Note: I'm so sorry for the late update but life happens.

PLEASE READ:

- There is NO Bella Swan in this story! I hate her character so she does not exist here.
Therefore the plot from the books did not happen!

- Obviously I tweaked things around to fit with my own plot.

DISCLAIMER:

- I do not own Twilight, only my OC characters and my plot


Adore You - [Seth Clearwater]

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July 30, 2014

Dear Mom and dad,

By the time you find this I hope you are not freaking out because you can't find me. Know that I am safe and that I will be calling you as soon as I land. That being said I am in New York. I will be studying at Columbia. Surprise! Haha, okay I'll stop. I'm sure you've seen the acceptance letter right? I'm sorry. I know I told you guys that I was going to Washington University but that is not what I wanted at all. My heart and my dreams have always involved going to school out of state. I want to be a doctor and I knew my best chance was for me to venture off. This was hard for me to do but I am following my dreams. I hope that you can accept that and leave me be. I am sorry that I did not tell you guys about all of this. But I knew that you would never be okay with it and I could not risk you stopping me. Please keep an eye on Seth for me.

Also don't get mad at Gabriel since he was the one who dropped me off at the airport. He didn't even know about my plans until the moment I asked him to drive me to the airport.

I love you all so much. I'll call soon I promise.

Love,
Your daughter

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Dear Seth,

I have dreamed of leaving La Push for a couple of years now. It was always my wish to go to college outside of Washington and begin my journey to becoming a doctor. Then one day- I just thought 'why does it have to be a dream?' I did everything I could to make it a reality. I succeeded. I know that I told my parent and the tribe that I was to Washington University but I only did it because I knew that people would try to stop me from leaving. It's been months since I've been making arrangements- I got my early acceptance letter from Columbia University and I wanted to tell you. But I couldn't. My dreams were coming true and I wasn't going to let them pass me by. I won't let anyone stop me- not the tribe, not my parents, and not you.

I've been distant from you for years, mostly because I knew if I wasn't I would let myself stay here if only to be with you. I don't mean to sound cold or harsh Seth. I have always wanted what my parents have, you know? For a long time I have known and understood that I was your imprint- I accepted it when I was 15.

I have never asked anything of you before. But now, I ask that you please let me go to New York to follow my dreams. Do not follow me. Leave me be in order to find myself and trust me to come back to you when the time is right. In the mean time I want you to live your life and do something that you will be proud of.

Please look after my parents and check up on Gabriel for me.

Feel free to write to me please. If anything I insist that you do so.

Adore you,
Nicole Uley

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August 17, 2014

Dear Mom and dad,

I'm glad that you understand why I had to do this, I only wish that dad understood as well. I assume that he is still mad at me since he never picks up my phone calls. I miss you guys so much. It's weird not being around you or the rest of tribe but it's also very exciting- fear aside. How are things over there? How is Gabe doing? He tells me he's fine but I'm not sure if he's lying to me or not. How about Seth? How is he dealing with all of this? I miss him. Dear lord I miss him so much…

Anyway I am doing well. Things are great with my roommate (I was scared we wouldn't get along) and I have made friends what the other students on my floor. Today was the first day of classes and I love it (even if I can already tell it's going to a long and stressful year). I will write soon. Tell dad I love him and I miss him.

Love you,
Nicole U.

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Seth,

I was happy to see you replied to my letter. I'd like for thing to work out between us in the future but first I'd like for us to get to know each other. I miss you. I miss you so much Seth. I didn't think that it would be so painful. I really hope that you are okay. Are you? I don't want to hurt you- it's the last thing I want.

I am glad to hear that you've applied to masters programs! I hope that you are doing this because it is something you want to do and not for me. Either way I am so proud of you and I know that you will do amazingly.

Thank you for checking up on Gabe and my parents. Sadly my dad is still not talking me- I miss him.

Classes started today and I love it so far. It is all so interesting and challenging. I can already tell that it is going to a very stressful year. My professors so far are really nice and passionate about their subjects. My roommate and I click well and we've become friends with most of the people in our building.

Sometimes I wish I was home though- it is so hard not feeling homesick at times. Sometimes I just crawl into my bed and I hug Mr. Tomas (the polar bear- he looks like a Mr. Tomas! Don't laugh at me Seth!). It's a bit scary doing this on my own and having to meet new people. Especially when you consider that we grew up in La Push, a place so small that everyone knows everyone. Then again it's exciting as well.

I miss you Seth =)

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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December 22, 2014

Seth,

I wonder if you are mad at me too. I really hope not. Mom and dad won't answer my calls since I told them I wouldn't be coming home for the holidays. A couple of people from my dorm building and I will be celebrating together- it'll be fun but different. I hope that you get your present on time. I confess that I don't know what to get you so hopefully you like it.

As you know school has been great. It keeps me really busy and stressed but it is part of the experience right? I passed all my classes this semester (but I'm pissed off that I got one B). What about you?! How did your finals go? Tell me I want to know! Tell me everything!

I miss you. I miss the fact that in La Push you were always there with me. Here… here I am all alone. I have friends- new friends but it's not the same. I really miss you Seth. Hopefully I will see you in the summer. Merry Christmas!

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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January 1, 2015

Seth,

Happy New Years! Experiencing New Years in New York of all places was amazing. Times Square was super packed with people but it was so thrilling. It all looked so beautiful especially with the white snow. I hope one day we can celebrate it together. Some guy tried to kiss me when the ball finally dropped- his mouth met my fist. Haha. My friends were amused.

Mom and dad still aren't talking to me. I hate it.

On a brighter note, I got your present and I Love It! I haven't taken it off since that day. Although I think you should send me one of your sweaters. I'm glad that you liked my present! It took me months to figure out what to give you.

The new semester starts in a couple of weeks. I'm looking forward to my new classes.

I still miss you though.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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March 15, 2015

Seth,

Happy Birthday! I'm sorry that I can't be there with you! Midterms have started and they are killing me. I swear coffee is my new best friend- Gabriel can suck it. Anyway I hope that you have a marvelous day and I will call you before I go to bed tonight. I really hope you like my present. I was a bit hesitant about giving you this but my roommate convinced me to just do it. Granted it was weird making a collage of myself but I wanted you to have something of me. This way you will always have me there in your room. If you are feeling lonely or you just miss me- you can now look at this and I'll be there. 3 When I miss you I always wear your shirt or your hoodie and I feel better. Part 2 of your present requires you to be online on Skype this Wednesday the 18th at 7PM your time. I can't wait!

I miss you. Happy birthday Seth!

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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June 7, 2015

Seth,

It's over! My first year of college done and only 3 more years to go. I'll be home in 2 weeks but I'll be staying at Gabe's apartment. My parents still aren't too happy with me. Mom at least is starting to write back again but dad is still ignoring me. I wish he wouldn't- I miss him so much. It hurts that he won't talk to me. It's just easier for all of us if I stay with Gabe.
Anyway- I hope that you will be waiting for me at the airport! You will be there right?! I can't wait to see you. I was thinking the other day that maybe since I'll be there all summer we could go on our first date… and many more…

I miss you and see you in 2 weeks.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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September 23, 2015

Seth,

So my classes are insane. This semester is going to be so much harder considering I already have a paper due and a test in a week. I want to go back to the summer!
How are your classes going? Much better than mine I hope.
Miss you…

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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November 3, 2015

Seth,

Ignore my dad please. Just leave it all be. If he wants to continue to be mad at me- just let him. Eventually he will hopefully understand.
Thank you for trying though. Skype date next week?

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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December 19, 2015

Seth,

I'm sorry I won't be there once again for Christmas or New Year's. Please don't be mad at me like my parents.
Your present should be there in time. I hope. When I saw it, I just knew I had to get it for you.
Merry Christmas! I miss you always.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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January 1, 2016

Seth,

Happy New Years! No crazy outing this year. I spent it my place with a bottle of wine (I'm underage I know but it'll be our secret) and binge watching tv shows on Netflix. Like I said nothing fancy but something I can see us doing in the future. Anyway, how was your New Years?
I miss you.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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February 21, 2016

Seth,

I took a chance in flying out to see you. But I really wanted us to celebrate Valentine's Day as a couple. I'm glad I went after all. I'm sorry I burned dinner haha, at least we know that my baking is loads better. Still it was great being there with you. In a way it was reassuring to know that we can function well together being in the same place. It is easy to see "us" in the future- in a house with careers, kids and a dog of course.
Anyway… I miss you already…

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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April 6, 2016

Seth,

I know I already called you about this but I'll write anyway. It feels weird not writing to you now. It happened! It was so scary and weird, does it always feel like this or is just when it first happens? My friend and I were hanging out and as I walked back to my building I ran into a newborn vampire. I was so scared just seeing the red eyes. I panicked. Next thing I know I was wolf and the newborn ran away. I phased Seth! I phased! I wasn't supposed to have the gene, isn't that what my dad said once? I don't know what to do now. I hope that my dad listens to you. It hurts that he still won't pick up my calls. I want my daddy, Seth. I miss him and I'm so scared. Please talk to my dad and the elders.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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April 22, 2016

Seth,

You know this already but dad contacted a friend of his that runs a pack here in New York. They are close to my school which is great for me. They've allowed me to join them on runs and they'll be helping me with control. Thank you for talking to dad for me. He called the other day. Dear lord I missed talking to him. Although I'm pretty sure I spent most of the call crying my eyes out and he spent most his trying to cry. But at least we are talking again and I'm so glad.

I miss you.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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May 7, 2017

Dad,

I know this is something I should have called you about but- I didn't know how you would react so I thought I would write to you and you can just call me once you've calmed down. So I killed my first vampire today. Another pack member and I were out for a run when we ran across him. it was really scary dad. I don't know how you and all the others did this or continue to do this. I was so scared. Roger made sure to sit down and talk to me about it all, which is good I suppose. Still it was not an experience I want to do again. I guess I'll be waiting for your call.

Love you,

Nicole

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January 1, 2017

Seth,

Happy New Years! It's a bit weird writing this while you're sleeping not that far away from me. Either way I'm so happy that you flew to New York to spend New Year's with me. It was amazing being able to have dinner, to just relax in your arms as we watched movies. I am happy that I was finally able to bring in the New Year with you. Here's hoping this is only the first of many.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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May 17, 2017

Seth,

Hi, I hope everything is going well. I won't be able to come home for the summer. I got accepted into the internship program I applied for. Considering how competitive it was to get in I would be a fool to reject it. However, I am flying in for your graduation next month. I'm proud of you and all you've accomplished. I'll see you soon. Miss you always.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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August 3, 2017

Seth,

This internship is intense. But damn if I'm not learning a lot. When are you going to tell me about this so-called news?! Seth! I want to know! Please?! *insert puppy dog eyes*

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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September 22, 2017

Seth,

The director offered me a part-time job at my internship! I've accepted of course since it'll help me now that I am starting the application process for medical school. I'm a bit worried about balancing everything but I'll make it work. I have to. I can't believe this is my last year already. I feel like it went by so fast. I miss you. I love you.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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December 4, 2017

Seth,

So… Gabriel let it slip. In his defense he was pretty drunk when he called me. I'm so excited! I can't wait for you to come to New York again! And for Christmas! I want you to get here already. It is going to be a great Christmas. Especially since my roommate is going home for the break and it'll be just us~ I Love you.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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January 9, 2018

Seth,

Best winter break ever! Too bad you had to go back home but oh well. I enjoyed our time together. Walking through the streets of New York hand in hand- it is something I will never forget. Waking up in the morning to see you next to me with that soft smile- damn you Seth, I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. I really wish you didn't have to leave. I miss waking up wrapped in your arms and being surrounded by the constant warmth.

I love you.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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March 13, 2018

Gabriel,

You better be at my graduation or I'll kill you.
Just kidding.
But not really.

Miss you,
Nicole U.

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March 14, 2018

Mom and dad,

I graduate on June 15. Please let me know if you are coming so I can make arrangements.
I hope that you can make it. Miss you guys.

Your daughter,
Nicole U.

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March 15, 2018

Seth,

It's official Seth! I'll be graduating on June 15 with honors and as part of the top 5 in my class. I'm so excited. Also I will be going to Johns Hopkins medical school in Baltimore, Maryland. You are the first to know. I already sent my acceptance letter. So I'll be moving over there for the duration of my schooling.
I'll send you everything else as the day for graduation gets closer.
I miss you like always. Happy early birthday!
I hope you like the present.

Adore you,
Nicole U.

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"Adore You" – Miley Cyrus

Baby, baby, yeah, are you listening?
Wondering where you've been all my life
I just started living
Oh, baby, are you listening?

When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

Baby, can you hear me?
When I'm crying out for you
I'm scared oh, so scared
But when you're near me
I feel like I'm standing with an army
Of men armed with weapons, hey, oh

When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

I love lying next to you
I could do this for eternity
You and me - we're meant to be
In holy matrimony
God knew exactly what he was doing
When he led me to you

When you say you love me
Know I love you more (I love you more)
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you


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The last chapter may not be out for about two months. Sorry!

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I just got a new job though so my schedule is going to be really weird for a while.

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