I Can't Unlove You
So this story has sort of been on my mind for a while. There's actually a lot of story ideas going on actually LOL but this one has stuck out more and more especially with the various of (sad) love songs. Also wanted to touch a little bit on some views against the Power Couple and why their connection is so important and what it truly means throughout this.
"You were in my way! I told you to stay out of my way!"
"That's not how we were suppose to handle that situation, Diana!"
"It was getting out of hand anyway, Kal! We needed to stop the threat as quickly as possible before more people got hurt and so I did!"
"You could've gotten hurt!"
"That didn't matter at that moment. It's a sacrifice I would've made!"
"You are being so stubborn!"
"Me?! You are the one being so stubborn and arrogant!"
"Ugh...how long will have they been arguing?" Shazam said slouching in his chair.
"For about 2 hours," Cyborg said.
"Are you serious?! Who's going to stop them? Why hasn't Bats said anything?"
"Do you seriously think any of us are going to get in the middle of those two arguing? Batman isn't saying anything because even he knows not to interfere."
"What the hell happened to those two? One minute they were like inseparable. All mushy and flirty, now it's like they can't stand each other?"
"Who knows? I mean they've had arguments before but not like this. They'll be back to normal soon enough."
"God, I hope so. I'll take the mushy stuff any day instead of this. And I don't even like that mushy stuff."
"I'm done with this! I have nothing else to say."
She stormed out of the conference room.
Kal hit his fist on the table and stormed out after her.
"And there they go... lovers' quarrel round 2."
Shazam sat up. "So we are done for the day right? I got video game tournaments to win."
Diana walked in and took out her sword.
"Welcome, Wonder Woman."
"Simulator on. Level 40."
Diana turned around and glared at him. "What do you think you are doing?!"
"I'm trying to talk to you!"
"I don't want to talk!"
She raised her eye brow. "Oh so now you want to talk? Tell me how to do my damn job?"
"Diana, that's not what I'm trying to do. I just didn't want you hurt. We were in a very bad predicament."
She sighed, placing her sword back in its sheath and folded her arms across her chest.
Kal sighed. "What happened to us, Di?"
"Why are you asking me?"
"I..." he moved closer to her but she stepped back. "I'm sorry."
She tried holding back her tears of anger but she couldn't.
"Please don't cry. I'm..." Kal shook his head. "It was for the best."
"Best for who?! This is how we are suppose to live out our days trying to please others? Comfort their insecurities? What about how we feel? How I feel? That doesn't matter?"
"Of course it matters!"
"But we have an obligation. We made our choice no matter how much it hurt. We couldn't have kept going on like that anyway."
As she was about to walk passed him, he grabbed her hand. Diana yanked away about to keep walking but he grabbed her hand again.
"No I'm not letting you walk a-"
Just before he could finish, she turned around and slapped him. He instantly let go of her hand. Diana gasped realizing what she had done.
Diana shook her head with more tears falling uncontrollably and ran out of the training room.
"It's okay," Kal whispered holding his head down. "I'm sorry. It's all my fault."
He felt as if his heart was being ripped right out of his chest. He then looked up with eyes blazing red.
"Simulator on. Level...140."
Superman and Wonder Woman were once close friends. Best friends actually then eventually lovers. They've known each other for almost 10 years and dated, in secret, for 2 years.
Of course what goes on in their personal lives is nobody else's damn business but it was difficult to keep the public out of Superman and Wonder Woman's business. They were like celebrities. Even with their secret identities as Clark Kent and Diana Prince, with Diana being an Ambassador, her public "celebrity" like status doubled.
As hard and fast as they were falling for each other, the more difficult and complicated their relationship was becoming to keep secret. It was just too risky.
While Diana wanted to be more open and free to celebrate their relationship, Kal wanted to be more reserved. It was understandable to a certain extent but Diana didn't believe in hiding nor pretending. She believed in unapologetically being herself and show her love no matter what anyone had to say.
But it would've still effected the League somehow and to a further extent, the entire world. Two beings seen, worshipped, judged and possibly hated daily as heroic celebrity Gods.
It was quite a complexed situation but did they give up too easily? That's been the question looming over them for the passed year and a half. They've been drowning in regret but had to fight to keep themselves distant. Keep themselves from falling further again which has resulted in this animosity between them.
This is a situation they just didn't know how to deal with and didn't know if they could ever get back to that place of being just friends knowing deep down that wasn't what they truly wanted and was just settling for. Feelings aren't like a light switch.
They were best friends who understood each other like no one else ever could. They filled this emptiness and loneliness they had felt for such a long time. Now to be so distant, that feeling of emptiness and loneliness was felt a thousand times more.
Diana Prince walked into the boutique.
"DIANA! You're here!"
She smiled. "Hello, Tiffany."
Tiffany Chambers, self made millionaire and Diana's friend of 4 years ran up to her, embracing her.
However when she pulled away she frowned staring at Diana.
"What's wrong, baby girl? That face is too pretty for such a sad expression."
"I'm sorry. I know we are suppose to be preparing for your event tonight."
"What is it? You can't make it?"
"No, I can and of course I will be there. I'm honored to be your special guest. I just..." she paused and sighed.
"Is it about a certain "Super" man?"
Diana looked at her and nodded slowly.
"Come on back to my office so we can talk."
Clark Kent walked out of the elevator straightening his tie and adjusting his glasses. He quickly went to his desk and sat down. Quite honestly, he didn't give a shit at the moment and wanted to be at home or hell, even fly to the moon. But he had another job to do.
"Really...really late, Smallville. What happened?"
"Hey, Lois," he said a bit dry.
She frowned when he didn't turn to look at her.
"What the hell? You have the nerve not to call for the passed 3 days and you walk in here and can't even look at me? Explain yourself now!"
"Lois, I really don't have time for this. I have enough on my mind."
"Are you serious?!"
He sighed and turned around. "I'm sorry."
Lois stepped closer and grabbed him by his tie. "Listen, Kent. We've been trying this dating thing for 3 months now. Prove me wrong you aren't the anti social doofus everyone thought you were."
Clark slightly frowned.
"You're cute. Keep it that way." Lois gave him a quick peck. "Now get to work. You need to pick me up on time for this event tonight for the exclusive."
Clark sat there silently and stunned. At that moment, he realized Lois actually thought she was doing him a favor. Dating out of pity? He admired Lois for her work, being strong minded and all but her attitude sometimes was unbearable. He didn't know exactly what he has gotten himself into.
When she walked away, he turned back to his desk and took his phone out his pocket. He scrolled through his contacts until he saw her contact name, "Beautiful".
He remembered how she would beam every time he would call her that. He remembered how it would make his day seeing her calling or a text message.
He wanted to call her so bad but knew they would just end up arguing again. He put down his phone and logged onto his laptop. He needed to get his mind off Diana but that was becoming more and more difficult.
Back with Diana and Tiffany
"You want a drink? It's never too early."
"No, I'm fine, thank you."
"Alright. Well, sit down and get to explaining everything."
"Ok...well...when we first met, it was this instant attraction. We both knew and felt it." Diana smiled. "He was such a flirt and a show off. Any other man, I wouldn't have given a second glance but it was something about him that peaked my interest. After getting to know each other, he asked me out to dinner. He was such a gentleman. I never had a date like that before." Diana smiled wider. "It's the simplest things he did for me that made me fall more more in love with him. These feels were so new to me...a bit to him, too and I trusted him."
"You still do?"
"I whole heartedly still do. Tiffany, no matter what Kal and I go through, he is the only man that has earned my trust."
"So the problem isn't him. It's the situation itself. That's where your anger lies."
"Yes. Because of all of this, I've lost my love and my best friend. That day..." Diana frowned and shook her head. "It was like we were put under a microscope."
"I know. I remember."
"The questions...it was so uncomfortable. It hurt us. Having my position as Ambassador, I'm even more so under a microscope. Kal doesn't like the spotlight. He is very reserved and he made me appreciate that from him."
"Have you told him that?"
"Every time we try to have a civilized conversation, we end up arguing over the most tedious of things."
"You argue because you want to psych yourself out being mad so you won't end up in each other's bed."
"What? You know it's true!"
Diana blushed and shook her head. "No, Tiffany. Kal and I can't do that especially with him dating something else now."
"It hasn't been long. 3 months. I guess it's going okay for them. I've tried dating."
"But they aren't him. I know. And one dinner out but not calling them back, Diana, isn't dating. So..who is she?"
Tiffany poured herself another drink. "I mean...look...Lois normally goes for the rich powerful men like Lex Luthor or Bruce Wayne. Clark is a change of pace. A very slow pace. You know what that means."
"No?" Diana frowned and titled her head confused.
"Clark is like a little puppy some chicks like to walk around with in their purse."
"No, that's not it. Can't be?"
"You've met her right?"
"Sort of. I know of her reputation and how she can sometimes be."
"So you know exactly what I'm talking about. Do you want that for him?"
"No, of course not but what am I to do? Kal is a grown man making his own decisions."
"Diana, you're Wonder Woman, dammit. You know what you want. Fight for it."
"Is he going to the event tonight?"
Tiffany smirked. "I have a few dresses for you to try on. Tonight you are going to slay and have Clark missing that gorgeous body of yours."
Clark Kent's apartment
Clark laid out his suit for the evening. He sat on the edge of his bed and opened his nightstand drawer. He picked up a wallet size picture of him and Diana.
She's so beautiful. Inside and out. He loved staring into her cerulean blue eyes. Her smile sent him soaring.
His thoughts were then interrupted by his cell phone ringing.
He looked over and sighed.
"Exclusive interviews start an hour earlier. I'm leaving early with Jimmy to get good pictures."
"Alright. I'll be there when I can, Lois."
"I'm just making sure."
"Pep up, Smallville. We are on the job but still have some fun. You do know how to have fun, right?"
"Then I expect you show me. Loosen up that tie of yours."
"I'm not wearing a tie."
"Good. All the better. Anyway, I'm almost ready, I'll be leaving in the next 20 minutes. See you at the Convention Center."
Hanging up, he tossed his phone to the other side of his bed.
Nodding to himself, he was set on his decision. Diana was going to be at the event. He needed to have a chance to talk to her.
7 pm: Metropolis Convention Center...
"I'm Vicki Vale. We are here live at Metropolis Convention Center for Ms. Tiffany Chambers' 3rd annual charity ball. All attendees will be donating a gracious amount of revenue which will all be dedicated toward educational improvements, recreational centers, and foster homes."
Clark Kent flew down quickly not to be seen and walked to the front gate.
He frowned and looked up. "Oh, Norman?"
"What's up, man?"
"Interviews. You work security here now?"
Norman Brookes has been a security guard for the Washington Embassy for about 15 years. He was one of the few that knew about Clark Kent and Diana Prince's relationship.
"Nah, just for the night. I'll be back at the Embassy. Where's your girl?"
"Oh...um...Diana and I..."
"Nah, bro, seriously?"
"Say, Listen. I'm only telling you this because you're a good dude. There's been a few dudes always trying to holler at Ms. Prince but she's not having it. We get like 5 calls to put some rando out. I'm just saying, work it out. These other fellas need to know Ms. Prince is serious and taken. I'm rooting for y'all, man."
Clark nodded. "Thanks for looking out."
"Let me see, Diana. This is the 12th dress."
"Well, Tif, all the others were way too revealing."
"That's the purpose, boo. But I see what you mean. Those are from the more private collection. We'll keep a few back for you and Clark's time alone."
"I'm speaking truth," she smirked.
Diana stepped out of the dressing room.
"Oh my damn! That's it! That's the one!"
It was an orange drape neck ruched slinky party dress that perfectly hugged her curves.
"The moment he sees that dress, he'll use that super speed of his to get it off."
Diana laughed. "You are being ridiculous."
"Oh, girl please. I know between the two of you, a few articles of clothing has been ripped to pieces."
Diana could only blush and start laughing again.
"Our next guest to arrive is Bruce Wayne with his fiancé Selina Kyle."
"Who would've thought, Wayne would settle down," Lois said. "Jimmy get that shot."
"Course, Ms. Lane."
Lois looked up at Clark, who seemed to be in a daze. She hit his shoulder.
"Wake the hell up, Clark."
"What's wrong with you?"
Clark sighed and paid attention to the other guests arriving.
All of a sudden his heart fluttered. That familiar sound pounding in his ears.
"And finally! The woman of the evening, Ms. Tiffany Chambers, has arrived!"
Tiffany slowly stepped out of her limousine wearing a red wine off shoulder bowknot ruched design slit dress.
"And she is accompanied by Ambassador Diana Prince."
Clark jaw dropped the moment he saw Diana. She was incredibly gorgeous. It was like everyone else disappeared and it was just her.
"Come on, Clark! We need this interview."
Clark and Jimmy followed Lois along with the crowd trying to get the chance to speak with Tiffany.
Tiffany smiled and waved as everyone clapped for her as she and Diana walked up on stage.
As Diana was looking out onto the crowd, she spotted Clark. They instantly locked eyes. She could feel her face heating with the look he was giving her. It wasn't a surprise at all. It was like he was mentally undressing her.
"Thank you! Thank you everyone!" She waited until the audience quieted. "Wow! This has all truly been dream come true. From working with my aunt in Atlanta in her salon, putting myself through school, and finally getting my big break with styling my first client, Madame Prince. I am truly grateful for you, being my biggest supporter and closest friend. You've helped opened so many doors for me. Thank you so much and I love you, my girl!"
Diana nodded and smiled. "I love you, too." She stepped closer to Tiffany embracing her.
"Ooh...I really don't want to get emotional, mess up my make up. But I'll touch it later. I still look good!" she joked making everyone laugh. "Tonight is about awareness and celebration. So enjoy yourselves!"
Tiffany was met with a roaring applause as she and Diana was walking off stage.
"Smallville, come on, we need to get a word from the mayor."
"It's your exclusive, Lois."
"You are going to interview someone else?"
"So what are you going to do?"
He looked back and saw Diana and Tiffany surrounded by guests.
"Nothing, never mind."
It must have have been some kind of unnatural force at work because every time Clark tried to make his way to Diana, it was prevented. However, every time they would lock eyes, they were trying so desperately to communicate.
"Thank you all for coming out tonight! I have been told we've reached over our goal in donations!"
As Tiffany was talking and Diana stood alone, Clark yet again tried to make his way to Diana but was again stopped.
"Jimmy got all the pics we need. We are going back to the office for a bit to pic the best ones and I need to get this report emailed to Perry."
"Ok? Let's go. Remember you and I are sharing this byline."
Clark glanced up again and saw Diana and Tiffany leaving through the back of the stage.
"Clark? Clark?" Lois called snapping her fingers in his face.
"You've been spaced out all night. Are you sick?"
"No. I said earlier I have a lot on my mind I have to figure out."
"Get yourself together, Smallville. I'm not your counselor."
Diana and Tiffany got into their limousine.
"Tif, I'm fine flying."
"Yeah... yeah... I know, my free spirit queen. I need to tell you the tea."
"The gossip!" She laughed.
"Clark was trying to get to you all night. You know I was watching. He couldn't take his eyes off you."
"I figured that when I did catch him staring."
"You slayed, boo! You're already a knock out but that dress is a banger. He hasn't moved on. He misses you just as much as you miss him and he still loves you."
"I never knew I would be in this kind of situation. I wasn't looking for-"
"No, but it found you."
"With our duties, it just can't be."
"Stop the limousine, please."
"Diana, would you just wait a minute."
"Tiffany, please, I just want to be alone. Thank you for the dress. I promise I won't mess it up."
Tiffany sighed and nodded, placing her hand on top of Diana's.
"Alright. I understand. Don't worry about the dress. I have more for you." She the buzzed the driver. "Stop at the next street corner."
When the driver stopped, Tiffany squeezed Diana's hand.
Diana smiled. "I'll be okay. I just need to think about everything."
"Call me if you need anything."
"Of course. Thank you."
Diana stepped out the limousine and sighed. She turned to Tiffany looking out from the window.
"I'll be fine," Diana reassured. "A nice quiet flight will do me justice."
"Okay...talk sometime tomorrow then?"
"I will call you."
Diana waved until she couldn't see the limousine anymore. She glanced around seeing she was completely alone and took to the night sky.
The moon was full. She remembered when she and Kal had their first kiss on a beautiful quiet night like this. After their patrol shift they would take to the sky together holding hands or chasing each other.
Tears were welling up in her eyes as more memories started flooding her mind.
She's tried to forget, tried to let go. However, their connection was unbreakable, their bond just too strong no matter how hard she tried to fight it.
Coming to man's world, her focus was solely on her mission. Her heart had other plans. Of course she was curious about the interactions and relations between a man and woman, she adored seeing families together, especially the children.
She couldn't deny, she had that quick thought before of having her own family. But she knew it was nothing more than a dream and her reality was fighting bad guys, stopping alien invasions, creating unity and peace around the world and at times even being mediator for her dysfunctional extended family of the Gods.
Landing on her balcony, she stood there for a moment.
She would lean against the rail and he would come up behind her wrapping his arms around her waist. They would just stare out over London together and he would whisper sweet nothings in her ear.
She walked inside her room and sighed getting undressed for a shower.
Jimmy yawned then spun slowly around in his chair.
Clark got up from his desk walking over to him. He put his hand on his shoulder.
"Go ahead and head home, Jim. We can pick up tomorrow."
"We aren't done sorting out the pictures."
"It's okay. Still time in the morning."
"Thanks, man. I honestly couldn't last another hour. How are you still wide awake?"
"Even as a kid, I didn't need much sleep."
"Whatever you're drinking, I want some."
Clark chuckled. "No drink, Jim. Just...biology."
Jimmy packed up his camera. "See you in the morning, CK. Hopefully I don't over sleep."
When Jimmy got on the elevator and the elevator doors closed, Clark walked over to Lois' desk.
"Jimmy went home."
"Fine. I'll do all this on my own. I was trying to be nice about a byline. But no, Smallville, get your own story."
"That's fine by me, Lois," Clark shrugged.
"Alright, Mister, we are completely alone now. No where to go, no interruptions. Now tell me what the hell is wrong with you?"
"It's not a big deal."
"It is a big deal with you acting like this. Sulking all damn day, barely saying anything. I don't know who you think I am, but I'm not dealing with high school antics."
"I told you, I have a lot on my mind. Things you wouldn't care for nor understand anyway."
"You damn right I don't care especially now with you walking around like something bit you in the ass. I asked you several times what's wrong and you aren't telling me. So yeah, figure it out your damn self. Maybe you need to go home now, too."
Clark sighed and shook his head walking away.
"You are seriously walking away from me? This is what you don't do. Now I see why you can't keep a date let alone a girlfriend."
Clark paused then shook his head again. "Good night, Lois."
She heard him as he packed up his bag and got onto the elevator. She couldn't believe he seriously was leaving her. Spinning around in her chair back to her computer, she started typing hard and fast.
"He'll be begging and pleading tomorrow. They always do," she said to herself.
Diana stepped out the shower wrapping her towel around her body.
Thinking back to so many amazing first experiences with him. The first man she was whole heartedly open and honest with. To be completely vulnerable and intimate with. The first man to break through that wall she built up earning her trust and proving how worthy he was.
It wasn't his fault but she didn't know if she could give her heart again.
She went over to her dresser and took out her favorite dark blue oversized t-shirt.
She sighed putting it on. Gods, it's been so long but, she could still feel his touch and smell his scent as if he was there at that moment.
Laying down, she grabbed her pillow and hugged it close.
Clark laid in his bed staring over at the empty side.
She was suppose to be right there. They would lay there talking about the most randomness of things, laughing together, pillow fights. To watch her sleep and to see her wake up brought him this immense joy.
Now for the passed year and a half, he stares up at his ceiling or the empty bed side, thinking over everything. Regret and hurt weighing down even more on him.
He got up, not able to just sit there any longer. His suit generated and he flew out of his apartment window without any hesitation.
Diana kept tossing and turning. With her eyes half lidded and not fully focused, she looked to her balcony door to see a familiar shadow. She frowned still trying to focus.
She sat up, rubbing her eyes, then looked to the doors again. The shadow was gone.
She laid back down. Maybe it was just her mind wishing it was him.
Clark flew a distance away using his X-ray vision to see her.
"Get some sleep, Di. Good night."
He then flew off higher to outer space.
Batman was in the middle of researching data for an investigation until he got an alert of a rotation disturbance near the moon. He narrowed his eyes and shook his head turning on his communicator.
"Clark, what the hell are you doing?"
"Shouldn't you be with your fiancé, Bruce?"
"I'm in the middle of an investigation."
"None of your damn business. Now I asked you a question. What the hell are you doing?"
"I needed a distraction."
"You can't go on like this. Stop and talk."
Clark stopped abruptly and took a deep breath.
"I miss you her, Bruce."
Bruce sighed. "I've already gathered that much."
"We...No, I thought it was the right thing. She thought I was ashamed of her...of our relationship. That wasn't it at all. I was only trying to protect her. I went about it all wrong."
"You know the risks, Clark. There will be-"
"Risks be damned. We will get through it together like we should've done in the first place."
"Then do what you have to."