A/N: I stretched out episode one so that Jordi's sugery isn't until the day the second episode came out and I added a lot of my own stuff but I hope you like it :)

September 19, 2014

Leo threw a mini party for Jordi before his surgery in a few days. It was really sweet and something good came out of it. Leo gave all of us one of his red bands, we formed the Red Band Society. That was the highlight of my day, enough though Leo and I were awkward- I'll explain later. Earlier I was forced to eat something today, I can feel the weight adding on from it. That is unhealthy. I guess I don't have the right to call things unhealthy when I'm not eating. The thing is everyone here drinks and smokes, Kara is a drug addict. At least I'm above that- I know I'm making the healthy choice there. School was a lot of fun today, I got an extra book to read and it's really good so far. The only common type of drama at Ocean Park is the kind where doctors flip over change in a patient's condition. I would say getting in a fight with your friends in front of all your other friends is drama, right? That very situation happened today and I'm not sure what to do. For lunch, all my friends decided to come to my room today since I can't leave during meals. Everyone's plates were just about empty and the only thing missing from mine was two bites of chicken that Kara ate. Usually my friends don't really bug me about my anorexia but today Leo went against that. He looked from my plate to me and said, "Emma, just eat something,".

I don't know why that bothered me so much since he is always telling me how skinny I am but it did, "I have a disease, peg leg." I snapped back.

"Come on, why won't you listen?!" He questioned.

"I have anorexia, Leo! I don't want food!"

"Don't you want to get better?!"

"I'm sorry I'm not normal!"

"I don't need you to be normal, I just want to fix you!" Leo yelled. My jaw dropped open.

"What did you just say to me?"

"Oh, Emma- I didn't mean i-"

"No," I cut Leo off. "I am so sorry I don't meet your high standards."

"Emma, you know I think you have the best personality ever," I shook my head.

"Get out, Leo."

" Wait, just let me apolo-"

"Get out! " Leo left and I sat back on my bed. No one left or said a word until I had to go to therapy. When I left, everyone followed. I still can't believe Leo could be so insensitive, he knows my anorexia is hard for me to talk about. Of course I don't want to have a disorder but I can't afford to eat more calories, I had already eaten eight earlier. I think every Red Bander has had a heart to heart with Charlie- I really hope he'll be able to respond soon. Sometimes you need to know what he thinks, like when I asked about Leo. I have a lot of homework to do though, so that will calm me down. I've been all worked up today and, even though writing things down helps me, I think I needed to talk to a real person at the party...but I didn't- big mistake. Since, other than that, my life hasn't been very interesting- this is going to end my journal entry for today.

A/N: I hope you enjoyed it, I'll update again soon. And if you are reading Jo and Kendall I'll update that soon and I'm thinking about another BTR fanfic with the actors and and RBS one with an OC so there is more to come!