Author's Note: I attempted to write a poem; the keyword here is attempted. I hope you enjoy this little girl's poem.

Warning: You're reading something from 2003. You can probably assume I was really young back then, and not terribly well versed.

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It hurts too much...
I don't want to feel that pain again
Even if that means I could never see you again

My heart has been shattered and salvaged too many times
Pieces are missing, leaving voids inside my heart
Inside this now thawing heart.

It hurts too much.
I can't.
I won't.
I refuse.

Even if it meant that I had to make you hate me
Even if it meant that I had to lie through clenched teeth

If I hurt you now, the pain will fade
It'll fade into a throbbing dull numbness,
It'll fade until it is no more

I don't want to feel this – this inexplicable ache,
But most of all,
I don't want you to feel the emptiness
I feel.

You can't be with me,
I can't be with you.
We'll just end up:
Hurt.
Lonely.
Empty.

'I'll never love.
Never again,'
I promised myself.

I tried to erase you from my mind
It's not that easy...
You tore down my barriers,
the walls I placed around myself
You saw through my façade

You saw:
beneath the warrior,
through my lies,
into my heart.
You saw the lonely person,
desperately clinging to this world.

You were the only one that understood me
You cared for me, but I couldn't love you.

I promised myself not to love.
Never again.

Time passed but I still felt for you,
And you still cared for me.
The more distant I tired to be,
the closer you'd come.
I pushed.
You pulled.

Don't you understand?
You can't love me.
I'll only cause you pain and suffering.
I don't have long, I'll leave soon
I will be leaving you.

I can't make that mistake again
I won't hurt someone else again
I won't do it,
Not again.
Never again...