Betrayal

Chapter 1: Anger

Anger; it really is such an ugly emotion. How badly it corrupts when the white-hot fury courses through your veins. All logical thought, all ability to calmly assess a situation goes out the door when this hideous thing raises it's head from the abyss it has been sent to. I can't recall a time where I was ever this angry. When those arrogant, ignorant people of school made fun of me, it was more of a mild annoyance, and even in grade school, it was more sadness than anger. So what is the cause of such emotion to run through even me, the monster of logic, the one who proclaimed to have discarded all these useless emotions, to fell such a thing you may ask? Well, before I answer that, you must know what caused me to transform form a monster of logic to just that, a monster.

It was just a regular day, well, as regular as one such as myself could get. I was walking down to club, hoping to enjoy some of that wonderful tea made by Sobu's own Ice Queen, Yukinoshita Yukino. As is neared the door, I heard her, and our other club mate, Yuigahama Yui talking. Normally, I would just walk through the doors even if they were talking about something. However, when I heard them mention my name, I couldn't help but get a little curious, so I stood still and listened.

" Yukino, how much long do we have to be nice to him?"
"Not long Yuigahma-San just as long as he can continue to of use to us."
" Alright, Yukinon. Isn't like perfect? I mean it's sad really, all we need to do is just show him a little affection, and he becomes just like my dog Sable. I would feel bad, but then I remember that it's just him."
"Quite right Yuigaham-San, it's quite sad, that's all a gross thing like him can ever hope to muster from anyone."

They said more, but it was at this point that I turned and walked away. It was like someone had just stabbed me through the heart, punched me in the gut and hit me with a bat all at the same time. Emotions raged inside my head, and I felt some tears run down my face, and all I could do was look a the ground in shame, focusing on the sound of their words.

I had made my way up to the roof of the school, just leaning on the edge of the rail. Crushing sadness had gripped me, all I could think about was how easy it would be; just jump over the railing and all my troubles could just go away. No more whispers of the other students. No more disappointed looks form my parents, no more pity form Komachi. All the insults, the rejections, all the pain rushed through my mind at that time, and I might have really jumped had something not stopped me. A buzzing in my pocket, and when I looked at it, all that sadness and thoughts of jumping turned into something else, something far more sinister, more dangerous, and honestly, far better.

"Hikki, come to the club already, there's a problem and we need your help to solve it."

I looked at that text for what seemed to be an eternity, and fury rushed through my body. I swear that saw red flashed across my vision for a few seconds and all of the other emotions I was thinking of turned into something far more simple, ugly and quite frankly, more frightening. That text ignited something I had buried deep inside myself, long ago. I felt a smile cross my face, something that I was sure if another human being had been there to see, they would be sure a demon had took possession of my body. No, I though, this is not the way to end things, I am Hikigaya Hachiman, the greatest loner to ever exist, and something like this would not break me.

"Sorry I had to go home, wasn't feeling well."

"Alright, just make sure to get better for tomorrow, m'kay?"

"Yeah, I will be better than ever"

After I sent that text, I put my phone back into my pocket. Yes, I thought, I certainly will be better. First, I had to take a good look at myself first, to make sure nothing like this would ever happen to me again. So instead of pushing my anger back, I embraced it, did not let it control me, but instead worked together with it, and it felt like I was truly alive after I acknowledged it, that this emotion and all the things that accompanied it were just another part of me. . Yes, I decided, the monster of logic is no more. In his place, just a monster, waiting to strike back at all those that have cause me pain and ridicule.

I turned to walk back down the stairs, towards my home once again. All along the trip, I could feel my eyes hurting, and when I finally got home, I went straight to the bathroom. Thank goodness that Komachi was out with her friends right now, because from the look of my eyes right now, I'm sure she would be scared. It seems as if responding to my new outlook on life, my fish eyes had gotten an upgrade, turning into that of a bears. I smiled at myself in the mirror, to see how it compared to my look before, and let me tell you, the results were terrifying to say the least. Instead of looking like a creep, now it looked like I was a predator, my eyes seemed to be primal, wild, and most importantly, dangerous. Well, I thought to myself as I changed and got ready for bed, why should I apologize for the monster I've become, when no one ever apologized for making me this way.

That was yesterday. Today is the first day of the new me. Along with my anger came something more primal, the need to be strong, so that none could hurt me like those two did. I have the eyes of an animal, so why not mimic the attitude of one as well, I thought. I've always said that I wanted to be a bear in the next life. Why not just become one now? Solitary, strong, aggressive and so dangerous that none try to fight it. That's what I decided, that none would mess with me, for the consequences would be too much. So as I sat in my chair, head phones in and head down, I ran through all the plans that I would I have to do to fully complete my transformation. It looks like the first step just came up to me, isn't my luck just turning out swell right now. Might as well get this over with now then.

"Yahallo, Hikki, coming to club today?"

Yes, I am leaving it right there. Now, I'm kind of basing the new Hachiman after something that happened to me. So, the new personality is more rough and tumble, and I'll explain how the interactions will be different with say, Totsuka and Hayato's cliché. Anyway, tell me how it goes and if you all want me to continue. Plus criticism are welcomed and any ideas for arcs from here will be accepted. That's all for now, stay frosty friends. Peace