Merry Christmas everyone.
I mapped this story out while I was watching the Olympics last year, it feels like forever ago. The first twenty chapters were written before I started writing the Uncovered series. Now it's time to start writing some new chapters for this story. For now I will be posting one chapter a week. If you are hoping to see Four and Tris together then you are in for a long wait. I'm not saying that they won't be together, it's just this story starts before Tris is even born, as I said I've written to chapter twenty and Zeke hasn't even chosen yet. I need to give a big thank you and shout out to Eunice339 for her beta skills. Happy reading and I hope everyone has a great Christmas and New Year,
THE WRIGHT CHOICE
I recheck the test once again, but unfortunately the result hasn't changed from the last five times I looked at it. How can one little pink plus sign make me feel so disorientated? What am I going to do?
"Are you okay in there?" I hear Hana calling to me, breaking me out of my reverie.
"Yeah," I lie. Well, I guess I can rule Candor out as one of my choices next week at the Choosing Ceremony. No, I'm not all right in here, I want to shout instead, because once I leave this bathroom stall, my whole life is going to change forever.
"Come on, Natalie," Hana whines. "Are you going to tell me what it says?"
I open the door, walk out of the stall, and hold the pregnancy test up for her to take.
"Ew, can't you just tell me. I don't want to touch something you just peed on," Hana says.
"Fine, it's positive."
"No…" she responds, the surprise evident in her voice.
"Yes," I say emphatically.
"What are you going to do?" Hana asks.
Well, isn't that just the question of the day? I think to myself. What am I going to do?
I just shrug. I need to get home. I need time to think.
"Are you going to tell Andrew? It is Andrew's, isn't it? What is mum going to say? Does this mean you will stay in Dauntless? I can't imagine Abnegation being too thrilled with a pregnant ex-Dauntless teenage girl joining their faction. I mean, they would never say anything to your face; they are too polite for that. But don't they forbid, like, any form of touching or something?" Hana just keeps rambling off the questions.
"Hana, stop. I need to think, you're going to fry my brain with all of your questions," I say.
"Nathan is going to go ballistic," she says. "Remind me to stay at mums the night you tell him. Yeah, I think that would be best. Also, I think I'll take all our weapons out of the house. I can just imagine what he will want to do to Andrew when he finds out."
"Hana, please," I almost beg.
"Oh, oh, oh! You do know what this means, don't you? We are going to be pregnant together," Hana continues on excitedly, ignoring my request. "Now Zeke will have a baby brother or sister and a cousin to play with. This is great!"
"Hana, I don't even know if I'm going to stay in Dauntless," I respond. "I better get home. I will talk to you tomorrow. Oh, and do not tell your husband about this."
Hana starts to shake her head, as if to say no. "You better not," I snap. "I do not need Nathan hassling me about this right now. You know how he gets."
"Of course, I know how my husband gets. He thinks of you as a little sister," Hana says.
"How did you tell mum? You know, when you were pregnant with Zeke? Was she disappointed that you were only sixteen" I ask.
"Mum will love you no matter what, Natalie. Don't worry so much," Hana says.
"Yeah, sure. At least you were already a member and engaged when you were pregnant," I say.
"Well, you could just transfer and not tell her, if that's what you are worried about," Hana suggests.
"True. But I don't know now. I mean if I transfer then my baby won't ever know my family. I will be all alone in a different faction," I respond.
"You will have Andrew. You would have had children eventually, and if you were in a different faction, we wouldn't have been able to get to know them anyway," she reasons.
"I know. It's just different now. I mean, I hadn't thought of any of this sort of stuff before. I thought it would be years before I would even have to start thinking about it. Especially since Andrew and I had decided to transfer to Abnegation," I say.
"Maybe you should talk to Andrew. Maybe he will transfer here now," she says.
"Maybe," I say.
"Well, I need to get home. I don't know how long Nathan will last with Zeke by himself. Now that Zeke is walking, our home always looks like a bomb has hit it. I swear that kid can get into more trouble than you and I combined," Hana says laughing.
"I doubt that," I say with a smile. "I mean, look at the two of us, both knocked-up before our seventeenth birthdays. Mum is going to be so proud…not."
I walk into our apartment and I am thankful that no one is home. Dad died three years ago from a factionless attack. I really miss him, but I'm also glad he isn't here to see me right now. Mum is one of the five leaders of Dauntless and the only female. She is actually the first female leader that Dauntless has had in over one hundred years. I never understood why there had been so much time between female leaders, but mum does a wonderful job. She is loved and respected by everyone in our faction.
I go into my bedroom and just lie down on my bed. Who cares if I get my homework done, I only have a week of school left before my Choosing Ceremony. Mum and I had a long chat a few weeks ago about what I would like to do. Erudite are hunting people who are divergent and mum thinks that I may be one. I never really understood anything about divergence until Hana was choosing.
I won't forget the day Hana came home from the aptitude test. I had never seen her so upset, not even when dad had died. Hana and Nathan had been dating since forever; it felt like they had always been together. Then we found out that she had an aptitude for more than one faction and it sort of turned our whole house upside down.
Mum had to get Nathan to come over and calm her down. Then we all sat down together and talked about what Hana wanted to do. It had long been known that if you were found to be divergent in Dauntless, that you would lose your life. "Mum had said that it was only recently that divergents were being hunted." Nobody seemed to care before that.
It helped that Nathan's cousin was an initiate instructor and he had already been helping people who were like Hana to get through training. So Hana decided to stay in Dauntless, obviously.
But now it's my turn to take the test and I thought I had already made the choice to leave; well, at least I had until today. Now, though, I feel like I need to re-evaluate my decision. I can't help but start crying. I don't know now if I want to be so far from mum and Hana when I am going to be having a baby.
"Hey, Natalie. What's wrong, sweetheart?" Mum asks as she enters my room. I love how gentle my mum can be with us at home, but then when she is among our faction, she is so strong. I've seen her knock out men three times her size with one punch. I have so much respect for her.
"Mum, I've done something really stupid," I say between sobs.
"That's exactly what your sister said to me before she told me she was pregnant," mum says, which makes me start crying even more. "Oh Natalie, please tell me you're not."
"What am I going to do?" I finally ask between sobs.
"Natalie," mum says. "Look at me please." Her voice is so soft; I thought she would have started yelling at me by now. I look up at my mother and I can see the concern she has for me in her eyes.
"I'm sorry," I say. I feel like I have let her down. I should have been smarter than this, especially after watching Hana go through this same scenario.
"Nat, we will get through this," mum reassures me. She is being so nice to me. I almost wish she would yell. "Does Andrew know?"
I shake my head no. "I only found out this afternoon. Hana got the test for me," I explain.
"Well, there are a lot of options for you to think about. Why don't we go down to the dining hall and grab some dinner? I'll get the kitchen to give us a Dauntless cake to bring home. Then we can sit down, look at your options and make ourselves sick on cake. How does that sound?" Mum says.
I think I have the best mum ever. I thought she would be so disappointed in me. I just hope Nathan takes the news as calmly as mum has. Nathan may be Hana's husband, but he has always treated me like a little sister, which means he can be too overprotective sometimes. No wonder I ended up dating an Erudite boy, he always scared the Dauntless boys away from me.
Mum and I have both just finished our second piece of cake. I don't know how I'm ever going to live without the cake here in Dauntless if I decide to leave. When mum and I first discussed me transferring to a different faction, I told her she would have to come and visit me on Visiting Day and that she would have to bring cake.
"No more cake until we discuss what you are going to do, Natalie," mum says. "Otherwise, I think I will explode from all the food I've eaten."
"Mum, I don't think I want to transfer anymore," I say. "I know it is going to be dangerous, but I don't want to leave here and not have you or Hana around while I'm pregnant. I don't want to raise this child without you."
"Natalie, only you can make this decision. I can't make it for you. But I think you need to talk to Andrew first. He needs to have a say in this, as well," mum advises.
"But what if he doesn't want to choose Dauntless with me? I don't want him to feel obligated to come here because I am pregnant. I want him to follow me because he loves me," I say.
"Are you telling me that you don't want to tell Andrew before the Choosing Ceremony? What if he doesn't follow you? Do you think it's fair to keep such an important piece of information from him?"
"Andrew told me that he would follow me to whatever faction I choose. Since I choose first, he'll know my choice, and then he can decide if he still wants to follow me," I reason.
"And what if he doesn't follow you, will you tell him about the baby then?" mum asks.
"How? 'Faction before blood,' right? What will it matter?" I ask.
"Well, I think it matters a lot. He deserves to know that he has a child, Natalie. Even if that chid is in a different faction. This isn't the first time that there has been a child between two people in different factions," mum says.
"And how did it work out for them?" I inquire.
"Well, it didn't. You can't just go and visit your child if they are in a different faction. I wish it could be different, but those are our city's rules. You don't know for sure that he doesn't want to follow you, Nat. I think you should have a talk with him before you make any decisions. You have a study date tomorrow, don't you?"
"How do you know that?" I ask.
"I'm your mother, it's my job," she says. I give her my I-know-you're-not-telling-me-everything look. Mum starts to laugh. "I don't know how you can tell when I am leaving something out, but you always can. That gift of yours is going to help you to be a great mum. I know because you always come home in a great mood after you have a study date with Andrew – lots of smiling. Or maybe that's just because you've had great sex."
"Mum!" I squeal. "I can't believe that you just said that."
"Really, Natalie? You are going to get embarrassed about that now. We are Dauntless, teenage pregnancy is nothing out of the norm. Unfortunately, our members like to be brave and reckless. Having two daughters who got pregnant before seventeen should give me great credibility within our faction," mum says.
"Are you being sarcastic?" I ask.
"No, I'm completely serious. It shows that I have raised you two to be reckless. This doesn't mean that I think what you did was the best decision. I would have hoped that Andrew being from Erudite would have been a little smarter about things, but it has happened now, so I need to look at the positives," mum reasons.
"What about initiation? How will I be able to fight?"
"You will have padding on. So, I don't think that will be a problem. And fighting isn't the only thing you do for initiation. But we will go down to the infirmary tomorrow when you get home from talking to Andrew and see what the doctors have to say. If it is deemed that it is too dangerous, then you can still transfer," mum says.
"Thank you, mum." I'm so relieved I get up and give her a really big hug.
"I will always be here for you, Natalie. Don't ever forget that, even if you do decide to transfer. Now let's have another piece of that cake," mum says.