Chapter 4

The fresh air in relaxing, so is the view of the entire city. Sitting on the roof, reading the letters to my mom I realize that I still have a family. My family isn't blood related, but they love me. As I'm reading these letters I'm getting pieces of my mom back, completing what was in those documents, letter after letter. The sun is setting, there's only two letters left in the box.

Dear Natalie,

I was in the control room when I saw your body fall, then you daughter cried out for you to wake up. My heart broke a little bit. It's been a few days since then, your daughter and son are in Amity. Did you know she wake up in the middle of the night because of a nightmare, before she wakes up she mumbles a name to herself. I realized it's the boy whom she killed. She's just like you, never wanted to murder someone. I remember how you would wake of from a nightmare because of the guy in the fringe. I miss you Natalie, watching you daughter make me miss you even more.

~David

Well that one hurt. He said blankly the boy whom she killed. I knew my mother had shot a man, but I knew never she had the nightmares that came with murdering someone. I close the letter and shove back in its envelope. I pick up the last letter, it's unsealed.

Dear Natalie,

I'm sorry for what I'm about to do. What I am about to has to be done though, she's too dangerous. She's what we've been looking for, her genes are almost perfect, and maybe the next generation will have perfect genes. What she believes is what will destroy that possibility. She even told her boyfriend that, that he is the same person no matter what: damaged genes or not. Like I said I'm sorry. I will always love you Natalie.

David never completed the letter. I wonder what he was going to write after he killed me. A eulogy? He wouldn't remember what he was going to write, we would've wiped his memory.

"Hey. I've been looking everywhere for you." Tobias says walking up to the bench on the roof.

"I've been up here all day. Reading, enjoying the view." He sits down next to me. I rest my head on his shoulder. We stay like this for a while, not saying anything, just enjoying each other's company. I look down at my hands and think about my mom. How could I know so much yet so little about her? What David said in the letter bothered me: I miss you Natalie, watching you daughter make me miss you even more. At the end of that letter it's evident that he wants to kill me just because I'm like my mother. If I'm so much like my mother then is pushing my brother away the right thing?

"You okay?" Tobias asks pulling me out of my thought.

"Um yea." I lie. I'm not okay. Tobias has told me that is okay not to be okay, I don't think the letters about my mother are something I want to talk about with him.

"Tris, I know you're not okay. Just remember we said no more lies." Is this really a lie? He knows I've been reading these letters. He picks up the last two letters from David and starts reading them. While he reads them I lean into his side and rest my head on his chest. I listen to the rhythm of his heart beat, it's steady. He sets one letter down and reads the next. He pulls me closer to his side and sets down the incomplete letter.

"I don't know what to say. It's very shocking."

"He said I'm dangerous. Everybody says that about me. Your mom, Jeanie, Caleb, society used to say that about me."

"You're not dangerous. Just different. I like different. You're like nobody else."

"Is different really good though?"

"Yes, it make you unique. I don't care if people don't like different." I give up, I'm not going to try to fight with him. I guess I just have to accept it. I look up at him briefly then close my eyes.

AN: I updated! Sorry I haven't updates in a while I'm taking four honors classes in high school plus I play volleyball on top of that. I have a question : would you rather have more frequent updates that are a little bit shorter(500-700 words) or have an update every other week that's longer (1000-2000 words)?

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