Hi. I got motivated while were at the pool and it did rain very hard. So I came up with this HijiGin story. This chapter is about Gin's thoughts. Not really related to the story of Gintama. Just some random story. I do not own Hijikata and Gintoki but I love them both. _

Gintoki's POV

Somehow, everyday, ever since the day I knew that you always look at me like a lover would do, my heart will race. It's an inexplicable feeling. I thought my heart would burst just you looking at me. I, on the other hand, given my shy character, deep inside felt really embarrassed at the same time felt a flash of happiness. Monsters like me don't have the right to love or to be loved. So before these growing feelings would tear my heart, I might as well act as if I never noticed your feelings for me. Clearly humans and monsters will never cross their worlds.

Even though I'm trying to seal these feelings, I will treasure the memory of you staring at me under that dim sky when the stars were gone and rain was threatening to fall and only the building's light illuminated the pool before us at the balcony of the girl's room right after we had dinner. You didn't know how much it made me happy. But then, these feelings should never left to grow, otherwise, it'll definitely break my heart.

I still remember when our hands, no, specifically my fingers grazed yours. I actually supressed the forming red blush on my cheeks and replaced it with a light chuckle as if I was talking to my friend and ignored you. But honestly, that was so embarrassing that my heart skipped a beat.

I hope you will not read this. I started to notice small things. Remember when we went to the pool, it rained so hard, even though my shirt got wet, I never changed it, knowing that we had the same shirt color made me really happy.

At the corner of my eye, I always see you as you tried your best to get my attention.

Days passed and I thought everything will be the same. But everything died. The flame in your eyes suddenly turned cold. Your eyes no longer followed me. I was so afraid that the day will come that you'll get tired of me and it seemed like it did betray me.

That day I saw you together with another human, happily smiling, everything was so perfect. And I understood, on that day, humans are for humans, and monsters should just stay in the dark.

So, before I close my eyes and bid you goodbye, I'll tell you that sometime in my life I had tasted happiness as what you humans call it.

Goodbye my human.

Kindly review. I reread my other works and I noted some of my errors there (spelling, grammar, etc.)

thank you as always

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