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AUTHOR'S NOTE/DISCLAIMER

Takes place during the scene in "New Normal" with Antonio and Voight right after Voight tells him that he needs him to be clean and belongs in my "Antonio is Jake" universe. Chicago PD belongs to Dick Wolf and everyone else involved with the show. Reference to the UC: Undercover episode "Life On The Wire" which belongs to Shane Salerno.

Antonio's eyes flickered as he nodded at Voight and then started to walk away.

"So who was it for you?" Hearing the question, the younger man stopped.

"What?" he queried, turning around. How could he possibly know? I've never mentioned John, he mused to himself. John was the part of his past that he kept to himself. He didn't need everyone all up in his business.

"The guy you lost. Who was he?" Voight repeated. He's been remembering someone since Al died, I know it. Just don't know who, he thought to himself.

"Don't know what you're talkin' 'bout," Antonio gruffly responded.

"And there it is," Hank stated. "One of the things I've noticed is that when your emotions are out of whack, you tend to sound more street," he continued, causing the younger officer to blanche. How could he have screwed up like that? He used to be so good at hiding his emotions. "Another thing I've noticed is that your temper can be pretty short and it's been shorter since Al's death. This got anything to do with your name change?" At this, Antonio sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

"His name was John Keller. He did for me what you did for Lindsay," he stated. Oh damn, Hank thought. No wonder the kid was wrecked. He could see what Ruzek was going through and knew it all too well. "He uh-he was killed in the line of duty shortly after he recruited me for a unit he had formed. Stayed with it for a bit but without him…" the younger officer trailed off and shrugged.

"It wasn't the same," Hank finished.

"Exactly," Antonio confirmed. "Al's death-though it was different than what happened with John-got me to thinkin' about him. It's why I've been on edge," he continued.

"And why you turned my precinct into a damn barroom," Hank deadpanned.

"Yeah. Sorry about that," Antonio apologized a bit sheepishly. That's definitely a stunt John woulda tanned my hide over, he mused. And he would've had good reason to.

"As long as it doesn't happen again," Hank assured. At this, Antonio nodded and once more started to head out.

"Hey. If you need to talk or…."

"I got people I can talk to. But thanks." With that, Antonio left.