672I would like to apoligize for how long it took me to update. Life has been crazy these last few months. You wouldn't believe it. I had also just like Sophia broken my own wrist.
I can't believe that I am finally 16 it's actually so strange to think it. Dad had brought me a car and now I officially have my drivers license it's actually the best thing in the world. Although it was hard to convince my dad that I should be allowed to drive in the car alone without a CPO but then again Sawyer is following close behind me at all times and I am nearly 100 percent sure that there is a tracker on my car that doesn't just track me but also keeps an eye on my speed. God dad is so overprotective but I can't complain about that now since he did just buy me a car. Dad did say though that it depends on the CPO if they ride along in the car or if they follow behind. So thats quite frustrating. My 16th birthday was amazing I was spoilt rotten by my parents and the rest of my family.
Turning 16 though has made me think even more about my birth mother and made me wonder why she did those horrible things to me. I suppose now that I'm older I want a chance to confront her. Oh god if my parents had any idea that I had these thoughts I would definitely be dead. I have avoided any more sessions with Dr Flynn mainly due to my busy schedule as I have started volunteering again at the hospital after having to take a break for a while and also with getting caught up in cheerleading as my wrist has finally healed and mom worked her magic on dad by convincing him to let me do cheerleading again. Getting the cast of was the best day of my life I swear. Although the
I'm on my way to school right now and Sawyer is following close behind i swear sometimes I am just so tempted to try and ditch him but I value my life and I know my dad would kill me if I tried anything like that and not to mention I would probably never drive again and I could say bye to my car as I'm sure I would never be allowed behind the wheel of a car again.
I pull up to school and park in my usual spot, get my bag and head into school with Sawyer keeping close tabs on me as usual. I'm so glad for that man he has no problem following behind me in the car unlike Boyle but sure that is to be expected.
I head into my classes and take my usual seat beside Isabel she has also recently got a new car and turned 16, we both feel so grown up. Classes go by pretty quick and soon enough me and Isabelle are chatting in the canteen when Caleb approaches us. I won't lie I started keeping my distance from him once after the whole Rachel fiasco although it wasn't his fault.
"Hey Sophia and Isabelle." He says as he approaches us.
"Hi Caleb." We both reply.
"I'm glad to see that your wrist is better Sophia." He says.
"Thanks Caleb I'm so glad to finally be able to use it properly again."
"That's great Sophia, here I have something for you." He whispers the last part and looks around him, it seems like he is sussing out if sawyer can hear us or not.
"Oh really what is it." I whisper back.
"I don't know to be honest Sophia, someone asked me to give it you outside and they told me to tell you not to open it until you are alone." This shocks me and I can't help but wonder what it is but I don't want to risk sawyer catching wind of this so I tea the envelope he hands me and quickly put it into my bag. I can see sawyer looking over at me so I just smile at him letting him know I'm alright.
"Thanks Caleb I'll open it when I get home."
"No bother Sophia I will see you around." He says as he walks away.
"What do you think that could be Sophia." Isabel says to me looking concerned.
"I don't know Isabelle but you will be the first to know."
"Maybe you should give it to sawyer just in case Sophia."
"Absolutely not Isabelle, I need to know what's in it first. If it's anything concerning then I'll let him know."
"When are you going to open it Sophia." She asks while she looks me dead in the eyes.
"When I get home and I'm alone in my room, I will ring you straight away when I open it don't worry."
"Okay Sophia but you better come on we better head to class." she says so we get up and head to biology.
I'm so relieved when I hear the final bell I can't wait to get home and see what's inside the envelope. I start heading for the car when sawyer asks me." Sophia what was it that you were handed in the cafeteria." He says looking me dead in the eyes.
"It was just some notes he took for me in class for when I had my cast on." I lie smoothly.
"Oh alright Sophia come on let's get you home I'm sure you have a load of homework."
"Thanks for reminding me." I say groaning.
I get home as quick as I can. I can see sawyer looking at me disapprovingly when we get back to the house. "Sophia next time don't go so fast okay you know your dad can check your speed." He says crossing his arms.
"I stuck exactly to the speed limit sawyer so don't worry." I say kind of laughing.
"Hmm maybe so just be safe Sophia otherwise in future I'll be driving with you okay." He says strictly. I wonder if he's in this mood because he doesn't believe what I told him about the letter, oh well can't worry about that right now.
I go straight up to my room neither of my parents are home. I decide to go into the bathroom to read the letter as I don't have a lock on my bedroom dad I can thank my overprotective dad for that one.
I put the toilet seat down and pull out the letter. It is addressed to Sophia Grey and the letter appears to be a bit battered. I open it and am shocked to see the first sentence who can this be from.
To my dearest Sophia,
If I'm right you would be 16 by now, I can't believe it, I can't Believe my little baby girl is 16. I know I did you wrong in so many ways but I have been paying for them. I have been rotting away in this filthy prison for the last 8 years. I know now that what I did was wrong I want a chance to make it up to you Sophia okay. The prison has visiting days every two weeks and now that you are 16 you would be able to visit me your loving mother who did try her very best for you. You know I am clean now and regret all the time I have missed with you. There is a visiting day in the 16th of next month If you want to arrange a visit. I do hope you will come see your mother.
Best of luck,
From your mother Sarah.
I finish reading the letter and I get sick straight into the toilet straight away. I then start hyperventilating and feel like I am having a panic attack. I haven't had one of these in ages. Once I manage to calm myself down a bit I start thinking about the letter that I have just read. How dare she call herself my mother not just that but to call her herself my loving mother is suck a kick in the teeth she really is crazy Ana is my mother for all intents and purposes she is the one that has been there for me. For her to say she regrets the time that she missed with me is an actual joke, she does realise that the reason that she is rotting away in that place is because she literally kidnapped me and beat me which has left me with emotional scars 8 years later. That woman really is sick in the head my god. She tried to do her very best for me my arse she never once tried to do anything for me she never soothed me when I was upset or cared for me when I was sick no in fact she always did the exact opposite. She has left me with emotional scars and nightmares that will more than likely never go away.
She enjoyed seeing me upset the Sadist and took joy in harming she is the opposite of what a mother should be. I get so angry I grab one is the glass jars in my bathroom and smash it on the floor. As soon as it smashes I hear my dads voice outside.
"Sophia are you okay." He shouts his voice dripping in concern. I start to panic and shout back year dad I'm fine just give me a minute so I stuff the letter in one of the boxes in my vanity and rush over to open the door but as I get to the door I step on a shard of glass. This is just great. I unlock the door and I see my dad standing there looking at me concerned.
"Sophia are you okay what happened I heard something smash." He says then he looks around the room and sees the broken glass and looks back at me with a look on his face that says explain.
"Yeah I'm fine dad I just accidentally hit one of the jars and it fell and smashed that's all." I say as calmly as I can there is no chance in hell I am telling him about this letter. He would go thermonuclear.
"Are you injured at all." he says coming near me and starts inspecting me.
"Actually dad I think I may stepped on a piece of glass." I say looking down.
"Alright let's get you cleaned up then I'm just gonna grab the first aid kit okay for over and sit on your bed okay." He orders.
"Yes sir." I say weakly and then make my sus over to bed and dad is with me within a minute and instructs me to lie back while he tends to my wound, he picks my foot up and start disinfecting it and grabs the tweezers to get the glass out I can't help but squirm However dad talks me through it and calms me down. I really wish he could calm me down about the letter but I would rather die than tell him.
"Alright sweet pea I think all hen glass is out, the cut doesn't seem to deep, do you think you can walk on it or will have to carry you down the stairs like when you were five." He says the last bit winking at me, he is trying to wind me up.
"I think I'll be alright dad don't worry." I say.
"I'm always gonna worry about you Sweet-pea,
Now let's go downstairs and get some dinner into you." He says and we head downstairs for dinner.
I'm pretty quite all throughout dinner and mom and dad have asked me numerous times if I am alright. I have told them repeatedly that I am but I don't think they are buying it to be honest. I'm have talked to Isabelle about what happened and she really is as shook as I am. I don't know what to do.
Dad would never allow me to go to visit her so it would mean I would have to sneak away from security which has never worked out for me in the past and in turn I have just ended up in a world of trouble. Also not to mention it wouldn't be my smartest decision considering this woman did help in kidnapping me. However though I need to talk to her; I need to know why she never loved me why she treated me like I was the dirt at the bottom of her shoe. I don't think I will ever be over what she did to me unless I confront her about it and then I can just forget about her altogether.
Oh what do I do. I think I should meet her I have been talking about it for ages with Dr Flynn about my need to confront her. So I think I will do it.
It is currently 3am in the morning and I should really be sleeping and not thinking about this but I can't get it out of my mind. So I text Isabelle to see if she is still awake. She answers straight away and says she can't stop thinking about this so I decide to ring her. And we try to come up with a plan that won't get us caught and more importantly me kidnapped again. We decide that i shouldn't go on the day that she suggested however that we should go a different day instead just to be safe. I will say I'm going to Isabelle's house she will park her car around the corner and we will sneak out through her window. Can't use my car because of security and also the tracker in it. I think it's a full proof plan. Just as we talking about discussing it more in the Morning my dad walks into my room and he does not look pleased.
"Sophia it is nearly 4am what are you doing up and on the phone." He says shaking his head. But then asks in a concerned voice" you didn't have a nightmare did you."
"Sorry dad I couldn't sleep and no I didn't have a nightmare don't worry." I say looking down avoiding eye contact with him but make eye contact to confirm with him that I didn't have a nightmare.
"Sophia is there something wrong you have seemed off all day today." He says siting down beside me.
"I'm fine dad just hormones." I say trying to smirk.
"I'm not to sure about that but I'm gonna leave it be for now, but this conversation is not over, you hear me."He says looking me in the eyes.
"Loud and clear dad." I reply.
"Alright good now hand me your phone you can have it back in the morning." He says with his hand outstretched.
"Come on dad really I am 16." I say pouting.
"You know the rules and you may be 16 but I am still your dad." He says Sternly so I put my phone in his hands. He then leans over and kisses my head.
"Night Sweetpea, I love you now get some sleep." He says as he walks to the door.
"Love you too dad." I say and then just as he is walking out the door I ask him "dad what are you still doing up." I'm wondering why dad is awake at 4am as-well.
"Nightmares Sweetpea, see you not alone in them and I get comfort seeing that all of you kids are safe. Now go to sleep I love you." He says as he shuts the door.
I really did get lucky with dad just wish he wasn't so strict and didn't take my phone all the time and I dread to think of what would have happened If he didn't take any interest or didn't even acknowledge my existence, and if it was down to Sarah to raise me I probably would have ended up in foster care. It's scary to think of who thinks would have worked out I just wish Sarah had just cut of all contact with me when I was born but no she wouldn't do that because I was nothing but a pay-check to her:
Please review and I'll work my hardest to get the next chapter out as quick as possible, my writers block has seem to have Cleared up for now.