390AN: This email corresponds with Chpt. 47. I just couldn't post these until after I posted Chpt. 49 when Steph mentions the emails.
Carlos Mañoso
August 30, 2002
To: Stephanie Plum
Subject: I'm sorry
Babe,
I know you don't want me to call you Babe, but I always will because you'll forever be my Babe. I know it doesn't seem like that right now, but it's true. My life and responsibilities have changed more than I could have imagined in the last week, but I'm still in love with you. That's not going to change.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I was in shock, upset, and angry about the situation. I know that doesn't make it right, but I didn't know what to say to you. No matter what though, I should have called you.
I don't think words can ever express to you just how sorry I am. This whole situation is incredibly unfair to you. I can say that Rachel or I received the worst part of this deal, but that would be a lie. Even though I don't want to be a father now, or maybe ever, I know I'll love the baby. While I'm gaining that, I know you feel like you've lost everything—our friendship, hope for the possibility of us, and to top it off Abuela—all because of my decisions. One day I hope you'll realize that you never truly lost any of that. I will always be your friend, even if you currently despise me, and I'll support you in any way that I can.
I love you. I hope one day you can forgive me and give me another chance. I know it won't be anytime in the near future, but I refuse to lose hope that one day there will be a us and that we'll have our someday.
Forever yours,
Carlos
P.S. Listen to Tyrese's "I'm Sorry".