It had been at least a day since Rose and Karkat's feelings jam. Rose had been the one to wake up first, and had tucked in the mutant-blooded Vantas before grabbing her headband and leaving the room, heading back to her own to think for a bit. Was this something that was going to happen in the future? It had definitely been nice, just confiding in Karkat and vice versa. Rose was starting to understand now what was so nice about Moirailligence, and how similar and yet different it was from friendship. It was something Rose would love to do in the future, perhaps with a movie as background noise and a proper pile, as according to trolls that appeared to make consoling one a Helluva lot easier.
Rose was in her room, twiddling her thumbs and looking around somewhat idly for something to catch her eye. The first thing is her laptop, which she grabs and flips open. Her PesterChum application is flashing orange. So the LaLonde opens the tab, seeing a deep purple and alternating caps on a orange bordered white-screen.
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TC: I'm CoMiN fOr YoU, mOtHeRfUcKeR...
TC: BE READY!
TC: honk. ;:o(
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Just after she finishes reading the lines of text, a distant banging is heard from above her head. This causes Rose to throw her laptop aside on the bed, standing up and immediately exiting her room. But the banging follows, only getting louder. She wasn't scared, what are you talking about.
She makes a beeline for Karkat's respite block. If anyone could calm the juggalo down, it was Vantas, even if she didn't believe the relationship was healthy. Karkat would surely need Rose at some point in the future, outside of Gamzee's views of "consoling a brother", as his methods didn't seem very effective. So if she was to help Karkat, she would obviously need to live.
She was just about to make it to the doorknob, when the grate to a vent falls down and emerging from the ceiling was a half-mad purple blooded troll, Gamzee. She uncaptchalogues her knitting needles, pointing them at Gamzee threateningly.
"Karkat!"
Karkats door opens and the tired and grumpy looking troll stood there "What the fuck do you w-" He stops when he actually notices whats happening and that his psychotic ex-moirail was standing there attacking his new one... he gasps and tears up a bit "Wh-" Hes completely speechless and he doesn't have the guts to do anything
Gamzee's gaze briefly flicks over to Karkat, and he growls, deep and threatening, in his throat. "You motherfuckin' cheated on a brother, Karbro!" He hisses, baring his teeth, before turning back to Rose and raising his clubs. "And so is motherfucking human bitch gets culled! Her blood will look mighty fucking beautiful on the walls. Red as yours, Karbrother." As he swings down, Rose's knitting needles flare up, swiping at his clubbing hand and shoving him backwards, harsh into the wall. Rose would admit to being somewhat scared, but she was by no means helpless.
"Stop! Right fucking now! Both of you!" Karkat hissed standing in between them "Gamzee, I never cheated on you and even if i did our relationship wasn't working what-so-fucking ever it was dysfunctional and actually fucking abusive, you were a horrible moirail to me and i tried so hard with you but you just wouldn't fucking let me be there for you" He looks really upset "And Rose, just- Just don't fucking attack his pitiful clown ass and you'll be fine"
"I wasn't attacking, merely defending," Rose replies. Her tone and facial expression were both nonchalant, but her eyes expressed clearly that she was afraid. Despite the fact Karkat had told them to calm down, Rose continues to hold Gamzee up against the wall with her magic, not trusting him to not attack them. Especially Karkat...
Gamzee's facial expression, in the span of a few seconds, warps from crazed, to angry, confused, sad, then angry again. "How could you choose her over me?! We've been Moirails for almost two sweeps, and you're choosing a motherfucker you met when we got on this forsaken rock!" He was raging, struggling against the binds that held him down and failing to understand how he'd failed in the relationship. But then tears started streaming down his face, smearing his make-up even as he snarls. His expression was angry and pained both.
Karkat had started crying by now, and probably tempted to go over to gamzee and pet him and hug him and lots of other pale things, but he forces himself not to "Gamzee i'm so sorry but i just- i- fuck.. i'm so so fucking sorry.." Karkat drops onto the floor and starts full on balling, he feels like a horrible rail for abandoning Gamzee considering he was so pale for him but there relationship just hadn't been working, he whimpered and hugged himself "You were such a bad moirail to me... I.. you.. I'm sorry i couldn't be there for you.."
Gamzee, at seeing Karkat cry, falters. He felt bad, and he had no idea why, but...
"Let me go, I'm leaving..." he hisses, but when Rose hesitates, his head snaps up and he snarls, "let me go, motherfucker!" She flinches but does as commanded. As soon as she releases him, Gamzee charges down the hall, away from them. So Rose kneels by Karkat's side, gently papping his cheek. "Come on, lets go sit in your block, okay? You look like you're facing a lot of inner turmoil and need help with it."
He hiccups, and has this longing look as Gamzee leaves, hes shaking violently.. he immediately pulls away from her when she touches his face "I-I just... I want Gamzee right now... I feel terrible but I-I know i shouldn't since he was horrible to me... " Karkat sniffles and starts slowly scooting/crawling his way to his block trying to hide his face that was covered in blood-red tears "So...does that mean I should go then?" Rose asks, feeling a ball of emotion welling up in her throat. Her voice cracks when she speaks again, "I'm sincerely sorry if I did something that hurt you...I only mean the best, and didn't mean it, what ever it might be." What was there to be sorry for? Defending herself? Would Karkat rather her dead...?
Rose shakes her head, sighing and crossing her arms, head ducking.
"N-no... It's not you i-i just... Fuck emotions... I feel so weak and stupid and fu-fucking pathetic.." He says stuttering a lot, his voice was cracking and it was obvious he was extremely upset "I-I'm sorry... I..I just... Fuckk..." He stops making his way to his room and rolls onto his back letting out something that sounds like a wail, he stays there afterwards, whimpering and mewling, his whole body aches and his emotions were boiling and melting him from the inside out practically killing him
Rose decides against leaving for now, closing the door behind her and walking over to Karkat, moving them to the pile before practically coiling around him, attempting to act like a sort of safety zone for him. She kisses his tears away, winding the courage to reach up and gently rub at his horns. "Shoosh..." she whispers, one hand massaging a horn while the other paps his cheek despite earlier protests. "Shh...it's okay..."
He whimpers a bit when shes touches his horns.. but he doesn't pull away, he just sits there crying.. he gently shrinks down trying to use rose as a hiding place pretty much, and eventually just ends up lying down and pulling his knees up to his chin and pressing his hands over his eyes, not wanting them to be seen since they were gross and puffy "I-I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry..."
Rose continues to press on his nubby horns and pap, shifting her position when he curls up and acting like a sort of security blanket. For good measure she grabs a blanket, throwing it over the two of them to trap heat and make this cuddling session more cozy. "Shoosh...there is absolutely nothing to be sorry about Karkat...you have nothing to apologize for..." shoosh, shoosh, pappappap, shoosh. Repeat.
"G-Gamzee i-if your up there in the vents w-watching us i'm sorry... s-so sorry... i'm such a pathetic fuck..." He mumbled the last part, rolling over so he can snuggle against Rose and hug her. He makes a small rumbling noise and pushes his horn more onto her hand making a pleased noise "T-Thank you R-Rose...f-fuck"
Rose was happy to see Karkat was enjoying the horn rubs. Even butting into the touch like a cat desperate for attention. "It's no problem, Karkat...I'll be here for you no matter what, okay?" A couple more paps, and she rests their for heads together like yesterday. "I'm sorry you have to go through all this. Nobody deserves such problems all at once."
Sniffles "I-I feel so gross.. and weak and like a stupid-ass f-fucking wimp... I d-don't like it..." Lets out a tiny hiss but its kind of difficult considering the nice feeling situation he been put into, he pulls away from her head and cuddles up against her stomach purring lightly, his heads still in a good position for his horns to be touched though since hes enjoying it and doesn't want her to stop
Rose allows Karkat to shift, doing so as well to accommodate the new position. "There is absolutely nothing weak or wimpy in crying, Karkat. You're not a machine and you have feelings. Ignoring them like you do is not healthy...so don't feel ashamed to talk to me about anything that might bother you, okay?" Honestly, Moirailligence was there to prevent Trolls from getting to such a critical level of anger in the first place. Rose really admired Karkat's ability to cope, even if it got him into the state he was now, and had been in yesterday. "Just breath, Karkat. It is going to be fine. Shoosh." More horn massaging, and now the papping has moved to his mid-back area.
"But i'm the leader! I have to be the strongest and since nobody fucking else can actually deal with everything else i go through i cant just give my job to anybody else, and even if i did it would be when i died and everyone else would be fucking dead at that point" He sighs and wipes his eyes before continuing "Next time were gonna get stuck on a meteor for years, it would be nice if at least the less annoying people wouldn't of fucking died, it also would of been nice if G- I already talked about that not talking about it again, not talking about it, *not talking about it* "
"Just because you are the leader, does not mean you have to put on a facade of that one angry dude. I understand you use that to vent your negative emotions...and perhaps even a defense mechanism. But you being leader does not mean you have to be the bigger one all the time. You are not restricted to put up with everything alone. If you did, I wouldn't be sitting here right now would I?" When Karkat accidentally brings up Gamzee again, Rose's papping speeds up. "He has caused you trauma, and misguided you on the definition of a true, healthy relationship. You deserved much better." She didn't know either of them long enough to know if it had been better at some point, but her point still stood.
Rose knew that if this game hadn't happened, the sixteen of them would have not met. Rose would have never met Kanaya, or Karkat...see Dave in person, none of that. But she had to, on her down days, wonder...was it really worth it? Was it worth all the blood, death, and tears? She sighs, listening to his every word and thinking quickly on how to comfort him. "Well, if the bad is more common than the good...it's just not a good idea. Otherwise, perhaps I would reconsider. But having a psychopath as your Moirail then expecting yourself to try and make them better...its a waste of energy and time...futile, really. You need time to recover from such a relationship."
Karkat groans and pretty just tries to hide in whatever, he doesn't care hes just upset "I want to talk to Gamzee... I feel like I should and need to... I'll feel wretched if I don't just completely break it off before getting with someone else as a moirail, and as you saw earlier, he still cares about me and our moirallegiance so... ugh I feel like one of those human girls in those rom-con movie things i'm such a wimp" He whimpers and pulls his sweater over his face, his crying resuming.
"Well, I suppose that is the right thing to do...it's just, be careful okay? Gamzee is insane, but I'm sure he's feeling very conflicted for what he portrays as betrayal and cheating, and will not be willing to listen to reason so easily as he would to his messiahs, or whatever crazy shit it is he believes in." She ceases in her papping, sighing. "Did you want to do that right now?"
"...Yes, I would definitely like to go see that stupid subjuggulating fuckass, i have more to talk about then just that.. I'm not gonna just let him fucking kill most of my god damn friends and attack them without getting at least fucking talked to about it, that isn't fucking okay in the slightest, I get were trolls but that piece of fucking shit DOES NOT fuck with people I care about without getting a good long fucking lecture, or culled" Karkat hissed out, obviously getting his normal flare of being pissed off back, he gets up out of there warm-pile-of-pale and storms out of the room, going to try and find that piece of shit clown
Rose watches as Karkat storms out of the room. As she sits there, staring after where he had once stood, she realizes just how much he cared about all of his friends. Even if half of them were dead or didn't actually properly acknowledge his deeds. It surprised her, honestly, how fast he'd been able to change demeanor. The LaLonde continues to ponder and stare at the door for several minutes before getting up herself, trailing slowly back to her own bedroom. Fortunately Gamzee does not ambush her, even after she is in her bedroom for fifteen minutes, pestering Kanaya in an attempt to reach her.
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TT: Hello, Kanaya.
TT: You have been absent for a couple of days now, and to my surprise, I have been so far unsuccessful in finding you. You are definitely hiding well, and I have a feeling it has something to do with my period, which I will explain quite vaguely as the blood smell you might scent, and your being a Rainbow Blood-Drinker.
TT: I appreciate the fact that you might care about me so much as to hide yourself from me to prevent temptation. But if you really do feel the need, I won't deny you a quick bite.
TT: After all, there are far more things that can kill me on here, and I highly doubt one of the more sane trolls on here are likely to be one of them.
TT: Talk to you whenever you choose to respond, I suppose.
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Rose, after distracting herself with her message to Kanaya, had her mind locked onto Karkat. Was he safe? He would come back unharmed, right? Goodness, Rose certainly hoped so. It was strange, really...how much an emotional encounter can turn someone from a stranger to a Moirail within a session or two. Already she was hoping that he would return safely. Honestly, she didn't regret it at all.
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Karkat stormed off in the direction he last saw Gamzee go off to, hes being very loud about it to. He is a bit scared though, he doesn't know if his ex-moirail would try to cull him or not because of so called 'cheating'. Everything Rose said came crashing back to him.. she was completely right, but since he had already started trying to find the subjug it would probably be bad to turn back now.
Karkat eventually finds Gamzee, after a lot of looking and such.. but now since hes here he didn't really plan on what to say; Of course this was Karkat so, he could quite easily find something to say without thinking to much about it. He cautiously approached the subjug, hesitant to say anything yet, it'd been so long since they've been alone to just talk.. does he really want to ruin that by yelling at him? Of course he does! He killed most of Karkats friends, and tried to kill most of the ones that are alive now but... Ugh, he decides to stop thinking about it and focus on the subjug here in front of him that's capable of killing him at any second
The youngest, but possibly second least tame Makara turns to Karkat, a deep frown on his usually indifferent- or when high off his ass, a lazy smirk-face. "What is it, Karkat?" He asks, having not used the other's real name since they had become Moirails in the first place. It was strange on his tongue, even to him. Alien as the humans that accompanied them on this God forsaken rock. His fingers twitched, itching for a couple hand fulls of clubs, but refraining. He was mad at Karkat, and couldn't see eye-to-eye with his logic, but he couldn't find the heart to just kill him, either. Not right now, at least.
Karkat hesitates for another second.. he notices that Gamzee is upset but he was just so horrible. He works up the courage to yell at him and then goes for it "How fucking dare you accuse me of cheating, and betraying you when you were a horrible moirail to me! And i'm pretty fucking certain we already ended our moirallegiance awhile ago. I don't see why you upset, you didn't seem upset when you killed all of our fucking friends and attacked most of us." Karkat growled, he seems pissed off and upset at the same time but the anger is more apparent
Gamzee's eyes widen as Karkat down-talks him. So the little mutant motherfucker had come to pick a fight, had he? Gamzee grits his teeth, trembling with an already bubbling rage. "If it ended, then it was without motherfucking say! You papped me under control after that, and I assumed it was still fine between us! If you were motherfucking over with our Moiraillgiance, you should have fucking told me so!" He was visibly shaking with anger, breath rate picking up drastically over the period of a minute. "Could'a motherfuckin' told me before giving me the idea that you were fuckin' cheating on me with that LaLonde Human!" Absolutely seething.
Karkat's being upset starts showing through, but only slightly "Fuck you! I did tell you dumb-ass, and I thought it was pretty obvious that we were over. The papping thing happened along fucking time ago Gamzee, it doesn't count for now you shithead!" He hissed out and resumed in an obviously even more worked up tone "I wasn't even planning on doing anything with her! She just came to my block at a bad time, fuck, you could of attacked her *then* instead, and fucking tried to protect me from getting hurt when i was already fucking upset! But instead you just fucking watched and let a human commit fucking pale actions on me and did nothing about it, you have absolutely no reason to get mad at me Gamzee, I didn't kill and attack my moirails friends, I didn't break my vow to you, so, How fucking dare you *Get. Mad. At. Me.* "
Gamzee runs his hands through his mop of black hair, trying desperately to keep himself under control. Karkat was right, he realized. His think pan and it's memory was simply faulty and forgetful. Karkat had technically broken it off, and if Gamzee had thought otherwise like he had up to now, he could have attacked Rose, that was true. So why didn't he?
His hands drop to his sides, defeated. Yeah, he saw the logic now.
"Sorry motherfucker, I guess you're right," he says, letting out a small whine.
Then, Gamzee was gone. He'd flash-stepped away somewhere, possibly into the vents above once more.
[end chapter 2]