaking some gel and putting it on their hair to smooth it down."
Finn kisses her cheek. "And you love it," he said, winking at his wife.
"So Rachel," asked Mrs. Hudson, "when are they letting you three go home?"
"Well, the doctor is coming in later to check all of us out. If everything goes okay, they will circumcise Lucas this afternoon and then we can go home in the morning."
"Ouch," winced Finn. "I don't want to think about that."
Rachel's Dad raised his eyebrows. "Circumcision today? You're not going to wait and let a mohel do it? You know, a brit miah?" (Jewish circumcision ceremony).
"Dad," said Rachel, looking first at Finn and then at her parents. "Finn and I have decided that it is not fair to raise the kids solely in one faith or another. We want them to decide, if any, when they are older. They will be exposed to all types of faiths but for now, we are all non-denominational. And, it is not up for discussion." She looked over at him firmly.
Her mother whispered to her husband, loudly, "You raised her to be an independent thinker, Dear." Mr. Berry sighed and then let the matter end.
"Anyway," said Finn, trying to lighten the conversation, "they should be coming soon to get the twins to do the last of their test and give them the last of their shots. We have our 'Stork Dinner' tonight. Dad," Finn said, turning towards his father, "I wanted to ask you. We came in my truck yesterday to the hospital. I need to go home, shower, change clothes and eat. Rachel has her and the twins' clothes in her bag here. But I need to load the car seats in Rachel's car and bring it back this afternoon." He looked over at his wife. "Is that plan okay with you, Rachel?"
"Sure. When they come and get the twins, that be a good time for me to take a nap and get rested up for this afternoon. I'll call everyone else and tell them to come by and see the twins before my nap. I'll be fine, Babe."
Later that day, Clarice came by with her new boyfriend, Dennis. So did Travis and Brenda, Finn's co-workers and receptionist. Later that evening after their 'Stork Dinner' they Facetimed with Andrea, her husband and kids. Andrea agreed that the twins were a mini-Finn and a mini-Rachel. They promised to come up during the kids' spring break for a visit.
Everything went fine with Lucas's circumcision. The next day they all were discharged after a final checkup. Finn loaded his family up in their SUV and took them home.
After settling the twins into their nursery, he turned on the monitor, taking his receiver into their room. He then crawled into the bed beside his wife.
"Well, Rach. We did it, Babe." He leaned over and kissed her on the forehead, then she snuggled into his side.
"Yeah. Your Mom settled into her room?"
"Yep. I told her we would do the first feedings tonight and then she can take over taking care of you and helping with the twins in the morning.: He then yawned.
"Your Mom is staying for two weeks will be a big help, Finn. She can help with the meals and the washing until I can do more. Then my Mom is coming for two weeks after that. Great plan and we are so lucky to help so much help with the twins."
"Yeah, I know." He yawned again, turning the lamp off. He then turned and pulled his wife into his side, closing his eyes.
"And I'll have you are here with me for 6 whole weeks. Then, I think I'll be ready to fly solo," said Rachel, burying herself deeper into her husband's arms.
"Oh, yeah? Think you'll be an expert by then, Mrs. Hudson?" asked Finn.
"Yeah. Just have to get used to being 'Mommy' to someone, you know?"
"Yeah. I know what you mean. Daddy. Hmmmm. I kinda like that."
"Well, good night, 'Daddy'," said Rachel. "We've gotta wake up in 2 hours for their feeding."
"Goodnight, 'Mommy'. I love you, Rach. And thank you for my Lucas and Livie."
"You're welcome, Mr. Hudson. And thank you for loving me." She turned over, kissed him and then closed her eyes.