Chapter 1 of 8

Phoebe Grey's Life College Edition

(Y'all welcome to your FIRST chapter of our girls college life. I know it is long! Feel free to take a couple of days to read it! Maybe one month a day! The second half should be out in a week or two! These were very time consuming so I will have it out as soon as possible! Pinterest is updated! Leave some reviews!)

SEPTEMBER

College so far has been amazing. Olivia and I have met a bunch of girls and guys that live in our dorm. The guys are on a different floor than us, but still,l they are super cool.

The people I have been hanging out with the most are the girls next to us, Maisy and Reagan. They are super cool and down to go out and stay in like we are. Nathan and I have been talking every night before bed. It sounds like he loves college just as much as I do.

My first class is today. I am using my map trying to figure out where it is. Finally, I walk up to a building that resembles it. I walk in and walk into the room 245B. It's a small lecture hall. This is my English Lit 1001 class. Basically, language arts with classic literature is what I have heard about it.

The room has about 45 people in it. The professor walks in and she is a young redhead. She is very beautiful. I always thought professors had to be old. She looks to be about 30 at most.

"Hello everyone, my name is Professor Angela Rook. Welcome to intro to psychology. Some of you may be here because you want to be psychologist some of you this may be a required course, either way, I want you taking it seriously. You can find my syllabus on my website which is written out on the board. Let's begin," intro to psychology what? Oh my gosh. I am supposed to be in 245 C not B. Crap how do I get out of here? There aren't enough people to just leave. Well, shoot. Looks like I am staying in intro to psychology.

"Here you can borrow some of my paper," a girl says next to me and hands me plenty of notebook paper for notes.

"Thank you so much, I am Phoebe," I say.

"Lyla nice to meet you," she says and I smile.

I turn my attention to the board listen as the professor talks about brain development and such. It's actually quite fascinating. I find myself taking notes and learning about the brain.

"Who can tell me what the amygdala is?" I hear the professor say. I raise my hand not even intentionally, but I know the answer.

"The part of the brain that deals with emotion, survival, instincts, and memory," I say.

"Very good, Ms….." she asks waiting for my name.

"Grey, Phoebe Grey," I say and she nods giving me a small smile.

I continue to take notes and engage in the class for the full two hours. I end up having 5 full pages of notes. In the end, as I walk out I realize that this isn't even my class. What the hell, Phoebe? I really enjoyed psychology I guess.

I walk out not really knowing what to think. I head back to my dorm and find Olivia taking a nap on the couch. I smile and decide to follow her lead. I climb up on my bed and lay down. Next thing I know I am asleep.

—-

The next week of class I go into my actual class. English Lit 1001 a large part of me wants to be an intro to psychology, but that isn't my major. I walk into the larger lecture hall and sit down. There are probably close to 200 people in here. I am tempted to go back to psychology.

The professor does not even say good morning before he is going into a lecture. He says we will need the book Wuthering Heights. Sounds so fun. I see people around me smiling when he says that. Why am I not smiling?

As the lecture goes on I find myself bored to tears. As the class ends I realize I need to do something about this. Am I in the right major? I mean this is what I came to school here for.

I walk out of the class knowing who I need to talk to. I grab a coffee on my way out of the building and head back to my room. Olivia is at office hours for her class so I have the room to myself. I dial the number and wait.

"Bee? Hey, baby what's up?" Nathan asks. It's so good to hear his voice.

"Hi babe, do you have a couple of minutes to talk?" I ask.

"I'll always have time for you. Is everything okay?" He asks making me smile.

"Yeah yeah, I just Well it's kind of a long story," I say.

"Like I said I always have time for you, what's going on?" He asks. Oh, this boy.

"Well, so on my first day of English lit class I walked into the wrong classroom. I was supposed to be in 245C but I went into 245B and it ended up being an intro to psychology class and I wanted to leave but I felt awkward leaving that early so I stayed and ended up really liking the class and I want to go back. I even met a friend who gave me a notebook paper named Lyla. But today I went to my usual English lit class and I realized I hate English Lit. The professor who didn't introduce himself told us we had to read Wuthering Heights and that sounds horrible but everyone around me got so excited and I think I'm in the wrong major," I spit out in one long second with no pauses.

"Bee, take a deep breath," he says first. I do as he says and lay back on my bed.

"Okay first off, I miss you so much it. Two, Bee it sounds like you really enjoyed psychology. To be honest, you never enjoyed language arts. Psychology does seem like a good fit for you because you love working with people and helping people. I am not trying to talk you out of it. I want you to do what makes you the happiest," he says and I smile.

"You are right. I never did like it. I was thinking all along who I would choose something that I didn't really love. I guess I just thought it would make my mom proud," I admit. I have never admitted that to anyone except myself.

"Bee, you and I both know you could be anything your mom would be proud of you. You need to do what makes you happy not anyone else," he says and I nod.

"You are right, I am going to talk to my counselor about it. Anyway, how are you?" I ask.

"I am good, busy week for basketball we are getting uniforms and doing pictures," he says.

"You'll have to send me yours," I smile.

"Maybe. What's up with you?" He asks. M

"Well I start rushing next week," I say and I hear a sigh. My parents and Nathan didn't love the idea of me being in a sorority, but I think it sounds fun. If I don't like it I can always drop it.

"Just be careful okay. Don't let anyone haze you or push you around," He says and I smile.

"You sound like my dad," I say and he laughs.

"You know how to flatter a man, Phoebe Grey," He says and I smile.

"Look Olivia just got back so I have to go, but I love you," I say.

"I love you the most," he says. We hang up and Olivia sets her stuff down.

"Was that the man of the year?" She asks and I nod smiling.

"Aw, give him my best. So what are we doing tonight? I was thinking we could go to Tai's and get Chinese then watch The Bachelorette?" She says.

"Oh nothing sounds better," I smile and she laughs.

"Let's go, PG," she says using her nickname for me.

—-

"I can't move," I laugh as Olivia is facedown on her bed still in her rush clothes. Today was the last day of rush. Tomorrow we go and find out what sorority we are in.

I kick off my shoes and lay on my bed. "I can't walk around anymore or talk to anyone," I say and she laughs.

"You're telling me, sister," she says and I smile.

"What sorority do you want?" She asks.

"I loved the girls at sigma kappa, but I also really like the girls at Kappa Delta, so either of those. What about you?" I ask.

"Kappa Delta, or Delta Zeta," she says and I nod. I didn't like Delta Zeta that much but whatever makes her the happiest.

"I am so tired, I am heading to bed," I say as I change into my pajamas.

"Me too, goodnight sister," she says and I smile as I lay in bed. It takes nothing for me to fall asleep.

I wake up to the sound of my alarm. "I don't even need to be in a sorority," I hear Olivia say and I laugh.

"Come on get up. What are you wearing?" I ask her.

"The blue dress you borrowed when we went to Kyle's friends' house," she says and I nod. I get it out of my closet and pass it to her.

"What about you?" She asks. I show her a pink dress with spaghetti straps.

"Cute PG," she says and I smile.

"Hey girls parties here," Maisy says walking in. I laugh as she sits down and starts doing her makeup.

"Phoebe where is the stereo it's too quiet in here," Maisy says and I point to the speaker. She plugs her phone in and starts playing "cross your mind" by Sabrina Claudio.

"I love this song," Olivia says as the girl starts singing.

We do our hair and makeup listening to Maisy's music. I do a light look and curl my hair. Olivia always does her makeup way more full out then I do. I just don't have the patience for all that.

When we are finally dressed and ready we head out. We head to the place where they give us our letters. Everyone is supposed to open them together then you run to your sorority.

"Phoebe Grey," I tell the obviously fake blonde.

"Here you are, Phoebe," she says. I take my envelope and hold it tightly. Olivia and Maisy get theirs too. We walk out to where all the freshman are standing and finally the Greek life president comes on a microphone.

"Okay ladies. You may open your letters in 3….2...1," everyone rips theirs open. I open mine to find Sigma Kappa. I look over at Olivia and she holds up Delta Zeta. I smile and hug her.

"Phoebe I got Sig Kap too," Maisy says and I hug her. We bid Olivia goodbye and run to our huge sorority house. Everyone is hugging everyone.

"Welcome home baby Kappa's," the president says.

Everyone goes inside and there is lots of alcohol waiting for us. I take a glass of champagne they have sitting out and go around talking to everyone. Finally, I see a girl I recognize.

"Lyla hey," I smile. The girl from psychology class.

"Oh my gosh, hi. Are you in Sigma Kappa?" She asks and I nod smiling.

"Oh good I know one person," she smiles. "You weren't in psych last week or this past week, where have you been?" She asks. I sip my champagne down and set it down.

"I was actually in the wrong class that day. I was supposed to be in 245 C not B," I say and she frowns.

"So you're not coming back," she says.

"Well, actually I may be switching my major. I really liked psych a lot. English lit isn't feeling like a good fit for me anymore," I say and she smiles.

"You raised your hand on the first day of class, I can't believe it wasn't even your class. You should definitely be a psych major. You can do so many things with it, work with kids, adults, at schools, even in hospitals," she says and I nod.

"You make a very good point," I say and she shrugs.

"I'm just saying I think you'd be killer at it," she says and I thank her.

"Why don't we go drink some more," she suggests and I nod.

"For sure," I smile. We head over to the alcohol table and I grab another glass of champagne. I don't know who is refilling the glasses but I hope they don't stop.

I walk around talking to everyone and anyone. All the girls here are so nice. I can't wait to be initiated into the sorority and get a big.

Maisy and I stay super late. We leave at around 1:30 am to walk back to our dorm. I am super buzzed and Maisy is too. We are holding hands laughing as we walk.

"Holy shit is this us?" She asks and I shrug.

"Uhhhh Brody dorms, yeah that's us," I smile. We go up to the fourth floor and walk to our rooms. I have to help Maisy put her key in and then I go into my room.

I take off my makeup and lay in bed. I am drunker than I thought I was. I fall asleep pretty quickly hoping not to wake up with a hangover.

—

"Phoebe Grey," the receptionist calls my name in the college counseling center office.

Today is the day I am finally doing it. I am switching my major to psychology after I talked to Lyla last week I decided that I should go for it and switch my major. I have always loved working with kids, so I am leaning towards child psychology.

"Hi Ms. Grey, how can I help you today?" My college counselor asks.

"Hi there, I am here to switch my major," I say.

"Oh well let me pull up your profile," He says and I wait until he looks at me to elaborate.

"Well, I am an English lit major right now and I just don't think it is a good fit for me. As much as I love getting to learn about English I think there is more out there for me. So I am going to switch to psychology," I say.

"Okay so I will print your new schedule with your classes for psychology," he says and grabs the sheet that just printed. He hands it to me and asks if I need anything else.

"That's it, thank you so much," I say and he shows me out. That was way easier than I thought it would be. Wow. I still have yet to talk to my parents. I thought I should do it first which I guess wasn't the best idea now that I think about it.

I head back to my dorm and call my mom. She answers pretty quickly. "Hey honey, how are you?" She asks.

"I am great how are you?" I ask.

"Better now that I am talking to you. I am so happy that you are happy with your sorority. When dad saw the pictures of you with the girls from the sorority I think it eased his mind a little," she says and I smile.

"That makes me happy. Anyway, do you have a minute to talk?" I ask her.

"I do, what's up sweets?" She asks.

"Well, I um I uh umm I changed my major," I spit out.

"You did? That's okay sweetie, what did you change it to?" She asks.

"Wait you're not mad?" I ask.

"Why would I be mad?" She asks.

"I don't know, because you were an English lit major," I say and she chuckles.

"Phoebe, just because I was English lit doesn't mean you have to be. You need to do what interests you not what you think I want you to do," she says.

"I don't know…. I just thought…. you were so proud of me when I told you. I didn't want to disappoint you," I admit.

"Phoebe girl, you could never disappoint me. I am so proud of the person you are. So tell me what is the new major?" She asks.

"Psychology," I say.

"Oh Phoebe that's great, I am so happy for you," she says.

"You are?" I ask.

"Of course I am. You found something that really interests you," she says and I smile.

"I love you so much, Mom," I say.

"I love you more, my darling," she says.

"I'm going to call dad and tell him now," I say and she bids me goodbye.

I sigh and grab my daddy bear. I rub its little face. I miss my parents a lot. It is always so good to talk to them. But I still have one more parent to admit that I changed my major to. I dial his number and wait.

"Bubs, how are you baby?" My dad asks as he answers the phone.

"I am great, how are you?" I ask him.

"Missing you as usual, but it makes me happy that you are so good," he says.

"I am, do you have a minute to talk?" I ask him.

"Always for you. Is everything okay my Bubs?" He asks.

"Yeah yeah everything is fine it's just that, well I changed my major," I say. It's easier if I just spit it out. He is quiet for a minute and finally, he talks.

"What made you decide to do that?" He asks.

I tell him the story about how I walked into the wrong class. I tell him how I really don't like English lit and don't think it is for me. He listens to everything I have to say before he talks.

"Bubs, if that is what makes you happy then, by all means, do it," he says and it's like a weight off my chest.

"Really, you mean it," I ask.

"Of course I do. I will always support you Bubs," he says and I smile.

"I miss you," I say as I stroke my daddy bear.

"I miss you the most Bubs, but I am so happy you love school," he says.

"I really do love it," I say.

"I really love you," He says and I smile.

We bid goodbye and I hang up the phone. This month has been the craziest but also one of the most fun months of my life. I love it here and wouldn't wish for anything more.

OCTOBER

I am headed to my psych class right now. Last week I changed my major for good. I walk in and sit down next to Lyla. "You changed your major?" She asks smiling.

"Yep, I did last week," I say and she smiles.

"Oh good, I finally have a friend in class," she smiles. "Are you excited to find out who your big is next week?" She asks and I nod.

"So excited, I think they start dropping hints off this week," I say and she nods.

"Good morning, get out your notes and let's begin," the beautiful redhead I remember says.

She starts teaching and I start taking notes. This class is so fascinating. Tomorrow I have my next class which is abnormal/health psychology. I am very intrigued as to what that is.

Her lecture goes on for two hours. After she finishes teaching she reminds us that her office hours are straight after this class in this room. I decide that I am going to stay and catch up on what I missed from the past two weeks.

Students file out and I head up closer to the front. I get out my laptop and read over her syllabus. I see that she had a paper due last week. I need to ask about that since I wasn't in this major.

"You're back, Ms. grey," She says and I look up. How did she remember my name?

"Yes, I actually wasn't supposed to be in your class on the first day. But I fell in love with the subject and switched my major," I say and she smiles.

"It's kids like you that make me love my job, I remember you from the first day. Nobody raises their hand on the first day. And you weren't even supposed to be in this class. It's impressive," she says and I smile.

"Thank you, I really enjoy it here," I say and she smiles.

"So tell me, where do you want psychology to take you?" She asks me.

"As of now I am not 100% sure, but I am thinking child psychology," I say.

"You seem like you would be good with that, I assume your counselor has put you in all the required classes?" She asks and I nod.

"Is there anything I can help you with?" She says.

"Well you did have a paper due last week and I wasn't in the class, so I was wondering what I should do about that," I say.

"Don't worry about it, you're are in the class now and we have another paper due by next class so just work on that one," she says.

"Oh thank you so much," I say and she nods smiling.

"Well if that is all I have a meeting to get to," she says and I bid her goodbye before walking out myself.

I head back to my dorm room and walk inside. On my bed are painted sigma kappa letters and a bunch of candy. The gift bringing begins.

"Did you see who dropped it off?" I ask Olivia and she smiles shrugging.

"I can't tell you," she says and I throw a pillow at her.

"I hate you," I say.

"Hey it's a surprise, buttface," she says and I smile.

I put the sorority letters on my desk. They are black and fade into a sparkly ombré. It's super cool. "So how is Delta Zeta treating you?" I ask her as I open a bag of starbursts.

"It's good, really good, I found that by our door after I came back from class," she says and points to the delta zeta white and gold water bottle.

"That's so cute," I say and she smiles.

"So how's your man?" She asks. I look over at her smiling. I sit on the couch in our room.

"Umm, he's great. He didn't answer my phone call last night but we have been texting today. I think the basketball boys took him out last night," I say smiling.

"Drunk Nathan is the best, I am surprised he didn't call you saying how much he loved you," she says and I laugh. Nathan does get very lovey when he's drunk.

"Has he always been like that?" I ask her.

"Ever since we starting drinking in high school, he was always the nicest guy out of the group. Even in his man Whore face," she says making me laugh.

"He's the best. If I do say so myself," I say and she smiles.

"How long have you guys been dating?" She asks.

"2 years next month," I say and she smiles.

"Dang, that's a lot," she says.

"It doesn't feel like it though, every time we are with each other it's like the first time. Not to be too cheesy," I say.

"So cheesy but so cute, I love that for you grey," she says making me smile.

There is a knock on our door and Regan and Maisy walk in. "Hey ladies," Regan says sitting next to me on our couch. Maisy plops herself on my bed. She is wearing a Sig Kap shirt.

"What's up, guys?" I ask.

"We were bored so we came on over," Maisy says.

"Phoebe I heard you switched your major," Regan says.

"Yep, I'm a psych major now," I say.

"Oh dope, didn't you say your brother's girlfriend is a psych major?" Maisy says.

"Yes, but she wants to go into clinical psychology with adults," I say. They nod and we sit in comfortable silence before there is a knock on our door.

I open it to find a package addressed to me. "Another one for you?" Olivia asks and I nod.

I open it up and find it is from The Cruz's. My heart. I find a card and a picture inside the card. The card says

Dear Bee Bee,

We miss you so much. It is not the same without you here. We have a countdown in our playroom of how long till you come home. Drew started pulling himself up on his crib and can stand when he is holding onto something. Spencer started preschool and loves it. She brought in a picture of you for her show and tell. Quinn started kindergarten and absolutely loves it. He says he is a very good boy for his teacher like you told him to be. Charlie is in second grade and can now read a book all by himself without help. Mr. And Mrs. Cruz are missing you almost as much as the kids are. We put some stuff in here from each kiddo. Drew gave you a Starbucks gift card for all times he wiped you out. Spencer and Grandma made chocolate chip cookies for you! Homemade! Quinn put in a drawing he made and an essential oil diffuser. We have started using these with the kids and they help with sleep, anxiety, and mood. He put in some of his favorite oils! Finally, Charlie put in a 4-foot long charger cord, because your mom was telling his mom that you aren't allowed to have extension cords in the dorms! We love you so much Bee, and can't wait for you to come home and see us!

XO The Cruz Kids

My whole entire heart just melted. Each kiddo signed it and Drew's footprint is on it. I can't wait to go home.

"Are those from the kids you babysit?" Olivia asks. I nod smiling.

"Can I try a chocolate chip cookie?" Regan asks eyeing the container. I laugh and nod passing her one.

"Holy shit these are so good," she says and I laugh trying one. They taste just like home.

"You're so lucky to have a family like this," Maisy says.

"I know I am," I say smiling.

—

Today is the day we find out who is big is and get to have our first real party. We are going to the frat down the street from us for the party. It's going to be so fun.

Right now I am sitting at my desk doing my makeup and hair. Olivia had to leave an hour ago for her party so it's just me. All of a sudden my phone starts to ring. I see it is a FaceTime from Nathan.

"Hi baby," I smile as I answer.

"Hi my girl, what are you up to?" He asks as I put on my foundation.

"Umm not much, I am just putting on my makeup. Tonight's the night that I find out who my big is," I say smiling.

"Oh, that's so fun, Bee. Do you guys have a big sleepover or something?" He asks making me laugh.

"Something like that yeah," I say and he shakes his head.

"What is it?" He asks.

"Well we go to the sorority house wearing the T-shirt our big left us and you find your matching T-shirt and that's your big. After we go to Fiji and party there," I say. He sighs and rubs his face.

"Fiji as in the fraternity," he says.

"Yes," I say as I do my eyeshadow.

"That makes me nervous," he says and I stop and look at him.

"Babe I only have eyes for you," I say and he smiles.

"I know that, but I think every guy in that fraternity will have their eyes on you," he says and I shake my head.

"You don't know how hot you are, do you?" He asks and I shake my head.

"No one will be looking at me, trust me," I say. He frowns and I can tell he isn't happy.

"Babe I promise you, it's only you," I say and he gives me a half smile.

"Just keep me updated, so I know nobody has date rape drugged you, or you are not too drunk," he says and I frown.

"I wish you would just trust me," I say and he frowns.

"I do trust you, it's other people I don't trust," I sigh.

"Nathan I love you, but this isn't going to be my only party. I'm sure you have gone out and I trust you that you won't make any stupid decisions," I say.

"I know baby. I'm sorry I guess I'm just having trouble with the thought of you going out without me there to watch over you," He says and I give him a sad smile.

"I'm a big girl Nathan, I promise I will be okay," I say. "I'll text you and keep you updated okay?" I compromise.

"Okay," He says as I start my hair.

"You look very beautiful," he says and I smile.

"You flatter me, Nathan Moore," I say and he smirks.

"Are you going to curl your hair?" He asks as I unwrap my curling iron.

"Nope this is my dildo," I tease and he looks shocked at my joke.

"Don't even tease me like that baby, I'm dying over here without you," He says and I smile.

"Join the club, Mister," I say and he smiles.

"Hey I tried to have phone sex with you and you just kept laughing," he says and I blush and start laughing again.

"How does anyone think that's hot?" I say giggling and he shakes his head.

"You kill me," He says as I make my hair into beach waves.

"I'm not trying to," I say and he shakes his head.

"Uh huh," he smirks.

"Okay I need to get dressed," I say about to hang up.

"Let me watch," He says and I shake my head.

"No that's so…" I can't even think of the word.

"It's nothing I haven't seen before," he says and I shake my head.

"I don't know," I say.

"Come on baby," He says and I smile.

"Fine," I say.

I stand up and grab my shirt and shorts. I slip off my robe so I am left in nothing but black lace panties.

"Fuck," He says and I smirk. I put on my bra that clips in the front. I slip on my shorts and wink at him then put on my shirt.

"Happy?" I ask. He flips the camera and shows me his pants.

"What do you think?" He asks and I giggle.

"I wish I was there, baby," I say and he smiles.

"I do too, have fun tonight. I love you so much," he says and I smile.

"I love you too," I say before hanging up.

I put on my shoes and grab my boat before heading out. I walk to the sorority house and see Maisy in the front yard. She comes and grabs me giving me a hug.

"Come on PG," she says and I smile. That's my new nickname I guess. We both get a drink and sit down with Lyla and her friend.

"Okay okay, girls," the president named Lydia says.

We all listen up and she starts explaining how this is going to go down. Apparently, we are all going into the basement of the sorority house and running around until we find our big.

"Okay ladies… go," she yells and I take Maisy's hand running to the basement.

We go down there and it is a frenzy of people and lots of alcohol. All the shirt designs are so cute, but I can't find the girl who has mine. I keep running around until finally, I find the big with my matching white crop top sigma kappa shirt.

"Phoebe," she runs to me and gives me a huge hug. It's Caroline, she is the funniest and craziest girl I know. She is a sophomore here.

"Oh my gosh, I had no idea you were my big," I say and she laughs.

"I know, such a hard secret to keep. Okay my job is to get you drunk before we go to Fiji," She says and I laugh.

We go to the alcohol table and she makes me a drink. "Okay my little, chug it," she says and I laugh.

"I wish I was joking," she says laughing and I smirk. She counts down and I start chugging the drink. I finish my drink and she laughs.

"Damn I picked good, Okay Pheebs we have to ice all of you," she says and I shake my head. She hands me a Smirnoff Ice. I get down on one knee and start chugging it.

"Goooooood," she laughs. I am already starting to feel it. We go on to do shots together and then get lots of big little pictures.

"Okay, little we are going to Fiji. Stay with your bigs," someone calls out. Caroline grabs my hand and we head down the street.

We are walking and I am so hammered. Caroline and I are laughing about lord knows what. We get to the frat house and go inside. This is way different then I imagined. There is loud music and alcohol everywhere.

"Carol, is this your little?" A guy older than me comes up and kisses Caroline on the cheek.

"Yeah, this is Phoebe Grey, she's pretty cute right," she says and wraps her arm around me. He leans in giving me a hug.

"I'm Josh, I am the president of Fiji, you got a wild one, Phoebe. You're a freshman?" he says motioning to Caroline. She laughs and tells him to shut up. I know Caroline is wild she has quite the reputation of partying.

"Yes, I'm in the psych program," I say and smile. He nods and gives me an odd look. It's one that Ryan Malford used to give me.

"Hey I gotta go get my pledges in line, but Phoebe let me know if you need anything," He says and kisses my cheek then squeezes Caroline's shoulder.

"Look at you, Grey you are making moves with these frat boys," she says and I shake my head.

"Boyfriend remember," I say and she nods.

"Oh I know, but hey you can always live a little right?" She asks and I nod.

With that, we go around talking to everyone. All the frat guys are so flirty with us, but a lot of them are super nice. I like this frat. Caroline keeps me with her all night. I keep drinking and getting drunker by the second.

Caroline takes me to pee. I go in first and use the bathroom when she goes in. It was disgusting in there. Boys are so gross. Not my boy. Shit, I haven't texted Nathan.

"Hey Grey," I look up and see Josh the guy from earlier walking towards me.

"Don't have your bodyguard with you anymore?" He asks talking about Caroline.

"Uhm no she is peeing," I say then laugh at my use of the word peeing.

"Damn you are cute," He says and I get uncomfortable.

"Was that too forward?" He asks and I smile.

"No it's just I have a boyfriend," I say. We have to talk into each other's ear because the music is so loud.

"Oh really? Where?" He asks.

"Princeton," I say and he smiles shaking his head.

"Ivy League huh?" He says and I smile.

"I guess so," I say.

"Well hey, I have lots of pledges that would love to get with you. Some have even come up and asked who big Carol's little was. So if you need someone I can hook you up," he says. What the fuck?

"Josh, get away from my little," Caroline comes out and says.

"Shit busted, remember what I said, Grey," he says and I nod.

"Fucking prick," she says and I shake my head laughing.

"Let's go dance," she says and I smile putting my phone away. We listen to a lot of music dancing. We find Maisy and her big Alex and dance with them. It is so much fun here.

I look at Maisy's phone and see it is 3:30 am. Shit, it's so late. Caroline comes up to me and grabs my hand. "Party is winding down, do you wanna go back to your dorm or go to the annex?" She asks. The annex is where a bunch of girls from sigma kappa live together.

"I need to go to my dorm, I am so drunk," I laugh.

"Okay I'll get a sober pledge," she says and takes my hand. She goes up and says something to Josh and his friend. We head upstairs and I sit in a chair. I don't know if I've ever been this drunk.

A girl I know as Jacquelin comes and sits down next to me. "Grey what the fuck is up," she says and gives me a hug. She is a junior in college.

"I'm just really drunk waiting for a sober something to take me home," I laugh and she laughs with me.

"Damn girl, didn't know you had it in you. These sober pledges crack me up. They are freshmen that are like babysitters for the drunk girls," she says and I laugh.

Maisy, Josh, and a really hot guy not as hot as Nathan though walk up to us. "Okay Phoebe, this is your sober pledge, Andrew, who is going to walk you home. I gave him your dorm and room number and all that shit. Remember pledge if you fuck up you're out," Josh says as he fist bumps the kid. I give Jacquelin and Caroline hugs before heading out.

Andrew and I start walking. When we get outside I realize how freezing I am. "Here," Andrew says and hands me his jacket. I struggle to put it on and he laughs helping me.

"I'm Phoebe Grey, by the way. Sorry, we have to meet this way," I say feeling the warmth of his jacket.

"Andrew Thomas," He says and I smile.

"So why are you in charge of walking me home. Besides the fact that I am hammered?" I ask Making him laugh.

"You are funny, Phoebe. To get into the fraternity since they aren't allowed to haze us they make us do shitty jobs like clean up after parties, and walk drunk girls home," he says and I frown.

"So this is shitty for you?" I ask.

"I didn't mean it like that, but would I rather be as drunk as you are right now? Absolutely," he says and I nod.

"I get that when are you done with the shit jobs?" I ask.

"Whenever, Josh says. He likes me so I think I am done after Halloween," he says.

"Cool, well thanks for walking me home," I say.

"Anytime, so tell me about you," he says and I smile.

"Well I am originally from Seattle, I grew up on the sound. I went to high school at Seattle Prep and that's where I met my boyfriend who now goes to Princeton and is on the basketball team. What about you?" I say.

"Oh dope, well I am from Portland Oregon. I went to Greensburg High School. No girlfriend or anything exciting like that. I am on the lacrosse team here," he says and I nod.

"That's so cool," I say.

"Well, this is me," I say and he nods.

"I know, technically I have to walk you to your door," he says.

"Right, well come on in," I say trying to swipe my key card.

"Here," He says and does it. My key card was upside down. We go inside and head up to the fourth floor. He walks me to my door and helps me open it.

"Thank you so much, so do I like tip you or anything?" I ask laughing. He starts laughing really hard.

"You're funny, Grey. I'll see you around," he says shutting my door. I climb up on my end. Well, I made a new friend tonight. I end up going to bed still in my clothes and makeup. Drunk doesn't even begin to describe how I am right now.

—-

It's been a week since the frat party. Nathan has been completely ignoring me. He will respond to my texts but in one-word answers. He is so annoying. I keep asking him what is wrong and he doesn't respond.

I am in psych right now taking a test. I finish it easily and turn it in. I am usually the first person done in the room. Given there are only 50 people in the class. I sigh and get on my phone. I decide to text Nathan.

*Any chance we can talk tonight? I am worried.*

I put my phone down and look at the clock in fifteen minutes I can leave. I keep checking my phone and seeing if he has responded. Every time I have tried to call him he declines it. I don't know what I did wrong.

Finally, the class is over. I grab my bag and head to my dorm. Olivia is at her cousin's wedding this weekend so it is just me. I look down at my phone and see Nathan responded to my text. Finally.

*Call at 8 your time.*

I guess it is better than nothing. I just want to know why he is so mad at me. I lay on my bed and decide to just watch Netflix. I put on the show "You" It is about a creepy stalker guy. Very good in my opinion.

Hours pass and finally it is 7:55. I brush my hair and braid it to the side in case he wants to FaceTime. Finally, I hit the call button. Shit shit shit.

"Hi," I say sheepishly as he answers.

"Hi Phoebe," he says.

"How are you?" I ask.

"I've been better," he says. It's silent for a moment and I just decide to come out with it.

"Why have you been ignoring me. I have been trying to call you for days on end. I text you and you respond yes or no or even not at all. I have been worried sick all week. What is going on?" I ask. Nathan sighs and I can picture him rubbing his hand over his face.

"Phoebe, where were you last weekend?" He asks.

"I told you a frat party," I say.

"And what did you promise me before you left?" He asks. Oh my gosh. I didn't text him that night at all. I totally forgot.

"Nathan I-" I am cut off by him.

"No Phoebe, I don't want to hear it. I was worried sick about you all night. You and I both know what you have been through when it comes to guys taking advantage of you. And this time I am not a phone call or a couple of feet away if you get taken. I can't get to you as quick as I was able to in Seattle or Florida. You promised me you would text me and when you didn't my mind was going everywhere. I couldn't sleep I sat and stared at my phone," he raises his voice.

"Nathan, I… I am so sorry. I know that does nothing for the situation, but I need you to know. I am so sorry and I feel horrible. I never meant to leave you out of the loop. I just was so caught up in everything that was happening here," I say.

"Phoebe, what am I going to do? That night was so stressful," he says and I start to tear up.

"Nathan, please don't break up with me," and as I say it tears stream down my face.

"When did I say I was going to break up with you? You asked me to trust you, Phoebe and I am trying. But that goes both ways. I need you to trust that just because I am upset with you doesn't mean we are breaking up. Couples fight, Phoebe," he says and I wipe my eyes.

"I know, it's just I hate fighting with you," I say.

"I hate fighting with you too, but sometimes we disagree on things," he says.

"I'm sorry," I say. He sighs and my heart hurts for him.

"Please just don't do it again Bee," He says and when he calls me Bee I know all is okay in the world again.

"I love you," I say.

"I love you more," he says.

—-

Tonight is Halloween, one of the best nights of the year. Nathan and I already have an agreement that since we are both going out, we will just talk in the morning. For Halloween, I am going to Fiji with the Sig Kap girls. We got initiated this past weekend. I am not allowed to talk about anything that happened. But I am now officially apart of sigma kappa.

"Okay your hair is done," Teagan, our other neighbor from down the hall says. She did my hair in space buns then curled the rest.

"You are a miracle worker," I say and she smiles.

"I wouldn't go that far," she says and I smile.

"What are you being?" I ask her.

"A Dalmatian and Tristan are being a firefighter," she says about her boyfriend.

"That's so cute, I wish Nathan was here to celebrate," I say and she nods.

"You'll see him next month," she says and I nod. We bid each other goodbye and I put on my costume. It is a silver onesie that is low cut. I put a cool metallic tattoo sticker on my chest so you can see it. I then slip on my short metallic purple shorts over. I do my alien dots and there you have it. I am a space girl. Not original at all but so cute. Caroline and I are being it together.

I grab my metallic jacket and slip it on for the walk. Maisy meets me at the end of the hallway in her Girl Scout costume. She is in a skin-tight tan skirt and a white crop top with a sash and a bow in her hair.

"Damn girl," she says to me and I shake my head.

"Speak for yourself," I say and we laugh heading out. We get to the frat house and both of our bigs are waiting for us. After a bazillion pictures, we head inside.

I get a mike's hard and start drinking. It is so good. The music is loud and Caroline and I are dancing to the beat. I feel myself being watched but continue to drink more anyway. As I grab another drink I find a senior in our sorority getting one too.

"Phoebe right?" She asks.

"I'm Claire, how is sorority life so far?" She asks as she takes a sip of her drink.

"Good, I love it and my big," I say and she smiles.

"Sigma Kappa is the best. You picked right," she says and I smile.

"I know I did. I am so happy," I say.

"Good, let's go do shots and find Caroline," she says and I follow her smiling. Everyone here is so nice. We go to the built-in bar and do a shit ton of tequila shots. I go back to drinking my vodka lemonade.

"Fuck I'm drunk," I say and Caroline and Claire laugh.

"You are the best, Grey," she says and I smile. We get pictures of us that I probably look horrendous in, but hey it's for the memories.

We keep drinking the night away and having so much fun. I am on the dance floor and my eyes meet familiar brown ones. I smile and walk over.

"Andrew Thomas, we meet again," I smile.

"Phoebe Grey, we meet again and you're still drunk," he says making me laugh.

"I know I'm sorry, we need to meet sober," I say and he smiles.

"It's okay, I find it entertaining," he says.

"I thought I saw you going to class," he says.

"Really why didn't you say hi?" I ask.

"You looked pretty upset, it was last week," he says. I nod it was probably the day that Nathan and I talked.

"Oh I know the day you are talking about, my boyfriend was mad at me," I say and he frowns.

"Why?" He asks. It's so loud in here I can barely think.

"Long story," I say taking another shot.

"Can I walk you home tonight, if you don't sleep at the annex? You're a little drunker than two weeks ago. Maybe you should take a break from the alcohol," he says.

"I don't need to, buddy I am good," I say and laugh. "But you can walk me home because I wanna sleep in my bed," I say and stumble a bit.

"Damn you're hammered, Grey," Maisy walks up and says. She is pretty drunk herself. She is with a guy wearing the same shirt as Andrew so I am guessing he is a sober monitor.

"Yeah She is hammered, I was talking about getting her home safely," Andrew says.

"More like get her home and bang her. Her body is out of this world," the guy Maisy is with says talking about my alien costume. I am shocked.

"Get the fuck out of here, Michael, she has a boyfriend and is drunk," Andrew says defending me. Suddenly I am uncomfortable with this Michael kid.

"I'm going to head home, Mase," I say using Maisy's nickname.

"Okay girl, text me when you are there," she says and I start walking out. I say goodbye to Claire and Caroline and I hear them tell someone to get me home safe. I walk out of the frat house and start picking up speed. I just wish Nathan was here. Tears roll down my face.

"Phoebe, stop," I hear Andrew's voice. I don't stop and finally, he grabs my arm turning me towards him.

"I am fine, please just let me go. I am not interested in you. I have a boyfriend," I say. Andrew shakes his head.

"Phoebe, I hate to break it to you, but I'm not trying to get with you. You seem cool and Michael was way out of line. Trust me, when I say this I want to be friends, not anything more. Now let me walk you home and make sure you get there safe," he says and hooks my arm around his. I feel like an idiot now.

"I'm sorry I snapped at you," I say.

"It's understandable, Michael is a creep," he says and I laugh.

"So tell me why the tears?" He asks.

"I just miss Nathan," I say and just as I say that my phone starts to ring. I stumble a bit as I dig through my bag. Andrew grabs my phone out of my front pocket and shows me Nathan is calling.

"Fuck fuck what do I do. Don't answer," I say. The phone keeps ringing until it goes to voicemail.

"Ah finally-" I am cut off by Nathan calling again.

"You need to answer he is obviously worried," he says and I shake my head. Here goes nothing, I answer the phone.

"Hi Nathan," I say sheepishly.

"Bee, how is your night? Why do you sound like you've been crying?" He asks. Tears fall out of my eyes.

"It's been good, I just miss you," I say. He sighs and I tear up more.

"Oh baby, I miss you too. Where are you?" He asks.

"Walking home," I say.

"By yourself?" He asks.

"No, Sawyer is following me somehow and someway and Andrew," I say slurring my words a bit.

"Phoebe, who is Andrew?" He asks.

"He is a sober monitor, and he's I'm sorry I should have had a girl walk me home," I cry drunkenly. I look to Andrew and he sighs. He takes the phone from my hands as I wipe my eyes.

"Hey man, this is Andrew Thomas. I am a pledge at Fiji and am a sober monitor for the night. I am not trying to get with your girl in the slightest. I have walked her home a couple of times. We are just friends nothing more I would never do that to another guy. It happened to me when I was in high school, trust me, man, I like Phoebe a lot. She is very funny, we are nothing more than friends," he says. I don't Hear Nathan's response, but I am hoping it is good. I watch as Andrew laughs and it makes me feel better.

"Yeah I'll text you my number off her phone, Okay man here she is," he says and passes me the phone.

"Baby?" Nathan asks.

"Yeah?" I say.

"Stay with Andrew and let him walk you home, Okay my love?" He says.

"Yes, I love you," I say.

"I love you more," He says and we hang up. Andrew takes the phone and texts him his number then puts my phone in my bag.

"Okay Ms. out of this world this is you," he says as we get to my door.

"Thank you… for everything Andrew," I say and give him a hug. He smiles and pats my back.

"Take some Advil and get some rest. Your boyfriend and you both now have my number. Maybe as friends we could get lunch sober," he says emphasizing friends and sober.

"I would like that, thank you, Andrew," I say and he smiles. I head inside and lay on my bed out for the night. Halloween was a wild one.

NOVEMBER

It's the first week of November. In two week I get to see my boy. I am so excited. It can't come soon enough. But for today I keeping up on my promise to Andrew and we are going to lunch. I am wearing a grey sweater and distressed light wash jeans.

"Where are you going?" Olivia asks as I finish curling my hair.

"To lunch with Andrew, the guy I told you about who talked to Nathan," I say and she laughs.

"I don't want to hook up with you, Andrew?" She asks and I nod. She starts laughing.

"I will never get over that story," she says and I laugh.

"If I didn't have a very hot boyfriend I would have been insulted," I say as I put on lip gloss.

"And he would have totally been trying to get in your pants," I pick up a pillow and throw it at her.

"I hate you," I say and she laughs.

"No you don't," she says.

"Have fun at lunch with lover boy," she says and I flick her off before walking out.

I walk downstairs and I am met with my new friend. "Grey, are we sober this time?" He asks and I shake my head laughing.

"Shut up," I say laughing.

We start walking down towards The Table, which is a little lunch cafe. It's super yummy. "So how have you been?" I ask.

"Since your breakdown pretty good. Your boyfriend and I have quite a bit in common. We started texting after that night. I also got initiated into my frat," he says and I smile.

"So next party I will walk you home? I ask and he nods laughing.

"You're funny, Grey," He says and I smile. We get to the restaurant and sit down.

"So you are from Seattle, what made you come to Vancouver?" He asks.

"My mom went here, she was an English Lit Major which was what I came here to do, but I switched to psychology. And it's close enough when I wanna be close, and far enough when I wanna be far," I say and he nods.

"I get that, what do you wanna do with a psych degree?" He asks as we get our drinks. We also order our food.

"I am leaning towards being a child psychologist. You know working in a hospital setting or a school," I say and he nods. "Enough about me, what's your story?" I ask.

"I am from Portland as you know. I came here because it is so close to home, I live 30 minutes from here. I grew up loving this school and I think it was inevitable for me to go here. I am a business major. Hoping to go into mergers and acquisitions," he says.

"No way that's what my dad does," I say.

"Really? Who is your…. wait is your dad no he can't be," he says and I laugh.

"Christian Grey," I say and his mouth drops open.

"You're Phoebe Grey," He says.

"You don't miss much do you?" I ask sarcastically. He shakes his head and rubs his face.

"I mean, I knew your last name was Grey, but I didn't think you were the Grey family. That's why you have the bodyguard," he says and I nod laughing.

"Yeah Sawyer is with me everywhere I go," I say.

"I walked Christian Grey's hammered daughter home, I was not expecting this," He says and I laugh.

"Anyway, you were saying," I say.

"Right, I was saying I want to go into mergers and acquisitions and hopefully work at a company in a city like Seattle or New York someday," he says and I nod.

"That's super cool, how are the business classes here?" I ask him.

"Dry as expected, but some are pretty fun. My sister just graduated this past year with her BA in business and marketing from here," he says.

"That's awesome is she your only sibling?" I ask him.

"No I have two older sisters, Abby works for Vogue in New York, Maeve just graduated and is working for Apple in their marketing department, then there is me, and Elizabeth is a sophomore in high school," he says.

"The only boy in the family," I say and he nods.

"What about you?" He asks.

"Just one brother named Teddy. He is in law school at Harvard right now," I say and he nods.

"You've got quite the family," He says and I shake my head.

"It sounds like you do too," I say and he smiles.

"Yeah, there aren't many dull moments," he says and I smile. Our food gets delivered and we begin to eat.

"So when did you and Nathan meet?" He asks.

"We met our junior year of high school. He moved here from Florida, and we met in the attendance office of my school. He walked in to discuss who he would be shadowing and I was leaving. Our principal saw us talking and made him shadow me. We ended up clicking and have been together ever since. Our two year is coming up this month," I say and he smiles.

"Young love," He says and I laugh

"So what about you, since you aren't into me are there any girls out there," I tease and he smirks.

"I am taking a break from the dating scene. I got burned pretty hard last year," he says and I frown.

"Mind me asking what happened?" I ask.

"I was dating this girl for about a year. Her name was Samantha and I worshiped the ground she walked on. I thought she was it for me, I found out the week before graduation that she had been hooking up with my friend the entire time," he says and I frown.

"that is horrible, I am so sorry," I say and he shakes his head.

"It's in the past," he says and I nod.

"I get it, you deserve a good girl, you're a good guy Andrew really," I say and he smiles.

"Thank you, Phoebe," He says.

We finish up lunch and he walks me back to my dorm. It was good to get lunch with a guy as friends and nothing more. No wonder he and Nathan get along they are both so sweet.

—-

I am so excited for tonight. Ava's school gets the week before Thanksgiving off too so she is flying to Vancouver then driving to Seattle from here. I haven't seen her since we left.

"When does your cousin get here?" Olivia asks.

"Is about an hour, where should we take her tonight?" I ask Olivia.

"Does she like to party?" I laugh at that question.

"More than anyone I know," I say and Olivia smiles.

"Sigma Chi is having a party tonight, all sororities are invited, we could get Maisy and I could get my friend Elle that's a DZ," she says.

"Oh that would be so fun, I've never been to the sigma chi house," I say.

"It's huge, some of the guys are kinda weird but it's fun," she says and I nod.

"Cool cool, okay I am heading to the airport to pick her up with Sawyer," I say.

"Tell him I think he is hot," I throw a pillow at her.

"That is so gross," I say laughing. Olivia has a thing for Sawyer she thinks he is so hot. Ew.

"Bye love you," she says.

"Love you too," I say before walking out. I get to Sawyer's car and get in.

"Hey kiddo," he says.

"Hi Sawyer, how are you?" I ask him.

"I'm great, how is college treating you?" He asks.

"Well you have been following me around the entire time, but I would say pretty great," I say and he shakes his head laughing.

"Yeah, you do look like you have been having a good time. And you have made some new friends I see," he says looking over at me.

"Who? Andrew?" I ask and he shrugs.

"I don't know, a guy who has been walking you home when you are intoxicated. I almost intervened but then I figured you would get more upset," he says.

"Andrew is just a friend. He is a pledge at a frat and had to be sober monitor," I say and he nods.

"I get it, seems like a good kid," he says and I nod.

"Yeah, he is. He is a big fan of my dad," I say and Sawyer laughs.

"Really?" He says and I nod.

"Really, he wants to go into mergers and acquisitions," I say.

"Interesting," He says and I smile.

The rest of the car ride is spent talking about school, we pull up to the airport and park the car. Ava's flight landed about 15 minutes ago so she should be here any minute.

"Are you excited?" Sawyer asks.

"Beyond excited," I say and he smiles.

Finally, I see a blonde with a Louis Vuitton suitcase. I know that is my girl. I get out of the car and run towards her. She drops her suitcase and about jumps on me.

"Pheebs," she says as we hug.

"I missed you so much," I say.

"I know I missed you too," she says.

"Come on let's get to WSU," I say.

We get into the car and she gives Sawyer a hug. It feels so good to have her here. This is the longest we have been apart since, well since Ava was born and I wasn't yet.

"How is California treating you?" I ask her.

"It's amazing, a total dream. I think I was meant to be a Cali girl, how is Vancouver?" She asks.

"Amazing. The partying and the people are great. I changed my major," I say and she raises her eyebrows.

"Don't tell me to pre-med," she says and I shake my head. As if I would follow Nathan into that major. Well, maybe I would.

"Psychology," I say and she smiles.

"I knew it, I knew it," she says and she starts typing furiously on her phone.

"Woah Woah knew what?" I ask.

"I told my mom as soon as you went into English Lit I knew you would change your major to something with kids. You loved the Cruz's and volunteering at the hospital too much to not," she says. Wow. I mean call it sisters intuition.

"Dang, girl. You know me too well I guess," I say and she smiles.

The rest of the ride is spent chatting and sending selfies to our parents. We finally get to my dorm. I give Sawyer a hug then head upstairs. Ava is sleeping on the pullout couch. It was smart of us to get one.

We walk upstairs and I walk into my room. Olivia is doing her makeup when we walk in. "Liv this is my cousin Ava, Ava this is Olivia, my roommate," I say and she smiles.

"Hi nice to meet you," Ava says as they hug. My two besties are meeting.

"Nice to meet you too, so you go to San Diego State?" Olivia asks as she sits back down continuing her makeup. Ava looks around our dorm.

"Yes, I'm studying fashion merchandising," she says and Olivia smiles.

"That's so awesome. Pheebs and I will have to come visit you," she says making me laugh.

"Yes for sure. I will take you guys out. Speaking of where are we going out tonight?" Ava asks looking at me.

"Sigma Chi is having an open sorority night," she says.

"Oh fun, are you guys both Sig Kaps?" Ava asks.

"No I'm a Delta Zeta, but Maisy and Phoebe both are," she says.

"Who is Maisy?" Ava asks.

"Oh one second," Olivia starts banging on the wall. Maisy walks in a few seconds later in her bathrobe.

"What? I was about to go shower for tonight, oh hi, you must be Ava, I am Maisy and I am not dressed, but it's so nice to meet you," that sends us all into a fit of laughter.

"I'm Ava, nice to meet you," she says laughing. Maisy heads off to shower and Ava and I start getting ready for tonight.

We are sorting through Ava's clothes deciding what she should wear. We finally decide on two outfits for us. We both start doing our makeup and hair. Maisy comes in to do her makeup and hair too and brings us all drinks to pregame.

"Thank you girl," I say to her. I sip my vodka cranberry as I straighten my hair.

Once we are all ready and officially buzzed we head out. When we get to the frat, I get Ava and my drinks. I spot Andrew and grab Ava's hand. We walk over to him and he gives me a hug.

"Grey, you still keep that promise of walking me home tonight?" He teases as he drinks his beer.

"Yeah if you're lucky," I say smirking.

"This is my cousin Ava she is here from SDSU," I say.

"Ahh Cali girl, nice to meet you Ava I am Andrew Thomas. Your cousin's babysitter when she is drunk," he says and I punch him in the arm.

"He is not, he walked me home from parties when he was a pledge. He and Nathan have started quite the bromance," I tease.

"Ah, you know the famous Nathan Moore. It's nice to meet you too. Are you in sigma chi?" She asks him.

"No Fiji," he says and she nods smiling.

"Cool, I'm an Alpha Phi at San Diego," she says.

"The blonde house," he teases and she shakes her head.

"Whatever, frat boy," she says.

"I'm getting another beer you ladies need anything?" He asks and we both shake our heads. He walks away and Ava smirks at me.

"He is ridiculously hot," she says.

"Yeah and I am ridiculously taken, He is just a friend a really good one," I say and she nods.

"Can I bang your really good friend?" She asks and my mouth drops open.

"No you can't," I say and we both laugh.

We both keep drinking and walking around talking to Everyone. Ava meets almost all of my friends from my sorority. When the night ends Andrew walls us all home even though he is the soberest.

"Bye Grey girls," he says.

"Why don't you just come sleep on the floor in here?" I ask him. We have a big fluffy rug.

"Yeah come on loser," Olivia says.

"Uh fine," He says and lays on our floor. We all end up passing out very quickly from the drinking. We are not going to wake up for a while.

—-

Today is the day I get to go home! Nathan is already there because he flew home yesterday. Our two year anniversary is this weekend. I have no clue what he has planned.

Olivia left yesterday so I pack up my stuff lock the door and head to Sawyer's car. I put my stuff in the trunk with his help then get in the car. I have my laptop because I am going to do some homework.

I end up falling asleep the majority of the way to my house instead of doing homework. When I wake up we are about 10 minutes away. "Dang I slept for a long time," I say.

"Yes you did, with what time you have been coming home lately I think you needed it," He says making me laugh.

"Are you excited to be home?" He asks.

"More than excited," I say and he smiles.

We pull up to my house and I am practically bouncing out of my seat. I grab my suitcase much to Sawyer's disliking and take it up the steps. "You don't have to take my suitcase you do almost everything else for me," I say and he laughs.

I walk inside my house to smell the amazing home smell. I set my suitcase down and walk into the kitchen to find my parents sitting down at the counter eating lunch. I smile and come up behind them.

"Hey guys," I say and they both turn at the same time smiling.

"Phoebe," My mom says and jumps up hugging me. I wrap my arms around my mom tightly.

"Hi momma," I say and she rubs my back.

"How are you my sweets?" She asks.

"I'm good, happy to be home and to see you guys," I say. She holds me in a hug.

"Can I have a turn now?" I hear and see my dad waiting patiently. My mom lets go of me and smoothes out my hair.

"Hi Bubs," He says and I smile hugging him tightly.

"Hi dad," I say and he rubs my back. He holds me out at arm's length looking me over.

"I missed you so much," he says and I smile.

"I know I missed you too," I say.

"Tell us everything," my mom says acting like I don't call them every other day if not once a day.

"I love it so much, it is so much fun. I love my sorority sisters and my big, I love school and my classes. It is just amazing," I say.

"That is so good to hear. I am sure your brother will love hearing that too," My dad says and I smile.

"Where is Teddy?" I ask.

"He is at Conner's right now he should be back any second," My dad says.

"Is Delaney here again for Thanksgiving?" I ask. My mom and dad look at each other and I give them a weird look.

"What?" I ask.

"Delaney and Ted broke up in October, did he not tell you?" My mom asks. I am shocked. More than shocked.

"What, why? Why didn't he tell me?" I ask.

The door opens and in walks Teddy Grey. I turn and he smiles when he sees me. "Bubs," He says and comes and gives me a hug.

"Hey Teddy," I say and hug him back.

"What's going on? How is freshman year?" He asks. We talk weekly I am so hurt that he never told me.

"It's great, how is junior year?" I ask him.

"It's tough, but it is very fun," he says.

"Why didn't you tell me you and Delaney broke up last month," I ask. His mouth drops open and he looks to our parents.

"Phoebe, I never meant to…. Look it's complicated," he says.

"You would be the first to know if Nathan and I ever broke up," I say and he frowns.

"I know that Bubs I just didn't want you to be worried from all the way in Vancouver I know how you get. I wanted to be the one to tell you in person," he says. That is kind of thoughtful of him.

"Okay... I guess that makes sense. Why did you guys break up," I say and he frowns looking to my dad?

"She uh was cheating on me," He says and my mouth drops open.

"What a bitch," I say.

"Language," both my parents say at the same time making all of us laugh.

"Look Bubs, it wasn't meant to be. I don't need a girlfriend right now. School is keeping me very busy anyway," he says and I nod. I give him a hug and he kisses my head.

"It's so good to be home," I smile. My dad wraps his arms around me and kisses my head.

"We missed you," He says against my head.

"I missed you guys so much too," I say. "It's so good to be home," I smile.

"Are you hungry, Bubs? You are looking thinner, let's get you lunch," My dad says. Oh, how I missed being home.

"I'm not too hungry, but I will eat," I say and my dad smiles. He gets me a plate with a sub, pasta salad, and fruit.

"Thank you," I say. Teddy and my parents sit down next to me and all stare at me. I giggle at them.

"I feel like a human TV show. Why is everyone looking at me like you are shocked I made it here," I say and they start laughing.

"We just never imagined our baby being gone for so long. We aren't used to having kids in the house now," My mom says. I laugh at that.

"Did Olivia go home to Florida for break?" My dad asks.

"Yep, she left yesterday," I say and he nods.

"How are you two getting along?" My mom asks.

"We have never fought. She is the coolest person I know. I love rooming with her," I say and my parents break out in huge smiles.

"We love to hear that, Bubs," he says.

The rest of lunch is spent talking and bonding. That night we have a family movie night. I lay with my dad as we watch a scary movie. It is so good to be home. And my dad hasn't left me alone once. I think he really did miss me. Makes my heart so happy.

—

Yesterday was Thanksgiving which was spent with my family. It was so amazing getting to see my grandparents and hang out with my aunts and uncles and cousins. Plus eat very good food. But today is Nathan and my two year anniversary. I am in my car now on my way there.

When I get there he is waiting on the front porch. I park my car and get out running towards him. "Hi Bee," He says and I throw myself in his arms. He smells just like Nathan. It's the most comforting smell.

"I missed you," I say as he holds me tightly. He leans down and kisses me.

"I missed you more. Happy two year anniversary," He says and I say it back to him.

We walk inside and before the door is even shut I am over his shoulder and we are going to his room. I giggle as he carries me. "Fuck I missed that sound," he says and I smile.

He throws me on the bed and I laugh as he laughs on top of me kissing me. I wrap my arms around him as we make out. He takes my top off and leaves me in a bra. "Fuck you look so good," he says and I smile. I slip off his shirt and start kissing his neck as he slides my pants off.

"I need you right now," he says and I nod. I unbuckle his pants and pull them down and his boxers. I stroke him a couple of times before he is inside of me.

The first time he goes in me I moan. It's been so long. I have to get used to his size. Did he get bigger? I dig my nails into his back and he stays like that not moving.

"You okay?" He asks and I nod.

"Hold on," I say and he nods kissing me all over my face. He slowly slides out then in once. He looks down to see if I am okay.

"Move," I say and he slides out than in. The first couple of times it is slow until he is confident I am okay.

"Ahhh Nathan," I Call out his name.

"Feel it, baby," He says and I do. He speeds up and I am calling out his name.

"Come for me," He says and on his command I do. Soon after me, he is finishing. We are both out of breath.

I lay on his chest we are both naked and he rubs my back. I kiss his chest and look up at him. "Hi," I say and he leans down kissing my head.

"Hi beautiful girl," He says and I smile.

"I missed you," I say and rub his bicep. He has gotten more muscular since he left.

"I missed you more," he says brushing the hair out of my face.

"I don't want this to end," I say. He looks down confused.

"I don't want us to leave again," I say. He finally understands and pulls me closer.

"Baby, we just got here, you don't have to worry about that. And besides you are coming to see me in December then we have all Christmas break," he says and I nod.

"I know, I am so excited to watch you play. How has basketball been?" I ask him.

"It's been so good, I love the team," He says and I smile.

"Will I get to meet them?" I ask him as I rest my chin on his chest.

"I think we could arrange that. I will have to take you out when you come so you can meet my friends," he says and I smile.

"I would like that a lot, when are you going to come to visit me?" I ask him.

"Hmmm we can arrange that," he says and I smile.

"I want you to meet my friends, and you can finally meet Andrew in person," I say and Nathan nods.

"Thank you for being so cool about him by the way. He is super cool," I say.

"He is cool, and very protective of you which I appreciate," he says and I smile looking down.

I wrap my arms around Nathan pulling myself closer. I have missed this boy so much. He wraps his strong arms around me tightly and I kiss his neck.

"I love you so much, my girl," He says.

We both clean ourselves up and get dressed. I put my hair in a ponytail. When Nathan comes out of the bathroom he playfully pulls on my ponytail. He sits next to me on the bed. "You hungry for some lunch?" He asks.

"Sure, do you wanna go out?" I ask him.

"I actually bought some food yesterday for me to make you, but if you wanna go out I can take us anywhere," I smile. My sweet boy. I smile and straddle him so we are face to face.

"I love you so much, I would love nothing more than you to make lunch," I say. He smiles and kisses me.

We walk downstairs and he pulls out all the food he bought to make. "What's for lunch," I smile as I sit on the counter.

"Lemon chicken and arugula salad," he says and I smile.

"You are seriously the best. How did I get two full years will you?" I ask him. He comes over standing between my legs.

"I ask myself the same thing every day," he says and kisses me.

I help him make the salad because cooking meat isn't my thing. And neither of us want salmonella. "So tell me how are pre-med classes?" I ask him.

"So interesting. I know I'm only in my first year but I really am thinking I wanna be a general surgeon," he says.

"Like Bailey from Grey's Anatomy?" I ask.

"Something like that," he says laughing.

"You would be the best Doctor," I say and he smiles.

"You are going to be the best psychologist," he says.

"You flatter me," I say and he smiles.

We cook together and then sit down to eat. I smile as we sit across from each other at the table. I put my feet up and rest them on his lap. He looks down and laughs shaking his head.

"Have you seen Tyler or anyone since you have been back?" I ask him. He nods as he chews.

"Yeah, I saw Preston and Tyler the day I got back. I also saw Drew," he says.

"What about you?" He asks and I shake my head.

"Just Ava and Brooklyn," I smile.

"It's weird being home isn't it?" I ask and he nods.

"It is, it's good to be back with Berkeley though," Nathan says sighing. He mentioned something back in early October about how she wasn't doing very well.

"How is she?" I ask and he shrugs.

"She has done a complete 180. She used to try so hard in school, and practice dance 24/7. My mom said she is hanging with a new group of girls and she doesn't have a good feeling about them," he sighs. I frown shaking my head.

"Where did this come from?" I ask. It sounds so unlike Berkeley.

"It started in the middle of this summer. Apparently, it has only gotten worse since I left. My dad isn't helping either is what my mom says. I have tried talking to her and she just shuts me out. I am so worried for her," he admits and I take his hand from across the table.

"You my friend are such a good brother. Nobody can compare to you. I hope you know that. Nothing you did could have caused this. I am here to help in any way I can," I say and he nods.

"And that is why I love you so much. I just wish I knew what could have caused this much change in her life," he says.

"I'm sure when she is ready she will talk to you about it, she is very lucky to have you," I say.

"I know, hey enough about this, let me take your plate," he says and grabs my plate off the table. He puts them in the dishwasher then comes back to me.

"How does some time in the hot tub sound?" He asks.

"Amazing," I smile. "But I don't have a bathing suit," I say.

"Just wear your bra and underwear," He says and I smile.

We go to his back porch and I strip. I'm left in my black bra and underwear. I climb into the hot tub and he comes in shortly after in his boxers. He wraps an arm around me. The jet hits my back perfectly massaging it. I don't think life could get any better.

"If this is two years I am ready for many many more," I say. Nathan leans down kissing my head.

"Me too, my love. Me too," he says.

DECEMBER

I am back at school. My Thanksgiving break was better than anything I could have asked for. It was so good getting to hang out with my parents, Teddy, and Nathan. It was a bummer to hear about Ted and Delaney, but if it wasn't meant to be, it wasn't meant to be.

Next weekend is sibs weekend for my sorority meaning Ted is coming here. I am so excited. We rented out a bar, and everyone's siblings are coming. Caroline, my big, is an only child so she is hanging with us.

The weekend after I am headed to New Jersey to watch Nathan in his first game. Then the weekend after that I go home for Christmas break. I am on break until the end of the first week in January. They are generous here with breaks.

I am waiting for Olivia to get back right now. She is on her way back from the airport. We are going to dinner with Andrew. Maisy and Regan get back tomorrow. I had a class today so I had to come back.

I hear the door open and I look up to see Olivia. I smile and rush over giving her a hug. "I missed you, PG," she says and I smile.

"I missed you too," I say. She gets settled in and sits on her bed putting her hair up.

"Before we spill all about our breaks I have bad news," she says and I frown.

"Okay, you're going to kill me, but I kinda forgot about dinner and made plans with Jackson," she says. Jackson is the guy she has been talking to.

"You get a pass this once because we made the plans before break and I forgot until Andrew texted me," I say.

"I'm sorry, next time I am for sure coming. Anyway tell me about your break," she says.

"Lots of time with Nathan and my family," I say. She smirks at me and I blush knowing exactly what she is going to say.

"How was the 2-year sex?" She asks and I laugh.

"You are so forward, and it was amazing if you must know," I say. She smirks and throws her pillow at me. There is a knock on our door and I know it is Andrew.

"See ya later, use protection," I say walking out.

"Grey, it's good to see you," Andrew says as he wraps me in a hug. I hug him back smiling.

"I missed you," I say.

"I missed you too," he says. "How was break?" He asks as we start walking towards the Mexican restaurant we both love. They also give margaritas without carding. So that's a bonus.

"My break was amazing. It was so good to be back home for a few days and get to spend time with my family. What about you?" I ask him.

"It was good. I got to see my newborn cousin and meet my sister's boyfriend. Oh, congrats on your and Nathan's two year anniversary. That's a long time," he says.

"Thank you, tell me about your cousin and the boyfriend," I say.

"The newborn cousin is from my moms youngest sister. It is her second baby. She had a girl and they named her Monroe Grace," he says. I smile.

"Congratulations, that is a beautiful name," I say.

"It is, and my sister's new boyfriend is cool. They both live in New York, she works for Vogue and he works for Morgan Stanley which is an investment bank. I don't know how long he will last, but for now he is keeping her happy," he says and I smile. He opens the door for me at the restaurant and we sit down at a table.

"If he treats her right and makes her happy then that's all that matters right," I say as I eat some chips and salsa.

"Oh yeah, but she dates a lot of guys. It's never just been one guy for her. Abby is kind of a free spirit," he says and I smile.

"Good for her," I say. A waiter comes over and we order two margaritas and our food.

"Are you excited for sibs weekend?" He asks.

"Yes, you will have to meet Teddy. I think you guys would get along alright," I smile.

"Yes, I am curious to know what your brother is like and what he has to say about you," He says as our margaritas get delivered.

I sip mine and it is delicious. I can tell Andrew is thinking the same thing. It is so good.

Before we know it we are eating tacos and we are on margarita 4 laughing about the first time we went met. "You were so drunk," Andrew says almost making me spit out my taco. I take a sip of my margarita.

"I felt so bad for you," I laugh.

"Yeah uh huh," he says and I laugh.

"I'm so glad it was you who walked me home," I say.

"Me too, lord knows what would have happened if one of the other pledges walked you home," he says.

"That is very true," I say and sit back. I am pretty drunk but it is good fun drunk.

"Should I walk you home?" He asks and I nod.

"Third time's a charm," I laugh.

We walk out with locked elbows. It is chilly but it feels kinda good. Plus there are lights up for the holidays so it is so pretty out. By the time we get to my dorm, I am exhausted.

"Goodnight. Thank you for dinner," I smile. He gives me a hug and says I am so welcome.

"See you soon PG," he says and I smile. I shut the door and get into bed heading to sleep.

—-

Today is the day that Teddy is coming! I am so excited. He is staying at the hotel on campus because it would be weird if he stayed in my dorm. I am walking over to the hotel right now. We are meeting and going to dinner before we go out tonight.

I walk into the hotel I just came from class so my backpack is still on. I sit down in the lobby and wait. A person comes by and gives me a glass of water. Dang, this is nice. I might just start coming here more often.

"Bubs," I hear from behind me. I smile and get up giving Ted a huge hug.

"Hey Ted," I smile.

"Come get checked in with me, how are you?" He asks.

"I am great, how are you?" I ask him.

"Happy to be here. I am very excited for tonight," he smiles.

"Room under Christian Grey," He says and I wait while he gets all checked in. He gets the keys and we head up to his room. We go up to the top floor and go into the suite. I sit down on the chair and Teddy puts his suitcase on the bed.

"I am going to get changed and then we can head out to dinner," he says and I nod.

"Okay, you ready?" He asks as he walks out of the bathroom.

"As I'll ever be, can I leave my backpack here and grab it tomorrow?" I ask him.

"For sure, what's for dinner?" He asks as we walk out.

"I was thinking we could go to my favorite dinner place here. It is Italian and very yummy," I say and he nods smiling.

"Sounds good to me," He says.

"Perfect," I say.

We have Sawyer drive us there because it is chilly. Teddy and Sawyer talk about their drafts and all that junk. I sit quietly and listen. Once we get there I give Sawyer a hug and we head inside.

"How was your flight?" I ask as we get seated.

"Long but that is to be expected when you are coming from Boston," he says and I nod smiling.

"Thank you for coming, I am so excited for you to meet everyone," I say.

"I am excited to meet everyone too. Go easy on the drinking though tonight, if anything happens to you dad will drive here and kill me with his own two hands," Teddy says and I smile.

"I think I can manage to be good for one night," I say and he smiles.

We order our food and talk about life. It is so good to be here with teddy. I have one thing I want to ask him but I am not sure if he will be open about it. I know it's a sensitive topic.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask him as our food gets brought out.

"Anything, what's up, Bubs?" He asks.

"What happened with Delaney?" I ask him. He sighs and takes a sip of his drink.

"She cheated on me," He says and I nod and take a bite of my food. Not the answer I was hoping for.

"It was with one of the guys in my fraternity. She came over to find me apparently and he was there waiting and one thing leads to another," he says and I frown.

"Did it happen more than once?" I ask.

"Yes, it went on for a month before I found out," he says.

"How did you find out?" I ask him.

"The guy told me," he says and I nod.

"What a bitch," I say.

"She made a mistake. I will never get back together with her, but I do think she has a good heart," he says. Teddy has always been this way. He got my moms calmness. I would have freakout out.

"You're a good guy, Teddy," I say and he smiles.

We finish up eating and head back to his hotel room. I am ready to go out. He just had to grab a couple of things. When he is ready I take him to the bar. On the way there we pick up Caroline.

"Pheebs," She says and gives me a huge hug.

"I haven't seen you in forever," I say and she smiles.

"You look, good kid," she smiles.

"Caroline this is my brother Teddy, Teddy this is Caroline, my big. She doesn't have any siblings so she is hanging with us tonight," I say. Caroline gives him a look. I know the exact look it is. She thinks he is hot and by the way, he is looking at her it is reciprocated.

"Hi I'm Caroline Hall, nice to meet you," she smiles. She is in black jeans and a black satin camisole with lace down the front showing her cleavage off.

"I'm Ted Grey, pleasure is all mine," he says. We walk into the bar and all 3 of us grab drinks.

"So you're a sophomore here?" Ted asks.

"Yep studying business, what about you?" She asks.

"I'm at Harvard in the law program," he says and she smiles.

"A smart kid," She laughs. I leave them to talk and go find Maisy. She is in her leopard pants and black body suit. I go up and tap her.

"Hey I was just going to come to find you, this is my sister Conley," she says.

"Hi I'm Phoebe," I say.

"Hi nice to meet you, I've heard a lot about you," she says and I smile.

"Good things I hope," I laugh.

"All good things," she says. We talk for a bit more and I keep drinking. After spending some time with Maisy and her sister I talk to Lyla.

I then realize I need to find Ted. I look around and see him and Caroline at the bar. They are laughing and talking. I walk up to them and smile.

"Hi," I say.

"Hi, how are you Bubs?" Ted asks.

"Bubs, that's such a cute nickname," Caroline smiles.

I sit down with them and we drink and talk for a while. I check my phone and realize how late it is. The bar is kicking people out in 10 minutes. "We should get going," Caroline says.

We walk out. My dorm is not too far from here. "I'll see you guys later," Caroline says. I don't want her walking alone. Ted and Caroline are pretty buzzed. Along with me, I guess.

"Caroline let us walk you home," I say.

"Your dorm is the complete opposite of my house. I feel bad," she says.

"How about you walk Phoebe home with me then I'll walk you home," he says.

"That's a good idea come on," I say and she smiles.

They walk me back to my dorm and I head inside sitting down. I give Caroline a hug goodbye. I give Teddy a hug too. I lay on my bed and pass out. Tomorrow I have to grab my backpack from Ted's room. He gave me a key so if I wake up early I'll just sneak in. I head to bed for the night.

When I wake up I see it is 8. I decide to head over to Teddy's room after getting ready so we can grab breakfast before he leaves. I walk over and ride the elevator up to his floor. I walk in and read the key in the door. I walk into a dark room. The only light shining is peeking in through the curtains.

Quietly I pick up my backpack. I look at the bed and am confused. Why are there two people in the bed? I look down to the floor and see Teddy's clothes and a pair of black ripped jeans. Those look familiar. There is also a black silk camisole. Oh my god. Oh my god.

All of a sudden teddy sits up. He is shirtless. "Phoebe, oh god," he says and rubs his face.

"What the fuck, Ted?" I say. Caroline pops up and I see she is not wearing any clothes. Oh my god. Ew. She covers her chest and I can tell she is speechless.

"Are you fucking kidding?" I ask.

"Phoebe, hold on. Let's just talk about this," he tries to say.

"You were supposed to come and hang out with me not fuck my sorority sister. Goodbye, I have class," I say. I storm out. I quickly exit the building and head home.

I have never been this angry in my life. That is my sorority sister. He was here for me not her. I can't believe he fucking did that. What an ass. I rush back to my dorm and lock the door luckily Olivia has class all day so she won't be here. I put my face in my pillow and close my eyes. What am I going to do?

—-

It's been a week and I still have yet to talk to Ted. I am so angry at him right now it is not even funny. Caroline has tried calling me but I don't answer. He just got out of a relationship and he comes here and hooks up with my friends. That's Gross and he would have been pissed.

I am trying to put that behind me because today, I am going to New Jersey. I am on my way to the airport right now. Sawyer is flying out with me on the jet. I look down and see my dad calling me.

"Hey Bubs," He says.

"Hi dad," I smile.

"How are you?" He asks me.

"Ready to see, Nathan," I admit.

"Is everything okay in Vancouver?" He asks.

"Yeah I just miss Nathan," I say which is partially true.

"Well, I am excited to see you next week. I know mom and Ted are too," he says.

"Me too, does ted get home next week too?" I ask.

"Yes, now are you ever going to tell mom and me what happened?" He asks.

"Nothing of importance, we just got to the jet. I love you," I say.

"I love you most," he sighs. We hang up and we board the jet. I go into a seat in the back buckle myself up and then lay my seat back to sleep. They dim the cabin lights and I am out. All the stress of fighting with Teddy and school has gotten to me.

When I wake up we have landed. Sawyer scolds me and says I need to sleep more when I am at school. Even when my dad isn't with me I have people acting just like him.

Sawyer gets in the rental Audi and we drive towards Princeton. As we get closer I realize how beautiful the campus is. This is my first time in New Jersey too.

When we get to Nathan's dorm I thank Sawyer and grab my bag. Nathan comes out as I get the door. I smile and jump in his arms. He picks me up off my feet in a big bear hug.

"Hi baby," he says.

"Hi good looking," I say and he gives me a kiss.

"Let's get you inside it's chilly out here," He says and kisses my head.

"It's so pretty here," I say and he nods smiling.

"Here we are," he says and we walk in his dorm. It is nothing like I imagined it. He has a grey comforter and grey pillows. He has a Princeton banner over his bed. On his nightstand, he has a picture of me. I blush as I see it. It is on his birthday when we went on the Ferris wheel. It was his wallpaper on his phone for so long.

"It is so clean and organized," I say. He smiles and looks around rubbing the back of his neck.

"Uh yeah, it's not usually like this. I made Cole clean up since you were coming, I even lit a candle," he says. This boy has my whole heart. I laugh and walk over to him. I hold his face between my hands and kiss him. The kiss turns passionate and he guides me over to his bed. I lay back and he gets on top of me.

We make out and as Nathan goes to take off my shirt the door swings open. Nathan jumps off of me and pulls my shirt down. I look up to see his roommate Cole who I have never met in person. Nathan has posted pictures with him on his Instagram.

"Shit sorry man," Cole says to Nathan.

"Don't worry about it," Nathan says helping me stand. I smooth out my pants. "This is my girlfriend, Phoebe," Nathan says.

"What a great first impression I am making," I laugh as I shake his hand. He laughs with me.

"Don't worry about it, I'm Cole," he says. "I'll know to knock next time," he smirks. I laugh and sit with Nathan on his bed.

"So where are we taking the girl tonight?" Cole asks Nathan.

"I was thinking we could go to Mark's. They are having a party tonight," Nathan says.

"Oh shit yes let's do it, you aren't drinking though right?" He asks.

"No game tomorrow at 12," Nathan says.

"Okay, I am not sleeping here tonight so you guys will have the room to yourselves," he winks at Nathan.

"I'm going to go shower and get ready," Cole says before walking out. I turn to Nathan and he laughs.

"Well that was Cole," he smiles.

"Do you need to shower before we go out? I am having pizza be delivered here. It's my favorite I think you will love it," He says.

"I am excited about pizza, and no I showered before I left. I just need to do my hair," I say. He pulls out the chair for me at his desk and shows me where the outlet is. I thank him. He sits and watches me.

"So can you finally tell me what is going on with you?" He asks. I might have not yet told Nathan what is happening either.

"I'm just fighting with Teddy," I sigh. I begin to straighten my long hair. It shouldn't take long because it is already pretty straight.

"I called you last week and you answered crying," he says. "It's not just a fight with Teddy," he says. So intuitive.

"I just," I brush out my hair after I run the straightener through it a couple of more times before unplugging it. Nathan is still sitting waiting patiently. I go and sit next to him resting my head on his shoulder.

"What's going on with you?" He asks as he pulls us back so he is resting against his headboard holding me.

"Teddy slept with my big," I say. Nathan looks down at me and I can see in his eyes he isn't sure how to fix this one.

"I walked in on it," I say.

"Oh no, baby," He says and I shake my head.

"The morning after I should say, I was so angry at him I just stormed out," I say.

"Didn't you say him and Delaney broke up," he says.

"That doesn't give him a right to go sleep with my big during sibs weekend. It was supposed to be about us bonding not him getting laid," I say.

"You are completely right and have every reason to be mad. I just think that you should talk to him. Not shut him out because that is when things get messy," he says and I nod.

"I know, I will next week. For now, I just want to pretend I never saw them naked in bed together," I say trying to get the picture out of my head.

"I'm sorry that happened baby," He says and kisses my head.

"It's fine," I sigh. There is a knock on the door and a showered Cole walks in with a box of pizza holding a piece in his mouth.

"I knocked this time," he jokes as he sets the pizza down.

"A novelty," Nathan jokes.

We all take a piece and sit eating it in their room. I learn that Cole is from Connecticut and plays football. He is so nice and very funny.

After we are done eating I change my clothes into some going out wear which consists of a black silk onesie that has a low cut center. A black jean jacket and black jeans with leopard print booties. I put on my perfume and add some finishing touches to my makeup.

"Okay I'm ready," I smile.

"You look beautiful," he says and kisses my head. We head out and Nathan takes my hand. We head out and walk to a very large house.

Nathan holds my hand tightly as we walk up to the house. "Moore," a guy yells and slaps Nathan on the back.

"What's up, Martz?" He asks.

"Not much, you got yourself a dime for this party," he says motioning to me. I smile and look to Nathan.

"This is my girlfriend, Phoebe Grey. She goes to Washington State," he says and looks down at me.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Michael," he says and shakes my hand.

We talk to Michael for a bit before walking inside the house. It is huge here. A group of girls comes up to me complimenting my outfit and saying hi to Nathan. "You have quite the fan base here," I smile. Nathan laughs and gets me a drink.

"Nothing compares to you," he smiles. I kiss him and take a sip of my drink. He keeps his hand at the small of my back. There is loud music blaring over the speakers.

"Nathan," a girl who is very pretty comes up and hugs him.

"Hi, how are you?" He asks.

"I'm great, I haven't seen you in a while, how's life?" She asks. I have to swallow the jealousy and remember I have guy friends at school.

"It's good, I know it has been too long. This is my girlfriend, Phoebe grey she is visiting from Vancouver," he says.

"Hi, nice to meet you. I am Samantha White. I am from Portland Oregon," that's funny, that's where Andrew is from.

"I have a friend from Portland Oregon, he went to Greensburg High School," I say. Her face lights up.

"No way that is where I went, what is his name," she asks.

"Andrew Thomas," I say. Her face turns white and she quickly makes an excuse to leave. That was weird I wonder why….. oh no.

"I wonder what that was about," Nathan says shrugging.

"Shit. She dating Andrew and cheated on him. I didn't know she went here. Why did Andrew never tell me," I sigh?

"She doesn't go here. She goes to Rhodes College but comes here to party. That's so funny," he says and I slap his arm. He would find that funny.

I stay with Nathan for the rest of the night. We turn in at around midnight so Nathan can get a good night's sleep. We walk back to his dorm and I get into my PJs putting my hair in a high pony. I don't even press for sex as I know Nathan needs sleep. We squeeze into his twin bed even though there is an open one right next to us. We spoon and end up falling asleep quickly in my love's arms.

I wake up to the sound of Nathan getting ready. I slowly sit up and he passes me a plate of peanut butter and banana toast. My favorite. "Thank you, love," I say and he smiles.

He is getting ready for his game. He has his warm-ups on. I look to see it is 10. I know he has to be there by 10:30. I can see it in his eyes he is nervous. I put down my plate and tell him to come to me. He sits down next to me on the bed and I stand between his legs.

"You are going to do great, you have worked so hard and I can't wait to see it pay off," I say.

"I needed to hear that, I love you so much," he says.

"I love you too," I say.

"Now go kick some ass," I kiss him goodbye as he heads to the stadium.

I finish my breakfast and get ready. I put on my Princeton shirt and ripped jeans. I put on a jacket and tie my shoes before heading out the door. I have one ticket close to the front. I get there soon before the game begins.

After the national anthem is played Nathan and his team run onto the court and the game begins. Nathan's team gets the ball and we're off to a good start.

As the game goes on, Princeton is destroying the school. It is so fun to watch my man in action. I cheer for him and take lots of pictures. I probably look like the psycho girlfriend.

Nathan scores a basket just as the buzzer goes off. They won! I am so proud of my man. The team runs off the court and I go wait by the locker room for my boy. After 45 minutes he emerges. He comes up to me and gives me a big kiss.

"Thank you for coming baby," He says.

"No place I'd rather be," I smile.

—-

I've been back at school for two weeks now. Nothing good has happened because I have been cramming for exams. They are no joke. I haven't drunk or gone out in two weeks.

I'm coming home for Christmas today. Unfortunately so is Teddy. We haven't spoken in 3 weeks, so this should be interesting. I am in the car on my way back home.

Nathan doesn't come home til tomorrow. I get to pick him up from the airport because his family left to go to Florida. He said he didn't want to go so they don't come back til Christmas Day. Meaning that Nathan was going to spend Christmas Eve alone at home. When I told my mom that she insisted her stay with us.

"We are here," Sawyer says and I look up to see my beautiful home. This is going to be my longest break yet. Lucky for me my boyfriend has the same length break. Even though it's only been two weeks I miss him.

I walk inside and see my dad and Teddy talking. Ugh. My mom is around the corner and she comes and gives me a huge hug. "My sweet girl," she says holding me tightly.

"Hi mom, I've missed you," I say and she smiles.

"I've missed you too, it'll be good to have another female around here," she says and winks at me.

"Bubs," My dad says and comes up behind her. I rush to him and he holds me in a bone-crushing hug.

"I've missed you," I say.

"I know, I have missed you too," he says holding me and rubbing my back.

We all walk in the kitchen. "Okay everyone sit. Gail made subs for dinner," My mom says. I sigh and sit next to my dad. Usually, I am next to Teddy, but there is no way that is happening. I get a plate put in front of me.

"switching it up today?" My dad asks about the seating. We always sit at the same seats at the table.

"I guess so," My mom says. Teddy and I stay silent. He stopped trying to call me a week after the incident happened. Some would say I am being dramatic but I am not. He never even apologized her just kept going let me explain or I really like her. It hurt the most that it was on sibs weekend.

"Phoebe, how were exams?" My dad asks.

"They were harder than high school that is for sure. I studied super hard though and I think I did well," I say and he smiles.

"We are so proud of you," my mom smiles.

"How is your sorority?" My mom asks. "When is moms day more importantly," she smiles.

"February and Dad's day is in March," I say looking to my dad. He smiles holds a thumbs up.

"I'll be there," he says.

"I'm excited to meet everyone," my mom says clapping her hands.

"You guys never told us about sibs weekend. Or sent us pictures like we asked," my mom says. I scuff and look to Teddy who has not looked up from his plate.

"Will you two get over what happened? Or explain it to us. We know you two are fighting and it is Christmas. You guys don't get to ruin that for us with your petty fighting," my dad scolds us lightly. If only he knew.

"It isn't petty fighting when you don't apologize for your wrongs," I say. Teddy looks up pissed.

"But it is petty when you ignore me for 3 weeks," Ted says.

"Because you never apologized," I fight back.

"Because you never gave me the chance to explain," he says.

"There is nothing to explain," I raise my voice.

"Woah timeout what the hell is going on?" My dad asks.

"Teddy slept with my big and I walked in on them," I say. Teddy's eyes bulge out of his head when I say that.

"Theodore," My mom says rubbing her temples.

"And Phoebe walked in without knocking and stormed out by herself," Teddy says.

"Because I saw you naked with my big," I yell.

"You don't get it, Phoebe. You weren't there and who gives a fuck if I slept with Caroline it's not like you guys were dating," he yells back.

"Theodore language," my dad says.

"Did you use protection?" My dad asks. I about gag on the spot. Is he kidding that's all he asks him?

"Of course we did and she is on the pill," that's it. I am done.

"Ted you were supposed to be there for Phoebe," my mom says. He rolls his eyes.

"I was there for Phoebe all night. I walked her home and made sure she was there safely. I never ditched Phoebe to be with Caroline," he says.

"That's bullshit and you know it. You two were at the bar flirting and drinking all night together, I hung out with Maisy and her sister and Andrew," I say.

"That is just not true," Ted raises his voice.

"I'm done with you lying. You know this entire situation is bullshit on your part and you haven't tried to apologize once. Screw you, Teddy," I say and shove my chair back walking out.

"Phoebe Grey get back in here now," My dad scolds.

"No we told you guys what happened and all you asked was if he used protection. You might as well have high fived him. I'm so done with everyone giving teddy a free pass because he's older and he's a boy. If I slept with one of Teddy's frat brothers it would have been world war 3 and you all know it. This is bullshit and I am done," I storm upstairs. I am so angry. I slam my door and sit on my bed.

Why is my family so infuriating. My mom looked so shocked she didn't even know what to do. Teddy hurt my feelings and he just doesn't get it. I don't understand how someone could be so obtuse.

I lay on my side facing my wall. I text Nathan. I know he won't respond for a while because he is busy at basketball practice sadly. I sigh and pick at my nails. After about half an hour I hear a knock. I don't answer whoever it is doesn't deserve my time.

"Bubs, it's Ted please let me in," screw him. I am not letting him in. After standing there for a while I hear him walk away.

Soon I hear my lock get opened up. Of course, I forgot Dad has a key to every room in this house. I see Ted and my dad standing there.

"Bubs, you can't not say anything when someone knocks. You are going to turn my hair grey," My dad says before walking off. Ted stands there with his arms crossed.

"I am here to apologize. What I did was wrong and I was too prideful to admit it at the moment. I shouldn't have slept with Caroline, after Delaney I was upset and lonely. She was such a great girl, and I took advantage of that. It will never happen again and I get it if you don't want to talk to me right now," he says.

"You are right what you did was wrong and very hurtful, it also hurt that you never apologized. I forgive you, I just wish we were never put in this situation," I say. He smiles and walks over sitting on my bed wrapping an arm around me.

"I never meant to hurt you, kiddo," he says.

"I know, thank you for apologizing," I say.

"Thank you for forgiving me," he says. After he gives me another hug and walks out. I hear a knock on my door soon after and my dad walks in.

"Bubs, can we talk?" He asks.

"Yeah, I guess," I say and scoot over so he can come sit with me. He comes and sits next to me on my bed.

"You know I hate it when you are mad at me right?" He asks. I shrug and he looks over at me.

"Phoebe Grace, you know I will always be in your corner. But I also will be in Ted's. I know the first thing you wanted me to do was yell at him. But I can't just do that. I had to make sure that he was being safe. We don't need him getting a girl across the country from him pregnant. What he did was wrong, and I told him that after you stormed off. So did your mom. But you have to understand, Bubs, I can't just yell at Ted without hearing his side of things," he explains. I guess he does make a fair point.

"Ted already accuses me of babying and favoriting you," He says and I smile trying to hide it.

"I see the smile, you will always be my baby, Phoebe Grace. I know I baby you and I always will. And for being the favorite I can't admit to that," he says making me laugh. I know he is kidding but it's still funny.

"I'm sorry I stormed off," I say and he smiles wrapping an arm around me.

"Some things never change, Bubs," he says and I smile.

"I love you," I say.

"I love you the most," he smiles. We sit there for a while. I rest my head on my dad's shoulder. Before I know it I am asleep. College has taught me one thing. Sleep when and wherever you can because you are not getting a lot of it.

—

Today is get Nathan day. It also is Christmas Eve tomorrow, so I am very excited. I ate dinner with my mom about an hour ago. We did a girls day and hung out together. "When do you pick Nathan up?" My mom asks.

"Eight, so I will leave in 15 minutes or so," I say drinking some water.

"Are you excited to see him?" She asks.

"Beyond excited. Even though it's only been two weeks, I have missed him a lot," I say and she nods.

"I understand that it's hard being away from the person you love," my mom says and I smile.

Before I head out, I say goodbye to my parents. I get in my car yawning. I am still somehow tired even though I slept so much. I drive to Seattle airport and park my car. I head inside to where his flight will get out.

As I am waiting people finally start to come out and then I see him. I get up and run towards him. He smiles and catches me in his arms hugging me. Oh, he smells so good.

"Hi," I smile.

"Hi baby," He says and kisses me. He is in his Princeton sweatshirt and black joggers.

"Let's get your luggage and get you to my house," I say taking his hand. We walk over to baggage claim and watch the belt as a bunch of suitcases pass by us.

"How was the flight?" I ask.

"Not too bad, I was next to a baby," he says.

"Aw speaking of babies, has Elise had her baby girl yet?" I ask him.

"Anytime this week," he says and I smile.

"You will have to keep me posted, I want to go see her with you," I say.

"I will baby," he says and I smile.

We get his luggage and we get in my car. He puts his hand on my thigh and it feels just like old times. I drive towards my house with Sawyer tailing me.

"I have missed you," I say.

"I have missed you so much, I can't wait to be inside of you," He says and I blush.

"Nathan," I laugh. He squeezes my thigh and I smirk.

"Are you tired?" I ask him.

"Not too bad, I just want to shower," he says and I nod. That's understandable.

"I get it, the guest room is all set up for you. You can use it as you please," I smile.

"Can you come shower with me?" He asks as we pull into my driveway.

"If you value your life and mine I'd say no," I smile. He sighs and gets out of the car.

"I will find a way to be inside of you one way or another," he says as I stand in front of the trunk to get his luggage. Goosebumps form on my arm and I shiver.

"I am all for that," I say and he kisses me.

We walk inside and my parents come to greet Nathan. My mom gives him a hug while my dad shakes his hand. "Are you hungry, Nathan?" my dad asks.

"I am okay, sir," he says and my dad nods.

"Well we are heading off to bed, Ted is staying at the grandparents for tonight, Phoebe," my dad says and I look confused.

"He and your grandpa are going on a hike tomorrow morning," my dad shrugs.

"Oh okay well I love you both," I say giving my dad then mom a hug.

"Love you too, sweetheart," my mom says.

Nathan and I head upstairs. I hear my parent's room door shut and I look to Nathan. He takes my hand and leads me to the guest room. We both strip I am giggling as he is kissing my neck.

We get into the shower together and waste no time getting to it. Nathan is inside of me before I can get any words out. He has his arms wrapped around me pinning me against the wall.

"Fuck," he says as he thrusts in me. I am holding onto him tightly as if he would let me fall. I smile at the thought. This boy wouldn't let me get a scratch.

"What are you smiling about?" He asks slowing down and looking at me.

"Just how amazing you are," I say and hold his face in my hands and kiss him deeply.

Nathan returns to thrusting inside of me. I am building as the shower jets hit us. I come undone and soon after he is with me. He puts me down and holds me to steady me.

"Good?" He asks and I nod.

"Yes, I am amazing," I say.

"I know you are," he says and I blush looking down. We finish our shower and Nathan lays with me in my bed until I fall asleep.

I wake up on Christmas Eve and head downstairs. I am going to spend the day watching Christmas movies with Nathan. My parents are cooking dinner together this year. More like my mom cooks and yells at my dad for picking at the food.

I walk down to Nathan's room and knock on his door. I peek my head in and see he is asleep. I smile and walk over to him. I sit on the bed and stroke his hair. He looks so perfect like this.

"Mmmm hi," he says in his hot morning voice.

"Good morning, I'll be in the basement getting our movie day ready. Be there or be square," I say and kiss him.

I head downstairs wearing my Christmas PJs, I bring a bunch of snacks that Gail laid out the night before. I put on the Grinch first and bring a bunch of comfy blankets.

"There she is," Nathan says as he comes downstairs. I pat the seat next to me and he snuggles in.

"Hi baby," he kisses my head and I rest my head on his chest.

Our movie day is perfect. I would do it a thousand times over. We snuggle, kiss, and watch lots of Christmas movies. Not to mention the snacks. At 4 we head upstairs to shower and get ready.

I wear my thigh high heeled boots, black turtleneck sweater dress, and fur vest. Mia put the outfit together for me. I curl my hair and put on my makeup and perfume. After putting on my jewelry, I head downstairs.

When I get down there I see Nathan already talking and bonding with my family. He is talking to my grandparents. He has them both laughing. I stand there and look at the scene in front of me. This could not get more perfect.