I do not own Fairy Tail, if I did it would be completely different.

Chapter 4

[Fairy Hills]

Juvia POV

I wake up to my magic alarm clock lacrima ringing though out my room in Fairy Hills. I glace at the clock and see it is 7:30 AM. Another day in a guild full of lies and hypocrisy. If I had known this guild would be like this I would have never joined this guild. I am not sure about other guilds are like and how they treat their guild members. But, after fighting Gray in the whole Phantom Lord Incident, I expected his words to be true. Sadly they were not true.

Being in this guild now under 7 months, well really 3 or 4 if you count being ignored by everyone except, for Team Forgotten and the Thunder God Tribe. I can understand being lonely, being an orphan it comes with the situation, and then there was Phantom Lord. Phantom Lord was not that bad in hind sight, I may not have had a bunch of good friends, but at least they did not lead me on about their intentions.

I know before I joined Fairy Tail, everywhere I went it would rain, I could not help it, and I was very depressed with my life. It's hard to not be depressed, when people don't want to be around you, literally you whole life. At least at Phantom Lord, they acknowledged my existence and looked at me when I walked into the guild. It may not seem like much, but knowing people knowledge your alive versus not, is a very important thing in this world. At least it is to me, and the rest of my team and the Thunder God Tribe feel the same way.

Being isolated sucks, but being lead on is worse. I thought they would treat us like 'family', that is how Gray talked about it after our big battle so many months ago before I joined. What happened, to change that, and for them to go back on all there words? Oh yeah, that is easy to figure out, 'she' happened, Lisanna came back from the 'dead'. I don't understand what anyone of us did to the guild to be completely ignored, just because someone returns from the 'dead' does not mean you need to spend every living second of the last 3 months listening to boring stories of our counterparts.

Most of the stories are pretty degrading about our counterparts. But, most of them are about Lucy Ashley and her constant bullying of her in Edolas. Despite the fact, they are mostly lies according to Wendy, Gajeel, and Lucy. Does she have anything better to do then to talk about my former 'love rival'? Yep it's official I am beginning to think of her as my 'love rival'. I am over Gray. I realize my actions towards trying to get his attentions were pretty pathetic, but in my defense I did not know any better. Because of him I saw the infinitely beautiful blue sky for the first time ever. If that isn't enough for a girl to develop a crush on a boy, than I don't know what is. Besides the stripping habit, he has a nice body, and what girl does not want a cute boy, with a good body, and strong magic?

Thus, I fell for him, he was my first crush. I do not know what is normal or how to act when you have a crush on a boy. I tried to get his attention, I am pretty sure he know I liked him, I am damn sure everyone else know it. Yet, he seemed to never to notice, or from what I am thinking now, never wanted to acknowledge it. I may have come off a 'little strong'. I can see it now. Lyon acts the same way to me that I did with Gray. It's easy to see things after you have a clear head and can view things from the outside looking in.

But, at the very least, he could have said he did not like me in that way. It would have been hard, but at least I would have not wasted my time and humiliated myself so much for that liar. Is it that hard to admit one's feelings to someone? I suppose I chose the wrong ice make mage, maybe I should get to know Lyon, what is the worst that could happen? If I ever see him again and he asks me out, I will say, "Yes". If it works out great, if it does not I will not have to waste time thinking about it, after all I know very little about him. I just hope his attraction to me, was not just a 'sibling rivalry thing' between him and Gray.

Why did I waste so much time on that ice hearted liar? I suppose stalking someone is not the best idea. But in my defense I did not know anything about this topic. Even in Phantom Lord, my only real friend was Gajeel, and he is not a very talkative person in general. So, I had no female to talk to about this stuff. Mira, was not very hopeful, she maybe a matchmaker in her heart, but she is not very good in the area in general. Nowadays, for her the only thing that matters is if Lisanna is with Natsu. All other matches are out of the door or just don't matter. We only talk when I need a drink or food, besides that she is too busy stalking Lisanna and working at the guild. I admit she has her hands full literally with all the 'freeloaders' in this guild.

Phantom Lord was never like this, everyone worked and went on jobs, and you paid for your own food or drinks. I see why Master Jose, thought this guild was weaker then Phantom Lord. The majority of the guild is there for the free food and drinks. Here since I joined, there are people who I swear have not seen them go on a single job, look at the job board, or even show any kind of magic. I question if they are even mages, with such a low magical presence, but I assume they are because they have guild marks.

I love the idea, this guild was made to bring people together as a family, but somewhere down the line it got changed. Families grow up and have to function in the world, meaning get a job or at least go on some.

Yet 60 or 70 people in this guild I know nothing about and neither do either of our two teams. Levy, Freed, Evergreen, and Bixslow have been in this guild since they were kids, especially Levy. Even she says, "That I do not know anything about most of the people in this guild". I remember asking her about this one time and she said "They basically show up to the guild to eat, drink, fight, and then pass out. In that order of course. This has been going on over 9 years, I have watched some of them for years, and nothing changes". I really feel bad for Levy, she was friendly with the guild, the people she knew of course, and her 'former Team Shadow Gear'. And then everything changed and she was tossed out like yesterday's trash. Actually worse than trash, at least you acknowledge the trash 'exists' and throw it away.

The Thunder God Tribe have never really been overly friendly with the guild before Fantasia, but they were acknowledged. I wonder how they feel now? Without their Laxas here, it must be really hard for them to fit in after everything that happened. I can understand why Laxas wanted to change this guild, he just went around it in the wrong way. I still see good in Laxas, and I sense we will meet again sometime.

I know I speak in 3rd person, it is a habit I am trying to change, but it just happens. I think it is has something to do with being alone most of my childhood and teen life. Growing up in an orphanage, the concept of 'I' is not very ingrained to us. We were mostly a burden to society, especially me because I could not control my emotions at that time in my life, leading to all the rain that surrounded me. The orphanage was ill prepared to handle any one with magic, let alone my type of magic. We did not get a lot of attention, food, toys, or basically anything. All we got was just the basics, thus I was happy when I joined Phantom Lord. And I went along with whatever they said. I usually spent my time sowing my own cloths and dolls in the orphanage, none of the other kids wanted to play with me. When the other children were so mean to me because of the constant rain, the dolls were all I had, I even named them. They were my first friends.

I admit coming to Fairy Tail was not all bad, despite being betrayed by the main people in this guild, I still managed to make friends with my team and the Thunder God Tribe. The other people are former friends now and will stay that way. I am not as forgiving as my former 'love rival' was, and I know she is not as forgiving now either. I suppose we are all growing up and becoming less naïve to the real world we live in. Bad things will happen and we will not always be able to control situations and come out on top. The 'Power of Nakama' will not always come out ahead. The rest of Fairy Tail will learn that the hard way.

After 1 month of being ignored by everyone except those on my own team and surprisingly the Thunder God Tribe. I figure even they can feel, lonely, betrayed, and angry. Lucy came up with the idea of forming a team, and we decided on the name, 'The Forgotten'. It only made sense, all of us came to the guild after Lisanna 'died', except for Levy. After all we are forgotten anyways, funny how one day you're considered family next day, you're not a person even worthy of any greetings. We all agreed that naming it Team Lucy was a bad idea, despite my objections at first, I figured it was her idea so her team, but I came around and realized it wasn't the most appropriate name. After all, who knows a team after themselves, especially if you are not even the strongest on the team? Not even Laxas, named his former team after himself, and he was the strongest on his team.

I look at the clock again and realize I have not moved from my thoughts in 10 minutes. I need to get up and go to the guild. I don't want to go to the guild, if not for this training mission, I would just stay home and sow some new cloths for Carla. I like sowing cloths for her, it makes me happy, and she is always so grateful for it. When will Lucy activate 'Alpha Protocol' already? I am tired of waiting, but she says, "Good things come to those who wait, and there is time and place for all things". So I along with everyone else who follow her, will wait.

I do everything I have to do in the morning and get my bags packed for our 1 month training mission at the Heartfilia Estate. I wonder what it looks like there? How will Lucy and her father get along with each other, now that they have made up with each other? No matter what happens, we have her back for better or worse. She is the glue that binds us together, and we are happily stuck to her.