I do not own Arrow or any of the characters in any way just the storyline. Everything else but that is owned strictly by DC comics, and the CW. Please enjoy, and please leave postive commets only thank you! This will also be my take on season 4. This is also my first story ever on Thea, and I've been thinking of doing this for a while now, and putting my own spin on her feelings after her revival. Hope you enjoy and as always please leave positve reviews only!

Bold - Hallucinations/Visions/Memories

Italics - Thinking

"My name is Thea Queen, a girl who went from being a spoiled little rich kid who got everything she wanted, to a girl who now had to fight for survival after everything and everyone in her life was taken from her. Now I fight beside my brother and his team in order to help keep our city safe from Damien Dhark, but in order to do so, just like with Ollie I had to become someone else...I had to become something else...

Chapter 1 - Face to Face with Fear

When Oliver was gone, for the first five years I-I didn't know what to do with myself. It was just me and my mother together, just the two of us. Then she met Walter, who became my step father, and I suddenly now found myself alone. Five years ago, I didn't just lose my big brother, I had also lost my father too. At least the man I've come to know as my father anyway.

Robert Queen raised me as his own child and I knew now he wasn't my real father, but in all aspects, I wanted him to be. Deep with all my heart. I wanted to be a true Queen by blood, not just by half, but I guess in a way it all worked out I suppose because through Malcolm Merlyn, my real father, I gained another brother, Tommy, Ollie's best friend, who was killed when our father almost destroyed the Glades. Some father right? Well that's the story of my life is I guess.

"Thea?" I snapped out of my thoughts and turned to Laurel. "Help me get her out of here." I turned my head to see Sara's cold body and a stab of pain shot through my head as I looked into her glassy lifeless blue-green eyes. "Thea?" Laurel's voice suddenly sounded far away now. Distant, as more stabs of unwanted pain kept shooting through my head like rockets firing off in my brain. I tried to speak, but no words would come out of my mouth and the pain in my head kept on growing, until I now began to see horrible visions I wished I hadn't seen.

I saw myself standing on the roof of a building looking directly at Sara as I fired shot after shot at her. Watching with unwanted satisfaction as her eyes filled with pain from behind her black mask. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was watching myself enjoy seeing a person I cared about in pain. What the hell was wrong with me? Why would somebody like my father do this to me? Was Malcolm really this heartless to only care about power and not his children? At that moment, I tried to focus all my thoughts now to Tommy, my brother through Malcolm's side, who I secretly used to have a crush on before discovering the truth. I closed my eyes and tried to focus on anything but Sara, but the vision wouldn't leave me no matter how hard I tried. I felt Laurel's hand on my shoulder trying to pull me out of my trance as wave after wave of sharp agony shot through my head.

"Thea? Thea!" I could hear Laurel's voice as she gently shook my shoulder still trying to pull me out of the trance, as I saw Sara's eyes full of pain now as I fired the arrows into her chest and watched her fall from the top of the building a pang of regret and guilt flowed through me like river dam about to explode. Everything inside of me was screaming why? What could have happened to me that made me do this to such a close friend? Sara and Laurel have been apart of my family for as long as I could remember, they were like my big sisters and to think that I was capable of doing something like that to either of them was just too horrible to think about.

With tears blurring my vision, I looked up to see Laurel wrapping her arms around me pulling me into a comforting hug. "Shh, it's okay." She said softly. "W'll figure this out Thea I promise. We'll figure this out together." "It'smy fault." I said trying not to cry as a lump filled up in my throat. "Sara's gone because of me. Laurel, I'm so sorry." "Thea? what are you talking about?" Laurel asked looking at me with concerned blue eyes as I fell to my knees crying. "I k-killed h-her! I killed Sara! I don't know how, or why, but I killed her, and I don't even remember doing it."

I couldn't help it, I was sobbing like a damn baby at the moment, but as the rush of every sad emotion began to well up within me, a sudden burst of anger also began to fuel up inside me, which suddenly took ahold of me. "Thea?" Before I knew it, I was hearing myself snarling and growling like a wild animal, and pounced on top of Laurel knocking her to the ground with my hands wrapped around her throat! "Thea! Thea! Stop! What are you doing?!"

I had no control over my actions, and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop myself from harming Laurel, it was almost like someone else had taken control over my body, had cast my soul out of my body and all I could do was watch. Watch as Laurel's life was draining away at my own hands. "Thea!" Suddenly a new voice surrounded me as I turned my head just in time to see something dark and heavy hit the side of my head, and a burst of pain shot through me as black spots filled my vision as I tumbled off of Laurel who was coughing and gasping for breath. As I looked up, the last face I saw was Malcolm. My father.

TOO BE CONTINUED...If this is short, I apologise, but I promise the next chapters will be much longer. If you enjoyed reading the story and would like to see more, then please feel free to leave positive reviews only. If you nothing nice to say then do not review and say anything at all. Hope you enjoyed reading and as always please review!