Apologies, my first upload for chapter 6 got corrupted. Please forgive me since I had to upload the fic differently from my previous ones. Hopefully chapter 6 and other chapters from now on will not turn out to be script.

Apologies once again, enjoy the fic and well here is the first intended A/N before this mess up

Hi there …. me again. I know shocker.

I am not going to go into one huge sob story of why this story has been delayed with an update(s). I have been suffering from a health condition that's effecting my joints. Especially that in my fingers and shoulders. So yeah ...that should give you a bit of an idea. I am sorry for the un kept promises, but I am back. I promise, really, I am.

I feel better. I am on meds and doing exercises to help. So, expect more from me in the future.

! Disclaimer !

All these characters belong to the amazing Stephenie Meyer

Chapter 6

Ashland 1912

[Last chapter]

Finally, his beautiful mouth started talking, "Come now let's find something for you to hunt." He said

gesturing his hand forward, and off we went deeper into the forest. On the quest to quench my thirst.

On my very first hunt.

Esme's POV

We ran for what seemed like mere seconds which would have probably taken hours for a human, to a large clearing deep within the forest. Carlisle had encouraged me to let my senses take over, which it had led me into a clearing where in the middle-stood a heard of grazing deer.

I was anxious. I might have located the scent of the animal, but once I took a look at the poor innocent creature. I just couldn't do it.

"Go, when you are ready Esme." Carlisle whispered to me obviously not trying to get noticed by the deer.

I gulped and shook my head. I couldn't kill a defenseless animal. It was just wrong, "What is the matter Esme? why are you shaking your head?" Carlisle asked sounding worried. Which had fueled my anxiousness even more.

"I can't kill the poor animal Carlisle. I just can't" I lowly exclaimed.

"Esme you have no other chance"

"I don't want to be a monster Carlisle."

"You won't be. There are only two types of food choices we have, and one outweighs the other when it comes to being a monster. So, I believe choosing the animals as a food source is more humane. wouldn't you think?"

"I guess so." I said shakily.

"May i ask you a question? Did you not eat venison in your human life Esme?" Carlisle asked

"OfCourse I did."

"Then it makes no difference. You are just killing the animal instead of someone else doing so, and of course you won't eat it's meat like you would if you were human."

"I guess you are right. I'll try Carlisle. I'm just scared I will mess up."

"Nonsense. Just take a deep breath close your eyes and let your instincts take over like before." He exclaimed.

So that's what I did.


Updating the next chapter in a few hours. I just wanted to show that I was alive and well.

Also, previous chapters will be BETA'd soon. So, better quality writing coming soon. xD


I'd love to see what you think.