From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:13 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I'm sorry for leaving with that message…

In summary, I got drunk. Yelled at my dad. Pissed him off. Got my phone and computer taken from me.

I'll only be able to talk during breaks in school…

I'm really sorry…

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 7:24 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

No, I'm okay.

I'm more worried about you…

Are you okay?

I don't really know your life and I don't mean to assume or offend, but…

He didn't hit you or anything, did he..?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:04 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I'm alright.

If my dad ever tried to hit me, my mom would divorce him so quick.

So that's not a concern.

Please don't worry about me though, I'm okay.

I just really fucked up this time…

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 10:12 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

It's okay, really.

Everyone makes mistakes.

As long as you learn from this and don't repeat the same mistake in the future, that's what matters.

Right?

So don't blame yourself.

It's not entirely your fault.

All you can do is keep going, keep trying.

You'll get there one day.

I know you will.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:18 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Yeah, you're right.

Thanks.

I'll do that.

Hey.

Do you have a favorite tree..?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 10:24 AM 8 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Oh. Yeah, kind of..?

The dracaena cinnabari. Dragon blood tree.

It looks really cool.

And it makes this red sap, so if you cut them down or just cut into it it looks like it's bleeding.

They're pretty cool.

That's kind of weird though, huh? Normal people don't have favorite trees...

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:03 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Fuck, don't worry about being normal.

We're both pretty far from being considered that.

No offense.

But that's pretty cool!

I guess I'm kinda basic.

I like a good oak tree.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 7:09 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Am I allowed to ask your favorite book, then..?

Or do you not have a favorite?

I know there are some people who can't chose.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:14 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I guess that's fair.

It's difficult to choose a favorite.

If I had to choose, though…

Probably, The Little Prince.

Have you ever read it?

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun

To: fuckificare

Sent: 11:13 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

No, I don't think I have…

I've heard it's surprisingly emotional, though...

What's it about?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 11:19 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Well, in short, it's the story of a pilot who crashed.

He meets the young prince, a young boy who comes from a tiny planet who tells the pilot stories of his own travels.

And-

I would tell you more, but you need to read it. I won't spoil it for you.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 11:23 AM 9 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

If it's so good, then I guess I have to read it then, huh?

I'll try to find a copy at the library.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:07 AM 10 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Yes. Do that. As soon as you can.

It will change your life.

That sounds stupidly cliche, I know.

But really, that book. Wow.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:12 AM 10 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I may or may not have gone ahead and put a hold on a copy at the closest library to my house.

So I guess I'll be reading it as soon as it comes in.

I'll let you know what I think.

If you're recommending it, though, I'm sure it's good.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:18 AM 10 May 2017

Dear, Birch

That's awesome! I'll look forward to your dissection of the underlying themes and messages to be found of every page. :)

(I'm mostly kidding. Just enjoy the story. It's mystical and whimsical and really fucking depressing)

I'm glad you trust my literary judgement, it warms the deepest, darkest cockle of my non existent heart.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:09 AM 10 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I'll do my best.

I'll let you know when I finish it so you can expect at least 5 pages of typed commentary from me explaining in depth why the color of the protagonist's hair is actually a deep metaphor for why the bombing on Hiroshima was entirely unjustified. (Because that's exactly what an English teacher would have us do, right?)

Not that it's really my business… But do you know when you'll be granted phone and computer rights again..? Don't feel like you have to answer, though.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:16 AM 10 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Alright, I'll hold you to that paper. It sounds just interesting enough that I might actually read it.

I'm not sure when I'll get my shit back.

Knowing my parents, it won't be for a while…

But who knows, my mom might guilt my dad into giving it back.

I hope so, because this is getting really annoying only being able to check my emails twice a day.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 5:23 PM 10 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Sorry I wasn't able to get back to you sooner…

Yeah, I hope you can get your stuff back soon, I can see where it would be really annoying to only check at school.

I kinda miss talking to you at weird hours of the day.

Sorry. That was weird, wasn't it?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:09 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, Birch

No, you're good.

Not weird at all. I'll let you know if you are though, so don't worry about it.

Fuck, I get it.

I guess I'm the same right now.

My life is already pretty boring, I don't really have many people I actually talk to.

There's, like, one person who actually acknowledges me at school in a non-douchebag way and I talk to a couple people online, but still.

I can't do anything ever so I'm just stuck reading and rereading and rereading and rereading the same books that I have because apparently I can't even go to the library anymore, or I can sketch.

I'm not really a great artist though and I really need some strong inspiration to get anything done, soooo… That's kind of off the table.

Sorry, I'm ranting at you again, but fuck. I'm bored.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 7:13 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

No, really. It's okay.

Please, rant at me as much as you want. I enjoy reading all the messages you send me.

That kinda sounds like I enjoy your misfortune…

I didn't mean it like that, I just mean that I'm glad at least someone feels like they can rely on me, even if it is kind of a lot of pressure.

It's better than feeling like I've been shoved into a corner and am useless, you know?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 7:17 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Not exactly the smartest thing you've said to me.

Now all I'm gonna do is rant.

Buckle up and straighten your suspenders. (Do you even wear suspenders? Probably not, that tends to be more of an old person thing, right? No offense if you do, I'm sure you make them work. Just. I'm pretty sure I've only ever seen older people actually use them..? At least to serve their actual function..?)

Now that I've went on that stupidly long tangent, I don't even know what I was going to rant about, so now I guess my rant was about suspenders.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:12 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

I definitely was not expecting to open a message from you to find an entire paragraph about suspenders.

To answer your question, no. I don't wear them.

I have seen a couple people wearing them, but they don't wear them over their shoulders, so they don't really serve their purpose.

As for the topic of your rants, I don't mind what you talk about, I'll find it interesting anyway. And I wouldn't mind even if you always went on tangential rants like this.

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:18 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, Birch

I will keep that in mind and I will inevitably end up rantin to you about a million tiny stupid things.

I don't wear suspenders either (I think I already said that in my last message, though), but I did find a pair that I almost bought one time. They were rainbow and sparkly. I 100/10 would have worn them with my shortest shorts and no shirts for Pride.

Except I have zero self esteem and I would never be caught dead in so little clothing.

Oh, and my dad is a raging homophobe who wouldn't let me go to anything even a little bit gay in a million years. He already throws enough of a fit that I paint my nails and keep my hair long.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 10:22 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Oh, did you end up not buying them because of your dad, or was it something else?

I mean, I don't really know because I don't know you, but I'm sure you don't have anything to be ashamed of.

And, I don't really think this topic has come up, but… Since this is where we are now, I'm bi..?

Sincerely, Me

From: fuckificare
To: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
Sent: 10:24 AM 11 May 2017

Dear, Birch

Hey!

Thanks for trusting me with that, even if you don't really sound too sure of it yourself (plot twist, you really don't have to know).

I'm gay.

Sincerely, Me

From: BirchYouWeren'tExpectingATreePun
To: fuckificare
Sent: 4:43 PM 11 May 2017

Dear, fuckificare

Thanks for listening.

And for letting me know.

I guess I'm not really sure myself..?

I just started really thinking about it this week and, I don't know…

Sincerely, Me