I've really gotten into Growing Pains in the last few weeks. In doing so, it had me thinking about Alan Thicke's death and what kind of guy he was in real life and on TV as Dr. Jason Seaver. They were honestly one in the same. Alan was an incredible human being and despite his flaws,so was Jason. He was an amazing husband to Maggie and father to Mike, Carol, Ben and Chrissy. I was surprised that there were really no stories pertaining to Alan's death so I decided to write this story. I hope I do the character of Jason Seaver justice as well as honoring Alan's memory. Rest In Peace, Alan.

The Last Letters of Jason R. Seaver

Chapter 1-Maggie's Letter

It's been two weeks since Jason's funeral and Maggie is just finally getting around to getting Jason's effects in order. These last few weeks have been the most difficult for her since her father died. She never imagined this day would come, especially this soon. She thought she would be the one to go first since she is older but unfortunately that's not the case. She has been trying her hardest to be strong for the kids because despite the fact that they are all grown, they still need her. Losing their father is a devastating blow to all of them. They all loved their father and he loved them deeply in return.

Jason is the only man she ever really loved and spent over 30 years of her life with.

She will never forget the day she got the news that Jason died. She was at home with Chrissy babysitting her grandchildren, three of Mike's kids and Carol's youngest child. Carol was at work. Jason, Mike, Ben, Carol's husband Scott and Carol's oldest child, Seaver all went to a basketball game at Madison Square Garden. Mike's three older kids were with their mom, Kate.

Maggie and Chrissy were playing a game with the kids trying to keep them entertained. Mike's kids are pretty rambunctious so they had to really keep up with them. Maggie couldn't do it without Chrissy's help. Carol's youngest is a pretty laid back child so they didn't have to do much to keep him entertained, he was happy doing whatever the other kids were doing.

As Chrissy went into the kitchen to fix the kids something to eat, the phone rang.

"I'll get it, Chrissy!" Maggie yelled.

Chrissy smiled as she started to make the food for everyone.

Maggie picks up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Is this Mrs. Maggie Seaver?"

"Yes it is. What can I do for you?"

"Is your husband Jason Seaver?"

"Yes he is. Why do you ask?"

"Mrs. Seaver, I'm afraid I have some bad news. Your husband suffered a heart attack and died on the way to the hospital. I'm so sorry."

Maggie stands there in stunned silence while still holding the phone in her hand.

"Mrs. Seaver?"

The sound of the man's voice on the other end of the line brings her back.

"Yes, I'm here."

"Your family is at The Mount Sinai Comprehensive Health Hospital if you would like to join them and take care of the necessary arrangements."

"Thank you, I'll be there as soon as I can." she manages to say before hanging up the phone.

The kids continue to laugh and play as Maggie sits down on the couch, still stunned from the news. She's in so much shock she doesn't even hear Chrissy come into the room with food for the kids.

"Okay, kids! Come sit at the table and eat your lunch!" she yells.

The kids jump up and run over to the table laughing and squealing. Only then does she notice her mom sitting on the couch staring straight ahead. Chrissy approaches her mom and sits down next to her.

"Mom?"

Maggie doesn't answer at first, so Chrissy tries once more to get her mother's attention.

"Mom?" she says as she squeezes her arm.

This seems to get Maggie's attention as she looks over at her daughter with a slightly confused look on her face.

Chrissy looks at her mom with deep concern on her face.

Suddenly Maggie gets a look of recognition on her face as she smiles at her daughter and puts her hand on her cheek.

"Chrissy, my baby. My little girl."

"Mom, I'm not a little girl anymore, I'm an adult now."

Maggie smiles with tears in her eyes.

"I know you're an adult but you will always be my baby, your daddy's baby."

"Mom, what's going on? Is this about the phone call you just got?"

Maggie is once again confused.

"Phone call?"

"Yes, mom. You just had a phone call. What was the phone call about?"

Maggie looks over at the phone and then back at Chrissy, then a light bulb goes on in her head and everything suddenly makes sense.

Maggie grabs her youngest daughter's hand.

"Christine, your daddy had a heart attack at the basketball game and died on his way to the hospital."

Chrissy just looks at her mom with an expression of shock and disbelief.

Now here Maggie is two weeks after Jason's death and it still doesn't seem real. It just doesn't seem fair. Why is it always the good ones that are taken too soon and way before their time?

These questions run through her head as she comes across an envelope in Jason's desk drawer. She picks it up and looks at the writing on the front. It's Jason's handwriting.

Letters To My Family In The Event Of My Death- Open Only After My Death

Maggie gasps.

"Oh, Jason." she says as she wipes the fresh tears from her cheeks.

She opens the envelope and takes out whats inside. There are five letters, one addressed to her and then one addressed to each of the kids.

She grabs the one addressed to her and opens it and begins to read it.

My Dearest Maggie,

If you are reading this then I have passed on. I am writing this letter to say all the things I never got to say to you face to face. I don't know if that makes me weak or a coward but I just didn't know how to tell you in person all the things that I needed to say. Maggie, you were the only woman I ever loved and the only woman I ever wanted to marry. I was always faithful to you and our marriage. I have no regrets when it comes to you and me and our four beautiful children. You made me the happiest man on the planet when you became my wife and when our children were born. I was never more proud and happy to be a father, I just hope I was the best father I could be to our children. I love our children so much Maggie, they are all a part of both of us and special in their own way.

They all have your beauty, your intelligence, your determination, your sensitivity, your stubbornness, your strength, your capacity to love and how headstrong you are. I know I didn't say it enough to you when I was alive but you are the best mom and were the best wife a man could have asked for. I was incredibly lucky to have had you in my life. You were my best friend, confidante, champion, lover and my biggest inspiration. I never could have had all I had without you in my life. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel you weren't important or that I didn't love you because I loved you with my entire heart and soul. I loved you, Maggie and I will still be loving you even beyond my death. My love for you is eternal and transcends time and space. We will be reunited again someday and I will be here waiting for you with open arms. Remember me fondly and with smiles and laughter, not with tears. Life's too short for tears and sadness. Be there for the children, Maggie and the grandchildren. Let them know just how much I loved them and miss them and can't wait to see them again someday.

Thank you for everything you had ever given me, Maggie and be content knowing that I died happy and doing something I loved. I had a wonderful life, and even if it was cut short, I did and had everything I ever wanted in life and that was sharing the laughter and love with you and the kids. Until we meet again, Maggie. Goodbye for now. I love you now and forever.

Your loving husband, Jason.

Maggie closes the letter as the tears run down her cheeks.

"I know you told me not to cry over your death, Jason but I just can't help it. I miss you so much and I loved you, too. It hurts so much that you're not here, I need you. I just don't think I can do this by myself. I'm a strong person by myself but I'm a stronger person with you. I never realized how much I really need, love and depend on you now that your not here. I'm going to do my best to stay strong for the kids, it will be hard but I will do it for you because I know how much our kids need me.

Maggie wipes the fresh tears that have fallen. She grabs a tissue off of Jason's desk as she wipes her eyes and cheeks and blows her nose. She has to face the kids to give them their letters and she doesn't want them to see that she's been crying.

"Please, Jason give me the strength to face the children." she says as she tosses her tissue in the trash and grabs the letters off the desk.

She leaves Jason's office and closes the door behind her as she goes to find the kids.

To be continued...