Sarah's nightmare was interrupted by her alarm clock. She woke instantly, groaned and swung her legs out of bed. Today was Sunday. She had gotten to sleep in this morning, which she really appreciated. Her first day yesterday, although not nearly as bad as she thought, was exhausting. Sarah ended up really enjoying art class, she mostly just doodled but she sat with some other patients around her age, a man and a women. The woman was really quiet but very sweet, her name was Annie, as she had told Sarah. The guy, Kirk, was loud and silly, he drew a lot of attention to himself, and Sarah by extension because he sat next to her, which freaked her out at first but she didn't mind so much after a little while. She hoped they could all sit together again on Monday.

Sarah had her clothes for today laid out last night. The family was all coming to see her today. She wanted to look nice, but also look like herself, so not too nice. And of course she had to ensure that her forearms were completely unexposed. Sarah didn't want anyone's pity.

Sarah decided on a purple tank top with a black and white, unbuttoned flannel over it, paired with regular old black jeans, rolled up to above her ankles, and her black and white converse sneakers. Sarah looked at herself in the mirror and shook her head. 'I look like a teenager' she thought. Sarah often beat herself up over her slow rate in growing up. Sarah combed her hair until all the tangles were gone and then patted it down with some water to bring out the natural waviness. She decided to not put on her signature smudged eyeliner, she'd received enough hints by now that it just made her look tired. Instead she opted for just a thin layer of mascara and nothing else. Sarah looked in the mirror and decided that it would do.

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Half and hour later, after She had eaten breakfast and was ready to head to the entrance to meet up with her visitors. When she got to the door there were several clusters of people talking to their families. Sarah looked around and spotted Cosima and Delphine out the little window on the door. Delphine saw her too and smiled, then gestured to Cosima to look. Sarah smiled and waved. At that moment Felix, Alison, Art, Helena and Kira came up behind Delphine and Cosima, from there they all started towards the door, the receptionist stood by the door with her key card and open it when she spotted them.

Everyone crowded into the hallway, onlookers turned their heads towards Sarah and Cosima, the group except embraced around Sarah. "Why don't we go down to my room?" Sarah suggested once she had greeted everyone.

Once in the privacy of her own space Sarah shakily invited her family to make themselves at home. Kira wordlessly curled on the bed with her head in her mother's lap. Sarah flooded with relief, she had been worried that Kira would still be mad at her. "Guess what mommy." Kira stated. "What is it, monkey?" Sarah prompted. "I slept over with auntie Cosima, auntie Delphine and Charlotte last night!" Kira said, excitedly. "You did? That's great babe." Sarah said, looking questionably towards Felix, who Kira was supposed to be staying with, and Cosima and Delphine. "I had to catch up on some work." Felix said, emphasizing on the word work. "I thought you weren't doing that kind of work anymore? I thought we were both changing our ways together, I gave up hustlin'" Sarah said, her temper heating up. "Hustling and what I do are not the same." Felix spat. "You sell your body!" Sarah shouted, raising her arms. Alison hopped up the from chair in the corner, and grabbed Kira's hand. "Why don't we go get something from the vending machine, hm?" Alison asked the girl. Kira frowned and then nodded, before being ushered away by her aunt. Once the door shut behind them, Sarah stood up, and looked up at her younger brother. "I need to know that you're looking after my kid while I'm stuck in this bloody place! You can't just toss her away for a sleepover whenever it's not bloody convenient for you!" Sarah spat her voice going very high at the end of the sentence. Cosima stepped in, "hey, Sarah, we talked about it with Felix. Kira's going to stay with us on Friday and Saturday nights while you get better, seriously it's no problem. Charlotte loves having her over and they keep each other busy." Cosima reasoned. Sarah knew she couldn't argue with Cosima and Delphine. Sarah ran both hands through her hair and sat back on the bed. "Fee, I thought we were gonna get real jobs?" Sarah asked, her anger turning into sadness. "Sarah, I have a real job, I'm an artist, but sometimes I can't rely on that alone. I've been doing this for so long that it doesn't mean anything anymore, it's just a way I make money." Felix assured. "And how does Collin feel about it?" Sarah pestered. "Collin understands that it's just something I do to make money." Felix huffed. "My sex life with my boyfriend is none of your business anyway, Sarah. Can we please stop fightin'? It isn't good for you." Said Felix. Sarah groaned loudly. "Don't start treatin' me like I'm gonna bloody break!" Sarah demanded. "I'm dealing fine." she added. "Sarah, we have enough reason to be concerned. You have to understand that." Art piped in. Sarah's face flushed. She suddenly realized that in her moment of fluster, she had pushed her sleeves up, a habit of hers. Sarah quickly pushed her sleeves back down and turned away from her family, her hands cupping each each other. Her fingernails attacked one another, searching for blood. Sarah's shoulders rose and fell with each short breath. Once again, Cosima carefully approached her sister. "Sarah? It's okay." Cosima whispered. Sarah turned slowly, and her hands fell away from each other, reaching out to Cosima. Cosima accepted her, and allowed Sarah to calm herself in Cosima's embrace. "Sorry…" Sarah whispered into Cosima. "It's okay." Cosima assured. "I'll go find Allison and Kira." Delphine said discreetly before excusing herself. Sarah's wall broke a little bit. Tears were easy to hide, but the sounds deep from her throat were not. "I… I don't know why I'm like this Cos." Sarah whispered. Cosima held her tighter.

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Family day had improved after the little mishaps. Sarah and her family had taken a short tour of the facility, and the family was told some things about Sarah's new daily schedule. When it came time to leave, Kira had cried, and so had Sarah, but the mother and daughter both held themselves together.

That evening after dinner, Sarah had to attend another group session, as she would have to everyday. Doctor Leon welcomed back Chrissy, who had been away for the weekend. Sarah swore in her head, 'Shit. Roommate.' Chrissy hadn't said much more than, yes her weekend was nice. The first thing Sarah noticed about her, was her age. She looked very young, too young to be in a place like this, she could be 18 or 19 maybe. Sarah couldn't help but wonder what put her here. She had brownish- blonde, wavy hair that reached just passed her shoulders, Chrissy was chubby, it was hard to tell her height by the way she slouched and curled up in her chair, very pretty, but hid by pushing her hair in front of her face, and wearing a far too big sweater.

Back in her room, Sarah was sitting on her window sill seat, when Joy the nurse and Chrissy walked in together, Chrissy stepped over to her bed wordlessly and poured the contents of her backpack onto her comforter, while Joy watched. The only things in the bag were a thin sweater, toothbrush, deodorant and hair elastics. Sarah watched from the corner of her eye as Joy scanned through the items with her eyes. "Okay." she said. "Need any help putting these things away, hun?" Joy asked Chrissy. Chrissy shook her head, "No thanks." she whispered. Joy smiled "Okay. Oh! And Chrissy, meet Sarah, she is your new roommate." Sarah jumped at the sound of her name. She turned to face the young woman and the nurse. "Hey, how's it going?" Sarah said. Chrissy smiled a little. "I'm fine, nice to meet you." Chrissy said, avoiding eye contact.

The new roommates had gone to bed not long after meeting one-another, without exchanging barely any words. Sarah didn't feel up to socializing, and obviously Chrissy didn't either. Nighttime was normally quiet in the ward, but it wasn't unknown for disturbances to happen in a place like this, screams were heard some nights, and tonight wouldn't be Sarah's proudest moment.

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