I was curled up in a ball under my bed covers, almost as if it could shield me from the travesties that were going on downstairs. I'm Liv Rooney this sort of stuff doesn't happen to kids like me. This kind of stuff happens to the kids that smoke pot and sleep with anything that has a pulse. Mom was crying- no sobbing and dad was so angry he demanded I get out of his face.
Right now there discussing what they should do. Dad thinks we should abort it before it gets out into the press but mom thinks that we should keep the baby or consider adoption. Mom just keeps repeating that I've ruined my career and that there was no coming back for me.
She was right, I played Stephanie Einstein on a show for tweens. I get messages off 12 year olds every day asking how can they do something better and to follow them back. I'm not the sort of role model they should look up to.
When I told mom and dad they kicked the other three out with 15 dollars to go play in the arcade with. Joey and Parker were excited at the offer but Maddie seemed really concerned. She had just walked in after her first date with Diggy since he came back from Tundrabania to find her Dad with his face bright red, ready to explode, Mom in snots and tears and me looking extremely guilty and sorry for myself.
Obviously if I could turn back time I would change what I did, this isn't the person I want to be. I'm too young to be a mom. Maddie doesn't know what's up yet. I found out last month making me 9 weeks along but I hadn't gathered the courage to tell anyone until tonight.
"So what are we meant to do Pete? Live our lives normally until the baby comes and then play it off like its ours?" Mom roared. Her throat raw from sobbing. I stifled a cry attempting to burst out of me.
"No, Karen, No. I just- We can't let Liv go through with this. She's too careless to take care of kids. We can barely trust her with Parker." I heard dad say. He sounded out of breath.
"Well if she's old enough to be doing those sorts of things then she can most certainly be a mother." Mom stated firmly.
I wrapped my arm around my stomach. "You caused all of this." I told it. There was a tiny bump, you wouldn't notice it if you weren't looking for it.
"No she can't! She's still just a child, she just made a mistake." Dad defended.
"Look what her mistake has us doing. Pete, I don't want to be fighting." Mom said quietly. The paper then walls weren't to good at hiding noise.
I wish they were.
I know I screwed up, I know I've ruined my career as a performer. I just don't want to hear it.
They simmered down at about 10:30. Maddie and the boys came home at 10:45. Parker was thrilled to be up past his bed time. Joey was kind of getting confused about what was going on and Maddie was off edge trying to see what had happened with me.
She burst into the room as soon as she got home. She was red in the face and out of breath.
"Oh my god, Liv." Maddie gasped out of breath. I sat up in my bed.
"Maddie, you look... sweaty." I informed her.
"Are you okay? Please tell me you aren't moving back to Hollywood." Maddie pleaded dropping onto her knees.
"No Maddie I don't think I'll be going to Hollywood for a good while." I informed her slowly. Fiddling with my thumbs and avoiding I contact.
"Yes!" Maddie cheered. "Wait, why?" She questioned suddenly concerned.
"Because, I'm pregnant." I confided, looking away from Maddie. I bit my lip and looked away from her, unable to face her. I heard her gasp.
"Oh, Liv." She said quietly. I looked over at her. She felt pity on me, I could tell. Well I don't need her pity, I don't need anyone pity.
"It's fine really. I mean I won't be able to leave the house much for the next 8 months in case some pictures start to circle and then when the baby is born I can figure something out." I mumbled quietly.
"You can't just hide here like a hermit." Maddie exclaimed.
"Sure I can. I already do a lot anyway, no one will even notice." I explained, trying to convince her. She rolled her eyes.
"I can't believe you let this happen." Maddie whispered, pushing her bangs out of her face.
"I didn't want it to." I scoffed offended by Maddie's comment.
"Liv, you don't even have a boyfriend." She reminded me. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my head on the tops of them. "Who's the dad?" Maddie asked.
"Ryder." I whispered.
Maddie's eyes bulged out of her head. "Ryder. As in Ryder Gordon?" She asked.
I let out a sob and nodded.
Ryder was my male co-star on Sing it Loud. Stephanie and Ryder's character Lucas may of had chemistry but not so much me and him.
"Liv! I thought you hated him?" Maddie shouted.
"I felt vulnerable." I lied.
"You really screwed up." Maddie sighed and plopped down on her bed.
"I did." I cried tears streaming down my face. Liv Rooney wasn't too pretty a crier. "And I won't be able to continue in show business because my name is ruined, My feet are going to get big and fat and I'm probably going to end up with stretch marks."
"Liv, I think you're forgetting something big. You're bringing a life into this world." Maddie reminded.
"I'm not cut out to be a mom." I mumbled and clutched onto my pillow.
"Does Ryder know yet?" Maddie asked. I shook my head no. "Are you going to tell him?"
"I will eventually. Just not right now." I blubbered, sobs choking my speech.
"He needs to know Liv it's his kid too."
"Do I have to?" I asked Maddie.
"I can't tell you to do anything, I'm just saying what I'd do."
Maddie then started to get changed into her pajama's. I looked over at my phone that rested on my locker. I know I should call Ryder any good person should but Ryder is less of a parent than I am.
I could probably put it off another month.