It was one of those nights where I fell asleep as soon as my bed hit the pillow. A feeling of exhaustion seemed to steep into my bones and stay there. The whole world had gone dark for what seemed like hours and that was fine by me.
The darkness was pierced by a pleasant sound. It was a sound I was not used to hearing: a baby's laugh. I woke up to find myself in a room of white. A stark contrast to the darkness I got used to. I got up and walked to the bassinet in the middle of the room and peered in to find the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. A head full of dark hair, brown eyes that glistened, and the baby was wearing a pink dress with a matching pink bow which made it crystal clear this was a girl. Who this baby was or who her mother was, I wasn't sure, but the connection I felt with her was strong. It was almost like I've met her before.
"Well, hello," I said as I tickled her belly. She laughed and stretched herself out.
"Oh, you're a sweet girl," I said as I put my hand on her hair and rubbed it. She kept smiling.
I felt safe enough to pick her up and hold her. I was as gentle as I could be as I put her close to my chest. She may have wanted to fuss a little but she calmed down as I could tell she heard my heart beat.
"Yeah, it's okay," I promised her as I kissed the top of her head.
I looked down and noticed a tiny bracelet on her wrist; kind of like the ones you would find at the hospital. I lifted her little hand to see if the bracelet could possibly tell me her name or anything and I gasped when I found out what it said: Janet's Baby. This was Janet's daughter! How did I not know? I look at her now and they look identical.
"Are you waiting for mommy?"
"She's waiting for you, too."
She gurgled again.
"Am I your daddy?"
She began to cry. Okay, what did that mean? I knew I had to go as much as I didn't want to. I began to cry with her as I kissed her and placed her back in her bassinet.
"I'll come back for you. I love your mom and I'll be here when you get here, I promise."
I woke up for real after that. The tears I cried in my dream had nothing on the tears I cried when I realized that the day before Chrissy and I seriously thought that Janet was planning on making a baby.
"Jack," Janet called for me as she knocked on the door. "Jack, it's morning. Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I just had a dream that's all," I said.
"Do you want me to come in?"
"No, I'm coming," I said as I wiped my eyes and made my way out of my bedroom.
She waited for me at the other end. She had a look of concern and all I could do was pull her into a hug. She gave my cheek a kiss and I kissed her cheek back.
"Good morning," she said to me.
"Good morning," I said back to her.
"Are you okay?"
What else could I say? That I knew she was loved more than she would ever know? She will find out in time. Right now, I will love her right now. I promised her daughter.